| dust particles
Posted: 3/5/2005 9:16:25 PM | this journey is twisted and bumpy- easy street isn't even on the map- lessons learned in my travels, are they also being learned by others?- or do we travel completely and utterly alone in our own meager existance?-with our own map, and our own code of ethics?
I don't exactly want to believe that-I believe, or want to believe, that we are so much more closely related on this journey than we could ever imagine- and just a shame that we can't see it.
through space and time
no need for dime
for influence or affluence, for hate or crime
trapped within body,a suffocating soul
knowledge so limited,reducing control
discouragement bore down upon
the meek or the mild
crushed and disappointed
as a chastized child
where do these words come from?
at times I don't know
but they have purpose and meaning
for someone to grow
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| mistakes....
Posted: 3/6/2005 9:31:15 AM | mistakes-retakes-try and try again
the right tools to do the job
instructions for how to begin
is anything ever really mastered?
or improvement a constant process?
daily challenges to get there faster...
can lead to varied consequence.
miscommunication works both ways
from the given to the taken
a point made for all of us...
as results can come out shaken.
I'm sorry won't always cut it.
But never hurts to say.
I'm sorry needs to be said by me
So I say it here today.
I'm sorry. | |
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| complex reasoning
Posted: 3/6/2005 9:41:15 AM | clearly I bite under certain conditions
nature provides us defense mechanisms
to avoid a fire...or balance the wire
it's how I protect myself.
a certain amount of selfishness
may be needed to avoid getting walked on....
for me and for you,it's sad but it's true
when opening the door that is knocked on. | |
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| because love still shines in us all...
Posted: 3/6/2005 9:45:50 AM | explain away,but not the whole day
because life is smiling outside...go on and join in,it isn't a sin
cast those worries aside for today | |
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| just in case you're watching...
Posted: 3/6/2005 9:59:19 AM | our friendship wasn't always friendly
it was maybe a match made in hell
but times it seemed so (lol)"wondy"
do we have some stories to tell!
but the but's kept on butting in
and it became a hellacious ride
the twists and turns made bruises
and ill feelings rose up inside
not physical,no,no- only mental
but those ones take longer to heal
I have faith that in time, it will be just fine
neutrality again we will feel.
but the stuff you lent me,you need it back.
or quote me a price and I'll buy it.
either way,I'll call today...talking will hurt I must say
but I'm building the courage to try it. | |
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| just in case you're watching...
Posted: 3/6/2005 10:08:51 AM | not really about the "stuff"
not really about closure
not really about hope
but more about neutrality.
I'm sorry we lost out
I'm sorry about doubt
I'm sorry for the hurt and anger
but not sorry that I met you.
don't like admitting mistakes
don't like losing
don't like situations,that feel so confusing
but I did like you.
I'm going to call you.
I'm going to make peace from pieces.
I'm going to try anyway.
Then go on about my day.
nope, this is not easy.
matter of fact,it's quite queasy.
but a thing I must do.
between me and you. | |
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| toxic pisstocity
Posted: 3/6/2005 10:14:27 AM | toxic pisstocity-what an atrosity!
flames burning through-me into you
or you into me-at times we don't see
above and beyond...our own little pond
lessons are learned-meeting adjourned. | |
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| wooden bridges burn
Posted: 3/6/2005 10:47:15 AM | wood may be pretty
but fireproof is concrete
"wood" may be sexual
but we travel with our feet
wood has most beauty-left alone as a tree
wooden was the relationship
between you and me
the fires did rage,and swallowed us whole
that wooden bridge burned down
when we lost our control
traveling by footstep...
I see we move on. | |
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| wooden bridges burn
Posted: 3/6/2005 10:49:45 AM | Neo...some great writing ^^^you're spinning this morning. Thanks for sharing.  | |
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| a note from Bugsy...
Posted: 3/6/2005 11:11:25 AM | thank you Newlysingle!...now I just got this email- and I got permission to put it in here. It's great, thank you Bugsybears...
> >I asked God to take away my habit.
> >God said, No.
> >It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
> >
> >I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
> >God said, No.
> >His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary
> >
> >I asked God to grant me patience.
> >God said, No.
> >Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
> >it isn't granted, it is learned.
> >
> >I asked God to give me happiness.
> >God said, No.
> >I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.
> >
> >I asked God to spare me pain.
> >God said, No.
> >Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
> >and brings you closer to me.
> >
> >I asked God to make my spirit grow.
> >God said, No.
> >You must grow on your own! ,
> >but I will prune you to make you fruitful.
> >
> >I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
> >God said, No.
> >I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.
> >
> >I asked God to help me Love others, as much as He loves me.
> >God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.
> >
> >If you love God, send this to ten people and
> >back to the person that sent it.
> >
> >THIS DAY IS YOURS DON'T THROW IT AWAY
> >
> >May God Bless You,
> >
> >"To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just
> >might
>be
> >the world"
> >
> >"May the Lord Bless you and keep you,
> >May the Lord Make his face shine upon you,
> >and give you Peace.....Forever"
> >
> >"Good friends are like stars...You don't always see them,
> >but you know they are always there" | |
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| what we all could go for....maybe
Posted: 3/6/2005 12:00:41 PM | a trip to the zoo- well how do you do?
the circus in town- need to find me a clown
a running buddy- to stomp in the muddy
out for a drinkie- and get a lil stinky
maybe champaigne- won't go against the grain
how about the mall?- take piks against the wall
it's getting nice outside- for a walk or a bike ride
so many things to do- for me and for you
for you and for me- there's so much to see
alone or together- in any kind of weather
watch the sun rise- right before our eyes
you just never know- how close we could grow | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 12:22:28 PM | Dear God,
>
> I know you're watching over me
> And I'm feeling truly blest
> For no matter what I pray for
> You always know what's best!
>
>
> I have this circle of E-mail friends,
> Who mean the world to me;
> Some days I like to talk a lot,
> Some days I let them be;
>
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> I am so blessed to have these friends,
> With whom I've grown so close;
> So this poem I dedicate to them,
> Because they are the "Most"!
>
>
> When I see each name download,
> And view the message they've sent;
> I know they've thought of me that day,
> And "well wishes" was their intent.
>
>
> So to you my wonderful friends,
> I would like to say in part;
> Thank you for being my daily contacts,
> I mean this from my heart.
>
>
> God bless you all is my prayer today,
> I'm honored to call you "friend";
> I pray the Lord will keep you safe,
> Until we write again. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 1:35:58 PM | | your welcome neo and thank you for all your writings. you are the one who has inspired me to write. even though it has only been twice. keep up the good work. maybe you'll hear from me again. one never knows. lol | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 1:55:41 PM | | hey, pop in here anytime! it makes having a thread all the more special! | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 4:17:45 PM | | thanx neo, you always do have a way of making people feel welcome. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 5:16:45 PM | | Thank you sweets. I'm not half the woman in real life. This is a comfort zone for me, where I can be so much better than I really am. That's the humble honest truth.Anyone who really meets me knows the truth. My Ex, my Kids, my Mom, and Sisters....former lovers, you name it. I'm not downing myself, or fishing for pats on the back. Just a simple realization. And it's ok. Gives me things (more things) to work on. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 5:29:26 PM | make up-fake up...illusions gone awry.
portrayal of who I'd rather be...don't even ask me why
lost in space- I can't erase...the troubles that I've caused
the hurt from hence, my own arrogence...in this there should be a clause...
some type of warning to the buyer beware...
objects are not really all that they seem...
some may go "huh?"....and look and stare
as if witnessing some crazy dream
I have learned very young to fit in
into places I just don't belong
I have learned to adapt to many climates
I have learned to sing many a song
survival? or denial?
maybe I don't know anymore...
"but I never intended to hurt anyone"
are my words as I walk through the door.
I'm gonna drink up-gonna drink all the rest
I'm gonna go to work- I'm gonna do my best
I have 11 hours ahead of me...
not to worry, I'm not wasting too many...
but right now there's some pain, and a bit of disdain
that I'll numb with my drink good and plenty
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 5:37:09 PM | if you could only see the way-he loves me-then maybe you'd understand
why I feel this way about our love-and what I must do
if you could only see how blue his eyes can be when he says......
when he says he loves me.....
What a cool ass song. And how much guilt that throws in my lap, when I get so much love, from family and friends...and I let them down. I'm sorry guys...I really am. I Love You too though. And thank you for being there for me> I'm gonna try to do much better.
Hey, I know this so contradicts my usual ramblings....but in all essense right now, I'm raw, to the bone. I just don't feel like posting self improvement cards right now. I don't care if the world plays nice in the sand. Scratch each others eyes out. Beat each other. Kill. Maime. Rob. Rape. Violate. Stampede. Discriminate. Be filthy. Be foul. This is just my pain. I'm sorry, and I will be better tomorrow. Just not today. Just let me have today to cry as loud as I wanna. Selfish indulgence. Just hope I don't die tonight, I might be screwed for saying all this crap. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 6:02:59 PM | well just hang in there neo, cause you do have friends who care. i thought i would send a note your way so you would be aware. we all have things going on in our lives right now that make us feel so sick. sticking together and talking it through i'm sure will do the trick. by the way you have another post in one of your other threads that you need to read too. so all these things i'm telling you now i swear they all are true. so hang in there sweetie i know you have the strength. you've been this way before i'm sure only in a different length.
once again i must ask, why does it always seem to happen to people like i us. i guess i'll never understand. just remember i'm alone too even though i'm not. you know the story.
your friend,
bugsybear. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 6:09:59 PM | gracias mi amigo~
friendship is a vessel
friendship is a ship
friendship grabs your hand
just before you trip
not always grateful
not always kind
I'm learning to be better
and hitting the rewind
making mistakes
I keep seeming to do
but love conquers all
they say that its true
I'm keeping a faith
I'm keeping a prayer
I'm giving respect
to the ol soothe sayer~ | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 6:15:17 PM | | and taking a break from the monotony of my own selfish whinings....I'll keep a prayer out for you and yours. To grant you grace, peace,love,fulfillment....in ways you never dreamed possible. with God- all things are possible, and mysteries revealed. Just not when we want...but when it's appropriate. Or maybe we just aren't paying very close attention. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/6/2005 6:27:38 PM | | thanks once again neo for your soothing words and also your prayers will be greatly appreciated. i in turn will also pray for you. I believe God hears our prayers and he also knows our hearts. your right, in our daily lives we are so busy we never really see all the blessing s God has given us. i guess we should all look a little closer. well this is goodnight for the day. hope to see you again tomorrow and the next day and the next. i think you know where i'm going with this. take care and god bless. | |
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| just a thought...
Posted: 3/7/2005 12:55:15 PM |  Hello world....wow am I tired! there will be no more of that on a night before work! | |
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| I asked God......
Posted: 3/7/2005 1:16:25 PM | I just wanted to reply to this.
I saw it in an Ann Landers article.
I loved it so much that I read it at my Mothers funeral in August.
It holds so much meaning that I cuold not even begin to describe.
Thanks fo reminding me that all I have to do is ask. | |
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