| a place for us novices... Posted: 8/15/2007 12:40:48 AM | when night comes unfurling spreading its wings over these expansive skies unto the depths of our souls time to unwind
but me i seem somehow to awaken anew when night comes
hot pavement asphalt concrete diminishing somehow vaporous heat of desert's day now i can begin to melt back unto and into myself a cleansing an exorcism if you will a release unlike a climax yet fulfilling in a different sort of way
tired as eyelids become heavy routine takes over as i go through my own motions and my own emotions of this my own singular night when the night comes regular attendance to the particulars of my me brushing my teeth cleansing then scented lotion on my body combing tendrils finally slipping under sheets fan whirring above it sings to me when the night comes
as much as i adore these sunny days i find myself still awaiting autumn's rays the cooling crisp air when open windows will allow gentle breezes on tiptoes covering me enveloping me soothing me to new dreams wondering if you'll meet me there when night comes | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 8/15/2007 12:56:44 AM | you are something else i was taken by your words and that wonderful mind of yours before hearing your voice or seeing your eyes
you with that brain of yours so so so sessy the tender things i see already the unknown calling me those eyes that smile that quicksilver tongued wit
me taking it all in sighing and reeling all the while realizing you just might be dangerous to me
as i'm still regaining balance licking these wounds freshly stung not even yet having cried maybe just maybe there isn't anything worth spilling tears
bitter, no jaded, nope not me well anyway, not yet
instead now as i head off to bedsit land i'm feeling grace sensing wonder of what the new day holds in store and i know everything's gonna be better than just allright | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 8/30/2007 12:47:41 PM | as you might sense lots going on right now cch cch cchaannges in this unfurling personal life which is suddenly suprisingly now screaming by so quickly i'm hanging on and laughing at the devil painted on the wall internal data bytes pixellated dreams download near complete new drive to slave the other catching all i needed to retrieve syon007 indeed was only a poser all those years ago sad little thing clown dressed as a real man desiring acceptance was he too bad a seed to understand droid void of personality out of touch with reality don't need a dsm to see mmhmm this is a smile playing now across my face
life is driving and hurrying me (in this scene i'm playing me) just at least momentartily never a lasting condition this too shall pass i whisper smiling i'm setting my compass goals to fulfill new beginnings too just passed an eclipsed full moon birthday celebration for a princess dj synth made musical twister a more than funny thing pasta and dulces yummy pictures taken with the digi always and forever to be in my mind like family but better; chosen kindred we always have a nice time possibility of a new roommate definitions to be drawn examined reexamined and verbalized as angels present and curious unlimited amounts of energy infinite possibilities positive
and then, well there's that one particularly interesting man still deciphering if veritas mode means the same to him as me as life unfolds we'll see
no not the one far across the pond that sent a cheque oh please and yes imagine this such lack of tact, sending his bright pink book on hot sex as if i need a primer?! makes me sigh n roll my eyes wotta waste of rotted mind him thinkin he's so hip but methinks in such an UNtragecically hip deceptive sort of way please forgive the wordplay the voice is nice but oh his intent is cyber creepy can't he deduce i ain't playin after finding out what i did simply cause i ain't interested another tossed into the wake cheque not returned via par avion just being scrutinized encryption becoming clearer my data secure bank account digits not given out freely as some feed the birds
some people's UK children seem to have lost their p's and q's and clues pretense of pretext never much to say always wanting wanting wanting too much more than i could give reminds me of a clinging vine i'm not handing out green cards it takes time to learn someone or not nes ce pas?! a current image not displayed an attempt to be clever laughed at a faux made up job very telling now bristol ain't my cuppa tea me preferring huntington quaint wistow or london even c'est la vie; like squeeze asks: now is that love?! same whispered voice again returns resoundingly, uh no sorry...
nor one that drives a black shiny beamer his pride and joy a favorite toy that local deceptive fisherman married but says he isn't so convincingly guided by his pole which leads him into far too many waters, never happy with himself most of all sad, eh sdf? bad speller with crumbling teeth gnarly hairs trailing from ears rounded goatee always misshapen and those toes, cannot ever go there deceptive puppeteering posturing pretending promises to the sky but never to fruitition lies lies lies lies they're gonna getcha! the thompson twins they know his pandora's box too revealing what an excellent program no matter the cost far worth it truly and it's good to know the truth and follow my own creed and credo craigslist account aww poor thing this mind needs more than simple body pleasures it requires strong intellect to banter with to share and grow with strong integrity knowing a word is one's bond oh but thank you so much for the beautiful boquet such a suprise he charged days after my birthday despite the latest newest ink forget honesty bravery and integrity they all failed him oh so long ago then he chose to fail me too character is a very telling thing shame on me for once believing as he sips that starbucks oh please 6$ for a cuppa joe surely still as he weaves his magic lies looking unblinking into other's eyes all the while stringently denying his own entourage of pink elephants trampling throughout his life he blacks out at strip clubs let this once naive woman pay for his coworker's birthday gift green label patron and oh so graciously accepted hearty thanks unflinchingly forget berlin & martinis @ the onynx bar forget the last flowers i sent to your office to cheer you during your "audit" forget the last concert i paid for and i'll forget the pictures on your cell and the numbers on the phone you gave me and the emails in several accounts it's amazing what women will tell another please forget anything i ever gave you once upon a time in a place not far away my integrity my bravery my heart even say bye bye house being foreclosing upon struggling to keep up outward appearances with a house stenching of dirty laundry & sweat of those, the undead going nowhere leach of all leaches paralyzed in their own mind hidden viagra aggenda but a temporary fix those who chose to never tell the truth will never recognize it for what it is, either young man of deception and falsehood life will never be what or all that it could because your word isn't what it should be for you or me or her or she or even he but mostly for yourself no dignity end of thisrant, fin
the pheonix renewed shall rise again as does the sun each and every day in similar yet different beautiful new ways take no prisoners they can't weigh you down if they struggle in the rushing wake
so much to do oh so little time having set a new state standard passing anticipated silver instead proudly receiving gold LEEDS project now completed all my many pix taken for an architectural award all safe and secure thanks to satellites i do adore my work work work putting out the fires with flame throwing pyro caustic tongue techniques new tower for octavius a whole new way of thinking and action beckoning as autumn is just round the bend sedona is calling me to relax and just breathe i intend to take full and complete advantage of this long weekend and sedona at the end of september a road trip to anticipate might just be exactly what i want and moreso it might just be exactly what i need | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 8/30/2007 3:52:54 PM | Wishing for an endpoint that seems will never come While I flail about daily just muddling through, really Talk to me Help me see There is a reason to stay One more season | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 8/31/2007 12:31:41 AM | The sun is hot in the desert sky Baking the earth running it dry Life’s trust broken away A heart that longs love to stay Take the time learning your lines Exploring the earth and exploring their minds Patience a word…a stumbling action Take your time there will be no reaction For if a heart is tender and true It will take the time learn all about you For the earth spins, never a hurry Your mind again will never know such fury It’s just like I have come to know Tucked in the stars in a gentle stow Waiting in time for the perfect night To flow into your eyes a beautiful sight So sit back and enjoy this desert side bar It’s closer than you think but never so far Look to the sky and see into the dark Streaking the sky a beautiful spark Traveling through time to your very heart Patience, curiosity a beautiful start So sip your drink in this desert side bar Look to the sky beyond the stars Wait in patience for your guiding light And don’t give in without a fight
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/3/2007 6:49:04 PM | lucid lucid always more than a plethora of reasons to ask you to stay more than just a season
you must find it within yourself if you really want to know no one wants to see you go we cherish you so many here you surely realize to so many of us we find you dear
triple here i leave a big thank you for stopping by leaving your lines touching me helping me see so nice to see you every time you shine
this desert bar has been long deserted almost closed up shop so much going on but always comfort you leave behind i dunno if you realize what a special friend you are
i'll think of you tonight when i look up at the stars wishes to you that all is better than well thankful for you a friend perhaps far but not in mind nor heart thank you for being who you always are you're welcome here anytime i hope you know it's in your heart already i don't have to tell you so | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/3/2007 11:14:11 PM | Ah A Place for novices this is the site for me to write what you feel, to feel what you see the way we say our unborn fantasy our thoughts of our visions all put down in words and shared with all others, not one or two thirds they are real,there's no fake. It's all right here for you to take and put it together as is meant to be it came from a heart, deep felt and free Said with a passion that one cared to share who opened themselves up so rightous and brave their soul that they gave. give them respect for this they did earn they gave me something a lot more to learn | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/16/2007 9:17:17 PM | Things have been good under my stars A comfortable light the healing of scars My heart it beats with its new adorn Like beautiful sunshine of each desert morn Catching a glimpse of each gentle light Bringing the world into beautiful sight Much the same as in your part of the world Gently stitched and evenly purled Woven with life as it is meant to be Comfortably spoken, gentle and free So with this wisdom take on the day Go forward boldly and remember to play Take your time and seek out your spark It’s searching the sky in a beautiful ark
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/16/2007 9:37:04 PM | designs4u thank you & welcome as well i send a big i'm sorry for being remiss in tending this thread, began so long ago a place for whomever chooses to leave their thoughts and their voice each with their own rythym and flow
triple so dear always such kindness extended and felt coming from you thank you again as always you do bring a smile to me your words always so calming and tender i know many feel the same way thank you triple bp again i am thanking you
even the lurkers who read but don't take time to post well not here anyway everyone's welcome even if just to stop to read lines woven herein and yes there's always tomorrow's dawning a new beginning of a new way and a brand new sparkling day somehow the phoenix is a recurring theme a recurring dream a reinvention it seems chalk it up to gemini dreams
not meaning to sulk but, and yes i'm smiling here now and bringing this home from part deaux of first line last line
without knowing the evil of it all i have becomes faceless and all of me is nameless, suspended i alone decide upon the choices i choose so yes i must accept full responsibility too yes oh yes i shall be in mourning pulling my cloak closer and more tightly folding into and unto myself oh but not for obvious reasons nor for particular persons or even full clarity of reasons
even i recognise the simplicity of licking my wounds giving self time necessary to regain balance comforted somehow in the knowing to unto everything there is a season murmmering and ruminating to myself i whisper my prayers, hopes and failings designing to look ahead past flailings thoughts comforting and sighs this too shall pass as the wind dances as water falls and cleanses as time iteslf does all it has ever been known to do breathing life and death into our lives cyclic events unto our earth and space as we avail ourselves to the rythyms but not necessarily the ryhmes it is merely subjective this thing we call time
rise again and comes the radiant sun nightfall paints the sky anew from deepest within molten lava stirs from ash blue purple red orange white silver mercurially my soul is yet salvaged my soul still has smoldered but yet remains afire with possibilities | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/16/2007 9:37:41 PM | Once she claimed herself a novice But her heart opened up And feelings poured Diamonds on the page Glittering in inspiration Petals strewed to leave the past behind I have seen her gentle as a flower freshly cut And dripping still with dew And a fiery mare Tossing convention to the wind As she galloped through our minds On a silent night of quiet contemplation Soft with an edge she speaks of truth Not only for one but all of woman’s virtues The colours changing hue From brilliant reds to the more subdued She wrote a story that would bring a tear To those who read it in the confines of their private world Honest feelings not clouded over And although her life has changed And time less frequent she graces us with her thoughts It always brings a smile to know that she still comes To sit beside the pond with us now An old friend from our passage of the changing season Always welcoming us into her world. | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/16/2007 10:19:38 PM | aww autumn, now collectively between yourself and triple bp (so happy for his news which i surmised before i read the email!) both of your posts had me in a much needed release of tears that were over a month stifled and being held in
i make no apologies for wearing my heart on these my two sleeves life sometimes has a funny way of working itself out through the fray and i can only be complex and yet so very simple it's easy to see
no matter how hard i've tried to somehow get them out they stayed there, stuck inside some sort of intellectualized blither and blather and poo i tried so hard to get 'em out but the feelings wouldn't budge they just weren't ready to dare venture forth so like i've already told tbp and now i'm telling you i do so strongly thank you for your words acted as catalysts for my heart tonight
too much to do too much to think about damn i'm tired of fretting i remind myself it is a choice no sense in intellectualizing no point in remembering no fingers to point because if i do there's always 3 more pointing right back at me
not only a novice but one of elementary voice and no shame or pride just feeling feelings instead of keeping them bottled up inside like i like to say this too shall pass
i await the end of this month a sojourn of sorts postponed too many times and for all the wrong reasons this time i'll welcome in autumn's eve season as i'll make my way to a place not so far away a bit down further south to sedona, land of vortexes magic and calm and red rocks hiking in cooler temperatures pictures to take paintings to paint new memories to make
one of the most beautiful places on this earth that i know of there surely i will just be me and inhale desert scents deeply just be me and just breathe purely and with a smile as the sun will shine on my face and the wind will kiss my now smiling lips
many thanks my friends for your cherished words for you both as well too for this night as i read i feel cleansed and calm i'm again able to breathe i hear the crickets outside now i'm grateful once more
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/21/2007 4:59:51 AM | firstly this early morning brought gentle winds awakening me now begins as if almost on cue this gentle rain cleansing to renew this city of dust lights and sin
what better than this, to begin i am whole and free and relieved i am safe and comforted and yes again focused intent upon making true my goals and my dreams
in this quiet place the day will unfurl and spread outward again even with no sun and a forecast of rain this is already a beautiful way to begin with grace and gratitude for appreciation and recognition of all the good in so many people places dreams
i feel edification again today reading so many fine threads woven from kindred friends | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/21/2007 6:12:15 AM | just in case you wander off again...I need you to read my silly joke...will keep haunting in emails or wonderful dreams....you know what I mean sister dear...
Next time I’m in Vegas Show me the way to Los Angeles? Ok Louise In the Cadillac painted blue Thelma will read….
Even Eden needs a broom That’s reality
Stop interrupting Louise I know I need a tall man
Now please show me the Nearest shoe store For I still need heels
Move over am sick of your driving Flat heeled over the edge makes me nervous I said I wanted high heels NOT wings
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/21/2007 7:58:33 AM | tis good to feel an old friend so close across the waves distance narrowed by tempered bends words that just self save a brave you one deep within that heart spread through this cyber land I'm here and there and everywhere you need a helping hand always struck by such a thought the handle felt so fine the waves the smile every touch a piece of the divine so nice to read your thoughts again to feel that lace of life a taste of exotic beauty mixed with American spice you've captured may interests no need of maul and sledge to split the hair to be so fair we all want to be there uniquely experiencing softedge.
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/21/2007 8:22:00 AM | Ya know I loves your writes 'Edge.
Sometimes I just want to call you Baby And have you look at me maybe See from the inside cool fires burn While seeing the softside of me churn Loving desire long gone but not lost Waiting for you to see me but at what cost Do I try and begin the dance of delight Or, wait for you Baby to come this night | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/23/2007 7:15:50 PM | it IS indeed good to feel dear friends! thank you, aa, thorb, and lucid too for gracing the thread with your sweet lines sometimes it seems as though we all are so close and yet so very far away nice surprise to read your lines herein
but i must confess the truth i'm not always so brave just healing and concentrating on things i must to go without a skewed and unhealthy mind
you are here, there and everywhere~ thank you for being you; so kind!
true lately i've been struggling a bit as though swimming upstream but now find myself in a better space a cleaner sweeter state of mind it always just takes some working out writhing through the muck and mud till i can come up again for a deeper breath to feel soft winds and sun again playing and splaying unto my face
the fruit is only bitter when it rots otherwise it's sweet upon the tongue but yeah i'm allergic to mold, so... sometimes i have to pick myself up by my bootstraps but funny i always seem to land up on my feet sometimes perhaps shaking my head at my own antics or thoughts till i see something or someone tussled with integrity or i was foolish to believe in someone or something while knowing all the while it wasn't quite right for me fortune doesn't quite always favor the "brave"
so edified to have this outlet even if my way is elementary and too, grateful for you so many precious people with gifts unrelenting in prose at least here i can just be me and you can be you, too
put on your seat belts mon amis the equinox veritably calls us to new and more beauty than we could ever begin to imagine don'tcha all just feel it as it grows and blooms and soars?! | |
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| a place for us novices... Posted: 9/23/2007 9:17:42 PM | when autumn nights cross stars aloft lonely hearts at times seem lost the darkend nights and evening lull of silence fall upon us still feel stong that life is merely bound by moments cast upon truths found in bitter stark of evening sky behold the stars and wonder why lest fall the guards upon the heart wish greater love for others start find your truths within your soul until then were never whole a journey cast upon the seas of fallen foot or bended knees reflect upon the rising sun know that hope in life begun for stars and skies and fallen light map our souls on quests of sight to see the world within ourselves opens stars for others as well reach within your greatest fears understand their source let loose the tears begiin to live again taste life freedom brings truely strife fear not the batttle nor the fray simply behold the new born day | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/23/2007 9:25:09 PM | shadow, thank you for such beauty now herein fused unto this simple thread, i am touched with grace by your words.
it has come to my attention recently some find my words cloying or taking up too much space dripping elementarily across these cyber pages it's ok, i try not to invade their place i have my reasons and they have theirs it's all ok and well and good really herein is a place for me and others too to sing, to weep, whine, share and laugh with so many i consider myself truly blessed
what began as a place for novices has flowered into for me an amazing place of beauty of so many so now i'm compelled to change the title of this humble and grateful thread thanks for each and every one of you for sharing yourselves within these lines
te amo indeed, not very cryptic 143 even when rushed or spoken whispered sometimes hurriedly even though known never ever to be taken for granted or construed lightly for it is real and true and shines ever brightly
such a seemingly small greeting both salutation and ending always to our conversations no matter who can hear they must surely ascertain we are to the other dear
thoughts of you and your safety too middle eastern terrain and roaring planes bombings guns and mortar blasts whispered prayers upon my knees rarer now comes tears on my cheeks
breathing metered while tasks of work vying for my attention still thoughts aplenty interrupt flowing throughout my days linger warming me into my nights ever both in mind and heart since our very start whence began oh so long ago
yet still i carry you here close unto me you dwell inside as i imagine you beside me woven into every fibre of this, my being
this is just how it is while some cannot fathom and yet others still refuse to understand this is not our problem and yes it may take some time but it's comforting that we have this ours is after all unique to us, a simple plan | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/23/2007 10:25:44 PM | Web of Love
On a beautiful moon night Creatively You worked your art You spun a web Around my heart
How beautifully Your deeds have spread Each intricately Woven thread
With strands of care You dried my tears Your gentleness Dispelled my fears
Your wisdom Helped me understand And patiently You held my hand
To give me courage To brave the storm With kindness You have kept me warm
Your passion Lit a glowing fire That filled my soul With sweet desire
You're all That I was dreaming of For the web you spun Was made of love | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/23/2007 10:26:53 PM | Because of you.
I awake each day with a smile And greet it with a laugh; The world is a treasure to me ...Because of you.
Every time I think of something sad, I replace the thought- with you! My mind is instantly changed And my heart is filled with gladness.
Every breath I take is meant for you, I live this life surrounded in joy And I bathe in the promise of your love, My soul belongs to you.
Each time I see something beautiful I want to take it and bring it to you; My life has so much meaning now All because of you... | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/23/2007 10:40:17 PM | dragonlover29 what beautiful lines you've laid down here for us to read; thank you for choosing here to place them. and while i am honored; lovely is she that must have inspired such magic you weave! a sincere welcome to you.
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/23/2007 11:48:04 PM | well thank you. She is but a face without a face. for i havent seen her yet. perhaps one day i will find her.
Listen to the sunset, Can you hear its quiet sigh? Listen, the sun is falling, Watch it toning down the sky.
Soon darkness shall surround me, Though twinkling stars will dare smile through, While you are far away from me, They'll frown a humble hue.
And as the sunset spreads its colors, Horizons of gold and red, I lie here all too much alone, In this great, vast chilling bed...
For my world has stopped revolving, 'Til you return, time's standing still, And the cold has settled 'round me, With its stinging, breathless chill.
But my love for you keeps growing, Standing fast to fight the cold, Reminds me of your body's warmth, And the story of love, untold.
So listen to the sunset, Look up, hear its quiet sigh, Though' we're apart these lonely nights, My love whispers across the sky. | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/24/2007 11:09:19 PM | thank you again dragonlover29 i searched and searched for something i left long ago and far away for this, a response to ravincause's query, i think it's apropos here, so i found it, in it's entirety:
query from rc:"Do you think we are a part of the same soul?"
yes, emphatically i do; and i call us kindred
it matters not most where we are who we are where we have been, nor where we are going
what matters most our focus keen upon good aiming sometimes perhaps seemingly flailing yet still full of hope maintaining steadfastly to aspirations sometimes singularly so or together as in a circle yet within each free to be simply ourselves honestly without unecessary apologies
methinks we are one as the ourobouros and... when we live our lives as the ourobouros we may seem to be at first glance one thing but upon closer inspection quite another for the symbol of such a creature is reptilian of a dragon or snake devouring it's tail but representing the circle of life you see as etymology fully states this is greek and vastly encompassing all: infinity!
as a believer in many things and a lover of words exploring variant forms of knowledge different planes of reality thusly i~ firmly believe not only am i truly a geek; but in some form or another we all are unique and surely infinite in our own spectacular way even if it means beginning anew each day
no matter our color, race or creed religion or spiritualism following which way whatever seems best for us but are we better than "just" simply organic plant matter as in ashes to ashes indeed
we are all of this beautiful earth we are more alike than different we must accept our failings and falterings yet aspire to dreams, heights not yet traversed to kindness, to love, to empathy, to growth
thank you, rc; but methinks we are all good just in our own singularly unique ways | |
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/24/2007 11:50:22 PM | That is just one those verses Lost in lines of tremendous curses Carried through time and space Over the airwaves to another place
Difference of the meaning provokes In the minds of many of folks Taking in and basked by some Viewed by them in this forum
But within these lines lies modest core Little imagination to make the memory soar So hear I sit staring up to the stars Enjoying a drink in this desert bar
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| a place for a novice and anyone else who wants to join in... Posted: 9/26/2007 9:34:47 PM | I don't know why or who yet but i feel i know her.
I want to help you fly
I want to help you fly, But not away from me. I want what's best for you, But fear what that might be.
There is no paradox More difficult than this: That I would die for you, Yet not give up your kiss.
So do not mind my madness; Fly bravely, if you must: I'll watch you, happy in your joy, And teach my heart to trust. | |
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