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Posted: 10/8/2007 7:11:59 PM | I have ceased
my mind alone in empty space
perhaps the dream has ended
where life once lived
now barren darkness consumes me
where laughter once played
only silence
I have closed my eyes to see
yet my world is still alone
I have ceased | |
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Posted: 10/8/2007 9:47:10 PM | I’m doing it again
I have no idea why I struggle
For it takes so much effort
Mind telling heart what to do
When that consciousness hits
I smile for it’s wonderful to accept
I’ve found a loving best friend
Challenge is finding the barest, boldest
Deepest daring lines
Of falling all over heart and mind
There is no pain chanting his name | |
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Posted: 10/8/2007 9:56:13 PM | at one point I ceased to exist
somewhere in between
love and laundry
bachelor habits
life grooms me
unshaven and simple
silence sits in a dark wood paneled room
it's quiet in this house
a solo chrysler motors by
freeway chimes
noise makers that carve their own click clack
click clack, click clack
I ceased to exist | |
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Posted: 10/9/2007 8:47:10 AM | shadow, always you're leaving something so touching i can feel it gently, you have a beautiful way with words mon ami, thank you. your words never cease but linger...
always my soul sister twin down under, your writes always hit me like lightening bolts (hmm wondering ok, is that like your 'thunder bolts"?) yes, you are a gentle beautiful creature with such amazing ability to know yourself and me, too; thank you for visiting, miss you.
tenz dude neither can i ever imagine you ceasing; though it's been a long time we've fallen out of touch but it matters not, i want to thank you for gracing the thread with yourself and your wordcraft. missed you bro.
i'll hafta write more later after i get home from work, just wanted to thank my sister and brothers here from all directions but all sharing a love of words. | |
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Posted: 10/9/2007 9:01:34 AM | I will always be awake and in dreams
for my true sister
who offered me the first hand
I still clutch in pearls
You are my diamond
Without YOU I could not be
In a few words you understand
without any quest
nor ever question...
YOU do realise you are my purity 
sorry gone back to my origninal form...being called AA was like I belonged to a fallen group...nothing wrong with that yanno...but I am me ...like you are you...I'd rather belong to dreams | |
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Posted: 10/9/2007 11:53:04 AM | 
always too i shall
have your back
wipe any tears
laugh heartily
feel blessed
to have this bond
we share across
mountains streams
deserts and seas
from the beginning it seems
we each reflect one another
in ways perhaps strange to others
never apologise for being yourself
personally methinks ad suits you better
and yes, tender yet strong hearted woman
you do belong to dreams!
thank you always for your patience, truth, understanding and your grace.
i do hope you're having a beautiful day. | |
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Posted: 10/15/2007 10:53:30 PM | he says he "owes" me
but i reply instantly with
you "owe" me nothing
i've told him this
but he, like me
is drawn again
as moths to light
candle to flame
again again again
whenever we share
i gain something intagible
that stays deep in my heart
in the very cellular structure
of all that is me
pure acceptance
i ache to see his eyes
hear his words
feel the warmth of his smile
inhale his scent
bathe him slowly
annoint him in oils
feel him relaxing
under my touch
tensions easing away
as i kiss his eyelids
brush my lips
over and over and over
his temples
his lips
his cheeks
his neck
his chest
and yes more
i give him my soft skin
my whispers and moans
my limbs over and entwined in his
my hands my tongue and my wet mouth
my hair sweeping across his face his chest his stomach
my quick laughter
my utmost support
my strength of veritas
my conviction
i give him my me
for it is all i have
we both understand
and in that comes
a sort of tender passion unleashed
most glorious freedom
all just to again
float unto his touch
breathe
believe
be
me
it is otherwise inexplicable
a spiritual journey for me
it just is
and this
we both know
it just is | |
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Posted: 10/16/2007 12:08:09 AM | I have ceased
my mind alone in empty space
perhaps the dream has ended
where life once lived
now barren darkness consumes me
where laughter once played
only silence
I have closed my eyes to see
yet my world is still alone
I have ceased
shadowriter
i noted your absence
but have been feeling unwell
as of late i've been hoping
awaiting your return
but alas not yet i see
you may or may not know
i too myself once upon a time
herein this very thread
explained how it came to be
that i closed my eyes to see
i hope yours read this
maybe one day soon
you'll grace us again
returning without feeling you've ceased
you and your beautiful writes
remain in many hearts and minds
come back mon ami in your rightful time
meanwhile know you've hardly ceased | |
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Posted: 10/16/2007 9:02:43 PM | The sun cannot shine so bright each day
to cast a shadow in the same way
whenever one desires to see
unless the spotlight shines on thee
clouds may hide that constant friend
that walks with us until the end
a shadow writing or as queen
will come and go like weather it seems
I'm sure the day will come again
the sun will shine releaving pain
smiles will rise to fill the shallows
bringing life from what's now fallow | |
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Posted: 10/17/2007 4:59:38 AM | But in thisn world i see light as if it were life comming from the dawn could a new day
await as if to say lif has but just begun
it is up toyou to birth a new beginning
justopen your eyes and see the light
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Posted: 10/17/2007 1:07:08 PM | | Before I write thes words which have not much wit I HAVE TO THANK YOU FOR THE GROWWTH I'VE FINALY SEEN .THEY'RE NOT MEAN'T TO BE BOYSTEROUS CHARMING,HAVE WIT OR EVEN BE MEAN. i believe tha these last words I'VE BEENGIVEN COME FROM A PORTION OF HEAVEN.AS MY FINGERS GROW WEAK AND i can,t hardly stand it's as is someone left one word to be said.Let whomever ,howeverone may want to speak I DO not think it waa meant to be bleak.As all I'VE SEEN HERE ITS MADE PERFECTLYCLEAR.say what I WQNT NOT WHAT i want you to hear.TH THISI YOU HAVETOSAY AFTER THAT AWAY THE STRADGY OFONE WHO CANONLY DO THAT.tHE GAME IS FOR S ALLTO LEARN THAT. ALL FUN BUT SO IS THE HEART.pLEASE DONT DESTROY WHAT ONES ONLY ABILITY IS RIGHT HERE TO START.i,ve played the gmes and tried following thr rules.But to me ll that does is keep that special talent for fools.What about less able what are they todo follow those prOtesTive Syles.Isay let someone ELSE PLAY THATS differ THAN YOU IS one little GUY GONNA SHOW YOU TO I'VE BEEN REPREMANDED FOR NOT SAYING THE RIGHT THING WHO IN THIS COUNTRY CAN GET JOY FROM A START.LET THEM PARTICIPATE LET THEM HAVE THERE SAY,THEIR START TO .THE ONLY TO BENEFIT MIGHT BE THEM.BUT I'MSURE YOU AND i can to WHEN i SAW HEAY YOU NOVICES JOIN ON INTHIS I THEN KNEW WOULD COME INTO HISTORY AGAIN.iT'S NOT JUST THE WORDS ITSN WHAT IS RIGHT BECAUSE iHATE TO SAY IT BUT SOME OF THE LESS FORTUNATE ARE!WAY MORE BRIGHT.iONLY HOPE TO bE PART OF WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO BUT SOMETHING OUTTHRE SAYs NO TO YOU.but one things for sure Ican watch as life grows and see the soft edges that that makefor a nice nodoper who just thought there's somethingthat makes us give moe hope.Theone thing mostimportantof al it started right here with a girlwith a dream.Nothing special just let everyone bewo theyare going to be .She helped me best my eyes were closed like the rest.Thething IwishIhadn PS:I DID NOT A THING BUT LISTENED TO THIS BIRD SING SORRY ABOUT THE TPE IT,S ALMOST GONE BUT HEAY 2 FINGERSN GO ON.ISO LOVE LIVES AND STORIES | |
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Posted: 10/17/2007 7:16:49 PM | Eyes are open to the fate
Some have never given much but hate!
I allow so much from one....
yet again and again....
I am Done!
Living is just a pleasure to be.....
why it is we have to be........
tortured like the souls we are.....
Can't they find another toy?
I hope for all the lovely souls.....
life without all of the wrongs....
Living is so simple...yet....
My GOD....they live across the EARTH????
What up wit that???
My God...
You have a whole country of your own to destroy!
Leave me in my little U.S.
I know you know.......
my feelings...............
Guess????????  | |
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Posted: 10/17/2007 7:37:06 PM | you are avery good poet i used to write alot of poems for my old high school paper
but your poems have a nicer flow
what im saying is i think you just introduced me to a whole new way of writting poetry
bye for now | |
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Posted: 10/17/2007 7:37:13 PM | julsie dear, just don't play with the sharks!
they likey to eat human flesh
you aren't like them
don't take their little tests
pass em by ignore their flys
their bait stinks yanoo
so just dont go there hun
let them cast aside
others one by one
sad to say just from them stay away
let those who don't yet know
yearn and glean themselves
to learn realize and grow
we can't save the world
but we can instead choose
to opting to swim with our own kinds
some just are clever at twisting minds
let it go let it go just breathe deep & slow
i and others know what you know
play in safe waters away from the cold
stay playfully yourself and don't get old
stop worryin 'bout the snakies and sharks
best leave them to their destinies dear
it's all any of us can do; just be glad
ya found out sooner than later yanno?
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Posted: 10/17/2007 8:05:33 PM | i once was bold
i once had the currage to go on
i used to know the both of us so well
then you broke my heart again
you left me in disamay
so dismantled my thoughts have slipped away
when you left you took away my whole world
not just you but a beuatifull little girl
for better or for worse
thats the way
or at least thats how it was supposed to be
now my mind is week
and my thoughts are mean
so for the time being
i can only sit back relax
and pray for a better day that you'll both come back my way
im sorry if my spelling is screwed up and im sorry if i put my poem in a wierd place please tell me what you think of it i like the constructive critisism
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Posted: 10/17/2007 9:45:06 PM | thorb again dear man
you've left a gift
of yourself herein
thank you kind sir
it's taken me so long
to get to remembering
my manners here i'm sorry
no the sun cannot
shine brightly each day
very much to my dismay
having grown up in a desert
i think i'm part reptilian
warm blooded passionate
no lizards i've known lied
i know each day can't be sunny
even when it seems to be
insides can be stormy indeed
designs i've read and reread
your posting several times
and then i realized i ought
to explain why i sometimes
close my eyes to see
so i went searching and found
and reworked past lines
i'll post it after this one
shows a bit more of me
and why i believe what i believe
it isn't always so simple a task
to merely open your eyes to see
but i thank you sincerely
for bestowing hope herein this thread
dragon215 i missed your first post
i'm sorry! what kind words you left
that here you've learned a new way
to express yourself, and better yet
you left us with something beautifully
heartfelt to read and i thank you
for sharing it here forget about spelling
or any apologies for i'm grateful
you posted such a piece of yourself here
i'm not into critiquing other's sharing
my own way of writing is simple
and obviously over over over written
sighing sighing and sighing still
today has been a long one
began early too then to work
i went to turn in timecards
but alas i wasn't there an hour
when i ventured into trafic again
to the dr i went for strange tests
took several hours of me sighihng
days yet ahead with more tests
they want everything jeeze
hair, saliva, blood and even pee!
i've lost 11 pounds in the past week
using a machine to help me breathe
it's reared it's ugly head again
my body turning against itself
autoimmune dis ease suspect
somehow my body views ordinary things
as assailants trying to overtake me
i refuse to be a shell instead strength
is what i seek for self yes selfishly
it gets better too; an appointment next
with an attorney had me revisiting
our lovely (insert sarcasm here, pls) irs
then further on to my attorney
paid 500$ to save my ass from tomorrow
by the time all this was done i came home
but first stopped for some lentil soup
some moussaka and jasmine tea
after fasting earlier i was hungry
i didn't eat much afterall but it was tasty
and i needed a bit of self spoiling
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Posted: 10/17/2007 9:56:12 PM | i closed my eyes to see
flying soaring into color
yes this is just me
this mind runs wild
rampantly even sometimes
in too many directions
wanting wanting wanting
greed of misplaced affections
better say i than affectations
dependence becomes horrible
when it's like a drug
swallowed obediently
twice a day cut in quarters
i know of which i speak
but still there exists need
of always wanting more
and damn not just everything
can be bought at the corner store
dependence upon a substance
person place or thing
can be such agony
yeah need can be so ugly
but fear is just as bad
cold and empty as those
promises never to be had
readers read and may scoff
writers may empty their souls
where does it all end
but when the smoke unfurls
begins life anew and different
yeah just like that phoenix
ways of thinking living even
flying to vistas unseen as yet
sometimes just merely breathing
experiences we each choose
some are far more clever
in this journey we call life
knowing wrong from right
when one senses strife
smart and blessed are they
for intiution is amazing
intelligence has nothing
at all to do with iq
but more borne of actions
respect is listening
trying to understand
never boldly or falsely accuse
patience is indeed a virtue
even when she unfolds softly
as a delicate flower
opening up to kiss the dew
color and texture comforts
keep safe from memory
twisted realities denied
i closed my eyes to see
nope its no conundrum
i mean it very clearly
i closed my eyes to see
many times color saved my life
believe it now or not
it literally swooped me up
it swaddled me in safety
took me from inexplicable horrors
endured as young and innocent
but sadly has not been able to
completely erase that within me
programming within just yet
when i was very very young
meaning from four to nine
just a slight and slender
wheat color haired tot
brown eyes large with wonder
naive and innocent was i
way back then 42 years ago
i had already rotted spots
my dear brother was an artist
but my brother-in-laws; pigs
two of them both pedophiles
so maybe it makes sense
it does anyway for me
swirls and memory of color
took me from all that harm
led me to safety's familiar arms
if only in my mind back then it
gave me lifelong appreciation
have you ever seen a painting
that you could not comprehend
something so powerfully moving
it wove itself into your heart
yet too by same had water spring
forth from your very own eyes
i have had that lovely blessing
of an awesome experience too
for me, color is amazing
full of depth most strong and true
one dependence i won't turn from nor
apologize ever for, besides
words you can read the reason
i love color even more now
it will make no sense to many
excepting those who truly know me
and they completely do understand
think anything and it can happen
if only in your mind
perhaps that alone
can take you to another
safer, better place and time
but greed and earthly ways
are but written as with dust
something i learned long ago
take utmost of self care of
with whom you share your lust
they may not have the time
nor want to be patient
to understand just why
for someone like myself so blunt
communication seems to go in circles
and sometimes yes it does get stuck
still i keep trudging forward
even through my own yuck
erotica means different things
to each and every one deciphering
decoding encrypted kindred without
exhausting reserves is or isn't
yet still so very simple to see
with whom i am safe to be just me
while yes i am most certainly blunt
oftentimes it's still difficult to
even whisper that from deepest within
i closed my eyes to see
something different a new scene
away from fear and pain and tears
thank you far away dear brother mine
though now long gone for many years
you taught me secrets you never realized
meditation can be preservation
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Posted: 10/18/2007 12:09:05 AM | designs4u i hope i hope i hope the following won't offend you... as i stated earlier, i read and reread your posts several times. because of the way it was aligned onto the page it was difficult to read. i really hope what i do here won't be wrong or bad, i broke it down trying to make it easier to read, and in doing so i realized how special this was, and wanted others to not miss it. so here it is, in it's entirety:
before i write these words
which have not much wit
i have to thank you
for the growth i've finally seen
they're not meant to be boisterous
charming, have wit or even be mean
i believe that these
last words i've been given
come from a portion of heaven
as my fingers grow weak
and i can't hardly stand it
it's as if someone left one word to be said
let whomever, however
one may want to speak
i do not think
it was meant to be bleak
as all i've seen here
it's made perfectly clear
say what i want
not what i want you to hear
this is
you have to say after that [put] away the strategy
of one who can only do that
the game is for all to learn that all fun but so is the heart
please don't destroy what one's only ability is right here to start
i've played the games and tried following the rules
but to me all that does is keep that special talent for fools
what about the less able...
what are they to do; follow those protective styles?
i say let someone else play that's different than you
is one little guy gonna show you to?
i've been reprimanded for not saying the right thing
who in this country can get joy from a start?
let them participate, let them have their say, their start too!
the only [ones] to benefit might be them
but i'm sure you and i can, too
when i saw you hey novices, join in on this
i then knew would come into history again
it's not just the words it's what is right
because i hate to say it but some of the less fortunate
are way more bright
i only hope to be part of what you like to do
but something out there says no to you
but one thing is for sure
i can watch as life grows
and see the soft edges
that make for a nice no doper[?]
who just thought there's something
that makes us give more hope
the one thing most important of all
it all started right here
with a girl with a dream, nothing special
just let everyone be who they are going to be
she helped me best
my eyes are closed like the rest
the one thing i wish i had
ps: i did not a thing but listened
to this bird sing
sorry about the type; it's almost gone
but hey, 2 fingers go on
i so love lives and stories
lovely; thank you for sharing herein this thread which you have now become a part of the weavings of many minds and hearts! (i hope thios was ok with you that i did this)
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Posted: 10/18/2007 12:21:49 AM | I closed my eyes to see
Lost but distant memory
A vision fading into sight
Longs a wrong to make it right
Within the darkness hope belongs
To turn the sorrow into songs
Verses that carry misery
Long to be a happy melody
These are wishes many would choose
To take back time without confuse
But this life’s complexity
Is lost in what’s left of humanity
So one can only hope and pray
This wrong will be right again someday
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Posted: 10/19/2007 5:06:49 PM | ahh thank you triple
for again your words
but there is no darkness
when i can feel form deep inside
the beauty of love which still resides
for and from one no longer here
often i've said love is so strong
it has the possiblity of transcending
such various and many things
even death it seems to me
this much this simple heart
oh so very well knows
i rely upon it's strength still
when i feel sick or weak or sad
when i experience amazement
it makes me feel so very glad
to realize fully the gift i've had
verses not carrying misery
but rather instead of humility
i was blessed for many years
by a big brother very dear
12 years between us
he dried many tears
his strength larger
than any of my fears
his gifts to me were many
honesty faith hope strength
never spoke harshly to me
never made me feel badly
never did we argue even
he was patient and so kind
taught me by example
appreciation of so much
love art music travel words
simple grace within remembererd
of both taking making time
i recall being a teen
running to him many times
seeking refuge for many things
always he remained patient
gave me great advice
till one day me at sixteen
could no longer take violence
by my father's hand
so i moved in with my brother
life began anew for me
because he took upon his shoulders
such a huge responsibility
a few years later came a day
when of me he asked advice
he had questions of his own
regarding his own life
i was and still am so so flattered
he always made me feel i mattered
we shared a life of violence
from my father's words and hands
though unspoken betwixt us two
as there was so much living to do
he taught me not all men are bad
he taught me how to not be sad
he taught me to always seek and learn
he taught me without ever being stern
i learned firsthand appreciation
of laughter, sharing and believing
with the right ingredients involved
one can achieve literally anything
but first one must dare to dream
then put into action what moves us
often since his passing
so many years ago
i feel strongly still
his love, strength and presence
forever from those days imprinted
within my very heart & soul
i'm so grateful for each lesson
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Posted: 10/19/2007 6:27:52 PM | Forget what you did before
Are you missing me today?
Think of the time we spent together
Regret and pain in a heart long dead
I wonder where you are
I need you tonight if only for a while
Leave me bleeding on the floor like you did before
Needing Wanting Loving Hating Make me feel alive
Forget what you did before
Whisper how you'll always be there
As you head for the door
Black and Blue still loving you
Because of you I walk through hell to get a taste
Like poison in my veins that I cant escape
Craving you wanting you needing you tonight
Feel so good wondering why we are here
Give up and give in without faith to carry on
Standing strong everyone wants to feel alive
Deliver me from reality into fantasy
Rescue me from the world around me
Wreck me save me use me like you have before
Live for today live for the moment no regret
Feel the escape deep inside you make me feel alive
I need you tonight if only for a while
Leave me bleeding on the floor like you did before
Needing Wanting Loving Hating Make me feel alive
Forget what you did before
Small taste to get me through the night
Darkness swallows my sorrows away
You know how to release me from the pain
You make me sick watch me walk away
I need you tonight if only for a while
Leave me bleeding on the floor like you did before
Needing Wanting Loving Hating Make me feel alive
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Posted: 10/21/2007 1:46:28 PM | life, what a provacative write
thank you for sharing it here
today again i find
my body and mind
playing tricks on me
of the torturous kind
pushing away negatives
from past life mistakes
make way for positives
left only to make and create
specific ideas of paintings
and quilts to be woven
both by these fingers & mind
taking me to happier times
with love for those special
it's within the care of
my own heart to start
templates if you will
turning into reality
feeling unwell
despising not knowing
more tests to take
to undo the unknowing
medical stuff boring
aching and weary
trying my best just
to remain hopeful
so i cannot be dreary
frustration reigns
stress wreaks havoc
if only through meditation
i imagine summer's hammock
good thoughts push away bad
lightness of being replace sad
organic food forces ignoring chemicals
turning from plastics
dehydration replaced from glass bottles
my body turning against itself
my mind slowly taken away
when health returns
regiments to insure it stays
ever hopeful even when weak
refusing to cry or to weep
taking the time to dare
today means simple rest & self care
succumbing to lazy naps and sleep
laying gratefully in warm sun's rays
with thoughtful friend's cheering me
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Posted: 10/22/2007 10:40:08 AM | thanking the universe today
relieved and happy again, me
feeling like i'm not expiring
opposite full of energy
rolling eyes at terminology
i wouldn't exactly say "bouncy"
or hell even, "perky" but
feeling damn well and fine
so good to take a deep breath
walking that extra line
just had to pop in today
from my neatly stacked desk
just to say hiya friends
i'm doing so much better
than the entire whole month
passed even with the dang tests
to take i'ts really not so bad now
that i'm feeling this well
i can't wait to start everything
the rest of my day's steps
which began with today's
thank all of you who've cheered for me
and kept in touch and close, sincerely
so glad to today say i feel really good!
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Posted: 10/22/2007 8:21:43 PM | Gentle Love
By Draven
Tender skin,
soft under my finger tips.
Dark eyes that watch my touch,
closing only when overtaken by pleasure.
A pretty face,
framed in soft hair.
Unpainted lips,
responsive to my gentle kiss.
Full round breasts,
youthfully eager for attention.
Each nipple firming
to my loving touch.
Soft smooth skin,
tender on inner thighs.
Shapely legs open
to my gentle persuasion.
Delicate secrets revealed,
hungry to know more of love,
Wet with passion's sweet nectar
tender to a lover's touch.
Oh dear woman,
your heart is precious,
Your spirit soars
When desire overwhelms you.
Oh sweet lady,
my desire for you consumes me.
To know your heart
And fly high with your spirit.
Hold me closely
and touch me in gentle ways.
Receive in return
the gifts of my love and desire for you.
Let's be together
for this brief time we walk this path.
Let's learn of joy
and take fond memories when we part. | |
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Posted: 10/22/2007 9:20:11 PM | draven/drukane/b
so nice to see you back again
i'm glad you're feeling better
i hope it stays and lingers...
thank you for your oh so
provacative lines laid out herein
words left on cyber pages
oftentimes touch in so many ways
i know what it's like to feel alone
i know what it's like too
to sometimes feel as though
i've pushed push others away
when i really all i needed was
some space to get my thoughts
in my head back to being ok
thank you for staying in touch
and being kind when you must
have much going on in your mind
i know what that's like too
isn't it nice to be able to find
here on these pages a friend or two
i'm the sort that means what she says
some think me silly and others find
me irritating but that's ok because here
i found so many really wonderful kind
i call them kindred and a sort of quilt
we weave into and onto each other's hearts
as well as imprint and inspire thoughts
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