| | Bubblez, Bubblez...flying aimlessly...yet alone...Page 30 of 39 (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39) | ~~Simple thoughts unmeasured...~~
Thoughts prevail of yesterday..
simple tears from pas deceit..
how to begin when all else fails..
how to start again ..
when all i think of is just that...
i sleep..
he is there....
i think..
he is there...
i stare..
his face i do see...
how can i daydream .
of happiness preservation..
when the past cannot defeat..
cannot escape the torturous tides..
that bind...
the hellish fury ....
that kills me still to this day....
a fake smile painted on a alabaster face...
trying to conceal the fear.
the tears.
the pain...
instilled with a fist...
with a comatosed version of .......
the afterlife...
i see my babies and smile...
i laugh when it hurts to hold back the tears...
yet i do it..
for them...
for the fact of them not seeing the pain......
i hate him...
i fvcking hate him..
for destroying the who and what i am....
the who and what i used to be....
knowing all too well..
i had a love again...
far away...
miles to cross..
the perfect whisper upon a blackened smear....
in mind..in sight...in passion..
all sitting there...
for me to walk away...
to save his very soul....
from my very own decay...
i cannot wander on feet that cannot balance..
i will not begin to try..
when inside i still seem to vividly cry....
with a mind that is destined to be alone...
i sit in simple thoughts unmeasured yet set in stone...
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...flying aimlessly...yet alone...
Posted: 2/8/2007 2:34:12 PM | ~~To feel as I do~~
I feel...
again ...
inside.....
though strain
and misery
are apparent ..
thru my deepseeded
blue grey eyes.....
I sit here alone....
sickness entombing
my perilous abyss.....
Wondering if
truely
one day .....
I will find
truth
amongst
so many
others happiness.....
my chidren
make me smile...
their tears
are my own....
They make it easy
for me
to wake up
everyday
work till dawn....
yet why is it
I still feel so down....
I cannot comprehend
why
I cannot
uplift my unearthly frown....
Not trying
to rhyme here...
yet seems
like I am...
I am merely
releasing
the inner most
demons within....
I am not
a harsh reality
to others
perilous toils.....
I am who i am...
as i say
so many
times....
I will not
change...
for anyone....
I will find
again
the light
of my times......
I am awaiting
the surrender
of my heart to another....
yet where is
that someone....?
The one I can love
unlike any other....
most say...
take your time....
in time things will get better.....
I understand the meanings
of these words.....
Yet I still sit alone
in unscathed weather..........
wondering if in my darkness
a light will shine thru.....
when, where and how....
is the answer
to the riddling clue....
i will stand here alone....
or sit alone if you may......
I will continue to strive
awaiting the love that will come my way.....
Am I too petty?
Am I asking for too much?
Am I wanting a little more than I should?
All I ask is for the gentlest of a touch....
The one with the insight....
intelligence of a mind....
Who touches me insatiably ...
His soul intertwining mine.....
A gentle easy touch.....
no hate, rage or fury.....
Showing what I waited so long for....
how to love and how to believe......
pain is a constant
thuderous peril in my eyes......
Never knowing what it feel likes
to love...
yet knowing all to well
how it dies.......
So I sit here alone.....
lying...
thinking last night...
how to find my own self a home......
To have a life of utter happiness.....
or to enrich
what I have yet to be shone..............
Come to me quietly...
enter so lightly into my space......
Endearing touch
of a beautiful angelic face..........
no mere disgrace.........
Love me for me
not what you want me to become.........
So together we can begin
a lifetime
with the past
laying undone...........................Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...flying aimlessly...yet alone...
Posted: 2/8/2007 5:47:23 PM | ~~in a sisters care~~
Dearest dear....how can i deal..
when inside i cry yet i cannot feel..
how do i shelter a mind set in steel....
when with a shelter a door should help heal...
i cannot comprehend the feelings i endure...
all i know is the love tainted so pure....
so true in the thoughts and feelings of one..
yet knowing to try is giving a bullet to my gun....
knowing it is best to walk away undone..,
to save his soul and live my life numb....
yet sister dearest....i cannot help but cry...
i sit in the blackened doorway with no answers to why....
why i am intent on being lonely with no means to fly...
never to walk hand in hand ...
on the beach with our toes in the sand..
to look back at the battered house standing there...
as he holds me in his arms and we both dream in constant stare...
of the way it will be when our home is built for five.....
the walls set in ripples of years decaying strive....
though now knowing in our own minds as we see...
the beauty imperfection of the home of capabilty....
the roof of unjust reason set upon a blackened sea...
thru perils and torment of years of scrutiny...
yet this is where my mined doth lay....
in a mind yet sane .... with a continuing tear to stray...
with feet yet balanced...on an awkward sway....
what is it i can call a life filled with dismay..?
dearest sister...my true to life friend...
how oh how can i truely mend...
when in my own broken heart i only think of him?
when in my eyes i see his slight of grin..
yet i walked away...
not trying to stay......
thought it was best on that hatefilled day.....
as to not pierce his soul with my very own decay....
yet was i right to do as i dare?
For now i am in need of a simple sisters care.....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...flying aimlessly...yet alone...
Posted: 2/8/2007 6:29:01 PM | Darling sister
DO whatever it takes
you to smile
the pain is struggle
ordeals to make you strive
if they can't handle that
....love me....
and love shines out of you
for you know the warmth of sand between your toes
savor it
or kick it away
it's your life
never look back
open your eyes to the sea
and scream
turning back to life
it's not a mistake to love
...again
.....again and again
one or a thousand lovers
there's only one true love
sending his soul to you
.......listen to your heart
don't tear it up
hear your mind?
who is telling you play martyr
put heart and mind together
let your soul fly
allowing the fear behind
go and live...1001
JUST live
and answers come in YOUR time
kindred souls…
in friendship and true love
It’s time for a cuppa tea
Oh forget it, sometimes I get sick of
Playing lady
so let me open this bottle of bubbles
it’s time we discussed the first hundred lovers?
….their BIG ….
And I mean HUGE
……………….......……egos got in the way
Time for a second glass?
 | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...flying aimlessly...yet alone...
Posted: 2/8/2007 7:54:32 PM | ~~A wish unforeseen~~
I wished one day upon a star.
flying high with no holds barr...
that one day my heart would mend...
and to me a love would descend....
i wished upon the starry night....
that he would come and wash away my fright...
that he would cure my countless fight...
to find reason in an insane minds eyes held tight....
I wished and wished and wished some more....
to have his eyes peer into my core..
thru my blue grey beams he would adore...
as he banished the thoughts of a bloodstained floor....
I wished for love to set me free...
to make me once again become me...
the who and what i used to be...
before the death defying blackened sea..
now there is only a vengefilled fury...
eating at my soul insatiably.....
I wished upon the man on the moon...
to please heal my nightmarish doom....
hurry hurry hurry soon...
come and take away the unkind tune...
I wished upon the starry nights shy...
to never again have the past make me cry....
to take away the insatiable demise...
that haunts my soul and neve rlets me fly....
for all i see is how i can die...
upon the floor with a bullet in my eye....
So i simply say with words so clean...
i had a wish ....a wish unforeseen...........
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….in your heart’s torment....
Posted: 2/8/2007 8:16:22 PM | As you sit in the darkness of your heart’s torment
Remember nothing comes easy that’s not easily spent
Longing and wishing won’t make dreams come true
Raking your mind won’t make answers come through
If you take this great cross that you bear
And bury it deep and don’t let it stare
Through heart and your cavernous soul
It won’t bear you down or take its toll
Then you’ll conquer this torturous pain
Crushing it down in defeating distain
Sending you down life’s corridor
To happiness and treasures…to the one you adore
~ | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/8/2007 10:58:32 PM | A beautiful wish has just begun
Plummeting down before the rising sun
A star is falling in the dark of night
Stealing the sky through pale moonlight
Finding its way to a gentle muse
Taking away the pain of confuse
Clearing her soul and mending her heart
Bring her life a beautiful new start
A life a beauty without all the pain
No fighting or blacken sea to tame
Taking away all cascading tears
Wiping away all blacken smears
Bringing her joy, touching her skin
Kissing her lightly, her heart beating within
A smile is permeating, her expression dear
Wiping away all of her fear
Now the star shines bright in her eyes
The fear, the pain, bad memories die
Leaving her with nothing but grace
And a beautiful smile upon her face
~ | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 6:09:44 AM | ~~Holding on to sublime light~~
To say in the least of what i feel..
is to lie bold face and never again heal...
i cannot..
i willnot..
consume myself with love..
for the feelings i HAVE cut too deep....
i am now pushing them out...
the feelings i felt..
for they are not true..
they are but...
mere insanities slip...
into a reality of fiction..
upon this pixelated screen..
how to be so inthralled by a set of eyes..
never truely seen...
a touch of skin..
never truely felt...
knowing all too well that sanity needs to come..
that slipping on balanced feet ..
is too incureable than not....
to read and read and read some more....
of love lost in lustfilled savors...
thoughts prosed in fine rhyme...
beautifully written for another....
my time exceeded and now decapitated...
for the best...
for the factor of...
"Saving a life..."
Greys Anatomy could not save us....
No room for more pain than what has been dealt...
to throw stones and say words..
to hold true to the torment vanquished...
i will walk this lonely road of imprisonment....'
as i started...
alone....
no place to call my own..
no space left for finding the truth behind love.....
for that is what i cannot endure....
what i cannot be entitled to...
love...
for a past as i have led....
has taken the ropes from my hand...
upon the great steed....
as it has made me into who i am today.....
vengeful...
encompanied by a demons curse...
and insanities slip....
yet a slip of constant sorrow...
for it is what i have to be....
it is what i was expected to become....
alone.....
No place ot call my own...
no space left for finding the truth behind love....
for that is what i cannot endure...
yet why is it...
i still hold onto the littlest reasonability....
of sublime light..............
a curse........
imperfection of a minds eye....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 9:45:13 AM | ~~Language thru thoughts...~~
Language protruding thru ...
a mind...
unto a wall...
left in uncallous scrolls...
words of wisdom...
love...
dread..
plastered by so many...
with mindsets...
free...
healed..
loving..
hatefilled...
full of pain....
thru eyes....
blue...
green...
brown...
hazel...
mixtures of many...
upon alabaster skin....
blood stains remain...
yet heal in words of friendship...
truth..
honesty..
blunt ravishing voices....
sometimes taken out of context...
yet only used to release..
heal...
to become once again...
humane...
in the sense of sanities break...
upon an insanities slip...
thru a fiction reality...
thrown into a language...
a language thru thoughts....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 10:00:31 AM | Intense emotion
bloodthirsty sin
ravishing desire to creation
Unearthly satisfaction
internal suffocation
Holding truth beyond lie
becoming noones alibi
disguising the sanest eye
with covering of breathless sigh
why cant I
why cant i
Begin to breathe from inside
To hold back on tears ive cried
to discover love beyound disguised
masks that cover wicked lies
oh why the F*ck cant Love decide?
What love is? How it feels?
How to cope...in realitys wheels
To demand an answer to scarrs that heal
Too try to once again F*cking deal....
Love me or hate me....i dont care
i rhyme and reason with what I share
So do what you will.....I wont dare
judge the inspiration of rhymes unfair
In tune with sight
vivacious flight
internal fright
suffering delight
flooding from the night
into a mind of spite
sue me
love me
hate me
hold me
deny me
free me
push me
walk with me
to the edge of the blackened sea
to the brink of sanity
that i have found insatiably
in the hell that was left for me..........
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 10:05:51 AM | ~~Just shelter my sanity~~
Shelter me from the edge of the sea...
as the fierce pounding waves crash upon me..
shelter me from the simplicit thoughts disenigrating unfree...
hold my hand as i fall into the collape of infinity...
the swirling motion of a life of unease..
the undying notion of lonliness indeed....
i am nothing but mere pain in somes eye...
the killing of a soul without an alibi...
the letting go of love when there is nothing left to do but cry....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 1:03:37 PM | .
.
...and I will live.
Caressed by moonlight I am comforted by the lonely howl...
..of thy silver wolf in distance I cannot see...
A call unto winds summoning forth thy breathren rise...
..echoing from peaks of shimmering white...
...from places masked by shadow's light...
Deeper gaze thy fire sitting held by dancing flame...
Recalling past as seeing future held an awe...
Voices resound a clearer picture seen as drift away...
...that place of me...
Joining now with nights release I stare a sky of silver eyes...
I am serenity this home away...
None to see nor touch upon this spirit one...
...a single tear of Peace...
...and I will live this place of silenced dreams of plight...
....as fly yon moon with lonely howl...
.....for my breathren is final casting image in mirror...
......I am this as me as nothing more...
...I smile...
....I whisper words unto myself...
.....They are sacred ones for only me...
......Their meaning is my purpose...
drift away that place of dancing flame...
for the lonely howl is my own...
...yet...
It is brought forth by this voice my own...
....and always....
I will remember...
My purest strength is Me.......
..T.. | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 4:25:29 PM | shelter me home
Posted: 2/10/2007 7 58 PM
~~Foolish love~~
Foolish love...falsified truths..
thru true eyes that see...
admiration of nothingness...
true to fault....never allowing in love...
for one piece to the jigsaw puzzle...
is a missing key to unlock a heart....
vanquished in sorrow .....
hatred filled rage..
never to let me be...be free....be true..
never to heal in a minds eyes....
never to again love in a simple prose..
nor rhyme...
nor thought....
why being truth to letting go of the ONE...
to heal his sorrow...
from a heart as my own...
that would consume so much ...
and leave hope blackened like....
..............the burnt sulfur of a match....
love is what? love in me?
had it...been there....
........done that...yet did i truely?
I will not heed to shedding light of what was done...
for ONE knows too well of why and how my heart cannot be mended...
only simply put in words thrown...
.....needing to know...
love is there....always to be there....
in a heart so pure...
....as once a muse in his eyes.....
yet would rather be hated .....
than put hate from my own soul....
...unto him....
to put more pain ...
unto a love....
a love so pure....
....never to be tainted....
now only left there in a past....
not long ago.....
a past that can keep that pure...
untainted love........REAL.....infinitly......
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez…Bubblez….a beautiful smile....
Posted: 2/10/2007 6:48:19 PM | ~~Hate me ~~
Hate me...
dont fold on that truth....
for thoughts of you ...
i try to block so uneasily....
Blue October sings in the midst...
of a silent tomb that i sit upon..
in the corner of the box i call home...
with my head in my own hands...
i cry tears of solace...
for this is the only way i know how...
to get you out of my head....
to write...
to release..
what we do so often than not...
yet to each other ....
it only makes sense...
as a muse...
comes and goes...
a new one walks the thin line...
between sanitites wake...
and realitites base..
yet in our very own...
two hearts...
whether twenty years from today...
or twenty years from yesterday ...
the love poured thru simple prose...
will be ours to cherish...
thruout timeless fashion...
of a criminal minds eye....
thru words from...
lips of an angel.....
to hate me today...
it will be there...
whether thru an awaken thought...
or a solitudal slip...
a dream like state..
or a nightmares invasion....
netiher of us...
can get over the love...
the pain..
the heartache...
of letting go...
and letting live...
without the hurt of a pasts contemptment...
Love for you will last..
thruout times infinite cluster....
the view of the beach...
with our battered walls of a home...
will be in our own minds eye....
when we least expect it...
though good bye was not easy....
it was what i needed to do...
to save your own soul....
to make sure you never had to...
feel the anger and versatility i must live with...
the lonliness that prevails thru bloodstained tears...
never to do to you what was done to me...
never to bring torment into your own misery...
i bowed and walked away...
the wrong way to do just that...
yet is ... in the end...the best...way...
the best way ....
hate me....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...into the ocean....
Posted: 2/11/2007 1:24:54 AM | I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down~~~~~~~*playing in the back ground*
We fall to this ocean
Floating in a forward motion
Looking for the one to call
Instead we write upon this wall
Scribbling words for one to read
Profoundness of the hearts that bleed
Wanting to desperately bury the pain
Longing to love…be normal again
But can we ever begin to start
Or even let one in our heart
And open up what once was lost
Never to worry of the cost
To live with one side by side
Openly exposed with nothing to hide
These are thoughts that come to mind
Each and every other time
That I think I’m coming close
To the things I miss the most
| |
|
| Bubblez
Posted: 2/11/2007 2:39:38 PM | painful of course to see you move on and grow
or to watch me move in a new direction in my heart
I have very high standards, I hold you in high esteem
you opened pieces of my armor and tore away at my shield
My wish for you:
Dance in the water with a loving man
one that cries, and tells you, "you're gorgeous"
tell him daily what he means to you
hold him in high in your thoughts, go to HIM when sad
don't do this alone anymore....
grab a soul quickly, the pond is rich with old souls
for even one with 300 favorites need the "one"
bubblez
it is time to grow, with a caring man.... who already loves you
give him your heart... don't be afraid
you only need to look within your home on POF
to see the man of your dreams that you have overlooked
with eyes closed and fixed on my dream, you've missed many gems....
offer yourself.....
put down the elusive muse...
embrace a heart before you live alone the rest of your years...
I could list the "good men" here who want to love you
but you know that list....
now do u get my gist....?
(you deserve the best, and your love and care for me is understood, I care for you as well)
-Tenz | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...into the ocean....
Posted: 2/11/2007 2:41:08 PM | ~~Self Destruction~~
Once again...
one more time...
i knew all too well what i would do.....
seeing things getting too close...
seeing things becoming a lil more than perfect ...
that is when i self destruct....
but why?
i have no answer to that....
I am who i am as i say so often than not....
though who is that exactly.....?
someone who cannot let in the perfect whisper....
of a man that lights my darkness and helps me heal...
knowing that with liquor pouring thru my veins so flawlessly ...
i will destruct...
make it that much easier to run afterwards....
why did i do just that?
because its what i am now...
thats why.....
its who i am and what i am true to...
destined to be nothing more than alone....
for a past yet tattered and scarred...
is what i will continue to suffer from......
it is what it is and it is dead now.....
though why is it that way?
I have figured out one thing of my life as of now....
it is meant to be that i walk this road alone.....
a lonely road to walk upon..
yet it is what i am to become.....
it is my destiny to do just that....
for it is what i do best of all.....
when one gets too close to my soul..
for he had my heart...
yet my soul was next....
and close he was to that....
so easy for me to be what i am not........
Just enter my insanities slip once again....
Total Self~Destruction.....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...into the ocean....
Posted: 2/11/2007 3:00:39 PM | You are what you decide you are! Nothing more and nothing less. We put our own limitations on our own lives by the creed that we choose to live by in all decisions that we make and adhere to.
---Robert  | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...into the ocean....
Posted: 2/11/2007 3:36:31 PM | as they flowed in a comforting pace....
No rhyme nor reasonable distaste....
just two hearts now torn apart in disgrace....
for one had to run faster in the race...
Comforting knowledge inside a ravishing eye...
tears flowing immensely for love lost the cry...
wish i may wish i might has no home in her sigh....
she is altered...uneasy spirit left to die.....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...cascading tears....
Posted: 2/12/2007 7:49:42 AM | ~~Learning to live~~
How to survive what kills the most...
the lonliness inside ....
......for what i have put upon my own self....
the knowing all along .....
.......I would do just that to kill what made me smile.....
for fear is consumed by me....
......no more than less....
fear is a constant stake thru my soul......
always convinced in the worst to be....
.....never to see what is there ...
right there in fornt of my face.....
.....I loved and lived....
Yet i died the same way.....
......I broke down the walls....
Yet built them again two times thicker....
.....For i am one who is condemned ....
by thoughts...
pictures....
deja vu of his touch....
his kiss....
thinking all along he is not the one....
....though knowing in my heart he is.....
more than that......
......yet a second chance....
he seems to not be able to give....
to me.....
...for i killed our love....
i see that.....
.....torched his soul the other night....
as i do so well.....
......no way for him to help me heal...
he runs.....
...leaves me standing on unbalanced sanities tide.....
Do i blame him?
.....cant say i do....
i am what was made of me....
once a smile was common to be seen....
.....then destroyed into a slight of grin....
made into irreconciable tears.....
set in ways cascading thruout time.....
whether inside i cry.....
.....or outside i smile....
either way....
...i cannot find myself again.....
I am lost in emotional unstability.....
.....asking too much.....
for if love truely did prevail .....
if our kisses were meant to him as much as myself...
....if my touch made him shiver as his did to my flesh....
then and only then....
.....would he see....
the painstaking notion....
that i was not myself.....
apologies cannot cover what was done....
....though in my own minless insanity....
i have no clue to jsut that....
......all i know of is what is there.....
what i miss more now than two hours apart.....
......what we shared was immense....
irreplaceable....
......at least to my own eyes........
I would give a last breath to salvage what was shared.......
......if reversible....
second chance to him would be given....
.....though love is one sided.....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...cascading tears....
Posted: 2/12/2007 4:22:10 PM | ~~I seem to.....~~
I seem to throw away all that comes towards me...
...i push it out....
leave it blackened...
....its what i do best.....
is it because of a past so torturous?
....is that why i am destined to be alone...?
because i cannot comprehend present form past....
.....knowledge from reality base....?
i had love once again.....
...he touched me and my flesh screamed....
he kissed me and my breath was taken by his......
......yet i torched the love we shared....
i pushed him away....
....i had to....
to save my own soul from horror yet again....
...to save his heart from my vengence internally.....
i will never be who i once was....
.....accepting that is key....
yet i stand here in solace on what i threw away.....
.....i searched and searched and found one....
a simplicit voice that echoed around me.....
......an arm that holds me thruout the night...
waking in that same way.....
,........together......
now he enters too close to my wretched soul.....
.....so i let the demons engulf my sensibility....
i let him see someone not of my own person....
.....a rage filled phycho.....
no way to band~aid fix this lost love....
.....he is gone....
never forgotten....
....for he is who opened my heart to see a light....
to see that a light can truely enter...
.....into this solemn darkened abyss.....
...........called a soul.....
I love you Bri......
..........Im sorry for being who i am not just to watch you leave.....
.................im sorry........
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...from up above....soaring beautifully like a dove...
Posted: 2/12/2007 9:49:17 PM | If you release…you’re bound to let go
Of the torment only you well know
For there is no magic potion
To release your hate’s pure devotion
Nothing happens without due time
But when it does you feel sublime
Of a world you will beautifully feel
Something so wonderful, so truly real
In time life’s pain will fade away
Leaving only the sun’s bountiful ray
A gift from your young angel’s eye from above
From the heavens where she flies like a dove
Gliding over you, gently gracing your heart
Directing and healing you towards a new start
She has taken you this far
She will bring you the one, no holes barred
But you have to learn to let go
Of the torment only you well know
| |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...infinite drop upon the blackened sea.....
Posted: 2/13/2007 2:15:40 PM | ~~A Simple Valentines Wish~~
What does one say of chaos consumed within...
when a Valentine is not perceived...
Not I perceived as such a way...
as with ability to love...
for when love graces my face....
with a kiss sent from above...
from the stars....
from the wish i may state of mind..
that exists only in fairytales come true..
it is then that i implode...
i surround myself with a barrier....
only to throw hate ..
never meant...
yet done it is....
i extradite the blackest of darkness...
i inhale the poisonous smoke...
only to exhale it into the face of love....
for this is a simplicit way to make him let go....
as to him not feeling the pain i endure...
thru a tearfilled face....
internally.....
every minute...
of every hour...
of every day....
with a smile...
and a sigh....
i still have the rage instilled....
i still stand on feet yet firm to the ground....
He was what i wished for...
only to force him away....
to make him cry....
to make him be "Done"...
with what we shared...
with our kisses that melted our hearts as one...
with our sweet caresses...
meshing our flesh in completion....
yet this Valentines day...
a day of just that....
Love....
I wish for one thing....
A chance to show him...
the love instilled....
a chance to show him.....
that I am not what was perceived...
though of what he seen..
.......I have no idea to jsut that....
all i know is ....
....not me.....
this Valentines Day.....
A simple wish....
....to have my Baby......
with arms wrapped gently around my waist....
and a gentle kiss upon my face....
~~Bubblez | |
|
| Bubblez, Bubblez...infinite drop upon the blackened sea.....
Posted: 2/13/2007 4:34:41 PM | ~~Lost Without Vision~~
Into a dark room...enters a silent whisper...
light pushing its way thru every crevace....
every broken piece of cemented walls....
aching to break down the barrier and shine thru....
silence becomes a sindicated enemy....
lost in transition......in time....
no voices to call my own....
just blackness and silence....
yet there enters a whisper...
hard to hear...but its there....
do you hear it?
is it in my mind?
no its there....in my dark room....
a simple touch ....grazes across my skin....
turn to the left..the right....
wondering where it is...
too dark to seeit...
who are you?
are you hear to save me?
help me please?
soft breath upon my nape...
twinging in what seems to be passion....
smell so sweet ..... yet cannot see...
just feel....smell....touch...
oh the touch...
so soft....skin solike my own....
arms wrapped intiricately across my waist...
pulling me in...closer...closer still.....
feeling the heartbeat of who?
soft lips touching my own....
embrace that simply captures my breath....
pulling it out from my lungs.......
dont stop....please....
down my neck ...lips carelessly wander....
making goosebumps imbedd in my skin...
truning me forcefully around...
like a lost ballerina....till my back is against his chest...
his hands wandering down my stomach....
up to my breasts....
oh my god....who is this.....?
where did he come from?
how did he get here?
thoughts wander mysterious and alone in my mind....
yet the touch seems to be there still...
gentle yet rough....soft graze....passionate pull...
hands strong ...vibrant....
touch parallyizing my inner being.....
i want to see you....your face....
yet darkness still interferes.....
light pushes thru ...fighting to break....
darkness wins that fight...
leaving only what i can sense....
without vision....
his touch...
his smell....
his kiss.....................
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~Lisa Anne | |
|
| |
Home
login