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I used to cry every night because I missed him so much, but now it only happens maybe twice a month! How do I get over him!?

I had that feeling all day at work that he'd just show up and want me back. Like he's going to call me. I don't get it.

My ex boyfriend and I had been together almost two years when we broke up. He had had fights before that have lead to him saying he wanted to dump me, but we always fixed things and moved on. The last fight we had when he broke up with me was the worst night of my life.

We were living together with a few of his buddies from work, and none of his friends liked me. We both worked at the same mall, so we got off at the same time that night, and then went home. Everything was fine until he decided he wanted to be a total ***hole, and he ended up screaming at me. He stomped out of our bed room and I thought he had left the house. Turns out he was downstairs, so I went to him and tried to make him feel better, all the while crying my eyes out.

Then he dropped the bomb. He told me he didn't want to be with me anymore, that he wanted to break up with me. I had heard this before, so I refused him as I always did, telling him he didn't really wanna break up with me because he loved me. He told me he did, so then we argued some more, and then I finally agreed with him. He was speechless.

He went upstairs, and I followed of course. He yelled that he wanted me to pack my shit and get out of his house. He then left the house, to go meet the other guys who had gone to 7-11 for smokes. I cried and cried in my bedroom until he came back with everyone else. Apparently he had told everyone we had broken up, and they decided it'd be funny to piss me off some more, so they turned the volume up on my tv in the living room to a point where everyone in the house could hear it. Me still being pissed off, confronted them and told them to turn it down, that I wasn't in the mood. Things escalated from there.

That night, when he came to bed, I was so ready to just push him out of the bed and make him sleep on the couch, but I figured we would get back together that night. So he slept in my bed.

The week that followed, I stayed at the house because my parents were in the Dominican until the following week, and I wasn't going to be in that house alone. So I stayed at the house, each night sleeping alone because he had started hanging out with a "friend" he had met at work. I cried myself to sleep every single night until I wanted to puke. I felt so alone in that house, no one came to see if I was ok, no one came to comfort me, I was completely alone and it was like no one cared.

After I moved out of the house I figured everything would work itself out in a month and we'd be back together. A little while later I found out he was dating that "friend" from work. I cried in my moms arms for a good hour, my heart completely broken again. It hurt so bad knowing he was with someone else.

Since then, we've hung out a few times, without his girlfriend because she hates me, and I hate her. We used to e-mail each other, talk on the phone until we were really tired, and he even once surprised me at work by just showing up.

Now all that has stopped, and he's ignoring me. He told me before he still loved me, that he wanted to give us another chance some day, but he didn't want to hurt his girlfriend by up and dumping her and then come back to me. I know it's probably for the best that we're no longer talking, but from going from seeing him every day, to not talking to him at all makes me wanna puke. I miss him so much, and I still hurt so bad after almost 5 months of being a part.

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him, wonder what he's doing, wonder if he misses me. It feels like only yesterday that we broke up.

How do I move past him?! One minute I'll be ok, and the next I'm crying like it was only yesterday! I used to cry every night because I missed him so much, but now it only happens maybe twice a month! How do I get over him!?

Help!!!