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Posted: 4/11/2005 7:17:00 PM | Rusty:
I'm still reading too, so don't be discouraged by Dlet. I think your writing is just fine - like you'd tell it if we were sat with you, listening to your story.
Heres a crazy story about me - I wanted to make myself a crossbow. Wooden ones just didn't seem strong enough, so I decided to make the bow out of a car spring. When I started I didn't realize that springs were too hard to drill but the drill soon showed me and I realized I'd have to soften the metal. You do that by getting it red hot then letting it cool gently. Well, I tried on the gas stove when my folks were out, but it didn't even get close to hot enough. Then I remembered reading about this stuff called thermite which can be used to get things really hot. It's a mixture of aluminum powder and some other stuff I've forgotten now. Anyway, I got the stuff and mixed it up, adding a few extras to make it even hotter. I put it in a can just big enough to poke the end of the car spring in. Then I wrapped the can in some asbestos wool I found and put it in a bigger can and set it on a rock outside. I did all this while I was getting the end of the spring as hot as I could on the gas stove. When I was ready, I got a towel, grabbed the spring by the cooler end, ran outside and put the hot end into my can of mix. Well, there was an almightly bang which made me close my eyes and not dare to open them again. I felt a wierd sorta tingly all over. After a while I just cracked my eyes open and instead of looking through thin slits, there were jagged edges to my view. Oh Jeeze, I thought I'd blown my face off! I opened my eyes a bit more and everything around me was white. Oh Jeeze, I thought, I'm in heaven! I was so shocked I opened my eyes wide and realized that the explosion had blown the asbestos wool into tiny pieces and it was snowing white asbestos everywhere. I gave up on crossbows after that!
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Posted: 4/12/2005 12:55:56 PM | | (i just want to say i'm glad nothing perminent damage happened with that bow). well i'll say this much , i knew when i started this forum i wouldn't be well written and to be honest i only care about two things ,one is releasing the pain in which i've suffered because i was unable to let go of my past and two i hope to help others with my experiances i'm no better than any one else and writting has never and will never be my strongest attribute , if you all understand what i'm saying then that is good enough for me like i've said before i think my life is worthy of a book maybe even a lifetime movie lol well maybe not but i am some day going to write a book about my life some things about my past bring tears to my eyes some make me laugh so hard i nearly choke because it takes my breath away i have opened up on here at a level a great many couldn't do though i don't blame them because i am forcing myself to be open like i am it is easier now because i've already written alot but when i started i had too sit there and debate with myself i figured some people maybe callous or rude i haven't run into any of that and i'm prepaired should i at some point , i don't mind people pointing out where i've messed up as far as my writting goes but should they want to point it out i'd rather it wasn't so generalised if some one who reads this is an editor well then maybe that person would be willing to work with me ? lol i would like to be better at this than i am but i feel i'm doing a fine job . i know my spelling needs work as do a great deal of others so i'm not worried there either lol . lets see ? hmm i did want to tell you all about what it was like having two brothers as different as day and nite well ok they both abused myself and my sisters except one sexually abused us and the other was phyiscally and mentally abusive so i guess my one brother had this warped idea to out do the other my oldest brother never sexually abused us and i believe had he known it was happing he would have beat my other brother to pulp it's not funny as in ha ha but i think back at my childhood and wonder why i used to put so much effort in trying to impress my brothers ? haven't yet figured that one out yet so maybe you all have an idea as to why ? i do know why i uded to beat on my sisters and i'll never feel more shame than being a bully to them. my sisters tell people they had it so very hard well they did and that can't be changed but when they say they had it harder than i did well then it just comes down to pity in which they continue to seek in action and word they of course don't see it that way and i know they are every bit as aware as i am and i know they can overcome there past they are my sisters and in that i feel they will stop the self pity routine i myself refuse pity i was just like they are now nearly 10 years ago i am hoping they will read this they know where and how to find my forum they do have some really awesome traits my brothers are both growing up still as i myself am i doubt all 6 of us could co-exist longer than a few days together except my eldest sister she and i get along very well my youngest sister i have nothing to do with because i'm both unable and unwilling to forgive her trustpasses against me and so you know , she told people i was a pedofile and a thief my middle sister once accused me of raping her and i was asked to take a lie detector test and for a few months i refused i thought if people thought i was something i wasn't a lie detector wasn't going to change there minds but in the end i did take that test and passed it and i used that as a reason to beat the tar out of people who thought i was guilty it took me almost 10 years to forgive her that , later the same year i took the test,she wrote a letter to a friend of hers and said in the letter how she thought it was funny that she had done me harm i forgave her in the end because in truth she i believe deserved the right to put me thru hell i did make it a game to beat the crap out of both my younger sisters my youngest sister however i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive her the damage she has done because she and i had become friends at one point but she like a few others have used my own believes against me so she treated me badly and tried to get me to hit her i did come close more than a few times i so badly wanted to just beat her senseless months of abusive treatment pushed me to the edge so i did throw water and juice in her face a few times and thru it all i continued to help her not for her of course but for my niece and nephew . well today i decided to vent some real strong anger issuies , i've been long winded today and did my useal rambling lol well thanks for reading this i maybe back later if time permits because i have some other stuff to say except it won't be written to relieve anger but to make you laugh and smile so until then take care | |
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Posted: 4/12/2005 3:48:08 PM | Glad to see that you didn't let that (Dlet) get to you! They say people in glass houses, shouldn't throw rocks! maybe he has never heard that! lol
The story today, was very heart touching, and very sad. I think there are others that have been in the same sit. and this might help them know there are other options out there.
i'll be waiting for the funny side again, I was on the floor laughing so hard last time.
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Posted: 4/13/2005 9:57:33 AM | | well i do have many funny stories though some are rather gross one that is funny (tho my middle sis didn't and still don't find funny) one day after i'd learned what homosapien ment my sister was pushing my buttons and she tried very hard and i became very angry so instead of hitting her like i oh so wanted to i caledd her a homosapien . well i can tell you the look on her face was priceless she went screaming to our dad yelling about me calling her names well i figured i wanted to be in the room when she told dad what i'd said and went she told him what i called her well he tried very hard not to laugh but couldn't quit manage it and she started crying and my dad asked her what she thought it ment and she said she didn't know well my dad said ,*honey you are a homosapien* and she said *i am? and dad said yes baby you are and looked over at me and said *michael russell dorson i do not want you picking on you'r sister like that and i asked whether i should do it like i used to and he said not to so i got smart and said ok i'll just use words she knew and called her a turd it was worth the 3 day groundation because she got all upset and i learned that day i didn't need to hit her to releave my anger . the war of words between her and i was never a two sided battle she just never grasped the wit required to give me anything other than material for our next battle. the one that shouldn't be funny but is because he proved karma is real but the brother that sexually abused my sisters and myself well he wanted to roll down a hill in a box so we went with him we get to this hill and he gets in the box and a once in a life time event happened that day my sisters and myself worked as a team and pushed him down the side of the hill the best we could , my brother was on a roll at least until he came to a very stubborn rock which of course didn't give well we see him hit this rock and at first we stood there in awe and then ran like hell because he wasn't down and out he started moving towards the hill and we made a b-line for home i do believe we got home long before he was able to get up that hill when he did get home he made matters worse for himself by trying to punch me and dad seen him do it so he not only had to have his head shave and stitched up but got a weeks worth of my chores and his he never was the same after that still a great pain in my side but weary or so it seemed lol well the sexual abuse never happened again after that but he tormented my sisters and myself with renewed vigor but oh well no life is perfect lol well i'm being asked to get off the computer so some one else can use it but rest assured i'll be back (a side note ) that guy who put in his 2 cents is entitled to just that but since he isn't the one writing this i'll just let him say what he wants it's no skin off my back lol well every one take care and i'll be back later | |
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Posted: 4/13/2005 11:27:38 AM | Very good way to look at the guy with the 2 cents. Loved the story. I had a sister that was very mean too. We had to teach her a lesson too! I took the physical abuse until I was about 13, then one day I just clocked her, out cold. She never touched us again! keep up the good work. I'll be back too!
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Posted: 4/14/2005 5:37:22 PM | Give me a break people.
I didn't realize he was writing just to release the pain. However, I assumed with this being a creative writing thread, the people who would post would actually have some skill at writing. Apparently, I expected too much.
Rusty, I am in no way judging what you wrote, just the grammatical syntax in which you wrote it. So if I offended you please forgive me. | |
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Posted: 4/14/2005 6:01:25 PM | | Dlet, may I suggest that it's not Rusty's skill at writing that is the problem, but your skill at reading - especially for someone who characterizes themselves as 'liberal' with a dislike for 'close mindedness'. I don't have a problem following Rusty's story. I'm enjoying it - and I think he's enjoying sharing it, so let him be! | |
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Posted: 4/14/2005 10:36:39 PM | | I didn't say I have a problem reading the damn thing. I'm just saying the grammer sux! Can't anyone take any constructive criticism anymore without getting offended. The funniest part about it is that everyone else is responding to my post besides rusty. | |
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Posted: 4/15/2005 8:58:14 AM | dlet, we can only hope you finish the book your reading, that you posted on another thread.We're only asking you to keep your comments to Rusty on the possitive side. He's baring his soul to help others. If he can help just one, then his story has touch the whole world. It's a ripple effect.
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Posted: 4/15/2005 11:51:01 AM | | i must say dlet the way in which you go about saying things is offensive and i really rather you did keep you'r mouth closed until you have learned how to give critizism so my spelling isn't the best nor is the way in which i word things as i've said before i am not the most skilled writer and as it's been pointed out i am sharing very painful stuff and you very nearly have come close to offending me but i realise not every one out there knows how to be nice and it shows in the way you have responded , you may be a real nice guy but if you talked to me in real life the way in which you have here i doubt you'd like me very much so please think before you respond in the future | |
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Posted: 4/15/2005 1:00:25 PM | You know what?
I came back to this thread to respond in a polite manner. Now, you have just made me mad. I made an objectional opinion and if you cannot take opinions than I suggest that maybe you should not post on the web.
I have in no way attempted to discourage you from writing your story. The people in this thread are absolutely ridiculous. I cannot believe that people get offended so easily. I actually received a quite intelligent mail from john and responded back to him in a polite and intelligent manner. He made some valid points but now I just think this thread should just be deleted. Maybe you should start a thread called "Creative Writing for Dummies". | |
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Posted: 4/15/2005 3:33:37 PM | Maybe we jumped on Dlet a little hard after his first post because we know how discouraging criticism can be. I think he understands that now, so let's give him a break and let rusty continue his story without distraction. Can we all chill?
Rusty - I think you mentioned at one time that you'd appreciate some pointers with your writing. I'm just going to give a little one here. If you don't like it, or prefer me to mail them to you, just let me know - I'm only trying to help.
One problem people will have with your story is that they can't tell when you'd make a pause or take a breath. You can show that by using sentences. Show each pause by typing a period and then starting the next word with a capital letter. It sort-of breaks up the ideas so people don't get them confused as they read.
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Posted: 4/18/2005 12:14:50 PM | | dlet i only wanted you to see how i may have felt by you'r response and now you continue to show me that you are a very unpleasant person so be who you are because i don't care i only hope that if you have people in you'r life that you treat them better than you treat people on here good luck on you'r life i think you need it | |
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Posted: 4/18/2005 12:40:46 PM | | i know it takes all kinds i excepted that years ago as i've excepted life as it is and i'll continue to love life because i know it's worth all the good and even the bad , i hated myself for years because i thought i wasn't worth a damn i know that isn't true now , i still have things that need work and i will work on them the man who is offensive to others doesn't like himself so i try very hard to be kind to every one i look for the best in every one i do things a certain way and it may not always be the best way to do it but in the end i think it works it's self out . when i was young i tried to be something i wasn't and tried very hard to impress people i don't do that any more because it was a really foolish way to go about doing things so i am just going to be me i have faults just like every one at least i'm willing to see them for what they are and i work on them i'll never be perfect nor do i want to be there are a few people who will read what i write on here and they may not understand this because of my lack of skill or they just don't get it i do desire to be more clear on my thoughts but as i've said i'm very good at rambling but i think at least most people can see between my lines of rambling which is good lol. i was once told by a man that what i see thru my eyes is reality , very wise words in my opinion because i had said the same thing before i'd met him but i was having alot of issues about my self worth at the time and even though this man was different from the norm he was very intelligent he just had some very bad things happen to him that made it a real challenge to deal with lifes trials he lost something of himself but was still there enough to give me some very sage advice i call him friend even though most call him crazy . i maybe considered odd by some and thats ok becuase i know if you think you'r crazy then you most likely are not the main reason i'm going on like this is because dlet really did get to me and i don't hold anything back i do feel sorry for him because i think he needs to read on cause and effect and read peoples stories about abuse because i don't think he'd be so judgemental if he could grasp some of what i go thru every day to over come pain that will be with me every day of my life ok i think i've beaten my thoughts on this issue in the ground ,well folks i will see you all on another day . i hope i made sence self doubt is rearing it's ugly head so i'll leave for now so take care and i'll be back | |
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Posted: 4/18/2005 12:47:10 PM | | thanx sam i will even when i doubt myself or think people like him are right i will continue this thread no matter how i may feel about myself lol i do have some low points and when there low they get really low but it don't last long because i can't allow self defeat lol it just takes a bit of time and effort so i'll see you all again soon | |
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Posted: 4/18/2005 12:59:47 PM | | here's a prime example of just one of many of my problems , i can't seem to get away from the issue of dlet , you sir did effect me in you'r earlier posts and i should have been stronger and more objective in that i am at fault because i didn't handle the issue the best that i know i could have and so here is some advice *when angry don't respond when you feel wronged* i wasn't angry when i responded to you but i was hurt though at the time i didn't see it for what it was i could have handled ti far better than i did but that doesn't change the fact that i don't think you have any idea of what it's like to be me nor do i feel that you really read what i've wrote i'm no better than you are and you are no better than i , so post what ever you feel like just except peoples opinions even if you feel they are wrong. so far most of you enjoy this post and find strengh or comfort in what i write even though i have doubts about it's worth i will continue because to do otherwise would be a defeat to myself and i don't give up , ok i'm free of this issue now just needed to get it off my chest lol thanx again every one | |
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Posted: 4/18/2005 2:42:32 PM | Rusty, glad you got it out, and off your chest. Now lets all just get back to the story, to help others, and help you heal too! I think we all got side tracked from the real purpose of why you started tis thread. We'll just have to get used to ignoring the negitive posts. Will wait for more, when your ready.
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