broke up with her AGAIN! Free Dating, Singles and Personals

broke up with her AGAIN! Posted: 6/28/2009 6:40:29 AM
so basically i've let fear control my life for so long that its hard for me to be in any relationship. i was never honest with my dad for about 10 years about who i really was. i was the singer songwriter and leader of a christian band. but that was his dream, not mine. i have a lot of trouble being able to tell what i do and do not want. but i cannot believe that this girl tells me she still loves me after all of this! i realize that i love her too. the grass is always greener on the other side. i feel like ive necer felt this close to anyone before in my life. its hard for me to believe that she could care so much about me after telling her about my thoughts. It was funny cause after i told her about what i was feeling about commitment beacause i was always looking at my plan to sleep around and have no relationship for a LONG TIME, she told me she wanted to kill me and told me she was so stressed that she needed a pack of cigarettes, which she could not get because her little boy was asleep for the night. i got her the cigarettes sat down and we talked about how we still feel connected..even through all of this! everything just feels right when we are together. from there we started holding hands ...then kissing. i just need to let the heaviness from my past go from my life so i can have a good relationship.