| Just a thought of inspiration...while walking home
Posted: 11/27/2007 12:16:20 PM | Life and its Miracles
Every day I look at my daughter growing and learning. Her curiosity in every thing she sees loves to explore and learn new things. Her smarts are high and a fast learner. when ever I look at my daughter her love shines through her eyes and a smile as big as her mommy's, her laughter fills the room as she chases our cat around the house. The cat hides of course and to teach her about life and how to have fun is a warm feeling. When I see her progresses and hear the many compliments people say about her makes me proud to be her mama! I cannot believe she is coming up to her second birthday! Enjoy your kids because once they become bigger we will see less of our precious angels. Every day I am thankful for many things we do as a family even if it is just a hug or kisses, these moments will cherish our memories forever! Or a smile we pass on to each other! My precious angel will always remain close to my heart and i love her to pieces! My pride and joy! Remember to hug your kids, your partner, family, or someone who may just look like they need a hug or smile today along with kind words! My daughter is a social butterfly, loves to run up to people and say hello there! Smiles come across their faces and they light up! Than of course we have the not so happy ones and we just pass love onto them any ways and wish them a better day! Every thing my daughter does is a carbon of mommy's love for her! You all have a loving day and remember to pass on a smile, hello or a hug today! My biggest reminder is yes I can lead a busy life and I can also pass a hello and smile on too as I hurry across! you never know, you may just light up another person's day! | |
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| Just a thought of inspiration...while walking home
Posted: 11/30/2007 3:04:38 PM | Lonely heart
My heart cries for love
Christmas is near; I feel lonely and sad
A sadness comes over my face
As I remember those hurts and pains
Of a hand smacking me around or feet kicking
And plenty of mental and emotional abuse
My heart cries out for love that lasts forever
I want love to embrace my world
And I wish I were close to family
Years of unresolved grief and pain
That lonliness just keeps growing inside
This is a cold and deep place to be
At one time I thought I found the right person
Only to find out I was still walking in that pain
Broken promises and unsettledness made me cry
Because no matter how hard I did try to spice up love
It felt like a never-ending road of broken dreams and tears
And constant grief, pain, and a broken heart
Oh dear Lord, please help me find that only love
For I want this lonliness to leave forever
And feel the arms of love around me!
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| Just a thought of inspiration...while walking home
Posted: 12/2/2007 2:22:22 PM | Good day people!
Wow! Look at our snow, we rarely get snow and we have lots here on Vancouver Island! Every where I looked today there were people every where playing in the snow, building snowmen, and sleigh riding! Children out every where! That is because when we get snow we get out in it before the rain melts it away!
My thoughts for today are....
The snow looks beautiful as it covers our grounds and trees. There are people every where playing in the snow and not many cars on the road! Christmas parties are happening and shoppers are filling our malls. Santa and all his helpers arrived at the malls for our children and BIG KIDS too! Reindeer hats every where in the malls and santa hats on people's heads. The malls are all nicely decorated and hurrying shoppers every where! Parking lots full of cars and tour busses. Cup of hot chocolate after playing outdoors and hanging up our snow suits, hats, mittens and scarves! My daughter's first snow fall and she made her first snow man and snow angels! As I watch her play in the snow as her curiosity soars, the small adventures she takes and a giggle here and there. She loved the snow and wanted to continue walking in it but mama says it is time to come in and warm up! The disappointment across her face and a smile across mommy's face because we had firsts again! She looked like a snow bunny all covered in snow!
Everybody stay safe and be careful in the snow!
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| Just a thought of inspiration...my own poetry/thoughts thread
Posted: 12/28/2007 11:59:07 AM | Hello Everybody! How was your Christmas? Ours was full of great memories and everyone was spoiled! Christmas is my favorite holiday of all because it is a chance to see all our families and friends because of the gatherings we create! This Christmas was one of my best ones yet except for my mom being in the hospital. I went to see her and a sadness came over me because this was the first Christmas mom missed with her family since I was only 11 years old, that year mom spent Christmas in New Zealand and Australia with her sisters to visit their youngest sister. As I looked around the hospital my heart went out to the ones who were sitting all alone and sad as other family came in to visit their roommates! You know one thing that comes across my mind is "How family does not come to see their loved ones once they get older?" I know it is a tough trail to take and we have to walk this road now that my mom and dad are in their 70's and 80's as hard as it can be at times. When I see them suffering all I can do is send my love out to them and tell them how much I love them both. As my mom cried her tears, all I did was hold her and tell her everything will be okay and I love you very much! There were times I knew mom was feeling discomfort with me so I stepped out and allowed her space with the nurses as they helped her go to the bathroom and back to bed. Being the baby of my family I knew this was breaking my mom's heart for me to see her as is. My prayers go out to my mom and I hope she will make it home soon! I have to remain strong for my daughter and mom and I will cry my tears later with candles as I sit in quietness after my baby goes to sleep! As hard as it is at times to remain strong I too fight the tears back or take a time out in silence!
As for relationships over the holidays love one another, tell each other how much you love and appreciate all they do for you. Create an atmosphere of love and passion at least once a week if both schedules are busy because one day we will become older. Create loving memories and let each other know how much they mean to you by looking into their eyes and be honest and truthful. Like I shared before, go out on a date at least once a week, let your loved ones how much appreciation and thanks you have and talk about not at each other. The more we talk with one another, the less arguing and fighting will take place. Listen to one another without interruption and let each other speak even if we do not agree with what is being said or assumed! When it is all over, ask questions and confirm what was said and how each other are feeling. Ask each other what they meant and ask how can I make it better next time? Aplogize and forgive especially if you have been in relationship for some time because communication will help ease the pains if talked about and shared with one another. If we talk at each other instead of listening to what is being said we only hear partial and that most of the time is the unhealthy parts of the conversation and before we know it it will explode and all things will go hay wire.
I have been watching the news lately and I am feeling sad for families being murdered or spouses and their kids. What is our world coming to? All hope and dreams shattered by anger, resentment, hatred etc and before you know it, "Boom!" It is all over with innocent lives being ended in such tragic and mishap! Prayers for all who are suffering these losses and I fill your space with warmth and love!
On a happier note, everyone have a wonderful New Years Eve and Day and stay safe! From my family to yours I wish you a Happy New Year and all the best for 2008! I wish everyone success in finding their one true love and keep swimming because there is a fish in this pond for you! Look forward to 2008 and I will see you than! | |
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| Just a thought of inspiration...my own poetry/thoughts thread
Posted: 6/10/2009 1:07:11 AM | It has been a long time since I last visited here. On a good note life is great and all is going well. I have put my pen down for a while and now I want to pick it up again.
Long time passing since I last swam here and on a good note I have a good life now and getting there one step at a time.
At last I have found my way
Over the ocean and far away
High above the world I stand
Looking down at the beauty surrounding me
I breathe in satisafaction celebrating
A life filled with love and hope
Tears of joy trickled down my cheek
Single I still live this world
And who knows what lies ahead
I walk in strength and wisdom
Sharing my story with the ones who need it
And loving the people, the world, all around me! | |
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| Just a thought of inspiration...my own poetry/thoughts thread
Posted: 6/12/2009 12:40:28 AM | A World of wonder
I look far and beyond the barriers of my past and I imagine what my world would look like if I could turn back time. Would I be married, living in my own place, and more than one child. Would my life have been better if I were to turn back time and who might my friends be. All these questions and more...Really do I need to change, noway because I would not be where I am today and have no experience to share with others. My life is what I make it to be and most importantly I just need to be me, this is what makes me the lady I am today! Always remember to love yourself unconditionally and do not allow others tell you differently and if they do, look at them and say, "That would be something for you to explore!" I will listen and that is all I can do and if you want advice ask me because I will not interupt because yours and my story can be different. Sure all the emotions, feelings and etc are there but my story is not your story unless I have walked in your shoes! Nobody knows me as I do! | |
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| Just a thought of inspiration...my own poetry/thoughts thread
Posted: 6/13/2009 1:18:58 AM | My mom I miss deeply
Your thoughts and word of wisdom
I feel as though I am not quite done
And have so much to say
Mom I love and miss you
Wish you were here with me
I miss the sparlke in your smile
The kindnes you have passed on
And all the wonderful memories
I hold true are the times with you
I am sorry mother for not being there
And once I found out my heart trembled
So sudden and now you have gone home
No more pain for you my dear mom
You are our angel watching over us
My daughter and I miss you lots
Your love lives on within me
As I walk in grace and think of you
I love you and hold you close to my heart! | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 6/17/2009 9:15:45 PM | I often wonder who I am
And why is my life the way it is
Many moons of both happiness and joy
Has made my life both inspiring and challenging
Through error I learnt much and grew from each
And loved many for a while in my own unique way
Sometimes I think as to why
And now I know it was pure joy
And remembered what it was like for me
Many successes I have seen completed
And I tell each one who walks with me
It was you, not me that created you
Honor and celebrate in your way
And always remember you are special
Love unconditionally and build love
We are all one in this world through good and bad
We all have our own stories and experiences
Share these with he ones in need
And a sense of warmth will warm your heart
Stay open-minded and remember it is their story not mine
Grow from each experience and always celebrate you! | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 6/18/2009 6:16:08 PM | 6/17/09
they are not foolish that fear
they do not know the reason why
frayed perhaps, with false hopes, they tread wary
what answer will bring vision to these
weary wounded
it is what they believe that locks the doors
that block all light
their key will be a qquestion
that they must ask
not mine to answer
then hope will be a peaceful thing
like a bird before first flight
they do not know their wings upon the wind
that they need not fall
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 7/13/2009 11:16:43 PM | Inner Peace
To this day my dear friend
You are my world and voice
Speak to me in kind words
And help me move forward
I feel stuck and not at ease
My life just seems empty
I wonder why I am sad
I forget to talk with you
And now I am willing to
My heart feels fearful
And my head is too full
Please help me to release
And let those tears flow
Hold me close to your love
Guide me with your light and joy
Help me to stand up tall
And walk in pride and reach out
To the skies above my soul
I ask for my strength to grow
And no longer be afraid
Of all the wonderful things
I look up and pray for your wisdom
As I begin this new journey
Guide and love me unconditionally
As I wander in my inner world | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 7/14/2009 12:01:00 AM | My eyes sleepy and ready to go
My mind wants to shut off
I hear my pillow calling my name
Dreams waiting to be explored
Off to dream world I travel
Waking up to tomorrow morning
A brand new day awaits me!
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Posted: 7/15/2009 7:05:23 PM | I like to dance the night away
My friends enjoy the laughter
I am laughing my eyes are joy
The world around is beautiful
Here me sing above the world
As I sing my songs harmony rises
Life is good and full of love
The signs of good friendship flow
As we gather for the summer
We laugh, play games, and sing
My heart is full of happiness
As I remember my good times
Friends I miss dearly I am here
In spirit and kindness
Put your hand on your heart
And feel the warmth I pass on
Through distance and short
I am here smiling and laughing | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 8/10/2009 11:30:04 PM | Happy Birthday!
August 8 was my mom's birthday she would have been 85 years old! There were so many things left usaid, unresolved and etc. My family decided to not call me when she was leaving us and than again for the view, we have so many unresolved disputes and memories we wish to throw away but deep inside my soul I cry out for forgiveness and rejoice with love rather than I should have. My heart aches for my mother's voice as I walk this earth all alone! I feel as though my world does not exist and my cries are strong in thought silently I cry as I figure out what to do next. My daughter lost three grandparents in just six months and each one I could not cry all I could do is be strong and hold onto my tears until I have a moment alone! Those tears are stuck full of hate, resentment and sorrow. I love my mom I love my dad and how I wish I spoke my thoughts when I had the chance. I made mistakes I lived a full life of pain and unresolved grief and sorrow. I also lived a life full of happiness, joy, love etc if I can only realize how much this makes sense!
My dear parents how I miss you
My life seems empty and all alone
My heart wants to cry, my throat clogged
How am I going to release these tears
My daughter now without you both
To walk and stand by with your strengths
I love you both and I am sorry
My heart aches my eyes want to cry
Anger and other things cloud my tears
Now who do I talk to and visit
I miss you both and forever hold you
Close to my heart, close to us
We shall never forget those times we shared
And memories that were created follow me
Through both tradition and culture
I remain strong, I cry when I can
I am so tired fighting the unknown
And now I hold you both near my heart
And embrace in love and forgiveness
I miss you I miss you lots
And thank you for your love
I will cherish and hold those warm memeories
And walk in this world proud and tall
'Cause I was raised by strength, love, etc
Blindfold me as I walk this road and let go
Let go of the pain, let go of all bad
And bring forth as I continue on
The love and strength you both held
To keep this family together
We are all angry, have walked in all directions
I pray we will find that road that leads us back
To our family and put the past behind us
Remembering scars will always follow
Our love for mom and dad are the same
The strength they lead to our lives
Is what I want to remember
Thank you both for loving all of us
With no predjudice or racism
Thank you mom for your love
Thank you dad for your humor
i love you both forever and always
And this i carry to my daughter
Always keep your love strong
And remember how much you are love
Forever, always always! | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 8/10/2009 11:38:39 PM | The third grandparent...
I hardly knew you but will always remember your strength in the room at christmas, birthdays etc. The few years my daughter and I got to know you and we will both remember as the silent one yet your presence was strong filled with love for your entire family and grandchildren you smiled with great satisfaction as though you have lived your life to the fullest. Your love will always be remembered and the value of family to you was always something you held close to your heart. Thank you for the few years as we got to know you and thank you for loving my daughter as much as you did, she will remember one day and I will be there when she wants to talk about it. Her tears slowly trickling down her cheek yet still unsure and when we went to visit you on Father's Day I could tell she was grateful for your love as her tears trickled down her cheeks. Thank you for your gentle spirit and the love you passed on to all who walked with you. You will be missed and always remembered! Both my daughter and I will forever be grateful for your love! | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 8/16/2009 12:01:02 PM | Sunshine fills our room
The skies are blue and clear
I hear the breeze of the wind
And watch the trees dance
To the softness of my heart
Sounds of nature fulfill our presence
A child's voice in the background
Singing, dancing and smiling
The voice so cute and small
Giggles that make me smile
Life is precious and beautiful
It is what we create that brings forth
The love, kindness and friendly smiles
These are what makes us strong
Each time I leave the house
"I love you!" and stay safe
I want to see you again
Take care my family
And cherish each moment
Embrace the bad and surround it in love
You are always important to me
Forever and ever, always always!
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 10/30/2009 12:10:43 AM | Pitter Patter; Pitter Patter
Rain drops on my roof
Trees are blowing; clouds are grey
Pitter Patter; Pitter Patter
Each drop in its own form
Hitting the ground lightly or hard
Rain drenched hair, coat and feet
Is refreshing as each drop washes
My thoughts or worries away
Scattered drops fall to the ground
Remind me to settle and be calm
For each drop placed upon my being
Are being cleansed and washed away
Pitter Patter; Pitter Patter
Now I am ready to move forward! | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 10/30/2009 12:25:12 AM | | Each night I cross the dreams of inspiration and moving forth. I think about the needy and our homeless wondering where they are staying tonight as the rain pours down and windy. Are they safe, are they in a place of warmth, are they hungry or feeling lonely. Each person on the street has their own story and if we take the time to listen without judging or labeling there are stories of great strength and hope. Some stuck in a world of addiction, some who are trying to quit and some who are just out there because they have no home or family. They are people as we are but live in a whole new world with their rules and way of living. I see people out there who are like family and no matter what they still look out for one another. Addictions and Mental Health are the two main componenets who make up their world and some how they are alive and still moving forward after each fall taken. My prayers go out to our homeless and people living below poverty. Prayers to all the children, men, women, girls boys, seniors, etc may we all embrace in the light of love and stay safe tonight. | |
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| Just a thought thread and freelance writing
Posted: 11/4/2009 7:29:21 PM | Tonight I sit in joy as I reflect back on my life and how much I have grown over the years. I had a life filled of challenges and some how I got through it all. Each experience I encountered have helped me see who I am or how I react. Throughout our lives we do encounter situations and wonder what the heck how come I am here. It all starts off with stories of hope and dreams where at one time I did not have many positive things to say about myself at one time and today I can say positive.
It is funny as we watch our kids grow up how often I saw me and thought I need to change that because I did not notice really until my child acted out my attitude or actions. I want my child to grow knowing she is a good person inside and out and no matter what can get over the hurdles and walls created mostly by ourselves.
Now that both my parents are gone I see now what it is like to be out in a big world with no family behind me. I saw our family scatter in all directions and I don't even know if anyone is talking to one another. There was plenty of hurtful things passed amongst our family and we have all stuggled some where. I miss my mom and dad because I felt if it was not for the two we may never had all those Christmas etc together. I see a lot of fighting amongst our family and cannot help but wonder if we will ever come back together as family again.
I remember both my parents telling me that in order to find someone to truly love you you will need to knock those walls down and let people in. And they are right because there is one person in my life that I love very much yet I don't think they feel as I do and when I look at my past how many times did I allow myself to get hurt before moving on. But it all comes in our lives at one time where we feel so much for a person yet that person is not ready or feels the same. I know it has to do with my own self-confidence and forgiveness and maybe this person is trying but yet some how I am feeling incomplete. I can be hard on myself and know I create my life and what I make of it is how it turns out.
I need to just keep moving forward and one day I will have that person in my life. There are certain areas I need to work with in my life and first of all is to help my daughter grow up believing in herself knowing she is special in her own ways. As she becomes older I know I will be faced with challenges and I am going to love her back no matter what with my love for her. Secondly, it is really important for me to keep healing, follow my dreams and fulfill my goals. And to always remember there is some one out there for me who will be the one special person. I need to keep beleiving in myself and trust the processes that come my way.
These are my thoughts for today and one thing I want to say is to keep believing in yourself, follow your dreams and reach for the best always. Remember you are a beautuiful person inside and out and do not allow any one to tell you differently. We are our own successes and what we make in our lives is how it will look. There is no right or wrong in how we get our words out it is how we let them out. Are we doing it with love or anger or hatred. Are we allowing other people's feelings get in the way by allowing this to control us. | |
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