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Posted: 9/4/2005 10:29:54 PM | With 160 hours to go, I can't sleep at all.
I read and re-read the thread.
I lived over every day of these past two months.
I need to say it now... My heart is overfilled with gratitude to you all, who have helped me so much. We may never be able to meet in person, but my heart is there for you. Anytime.
Thank you and God Bless you!
special thanks... Canadian_Hottie_30
geekgoddess
special thanks... musicmanpvb
whosyourbadkitty
TGIF
special thanks... ourbrowneyedgirl?
pool_anyone
Wet Slipperytires
moogie0326
Walts
pandy
luvinlittleyellowjacket
electronmover
EA
kloopy
theone48060
undercover blonde
Webbum
special thanks... Sparklepants
chele74
Dream_walker223
thelostsheep
special thanks... secondbestdad
blueice79
rainstorm
0tto
Chickenn
emma24
160 hours to go.
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Posted: 9/7/2005 12:17:08 PM | feline:
I am so awaiting the moment I come on here to find that you have announced.....
"She has made it home!!!" Of course I know it won't be the first thing you do when you get her home, although I bet it will be something that all of us here will be happy to see.
Happy counting.....approx. 72 hours to go.
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Posted: 9/7/2005 10:10:26 PM | >>>> yourbrowneyedgirl?
Just off the phone.
Two hours...
Some would say - just a couple of days left, what is there to talk about over the phone for two hours???
Well, mostly it was my Mom. Last-minute arrangements on what to bring back, on what to put in her handbag... We are both in the same boat with her right now - neither of us can sleep, both of us worry for the safety of upcoming journey. My Mom is sad, I am happy.
My daughter said it simple "I can't wait till I get home".
I can't wait either.
Friday night will be just as sleepless for me as that first Friday, two months ago.
It is so close - just two nights left.
But seems like it's longer than past two months...
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Posted: 9/9/2005 11:16:32 AM | Feline -
I'm with you on the countdown! It's been an interesting thread...all the highs and lows, the raw emotion you've conveyed to us...I've found myself wondering about how you're doing now and then, and keeping track of the days by checking on your thread.
You have articulated the good, the bad, and the ugly so well that I've learned that I could not, and will not live through sending my child so far away for such an extended period of time. You've managed to struggle through it and the homecoming is almost here!
Please, please come post and let us know how it feels to have her home again. Obviously you'll both be so relieved and glad to be reunited, but you have such a great way of expressing your thoughts and emotions that I can't wait to hear about the reunion.
P.S. - You know, it really would be fun to run with your daughter's idea of us coming over to your house! Impossible, I know, but kids come up with the greatest, simplest ideas, don't they?
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Posted: 9/9/2005 5:38:19 PM | IN 15 MINUTES THEY WILL BE LEAVING MY MOM'S HOUSE HEADING TO THE AIRPORT.
Just got off the phone - last minute check.
Now it will be at least 4 hours untill my Mom will phone, letting me know that my baby is on the way.
The homecoming journey begins...
I wish this rain will stop by tomorrow's afternoon, so there will be no turbulence at landing.
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Posted: 9/9/2005 5:50:03 PM | >>>>> sparklepants
My dear Sparkle!!!
In that message where I thanked everyone who supported me, I gave my special thanks to you.
I feel as I've known you for ages.
Right now I am literraly lost for words to express my tremendous appreciation for you being there for me all the way, up to these final hours.
Thank you for beautiful words you used to describe my sincere conveyance of what my heart (mother's heart) and my soul went through.
Since that very first night, when I was typing my first message, choking myself with tears, feeling so lonely and so scared, up to this very moment, every message I ever posted in this thread came straight from my heart. The heart felt and the fingers typed...
I reread this thread over and over again... I relive every day. I refeel every emotion.
I am so glad that what I said here would help you and may be somebody else in a way of what other parents' experience may teach us.
I am sorry - I probably don't really make a lot of sense now... But I feel so excited...
Thank you, Sparkle! Just thank you, Sis!
21:12 to go.
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Posted: 9/9/2005 6:03:36 PM | Feline,
This was the first thread I ever posted on.
This was the first thread that made me realize, that there is a real community here, where some people actually do care about one another, and what each is going through.
Whenever I come back to this thread, in a way, it's almost like coming home.
So much has changed for all of us in the time since your daughter left.
Even here on this site, since then - names that were just 'names' have become friends, and I cherish each one.
I am so glad for you and your daughter, and the warm and happy re-union you are about to have.
You will both be in my thoughts always,
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Posted: 9/9/2005 7:11:26 PM | >>>>> musicmanpvb
I am so glad you came here tonight!
I am sitting here (heck, that's exxageration - I am not sitting - I am all over the house, can't find a spot to settle down).
In 51 minutes her plane will take off.
I can imagine my Mom now...
All the pain caused by neverending misunderstanding and countless arguments, by bad childhood memories - it all disappears at times like this...
All I can feel right now - my Mom's sadness.
All I can hear - her probably crying and whispering my daughter's name as she is being taken by flight attendant and goes through the gate right now...
Oh, no... she is probably on the plane already - they seat unaccompanied minors first.
I can see my Mom's blue eyes that resemble lake more than ever now...
Her wrinkles are like a path of the creek - guidind the tears down.
But she is not even noticing that.
Oh, Mom!
Right now... as I am crying again and I can't really see what I am typing here... Right now I feel the pain of being apart again.
This is life. This is what you get when it takes almost 24 hours to go there where everything is your past. This is what you get when your children grow up and choose the life they choose.
For some reason I feel very guilty now. I know what kind of tremendous pain I cause her.
As the amount of hours separating me from my own child shrink, my forgiveness and my daughter's commitment grows.
Next year I will be smarter than this time. I will put all of my efforts into vivsiting my parents TOGETHER. Or I wish they finally gave in and came and visited us. My Mom is scared of planes.
I wish her to hold on and keep her good health. I don't like feeling guilty for choosing the life I have.
In a week everything will probably go back to normal.
We will slowly adjust to our regular routine.
And I will probably have new arguments with my Mom over the phone. Because she knows better, even being thousand miles away.
But now... Nothing but feeling my Mom's heart.
44 minutes before the plane takes off.
I know - she is standing on the outside ramp of the airport, just like me that day... She is fearing the sight of the plane "dissolving in hot sky".
And my girl... My baby is coming home.
Hold on, Mom! I know how it's like. I am sorry. But you are very strong. I know that for a fact, because I am JUST LIKE YOU.
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Posted: 9/9/2005 8:29:04 PM | The plane took off right on time.
I am tracking it through their website.
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Posted: 9/9/2005 9:46:05 PM | Mien lieben freund!!!!!
Thank you for visiting me tonight!
Thank you for being with me this sleepless night!
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Posted: 9/9/2005 10:05:27 PM | Feline,
I've been keeping a mental note of the remaining hours this week myself - I would not have missed this. Hopefully you will get some rest before tomorrow! When next I am able to check in, you should be down to about 6 hours or so...
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Posted: 9/9/2005 10:11:26 PM | Feline:
wow - the time is almost near. I am sooo excited for you. (almost can't sleep myself - hee hee) I do agree with musicman - you need to try and rest up so that when your girl gets home you and she can spend countless hours catching up. (sounds like a fun time) Hang in there and please let us all know when she is home safe and sound. I will definitely make time tomorrow to check this thread for the good news.
Oh yeah - give her an extra squeaze or two or he!! as many squeazes as ya want to from all of us here at the thread.
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Posted: 9/10/2005 12:17:44 AM | Just spoke to her. Phoned the airport's unaccompanied minors's waiting lounge.
"Mom, I can't wait to get back to Calgary." And started crying...
I say - "what's the matter, honey? You are on the way home, sweety!"
"I miiiseed you so much"...
I will remember the way she said it forever. Not even said it, cried it out.
With only few hours left of being apart, the eternity began.
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| I am off to the airport!!!
Posted: 9/10/2005 1:26:25 PM | I AM OFF TO THE AIPORT!!!!!!!!
Flight is 6 minutes late.
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Posted: 9/11/2005 9:46:20 AM | WE ARE HOME!!!!!!!!!
When the customs door slid open, she ran to me, her airline escort left far behind.
She jumped on me, I could barely stand on my feet! She grew and gained some weight, so we almost fell! Some man's voice behind my back "Geez" and than other lady - "that's her Mom".
She clinged to me so hard, and I couldn't hold tears - I was so happy...
We stood there together for eternity...
My hand was shaking so bad, I couldn't sign the papers.
Than we just stood there again - without saying a word. Just hugging each other.
Of course we couldn't find our car. In the excitement of her arrival I totally forgot to remember what stall, or what floor I parked it. So we spend 20 minutes looking for it, but we stopped every minute or so to share a hug and a kiss.
At home we finally started talking. I had a million questions, she had a million stories to tell.
We phoned Granma to say everything was OK.
First thing my daughter said to her: "My room is fit for princess!"
When she went downstairs, she asked me "Mom, is it me taller, or did you chnge the stairs?" She is almost my height now. Her foot is my size!!!
By 8 o'clock we both were so exshausted, we went to bed.
She wanted to stay with me, and I didn't mind of course.
The cat came and there we were - our little family - back together.
Life is getting back to normal.
She is finishing her breakfast now and than we will go for a walk... and talk talk talk.
THANK YOU ONE MORE TIME ALL OF YOU WHO HELPED TO SURVIVE THOSE TERRIBLE 10 WEEKS.
I am not going to finish this thread just yet... I feel like there is more I can share. After all, the question in regards of was it the right thing to do is not yet completely answered.
But right now I want simply to spend time with my baby.
THANK YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR CHILDREN! | |
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Posted: 9/11/2005 5:01:10 PM | | I love a happy ending!!! As I read your post...I teared up and smiling ear to ear! I'm so happy for you both. This was truly an experience not many have...but such a wonderful learning experience. I feel so happy for you both. Take care. | |
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Posted: 9/23/2005 9:54:37 AM | OK, two weeks into homecoming, and I am still working hard on getting her back into the usual routine.
I realize now that I will never ever let her go back for more than a month at the most.
It's me who is to raise her and deal with all issues in regards of her upbringing.
So, to avoid the frustration that I have to go through now by trying to get her into doing regular chores and being more serious about school and all that stuff, I will be listening more to myself, then to my Mom's wishes to see her grandaughter.
Might sound a bit nasty, but, honestly, this is a totally different child now.
But nevertheless, I am very happy that she is back with me.
Hard work, that's all - but isn't that what parenting is all bout.
Anyways, all good but hard.
LOL.
Cheers to all,
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Posted: 9/23/2005 11:42:55 AM | I'm late....I'm too new and your whole thread made me cry
<~~~~~~~~also a single mom with a daughter in that age group.
I'm so happy to hear she made it home safe...that post had me sobbing..I could just imagine it were myself and my daughter...everytime she's gone for the summer I feel the same way..so glad we now have phones to txt msg with...it was like she wasn't even gone last time. Good luck to you. Thank you for that awesome thread! :) | |
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