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Dreaming..~~~i seen what you had to say...i loved it..thank you for seeing me thru.....always seeing the who i am inside....i love you so much and holkd you true....come again.....anytime
Panic~~~Dont stress i heard your words and i undrstood of your rhyme....it happens sometimesthat people take wrong what is said...but i done think that is what my dear freind was doing....come back and lets all just love in art....its what we do so well.....
give me strgenth to sek the day
not a whisper of hate to stray
to run amongst the childrens play
and begin again with a past to lay
to see a smile
my my dear child
to hold and not cry even for a while
to one day hold true
to love again anew
to give my heart to someone new
that will not hurt nor cause me pain
one to hold my spul from the thunderous rain
someday i will love again
but for now my love is with the children that keep me sane....... | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 4:32:16 AM | As you say, your children
are the guardians of your sanity,
your proof against
so much of the vanity
of the world, against false
or cruel love, against the cheap
allure of wealth.
Kyle, Daniel, Cassidy:
may you go placidly
against the turmoil of the world.
Cassidy, Kyle, Daniel:
Love, love and live well!
Daniel, Cassidy, Kyle:
Bask forever in your mother’s smile!
And you, always beloved Savannah,
like the mannah
that fed the Israelites in the desert,
may you continue
to rain down on Lisa Anne
as she runs, sure and fast,
from the cruel Egypt
of her enslaving past... | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 12:16:16 PM | Favorites
To be favored among men
A starting place known for understanding
Always changing like tides, coming in and out
The knowing of being read, being watched
Being loved
Today, Yesterday, and Tomorrow
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Posted: 11/20/2006 2:28:46 PM | My dearest Alyosha....Thank you so much for your writing about my children....made me feel a weltering in my eyes....please come back to my home more often your always missed in here........love you
Erik.....your so great at your little pics you dramatize over.......And talk about putting a smile on my face when im feeling down..you always got that way about you dont ya.......
Tenz......as always...beautiful write.....short but sweet....Thank you ......
Living life
or life yet lead
believing in truth
once thought of as dead
Seeing the whole
in eyes of gold
trying to start again
in a past of horrific sin
standing tall with hands to hold
Fighting and fighting with strength so bold
Strength given with out haste
from the beauty of youthful faces
When i am down and nothing is right
i begin to stand again with all my might
wobbling legs trying to walk
Stuttering voice .... trying to talk
not comprehending anymore
not trying to figure out the "Why For"
Never knowing of why the past had to be
yet holding onto the thought of setting my heart free
For one day i will love again
One day i will feel from within
I will know of what love truely feels
One day i will breathe again when it heals
My heart is so vacant....yet it is the only way
To be able to stay
Strong today
without dismay
uttering rhymes of come what may
never to stray
from the chidlrens play
i will be me....
jsut wait and see
watch and be
for the love me for me
walking down the blue filed sea
beyond the sand and into the infinity
of what i will become and who will walk with me
down the sand...and into eternity.......truely set free...from the past of me........ | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 3:37:24 PM | Intense emotion
bloodthirsty sin
ravishing desire to creation
Unearthly satisfaction
internal suffocation
Holding truth beyond lie
becoming noones alibi
disguising the sanest eye
with covering of breathless sigh
why cant I
why cant i
Begin to breathe from inside
To hold back on tears ive cried
to discover love beyound disguised
masks that cover wicked lies
oh why the F*ck cant Love decide?
What love is? How it feels?
How to cope...in realitys wheels
To demand an answer to scarrs that heal
Too try to once again F*cking deal....
Love me or hate me....i dont care
i rhyme and reason with what I share
So do what you will.....I wont dare
judge the inspiration of rhymes unfair
In tune with sight
vivacious flight
internal fright
suffering delight
flooding from the night
into a mind of spite
sue me
love me
hate me
hold me
deny me
free me
push me
walk with me
to the edge of the blackened sea
to the brink of sanity
that i have found insatiably
in the hell that was left for me.......... | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 3:38:55 PM |
please come back to my home more often
Dear sweet Lisa, whether I visit your home here or not, I always feel at home in your friendship...
Jerry | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 4:16:20 PM | Crushed, fallen, tired
A utopian dream without a seam
Optimism lost, no longer admired
A potters discard never to be fired
Bring light a new
To hold
To grasp
To shape
To last
To tailor with you | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 4:25:02 PM | I swore that she would never see me cry
I vowed that she would never see the pain
Impossible promises, which like petals from the flowers he bought me
have withered and dropped, falling and pooling at my feet
as the insanity overcame me, my hysterical voice still ringing in my ears
two little arms reached up and a tiny voice cried
"No Mamma no"
"No cry"
"No"
There is no greater comfort then the arms of your child
As you look into their eyes and realize your true purpose...
We can never look to them to make us happy but nontheless, the unabashed joy
when we see their little faces can be matched by nothing else
No one can tell us how to grieve...
No one can take away the pain which pierces our shrouded heart
No one can set timelines for the mending of our soul...so
Bubbles take time
Grieve ...soar high...grieve again if this is what your weary heart needs
Seeking solace with those who obviously care so deeply
may you find happiness and peace | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 4:25:06 PM | What has love to do with definitions?
Is it “true love,” we ask or
“Will it last?” Is it a fling,
a one-night stand” Is it lust,
or a friendship with benefits,
an affair, a struggle for control...
Or you, who will know who you are
as you read this: what if
what there is between us
is
just
plain
undefined
love? | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 4:29:37 PM | I ran away from a past of uncertainty...
to start a new in a vast new sea...
away from tormented demons that be......
who have torched my soul in what they believed...
who destroyed all inkling of who once was me.....
i give and give and never receive..
i love and love
but that is what i have yet to perceive.....
I held true..
to ones i knew...
to ones i loved and cherished ..
oh but a few...
i have yet to know what it is ..
this thing called love.....
what is it..
truely.....
sent from above?...
or was it a myth ....
a puzzle yet solved?
a word someone made..
to cover the torment
of his own darkest shade....
was it some letters from a time in B.C.?
that was used to help
the parting of the red sea.....
in honesty....
in reality....
who knows
what it is that love should be.....
i never knew love
so how can i love one..?
how can i cherish
the rays of the sun?
how can i mend
with toxic rum...
running thru my veins
in courses undone......
i cannot love more than my babes...
they are who i truely save...
i love my heart
hold it there...
i give to them my words so fair....
i have loved but once
in the "Love" kind of way.....
but was it love?
no true way to say...
If love is hate and words untrue...
than love i had was not with you....
if love was fists that always threw..
than love was not indeed with you....
if love was spite and sleepless nights...
that life with you was no delight....
love with you has set me free..
to see....
me..
to hold true
to one day being able
to once again perceive..
in reality....
with chidrens eyes...
no alibis..
no tears to cry...
to pain to let subside...
no fear inside......
no lies to hide..
insatiable tides...
that turn the pride..
i once had in my heart
and there it died....
love with you
was nothing more
than life unsettled
to one day even the score....
vengence is mine
i once set it to rhyme...
but no more will i adore
a love untrue .....
a blackened shore...
with nothing left but a heart
to which you blackened to the core
only for me to now see
life settled so easily
in eyes that perceive
the true in me
the heart inside free
to be
a new sea
without fury
without hate you see
Love i will one day perceive
in eyes settled in tune with reality.................... | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 5:10:46 PM | Wind gusts in howling notion
storm nearing the vast black ocean
standing aware in the sand set free
from careless wonder and misery
awaiting the ship that holds the key
to setting a soul free to be
loving and kind in the deep blue sea
holding hope for what lays ahead
in indications intense dread
forgiving pasts tainted banks
giving in to say to loved ones ...thanks
for healing
for dealing
for setting my soul to feeling
once again to hold
to be bold
to let the past lay fold
never untold
giving in
to set again
on a journey without demons sin
on a way to start the day
with a childrens smile to simply say
a morning sun will return today
to lead us on the road at bay
in direction set to the right way
compass let go and reality beams
to love the eyes of the childrens dreams
to save my breathe from the harshest screams
i heal in ways unforeseen
in beauty of friends that hold my seems
in love of truth that is shown and beams
from friends i chersih.,.......love is not a dream............. | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 6:07:32 PM | loneliness...
True sadness envelops me
Not emotion disgraced
More of a true melancholy spirit
Knowing that life is somehow unfair
Slightly empty and unable to be
Standing alone without a presence
I must pour on go live my life
Lost in fear of my challenge ahead
I'm immobilized, sitting unable
Just emotions of knowing...
Knowing the final chapter
Seeing my emptiness written there
fear...
I long to not spend another night of solitude
The fear listens to my heartbreak
It is condident of my elimination
plea...
Can I please find companionship?
Can I please find tenderness to touch?
To rest my weary head on a pillow
comfort...
A pillow soft with down, crushed linen sheets
A blanket to sheild from view
A tender warmth from close contact
Arms for holding
Stretching across lands
Reaching forward offering solace
That feelings when held by strength
Strength that melts cold winter nights
A hot ember warming from delight
love...
Grandma passed in September,
Grandpa remained for many days stealing away life
He passed in October
Never alone on his way home | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 6:29:34 PM | bubblez burst
with joyeous laughter
children play
and blow another
hey........
thats mommy
she's so pretty...........
pop.
but never mind
silly troubles
lets play some more
cause we love..............bubblez. | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 7:48:59 PM | - MAY THE FARCE BE WITH YOU! -
I sense a disturbance in the Farce
Is it my son Poetic Friend?
Nope it's Princess Bubblez of course
AlYoda warned her once again!
That's okay for she's such a doll
As even a Sith can so see
Tenz Solo and SewBacca do call
To help with setting her free
SaltThreePeeOh and R-Tim-D-Tim
Both are standing by now
While OM-iwan his chances are slim
Now to Darth Erik he'll bow
I hear Poet Skywalker screaming
As from his robes OM-iwan fades
Of deep revenge he is dreaming
The Dark side my son it bades!
Who will save Princess Bubblez?
When the Deathstar comes into view?
She knew this was going to be troubles,
So Poet, May the farce be with you!
- Darth Erik - Muah Hah Hah Hah!  | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 8:40:34 PM | Episode IV.II versicle I
"The Empire has a lot of fun"
It is quite true
Dad Vader, for I'm your son
the farce I'm gonna parse
for I sense too much fun
Princess Kiss-a-Bubblez is secure
Tenz Solo is guarding her quite well
but attacks of laughter they'll endure
for your migthy wit is as fun as hell
I'll have to look for Alyoda's support
and to OM-iwan wisdom I shall resort
for this farce is felt ever strong
I need R-Tim-D-Tim and SaltThreePeeOh to come along
Yes you heard me screaming
for much trouble I had
making of this episode a good rhyming
Your naughty arts are a big temptation
and when dealing with you I almost pee
but for now Princess Kiss-a-Bubblez is saved
for the farce in now with me!
Darth Erik how you dare to challenge me this way!!!
...I cann't stop laughing! You are damn good!
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Posted: 11/20/2006 8:56:06 PM | I'de challenge you with my Sabre,... but Bubblez keeps borrowing it! She said it reminds her of something,... hmmmmmmmmmm wonder what?
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Posted: 11/20/2006 9:05:45 PM | I can not lend my sabre to princess Bubblez for she's my sista,
...but she fights real good
so your sabre will be discharged so soon!
But find first your respirator you'll need it! | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 9:17:38 PM | Alyoda and OM-iwan have taught you well young Skywalker, but now son prepare to experience the awe and power of the dark side,... we even have Kit Kat bars son! Yes,... that's right KitKats! Now what will you do?
Oh yes,... and if you try to take another one before dinner I will slice off your other hand! I know what you are thinking,... cutting off your hand was evil! Especially since you are right handed! Now you shall have to use the left when watching Tenz Solo's Holo-porn collection!
Sewbacca is still laughing about that one!
- Darth Erik - | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 9:18:17 PM | Roberto - Erik:
Hell it's almost (not really) funner when she doesn't watch her house, party crashing dudes...
To the point of tears.... laughter....
Tenz Solo | |
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Posted: 11/20/2006 9:48:53 PM | -Holographic Porn!- (aka, naked bubblez on a droids lap)
Little naked images sitting atop R-Tim-D-Tim
In a little flicker of light set in prisms
Princess Kiss-a-bubblez lying naked and forlorn
Images of droids doing double deeds
Naughty little thang sitting atop R-Tim-D-Tim
SaltThreePeeOh shakes an alloy head (but which one)
Wondering if a threesome is possible
Sewbacca claiming innocence but seen as well
straddling Panic-Gon Jinn in a most devilish way
Alyoda contemplating the scene before him...
Steals away to a private cryo pod to take care of some unfinished business...
Holographic Porn is just that GRAPHIC, and not so holy
lesson: turn out the lights before jumping into a space orgy | |
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Posted: 11/21/2006 8:22:27 AM | Sitting with blank paper
I sit decomposing
I express my thoughts
Alone screaming to be heard
I’m not him
I didn’t beat you
Not with arms like guns
Arms like a blacksmith
Strong, skilled, daring, alive
Arms of a father that holds his babies as grace from God
Not arms and fists of rage toward ones we love
But arms and fists of rage to turn back evil
To beat the living sh!t out of imposters
Men who break the code of ethics
The code that says you crossed the line
Any self respecting man knows what that rule is
To never hurt the ones God entrusted us with
Am I right? You know of what I speak my brothers
That you don’t brutalize the mother, and the child
That is to be scorn, that is to be vanquished
That is to be ridiculed, that is to be cast aside
That is to be killed, for anger I have is deep
But focused
My role as protector allows me the liberty
To have anger but use it correctly
Not to cause pain with my words
But to expose evil
Many here wish to be lovers
Many here are only brothers
You know where I stand
But understand that I lead
An army united for you
As brothers and sisters we have your back
Many here are endeared to you
Because they see what you have overcome
Your bleeding heart within, your beauty shining still
We might collectively be phantom pixels on your screen
But we are a strong army of heart and words
Here for you
My staggered stanzas sit in chaos
While my mind sits idly by
My honesty of thought should prove interesting
To see what my heart yields
Without pretense of pride and deliverance
Without a home for my heart I ponder…
Why does she call in the middle of the night?
With expectations of me being there
I’ve sat alone for 14 days
After numerous calls of concern and desperation
Then to call me out of the blue, confusion
Don’t misconstrue, I am not angry
I am so happy that you called
Very nice to talk
Feels like an old friend who knows me
I just wonder how it is that you know me?
But I feel you do
When we talk it’s like you have been there forever
I wonder if the comfortable nature with which we feel
Offers us a chance to feel like maybe at some point we have met
Perhaps in a different life
I know I believe in that
My daughter is truly my sister from a previous life
My sister that died
And I sat alone without her for my whole life
Until Elizabeth was born to replace my sister
She was Elizabeth as well
I don’t know why that is important for you to know
But I know pain and overcome daily
So please listen to us when we offer our love
The wise patriarch said this morning what you need to hear
Listen to him as he sees further that we can
No direction for these thoughts just meant to explain
Feelings, intentions, and concern
And little about me | |
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Posted: 11/21/2006 2:20:52 PM | ~~Thanks to all for their contributions...not feeling too good today...sinus bullsh*t is killing me....i hate this dam season.....well ill try another and see how it goes......here goes nothing.....
To say unto some
of what life has done
to an internal soul
left feeling the toll
of helplessness
still with unselfishness
laying in bones so cold
yet standing tall and bold
listening to hearts in rhyme
of friends who give love that shines
thruout the test of time
to try and try to make my soul mine
to give a spirit hope yet to find
no feelings, intentions nor concerns
just watching chaos seemingly burn
never giving promises yet holding to words
yet feeling worthless and sometimes absurd
It is so easy to
so many yet so few
of how to make a life abused
come back and heal from past accused
not so easy to what does lay
in front of one with hopes that sway
in the wind and day after day
yet sometimes still holding to yesterday
the death of demons way
to a heart and soul of undecay
now trying to fight
to give life
without strife
dropping the knife
for a chidlrens smile
every once in a while
knock of the door
to even the score
of one who adorn
see.....still runs thru
my head like it used to
not so much any more than once knew
hard to let go of realistic and true
in a heart unglued
I will learn
i will yearn
for a turn
to feel love without burn
i will someday open up my heart
to give it a new start
at a life torn apart
by ones bloody fists that dart
I will begin again
without repetitive sin
from a healing of within
without enemies to win
a soul to conquer a frown to a grin
from where i am and where i have been
i am a mother.....first and foremost
i give to them the extravagant toast
of a hand shaken yet stirred in the coast
of a vengeful sea
of who i could be
childrens hearts that be
truely free
from demon~ocracy
From Hellish truths in
eyes that see
the parting of the sea
for one as me
Red.....sea
bloodthirsty
for healing it must be
whether wrong, right, or proven insatiably
I indulge in the fact of my sanity
i am me.....Fvck those who dont see
Fvck those who care nothing but selfishly
i will not indulge in ones ignorancy
i will only love as i sit and watch scooby
with chidlrens laughter amongst me
with Dora, blues, and tom and jerry
Garfield enters with odie in tow
Smurfette still conquers the gigantic Bow
Miss Piggy still stealing the show
Spongebob bashing Squidwards toe
Fairly Oddparents being the last to know
Kenny always first to go.....
I will give to my children
A lifetime of loving sensation
Vibes of truth without the lies
no countless wondering of alibis
from a father who destroyed thier eyes
to see the future without the cries
We will sit
for a bit
WIth love
from above
to shine
on our time
as i rhyme
of their loving kind
THEY are who i hold true
THEY are the only ones i choose
To love uncondtional with eyes so blue
leaving the past to stay
Leading them into a pleasant day
tuckig them in to start a dream
withot the vicious nightmares that stream
into their minds and out with screams
To awake with beauty from faces that gleam
they are my love .....my only true stream............ | |
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Posted: 11/21/2006 3:22:39 PM | How do i put into words
the thoughts..
that roam in my forsaken mind.....
how do i put into sentences
with out feeling ignorant
how i feel...?
I feel as if life
has taking a utter detour
to find its own sanity....
though it feels
as if i am ready
for the happiness to overcome
my eternally forgotten spirit...
i am so scared
to do over the darkness
that once overcame our lives....
not to say it will not be different
this time...
or that the past is to be forgotten
and it will never again return..
but i am just so enthralled
in the thought of happiness...
i am so eager
to have the things
in life
that women smile about
day in and day out
as they walk down the street
drive past in their cars......
i have always wondered
what it would truely be like
to have something to cherish....
to feel the same in return....
to have something that i
have lived without my entire life....
so why is it i am
scared to death of just that?
why is it i seem
to be trying so hard
to push all the light out
to stay in my dark
torment of hell
that i lived in for so long now?
i love to have love...
i have found peace
with the torment that was thrown our way..
i have found peace
with the hell that we once lived in
with the lonely road
that we once walked upon....
i have forgiven
but damn well will never forget...
i will forever have the scars
internally and externally
to follow me in my days of breathing.....
am i scared
because of what i have become....?
am i scared
that life is what it is
nothing more than what it has been all along?
am i waiting for the damned to enter again ......
after so long?
the happiness to oversee for a while ....
and the torment to come hurdling our way again........
am i that damned scared
of what life has to offer?
am i that overcome with the past
that i am now forever
going to look at every inch
of happiness as something
that will change into hell once begotten?
will i ever have happiness?
i am happy ....
for now.....
but the feelings still haunt
my uneasy mindset.........
the pain of the past
still continues to thrive
in my wake of living
to the point that i sit
waiting for the hell
to become once again....
I await a smile that turns my darkness...
yet i wait for the day that smile turns as well...
i wait in my patience for
the hate and pain
to come from a smile and be thrown at us.....
why do i do this?
did keith damage me beyond repetition?
did he honestly
destroy all i have left of sanity to happiness........
am i forever
going to feel this same way?
that will be a lonely road in
itself if true.........
it will mean i will forever be alone.......
i will constantly push away
the happiness in fear of the turmoil........
i will always expect hate over happiness........
i will always fear a raised voice
over a simple laugh........
how can i deal with this........
i have been so happy ...
or so i thought.......
or so I have effortlessly trued so hard to do....
as of late........
things beginning again.......
day by day starting anew.......
day by day beginning again.........
so why is it i feel this way today .........?
i dont understand........
i look in the mirror
and see the joy brought into my eyes........
only to look away
to feel the fear growing inside........
why?
am i doomed in my mindset?
Am I lost forever due to this?
if not then why?
is it the pain of the past that consumes me?
therapy.....
faith........
dispostition.......
but where am i.........
who am i?
what do i do to heal.........
i thought i was healing........
healed..........
onlyt o think as ido today........
to write
and make all see me as a raving lunatic........
at least i have one safe thing to believe in........
i hold no love
for the tormentor of my mind........
i despise the one
i once cherished beyond my own life..........
and i hold true to jsut that........
i will fight this overwhelming feeling........
i will destroy the hate
the fear bestowed upon me.....
i will overcome........
i will........
i will.......
i will heal.............lisa anne | |
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