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Posted: 11/3/2009 9:48:59 PM | no longer
will i let he
(whomever
he be)
distract me
from being
too often
i was willing
to melt into him
losing myself
completely
sitting here
quietly
listening
to the barn owl
i know
everything
is the way
it's suppose
to be
finally~ | |
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Posted: 11/3/2009 11:46:18 PM | Hello, Rosie; been a long time since I've shared here. I'm evolving so quickly (spiritually), the universe is at my grasp- yet fear still hinders me; its like a uncanny balance. I could scream, scream, scream; my voice verbarates like a mist- a ether- a frequency that some pick-up (are tuned into)- yet phyical solace is always awry. OOOOoooo, life is a drama, Hahaha. Well....I was crooning to myself, and wanted to share 
Say, you trust me
Say, you love me
Say, you will never leave me
and if you say- all this: your my soul-mate.
Discerning Love- wishing for it to come; I'm
tired of waiting...what am I waiting for...what
fear(s) do I have- that need too be shed, so I can
manifest such a true romance in my head- for
harmony; OOOooo.
One more whim, my
whimsy love; my voice & angels (spiritual
growth); OOOooo, Love- be a divinity- a
counterpane for all the reality I see; Amen. | |
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Posted: 11/4/2009 6:11:47 AM | ahhh adam...thanks for your post..you know, i read your stuff all the time!..i love the ways words wander, leading me to interesting places!! thanks again sweets..
sometimes
i just want to
let things fall
where they may
without direction
simply
f
a
l
l
like pixie stix
but i don't want
to pick them up
one by one
i just want to
admire
the pile | |
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Posted: 11/4/2009 6:15:21 AM | garden
soup
leeks
carrots
tomatoes
drying herbs
thought it was sage
but lavender instead
what an interesting
flavor it makes!
ahhhh...garden soup
on a cold autumn night | |
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Posted: 11/4/2009 10:24:46 PM | i think of cummings
when i cum
does
my body
fit with
your body?
bend and twist
soft and hard
moist and dry
it is whitman
who says
i sing the body
electric
while i lie in
afterglow | |
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Posted: 11/5/2009 10:31:32 PM | November scenes
great white egret
across water
black cat
stalking prey
wings spread wide
action motion
airborne
glide
sun dips beyond hills
fall day ends peacefully
earth colors blend together
moonrise now our romance | |
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Joined: 10/9/2009
Msg: 1009 | |
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Posted: 11/6/2009 5:23:25 PM | she stole my keys
she stole my car
five dollars to my name, now i'm at the bar
2009 2009
i hope to find a girl with a nice behind
but thats not all, not all by far
where in the heck is my god dam car.
A girl with class a girl a girl so bright
I would like to find a girl to spend the rest of my NIGHT. | |
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Posted: 11/7/2009 3:10:49 PM | heavy rain
glistening
in sunlight
alder leaves
turning from gold
to copper
dance wildly
with the rain.
these words
copper color
fall, nodding &
dancing
in autumn tears.
the years sweep though
like these autumn showers
both are the size
of nearby islands
held in cups of sunlight.
on my cheeks
tears and rain
and already
the air
and my cheeks
are drying
and bright sunlight
is crowns
in the hair
of alders
and those of us
standing motionless
in all of circling life. | |
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Posted: 11/7/2009 6:25:06 PM | "...in all of circling life."....
in awe of circling life
fire colours deepening
soon will need sweeping
weeping trees
losing leaves
releasing autumn finery
~ ~ ~ ~
recently quite often
deer have come near
tasting early morning morsels
while today a fox trotted past...
I called to my son
take a look out his window
just as the fox stopped
to stalk perhaps a rabbit...
like a cat, she waited
stepping very slowly
and silently....
time stopped
when the tension rose
with the infinite pause,
she pounced playfully
at nothing
then continued her journey
trotting into the woods.....
my son called out
how cool that was to watch....
I smiled lovingly to myself
he enjoyed it as much as me | |
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Posted: 11/7/2009 8:32:47 PM | thank you lipo and we...
the changing seasons of life..
ian asked
his dad
'when is a man a man'
good questions
i thought
'when he can be honest...
with himself', he replied
good answer
love of family
swells | |
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Posted: 11/7/2009 10:14:35 PM | the barn owl is false comfort
noise cannot distract
from the aching feeling
creeping up into my throat
indeed, I'm in "the city"
and there are no owls
I have a refrigerator humming
a faint song fleeting
from a flat, blinking screen
with no soul to feel
this need I've created
that could never be real
So, I envy Rosie
so set in her decision
with the birds to keep her company
it's easy to forget about him
but when all you hear
is the passing of cars
the only elation
is found at the bar
and everyone in the world
is not anything like you are
it is frustrating beyond belief
to consider the pain of putting to ease
the feeling in my stomach
that I know should not exist
the feeling in my heart
that makes me crave one more sweet kiss..............................
man, I'm such a sap
mas tequila | |
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Posted: 11/8/2009 5:17:25 AM | ramblings for sarah...
comparing my insides
to others outsides
left me spinning out of control
looking at 'the stuff'
that made them happy
i really didn't know not
everything is the way that it seems
trying to fill the emptiness inside
i lost my sense of self love
no longer i had pride as i stumbled
thru life in search of a fix
something to make me feel whole
would slip and slide thru men again
and nearly lost my soul to the devil
my journey of pain brought me to this day
all my life experiences add up to me
never would i envy others and god
please don't envy me
my journey of pain i wish never
to land in someones lap
the pain is mine, a part of me
no longer i feel trapped in a life
because the secrets have been told
happiness, healthiness and beauty
are ours to hold if we choose
to follow our bliss be it a walk in the park
or live in misery and remain in the dark
the words i share is of a lady who is old
although mind and spirit are young
no longer will i live in the depths of despair
i rather live in fun and celebrate the moment
as it quickly passes before my life in over
when my bones will rest forever
in a field of clover or perhaps throw my ashes
out to sea, in the end it really doesn't matter
what happens to me...
too many words distract me
from what i have learned in life
in the end i hear my son say
mom live your bliss....
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Posted: 11/8/2009 8:06:50 AM | I'm not so set in my pity
that I cannot see
I'm not really feeling sorry for myself
I just want to be
with him
all the time
he stays
in my mind
and I can't forget
the taste of his kiss
and it's nothing special
on a physical level
and yet I crave it all the time
silly girls stuck in rhyme
unable to see past
go find a love that will last
I just want him | |
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Posted: 11/9/2009 6:39:45 AM | Is this health care thing
going to pass or
what?
I hate BIG government, like,
as much as the rest
but
He aint heavy he is my
brother for Pete's
sake! | |
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Posted: 11/9/2009 7:06:33 AM | morning frost
first sign of winter
chills morning air
sipping tea
snuggled in bed
the day is calling me
yet mornings like this begs
to be spent snuggled in bed
but i do what i must and leave
the warmth of my little cocoon
i step into the day yearning
to be back soon | |
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Posted: 11/10/2009 5:42:28 AM | It is not my inside
I am comparing to
it's the outward ego
that makes me come unglued
and I wonder
why I wonder
when it's painfully clear
that I'm in a slumber
blind to everything else
that I should be focused on
getting stuck knee deep in water
and stumbling over the rocks
drowned in love
obsession
required
to move
yet what in the ****
is a girl supposed to do? | |
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Posted: 11/10/2009 7:03:18 AM | (wonderful guided meditation last night....)
pure spirit
who i truly am
who we truly are
free from past/present
right speech
right actions
come from true being
cannot be known by thoughts
only direct experience
now
no longer stuck
in mind
in belief (system)
i am here
embracing, greeting, accepting
all feelings...quietly
what is standing
between me and happiness?
identifying with what i am not
resisting what i am
i am joy, bliss, happiness
we are joy, bliss, happiness
freedom | |
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Posted: 11/10/2009 5:47:25 PM | i wish i could go back
and make amends
for all my sins
of yesterday
but i can't
and in the end
it brought me here
to this point in time
where i remain grateful | |
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Posted: 11/10/2009 8:19:06 PM | i remain grateful, so grateful
let me remember lessons
knowledge of today
discount price i have paid
i pray for help & do work
to overcome a core of fear
that i do not repeat bad habits extremely well learned
finding freedom from bondage of self
we live ourselves into a new way of thinking
we don't think ourselves into a new way of living
i seek courage to change
& willingness to learn
spirtual progress
honesty with self
compassion
open mindedness
to amend is to change
completely different
basis of faith, trust
vision of spiritual health
given another chance
every day is a bonus
life of love & service
we share it to keep it | |
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Posted: 11/10/2009 8:34:47 PM | Just as 08 slipped into 09
my life shifted in every way imaginable
the carpet came out from under a few dreams
and though i was shaken
by all of it
i did the only thing i know to do
to wrap myself up like a caterpillar
find a safe place
( alabama was my tree)
let myself heal into the wings
i left it all so quickly it took a moment to adjust
where am i
i thought
why.
where did he go...
though i still think that thought sometimes...
i no longer need an answer
my wings are fine now
and a few months ago i started flying again
all around the country it seems
site seeing
riding trains
if you knew me you would know it is quite normal for me to be brave.
it is quite normal for me to travel the world.
it is quite normal for me to take on anything..any time..
but the end of 08 left me a little...unsteady
so i a m just thankful thankful thankful
to have my smile where it should be
to have my wings extended once again
ready for something and anything
maybe even love | |
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Posted: 11/11/2009 2:13:22 PM | where is my boat
sleek with teak
landlocked and lost
now as we speak
plying the waves
on a windward tack
nearing the point
where wind's at my back
where is my vessel
all rigged and ready
with me at the helm
out beyond the jetty
windworn and happy
and salty and free
one if by land
but won with the sea
where is my sloop
with her decks bedecked
with provisions and visions
of a life unchecked
by landlubber burdens
and rubberband knots
a life busted free
where I call the shots
I'm ready to rumble
I'm ready to float
to the sea I succumb but
where is my boat | |
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