Love of my Life is Dying Free Dating, Singles and Personals

Love of my Life is Dying Posted: 2/18/2005 3:22:35 PM
Hi Jennifer My Name is john, I don’t know if I can be of any help but I am going to give it a try. I early June of 1982, I was a U.S. Marine Sergeant Stationed at a Nuclear Submarine Base in Bremerton, Washington. I was 22 years old and in the best shape of my life, on that morning like many other mornings myself and 40 or so of my fellow Marines where participating in our morning routine of a 5 to 6 mile run, midway thru that run I began having some very bad pain in my lower stomach & groin area, I was a tough Marine and though nothing of it at first, And just ignored it and continued on as usual. Needless to say, it got much worst. I did see a doctor, and as it turns out I was diagnosed with testicular cancer, I was devastated! I had been married at the time for About 1 1/2 weeks and did not know how to tell my wife, I loved her very much and we had just began our lives together. I was more concerned about her at the time then myself, all I knew about cancer was that people did not survive and the treatment was difficult to say the least. So I decided to wait until I was sure I had cancer, and was seen by other doctors to confirm the diagnosis, and it was confirmed. I wanted to kill myself! I still don’t actually Know why I chose not to. Anyway I had no choice but to tell my wife. She left me the next day. I still hold no ill feelings about her leaving, it was a very difficult thing to deal with, and we were both very young at the time. I was dealing with allot of emotions during this period, my family being thousands of miles away here in Hawaii and my wife leaving, I did not have the mental strength to fight this fight However I was not ready to leave this life, although for many reasons it was not necessarily A good one for many reasons other then those I have shared. I endured several surgical procedures and months of therapy, the bottom line is I survived. Sure I have some residual Problems like the inability to have children and other less major problems but I survived. My point is you are still there and you love this man for all he is and all he will be, right now I assume he is scared, and needs you and your love, but this is not the end this is one of life’s many challenges just be there for him and get help with what you are feeling from a professional, just remind him from time to time that he can beat this and you are their to help Him and love him. Again I don't know if I helped in anyway and I wish you and your family the best. No matter how bad it may get don't give up. John