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| selfish motivation
Posted: 10/23/2004 2:20:12 AM | you are my selfish motivation
the one thing that pertains to me and no one else
it's not for the family...which is the pinnacle of my existance
it's not for friends...I admit to my greed
selfish indulgence
selfish desires
you make me alive, in a way I've been missing
a dream to hold
a fantasy to play with
you will occupy my mind
and when I finally wake up
I will stand refreshed
And I will become the better person
That I see in you. | |
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| 4 everything I give Thanks
Posted: 10/23/2004 2:34:02 AM | Dear Lord
Thank you 2day
4 my joy and my pain
4 the love along the way
So many trails
winding and straight
so many choices
to love and to hate
always your student
not ready to teach
I'm still learning lessons
not my place to preach
just let us pass a flashlight
sometimes it gets dark down here
please keep the wipers working
visibility clear | |
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| I remember....
Posted: 10/23/2004 3:18:32 AM | giving our cat a ride in Mom's new suitcase-sorry for the torn up lining(and scared kitty)
swinging on the swing when the lawnmower was broken-how fun to swing through that!
being scared of the reflection of light on bathwater-4 some reason, I thought it was electricity(guess it reminded me of lightening-go figure)
watching Batman and Robin in my highchair and eating spinach
my 1st crush "Jimmy", until I watched him push girls out of line at school
"Jeff" who we used to blindfold in the back woods and have him guess who kissed him or
hanging out in his weeping willow tree(which is a tree I loved ever since)
bad a** Bobby,cute - and always gettin in trouble
class clown Wayne-for years and years, secretly crushed on that one!
why did he approach me AFTER I started my family? cuz life iz just like that!
marriage lasted 16 years-why was 4evr too far away? bcuz life iz like that too.
Dad's funeral...buried on my birthday...felt like a hostess at the wake...like a robot
Angry at family "issues"...the only solace was stamping a big heart in the snow, with I LOVE YOU DAD in it...and the birds swarming. The dream of him holding my hand. Another dream, not so long ago, of him gently smiling at me. His words "it's not a failure, as long as you try" way back in the day...when we were kids at a birthday party, and I was frustrated because I couldn't make the basket.
Millions of memories-flashing randomly
what's the purpose of remembering?
To acknowledge our own existance?
To redeem ourselves of our shortcomings?
To be thankful, and happy?
I think ....maybe all of the above | |
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| bla bla bla
Posted: 10/23/2004 3:27:48 AM | look at the time...y am I not tired?
all this useless energy
has me totally wired!
Ever think how much of a weirdo you'd be if you went around talking like this to people on a regular?(lol) I'm clocking out...it's a touch past my bedtime I think!!!!!! | |
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| Thank you again...
Posted: 10/23/2004 1:54:52 PM | Thank you again...
for favors great and small
for knowing what's good for me, not always what I want
for gracing my life with healthy children
for letting me be married to a really good man for 16 years
we both had our faults
for keeping me together,when I was ready to fall
so many times, at that
thank you for small treasures
consideration from strangers
letting me feel love
even if it's not in a traditional sense
sending me inspiration
from amazing sources
I am overwhelmed
Thank you again...
Amen | |
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| thats why!
Posted: 10/23/2004 1:58:54 PM | because if you value it-you take care of it
if you 4get about it-you take it 4 granted
abuse it-you lose it | |
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| simple pleasures
Posted: 10/24/2004 2:23:28 AM | simple pleasures
heartfelt treasures
I feel no weeping
as the world is sleeping
peace has come over me
I have gained the ability
to close my eyes
focus on tomorrows prize
you have rebuilt
what I managed to tear apart
I am 4ever grateful
so here is a piece of my heart
Thank you A++ (you know who you are) | |
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| magnitude
Posted: 10/24/2004 6:37:56 PM | feeling small...inadequate
reason being
the best of you is yet
like a seed unsprung
a song unsung
there is oh so much within | |
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| transformation
Posted: 10/24/2004 6:53:25 PM | birth - death
how many lives will we live
start - finish
how much will we take and give
first - last
falling somewhere in between
caterpillar - butterfly
metamorphosis seen | |
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| indebted
Posted: 10/25/2004 11:39:13 AM | heavy heart lifted
my sight's been shifted
out of the dark
you made a spark
thank you -over and over again
for pointing a direction
and being a friend | |
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| hmmmmm....
Posted: 10/25/2004 11:30:47 PM | | it got too quiet in here. hello? where is the rest of the world? ya'll left me 4ever I see. ok...that's sweet. stop crying, talk spiritual, and get happy...see what happens...they abandon your ass. Well, with or without commentary, I still like it here. | |
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| from me 2 u
Posted: 10/27/2004 12:44:28 AM | tableclothes
covered dishes
plastics forks
heartfelt wishes
timeless wonder
fills me whole
2 touch your skin
search your soul
I breathe you
conceive you
believe you
never 2 deceive you
I am here 4 u today and always | |
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| only skin deep
Posted: 10/27/2004 10:28:56 AM | | maybe the title is all thats needed for this one | |
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| o motown
Posted: 10/27/2004 10:16:56 PM | | not a poem, just a comment to anyone who loves the warm comfort of soulful music... Michael McDonald -Motown has some sexy, relaxing, and romantic renditions. Listening to it now, it is beautiful~ I heard it throught the grapevine is song #1. I love the whole thing. I figure those of you that love poetry, would also love music. I wish there was a way for us to share songs in our email-easily, without taking eeeons to download. There probably is, but I don't know it. Well, to anyone out there, have a great night! | |
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| STARTED FROM MERE DUST
Posted: 10/27/2004 10:47:44 PM | A SPEC , A MERE SPEC THAT I AM
FROM DUST TO DUST
BINDING WITH ORGANISMS
THIS LIFE THAT I LUST
LONELY A DAY WITHOUT MY GIRL
WHY WHEN YOU ARE GONE
I AM LOST IN THE WORLD
NO WHERE TO TURN
CREMATED I FEEL AS MY HEART FOR YOU BURNS
ITS ONLY BEEN 7 DAYS
ALREADY IM WASTING AWAY
IM THE LONELY BOY IN KINDERGARTEN
WITH NOT MUCH TO SAY
EVERYTHING IS MUCH BIGGER
WHEN IT IS PUT TO ME THIS WAY
SO I CAN ONLY HOPE YOU WILL RETURN TO ME
SOMEDAY............
AS I SPIN IN A CYCLE
I CAN ONLY HOPE AS
HEARTS AND THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD
ITS GETTING HARDER TO COPE
I WISH YOU COULD WHISPER IN MY EAR
YOU ALWAYS TELL ME WHAT I NEED TO HEAR
THIS PART OF ME RELEASED I NEVER FEAR
IT HEALS ME FOR YOU TO SEE
THANKS FOR BEING A PIECE OF MY SELFISH HISTORY
NEVER TO BE SOLD OR TOLD OUT A LOUD
ONLY MY GIRL WILL UNDERSTAND
I LOVE HER SO MUCH I JUST WANT TO HOLD HER HAND
MISS YOU BABE
KISSES AND HUGS FROM A FAR | |
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| STARTED FROM MERE DUST 2
Posted: 10/27/2004 10:52:07 PM | HI PPLZ
LOVE EVERYONES WORK
IM NEW TO THIS
IM ALSO NEW TO WRITING WHICH IS VERY EVIDENT FOR YOU TO SEE
ANY COMMENTS WOULD BE NICE :)
KEEP WRITING PPLZ
HOPE TO HEAR FROM ANYONE !! | |
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| STARTED FROM MERE DUST 2
Posted: 10/29/2004 12:34:47 AM | | hey danny...thank you 4 keeping me company, I suppose I am not the flavor of the week, so I have felt isolated. I am glad 4 your company, and appreciate your work. Great job, and visit here often and much. I don't have to be lonely as long as I'm not alone...selfish as I may be, I am honest. | |
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| trevor - I adore you
Posted: 10/29/2004 12:47:12 AM | i was startled to see the props you gave me in your diary
your personal column, in our crazy ...or not so crazy life
It made me smile from ear to ear
It reinforced my "O.K." to like you
and this is not poetic,
but thank you, 4 allowing me to care
in this crazy fashion, and yet not call me crazy
nothing more than spirit to spirit
awareness, and always know
that I appreciate you
and want nothing less than the best
for you-you are
my friend
I adore you | |
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| dear God
Posted: 10/29/2004 1:29:59 AM | i just want to love
like it's my last day left
i just want to live
in a way you would accept
i just want to build
strong family and friends
i just want to love
in a way the never ends
amen | |
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| just in case
Posted: 10/29/2004 1:38:05 AM | if they never knew
how much they meant to me
if they never knew
how proud I was to be
their family, their friend
so thankful to the end
I love them now, forvever
intentionally hurt,not ever
could you make them know in dream
i held them highest in esteem
thank you Lord-amen | |
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| i am.......
Posted: 10/30/2004 12:56:16 AM | i am a sorry ass
i am
nothing
i am never important
i hurt
i am intoxicated
i am loveless
no thats a lie
my family loves me
i love them 2
i am lonely
i cant breathe anymore
without looking like some
***hole
i just want to die
and leave something good behind
i already have
`my beautiful family
'my beautiful friends
i'll never be at rest
until I'm at rest. | |
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| bad day
Posted: 10/31/2004 7:15:14 PM | its ok 2 have a bad day,every now and then...rain will fall,just remember,the sun will shine again
circumstances weigh you, people will play you...you may even want to turn out the light
but hold on strong, you still belong, and in time -it'll be alright! | |
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| hold the torch
Posted: 10/31/2004 7:41:52 PM | hold the torch-keep the light
try to keep the goal in sight
learn the value of promoting within
as each old day passes,let a new one begin
if you trip,over your own discontent
bloody knees, just get up-begin again your ascent
at times we all falter in this vast wilderness
but this life is a journey, sometimes it's a test
encouragement,discouragement,regurgitate bad things you ate
sometimes it's good-sometimes it's not, as you try to finish what's on your plate
don't ever fall into illusions of grandure
you may lose that- which you thought -for all time-was so secure
but through it all, keep your head high
love your neighbor, and yourself
live your life, learn 2 be happy
catch some wisdom, then get off the shelf | |
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