| A new life, yes
Posted: 1/18/2005 12:27:53 PM | Moonlight, turn your face to the moonlight
Let your memory lead you
Open up, enter in
If you find there the meaning of what happiness is
Then a new life will begin | |
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| A new life, yes
Posted: 1/18/2005 12:41:32 PM | aye caramel i just sent you a message.. its great to see fellow people from home on here..
all the best
bubbles | |
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longte
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Joined: 10/18/2004
Msg: 28 | |
| A new life, yes
Posted: 1/18/2005 7:35:47 PM | The new life has begun, but the memories linger on
I shall not forget them ... they were her final song
The memories of the waterfalls that we both held so dear
And the memories of the moonlight so cool and crisp and clear
Yes life has changed ...And so have I ... Now I have begun
To find again the joy in moonlight and the rising of the sun
I still avoid some places where we loved and lived our lives
But only 'cause the memories bring tears into my eyes
Not just tears of sadness But tears of joy as well
For when we were together we took heaven out of hell
Life is good and you often see a smile upon my face
My joy has gone from moments... into hours.. now to days
But when I have the chance... to fight 'gainst what is wrong
I will fight against it That will be my final song | |
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| A new life, yes
Posted: 1/18/2005 8:12:17 PM | Its like a new life , yes ....... i confess
This is an admission of a resolved mess
Now that im on track
I wont look back
Unless reconciliation is required
Ill be working till im fired
Sending email wired
Gee im tired. | |
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longte
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Joined: 10/18/2004
Msg: 30 | |
| A new life, yes
Posted: 1/31/2005 7:38:43 PM | Dragon
You are writing so powerfully.
Great to see | |
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| A new life, yes
Posted: 3/22/2005 7:48:34 AM | Hi guys,
first of all congratulations to your courage and resolve to take your lives back.
My question is to your partners. Are they online? Can they add to this thread?
Can they start their own thread?
Or maybe in your own words of rhyme: how does your partner view you?
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from a partner. | |
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| A new life, yes
Posted: 4/28/2005 10:37:03 PM | How does a thread this powerful get tucked away. In the last few weeks, I have done alot of soul searching, and I have seen alot of souls connecting in these forums. Someone told me to come read this thread. Bless her heart, and all the hearts and souls in here.
Sam | |
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| A new life, yes
Posted: 4/29/2005 1:18:15 AM | I wrote this a very long time ago, shortly after my former stepfather started raping me.
INNOCENCE LOST
Unbridled children, dreams in technicolor
Everything changes lass
Apprehensive solicitors guard
Intuitive girl, unwavering conviction
Protector of all she holds sacred
Humiliation becomes routine
Sinister fingers explore, oblivious parental figure
Brave soldier marches on to pain's brutal pulse
Incestuous creeping figure
Unadulterated terror thrust upon youth
The chase begins again
Ritualistic pain, mocking words
Blind eyes, deaf ears, mute voices
Reaching into eternity
Brief reprieve....
Shameless betrayal, taste of normality ripped away
Pursuing from the shadows, never ending watch
Daddy dearest....
Die | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/29/2005 3:41:54 AM | early morning...wondering about in cyber space.......
and found myself here ....in this place
curious...i took a closer look.........
and there upon these pages....is my life an open book?
i wake up terrified..or cry in my sleep.......but when awake the dreams are gone
will o wisps..that vanish.......leavin me all undone.......
where dark memories and old hurts abound..
black entities .........screams without sound..........
i am not alone.......i am not alone............my mantra to chant
i have been hurt..........mine to rant
the broken places do mend..........i am findin true
burstin open occasionally......survival of the few.........
but i will survive..and i will sleep and not dream
i may bend like a willow by the stream........
till my boughs touch the earth, yes i will bend
how else could i reach back to help anothers hell to end.............. | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/29/2005 3:45:31 AM | i never saw this thread before.......i only came to play..
but once i started readin......the words wouldnt go away..
feeling to strong to ignore...swamped me
and tears flowed.........as my eyes began to see
a healing .......a new dawn..........ongoing always
an end of endless nights........and ahead, new days.............. | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/29/2005 9:37:43 AM | MIRRORED PAST
Never far enough away
And never far behind
Dreadful shadows cast
Constant in ones mind
Keeper of the scars
Never being seen
Deep within the soul
With hatred in between
Memories that follow
Darkly in footsteps
Repeating pain each print
Of ever countless reps
Put forth the terror
Of mirrored past
And seek advisers
For shadows cast
Learn to heal yourself
From the inside, out
Releasing the pain
Creates a new route
Because hate will turn
Itself, around on you
In almost everything
You ever say or do
Sam | |
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longte
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Joined: 10/18/2004
Msg: 38 | |
| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/29/2005 9:31:00 PM | I am going to break the [rule] about Poetry or verse prefered in here
This is a truly Horrible subject matter
But it is all too prevalent Everywhere
I am Really glad that you are all keeping the Thread Alive
If it helps one single person to Vent or Scream and Shout or begin Healing????? | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 5:56:06 AM | yeah its hard to talk about.......and it aint pretty...but i feel better.........
and theres prolly more to come out........... | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:24:53 AM | fear in the night........
has a scent and taste all its own
sweat that drips acid from my flesh
hands appear in the darkness.....unattached
to any livin bein .......for who could be alive ..
and hurt another like this.......
who could cause such pain......and not feel it too
shattered images in my mind..
darkness that promised peace ...
but delivers terror.......and muffled screams instead
once awoken from such slumber..
i cannot trust it again........
so sleep that used to heal and rebuild
is now something i dread
years can pass...but then a trigger
and in broad daylight..a crowded mall....or a childrens park
i will feel a glance that lingers a tad too long
strange eyes starin at my soul
eyes that dont love me........such ppl do exsist
and my perfectly safe sound world
is once again ......fear in the night
overcome it they say...just go forward...
dont they know i cannot even see my feet...
sometimes i cannot find my way..
this fear is blinding...
the screams that were muffled that night......
now strangle me......the hands i tried to escape
roam ..still unattached to reality...in my dreams......
learnin to trust again..learnin to play...
sometimes just learnin to be around others
is it really worth it...can i really do it.......
dare i push these walls away.........
yes it is and yes i dare.....and i will push with all my might
just not today....... | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:32:47 AM | if eyes are the windows to the soul
what are mine sayin
what do the eyes of someone who
has seen fire and brimstone
pain and terror
trust betrayed
do my eyes show this even when i smile
if eyes are the window to the soul
does death escaped show in mine
do the prayers that kept me alive
shine forth
does the darkness i have faced
add a dimension to my sight | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:33:42 AM | strong hands lay hold....
drag me out into the dark cold....
the night rips with shuddered screams....
nobody hears....
or cares it seems....
innocence gone....
I trust no more....
family is not safe....
so strangers I seek....
a new family I build.... | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:45:57 AM | come home they tell me
but i cannot...
it holds not the peace which i have long sought...
at the age of four
home closed its door...
bright stars did twinkle
a cool breeze blew
sleep came swiftly
if i only knew
i would have hidden
would have run away
night stars scattered
i was four no more
no more childhood
the night home closed its door | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:46:43 AM | i wonder if its any easier
if the sun shines when you
bleed upon the bed that supported you
darkness seems to add to terror
but what does sunshine do
i wonder if the sound of birds
singin outside on a clear day
would mask a startled cry
the way that darkness does
muffled by hands that hold you down
i wonder if it makes any difference
or does a soul still
in panicked flight shatter
before it hits the ground to lie bleedin
shyin away from the light | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:51:08 AM | what holds the tears inside
what keeps the tide at bay
what holds me together
to face another day
why do i react today
to something i didnt cry for then
where do i find the words to say
that i couldnt express when
my mind was blank that night
from sweet repose to sudden fear
realization stark ...no time for flight.....just fight
then yield..yield your body, yield your mind, yield what you hold dear | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:53:38 AM | i know this is rape..not child abuse but i have to get this out and i cant take tiem to look for another thread when this one will do...........please my freinds bear with me ....
i am dancin in the dark here.........determined to heal....
and besides i cant reach my therapist today.......
and this seems to be helping
at least i am waterin mah face so something good is coming out of it
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 7:59:26 AM | it is good to have a place where i can express my fear
to know there is somewhere to go when rage is near
it is not easy to share
this burden which i bear | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 8:11:44 AM | tams...we seem to have walked a parallel path........
i will help you accross that big boulder in your way
if you will get me thru that ravine
shadowed by darkness even in the light of day
my soul is parched and dry........
my wisdom i no longer believe in
my confidence gone awry
i would stumble and falter if not for your tiny hand
i see the pain in your smile
i feel the shaking you try so hard to hide
together we can make it thru this dark mile
leanin upon each other........we can do this
true friends often share smiles and tears
happy times sad times good and bad
but only sisters share the fears
that we walk thru today
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 8:17:37 AM | wakin up at night is always hard to do
sunshine brings a feelin of saftey
but darkness reminds me of you
and how you tried to destroy me
you didnt succeed....you only tried
for i am stronger in many ways
i survived...no part of me died
you weak and puny man who thought strenght was force
i have strength...i have force too
i have a heart without walls.........
and its not thanks to you
its because i am who i am
and no thief in the night can take that away
i am the truly strong one..
and i can make you pay
by livin and livin well today | |
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| Child Abuse
Posted: 4/30/2005 8:19:18 AM | Di....
tears fall free
knowing I'm not alone.
this ravine is dark and frightful things lurk
but we have become strong and the no longer can hurt.
take this tiny hand
we will soon get through
heart to heart
me to you.
no longer to be victims
never call us that
we are survivors
proudly we wear the hat
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