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Posted: 9/28/2007 12:37:13 PM | ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A Childs Heart~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gentle memories bless me....
when remembering my sons face
Little things that made him smile
when he was but a small child
The happiness of Christmas Eve
Glowing spooky....Halloween!
Easter baskets....smiles and egghunts
Of this pleasure...I still so want!
His face with such an innocent glow
within for all to see and show!
This innocense is the best of life
my heart so keeps it all...inside!
I miss the feeling that it had...
I miss the glowing face of a child!
I try so hard to keep my face....
the one I had so long ago
The churning feeling of excitement and life
like everyday....was yet ...another rainbow!
If all could keep just part of this.......
the heart...and trust...and smile of childhood
such a better place...this would be....
Alive with love............trusting and free!
Abundent hope and light does come
from the Child....I call my Son!
Without his light...without his soul
I would be the first .......
to go!
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Posted: 10/6/2007 9:44:38 AM | Another day....
I try to keep within my stream
of life and things
someone wants to come on in.......
I shy away....is that a sin?
I only want one that for which I wait.....
Another coming.....
leaves me shaken sometimes
I wonder if I can let them in......
forget all the memories of you?
Not that love is something new.....
just with another...I wonder anew
Can I right all the wrongs?
Is my heart strong enough to fly again?
Would I hope ....to just go back
Or would I fly like another breed
Heart wide open....
again Alive?
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Posted: 10/6/2007 9:48:01 AM | | Yes you'll be in absolute bliss with someone new. I wish people we're more honest in who they are nowadays. Nevertheless keep truckin trooper you won't find love till you kissed a few frogs :P | |
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Posted: 10/6/2007 9:57:46 AM |  Thanks Iberserkerl............. Sometimes I wonder if I can do it again!
We all have insecurities.....not a sin! The frog part...well! I have kissed my load... just don't wanna get ahold of a toad!  | |
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Posted: 10/7/2007 12:52:50 PM | aww jules methinks
you'll do just fine
when your heart mends
and the cosmos say
everything is just right
it'll just happen that day
when you least expect it
no preparation needed
in it's own perfect way
meantime please just keep
your head held high
ignore those pests
certain bugs and creeps
those that wander by
with time and intent on only
doing their best to try
daring to clip your wings
when you're really meant
to extend them openly and fly
instead they try to bring you down
making you angry hurt and frown
turning your insides out
makin ya wanna scream n shout
in those trying times just breathe
turn their bad into your best
don't bite those hooks
think instead of bubbling brooks
count to ten and regain yourself
don't jump to take their tests
there are so many kinds of magic
the love of earth and friends and joy
old and young smiling back at you
getting over feeling pain or blue
those are the good kinds we all know
but there are others of jaded ways
waiting in want of your joy to slay
blackened hearts and silly spells
those not kind to align with
shy away from evil whenever
you find it whispering in your ear
your heart is bigger and better
your writes and lines so dear
when ya ignore the jeers
truth is best shared
but steer yourself clear
of those hidden agendas dear
life has so many of us sharing
thankfully we can choose whom
we believe in and dare with
you can and will rise above again
just ignore the evil pens
give no thought nor energy
to anyone dealing black negativity
your heart knows, you clearly see
i'm sorry for your hurting, friend
we each must be responsible
for ourselves in this our pond
or internal strife won't end
let it go another way and breathe
rise above and fly and soar
as you will do, i know again
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| Infinite Memories
Posted: 10/7/2007 6:36:32 PM | | what good are memories, i live in the now, i want to be happy now. memories hurt. | |
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Joined: 10/2/2007
Msg: 232 | |
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Posted: 10/14/2007 8:30:51 AM |  softedge....Thanks for that my friend!
Always turning in graceful motion
I dream in color, pictures, sound
Memories have shown me many things
How to connect constellations in darkness
string stars in my direction
Love and affection ooze from my
memories
like the salava ....in my lamp
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Posted: 10/15/2007 7:22:49 PM | Remember how you made me laugh
We both would grin....
then both bust out!!!!!!!???
Some funny ...funny times were they?
When all we needed was a smile.........
Days mended into nights.....
sun shown and another night...............
work and all was menial..............
We came back home to just be sure.....
Imagined it? no not us......
we laughed...some more....sometimes we busted!
Happiness of times like these.....
Why we think they aren't to please?
The happiest times I have seen my friend....
were those with us ...my son...my man!
intended just for a short time....
Though most direct...full colour in my mind
The needing of not much more.......
just us the hope...the love.........
it poured!
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| Your heart............
Posted: 10/18/2007 8:18:59 PM | I often wonderd what you did......
bringing all the hearts on in...?
You never told me....
you just showed!
I watched for years
I was often lost.....
Yet after all the years....
I saw....
Your tenderness and heart!
Is all!
The meaning of the little things....
you often did...
I did not know!
After your death.....
they all told.....
all the unselfish things you showed....
My heart it cried....
My soul it lived!
For you my dear......
so much you give!
I wish when I was but a child....
I could have known of all your miles...
The way you reached to every soul........
Not to leave ...not one...
Your goal!
My God you spent your whole life
sending....
words of hope and neverending.....
I only knew the warm sweet truth.....
but then too late......
for you were gone!
Your memorie is my heart......
your love and I ....
shall never part~!
I feel you still .....
words people say......
Not to mention........
how they play...
in my life!
You always know.....
your soul and heart....
lift me so!
If I could ever even be....
a part of all you gave away!
I should leave this earth
with smiles
My Mother dear...
you went the miles!
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Posted: 10/20/2007 4:26:38 AM | Driving comfortably down the highway
Radio tuning out my favourite music
I decide it’s time to refresh my lipstick
I noticed I needed to touch up my blonde roots
The alarm was not in my head
For the siren was a police car on my tail
Blonde policewoman says, “give me your license”
So I started to rummage through my handbag
Frustrated I asked what it looked like…
“It’s square and has your picture on it”
I finally found it and handed it to the blonde policewoman
She looked into my make-up mirror and said
“Okay, you can go, I didn’t realize you were a cop too”
^^^the above was one of “those” emails
I hope I did justice re-arranging the words?
Blondes are pure poetry in laughter
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| Younger times......younger days..........
Posted: 10/24/2007 9:01:49 AM | Hello my friend...missing you!
Soaking in each moment
holding it to me so tight
memories flood my mind
causing a soul to become so light
from a simple kiss within an ocean view
to my children smiling happily
all of this refreshes me to new
sweetness of this life runs deep
into recesses of my mind
ahead I wish to creep
so much more yet to find. | |
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Posted: 10/25/2007 6:50:06 AM | - A QUICK THANK YOU NOTE -
I want to thank you for being so sweet
Throughout all the conflict and taking some heat
You are a gem Jules and that is so true
Always so delightful to have friends like you!
- Erik -  | |
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| Friends...........
Posted: 10/26/2007 8:50:50 AM | Erik....all have been drawn in....just know that some know better ...is all!
Tammy....missing you too my friend! hugs love ya!
Friendship is something hard to find....
In these days....it is often blind
Finding one whom we can really trust
One whom would stand up to all the rest!
I can count my good friends......
simply on my both hands!
Knowing I have such a soul.....
in my corner....to help....to know!
I am blessed than all the rest!
For this is the meaning of true friendship!
My friends are mine...forever true!
No other blessing could come anew! | |
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Posted: 10/26/2007 9:22:14 AM | Tammy spanked me the other day, but I know there was love there because she also groped my right cheek! Hahaha Kidding! Just teasing! It was BOTH buns! hahaha,...
"Silly Rabbit, Trix are for kids." - Trix Cereal Quote.
- Erik - Okay that may have been a bit of an exaggeration, but I KNOW you smiled. Wink! | |
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Posted: 10/29/2007 7:28:50 PM | Coming out of every pore
My body feels them ...by the score
The parts of me I can't let go.....
Infinite wisdoms...and pains...
they know ...me!
Releasing each at different dawns
Colors are real....scents are the same
My mind keeps every one in tow
Within my mind....my solemn soul!
For every time they show a part
I remember things ...I feel with my heart!
The oils of my life....they sing....
with color ....scent....and life...each day! | |
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| What now..........
Posted: 11/5/2007 9:42:04 AM | I tremble like a scared kitten
Heart has always wanted love
My mind has often cared and given;
what is it keeping me unsmitten?
Longing like a child at play;
fairytales come true...they say!
Wishing more with each new dawn;
to find the gentle soulful one.
In search of just a heart thats good;
My wish of love as only I could;
Relinquishing the past ...go on;
Never thought I would wait ...this long! | |
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Posted: 11/5/2007 10:59:20 AM | So many in search
souls hungering for more
eyes peeled
watching that door
in great hopes
that flutters of love will come again
this dream burns slowly
hopes are still held within
yet days and nights are spent lonely
seems as if love will not come around
then when least expected
it enters that door without a sound.... | |
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| One...Christmas
Posted: 11/20/2007 11:30:55 AM | All of the time, all the pain.
Brought you to my house that year.
So very sick and somehow healed,
after all those years we felt.
The dreaded cancer that you held;
treatments given...you now were different.
Upon my reclining chair;
you slept on Christmas Eve.
The one Christmas , I shall never forget!
You in the chair.....
grandson on your lap!
His eyes aglow of Grandpa near,
opening presents....brought me tears!
Forever how I wished to find....
one Christmas morning...
with you in sight!
Just one time to sit upon your lap;
opening presents;
in my life this lacked.
Just this one very special time;
My son and my Father laughed in delight.
I had to leave the room to cry;
within the bathroom...
didn't quite know why!
Yet you knew...and you saw!
I could not explain.
That the meaning of this Christmas ;
was so much more for me.
Just you and my son and me!
The very...last Christmas....with you...
yet the First.....to be! | |
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| A Very Happy Thanksgiving...to All!!
Posted: 11/21/2007 8:57:24 AM | May we all give Thanks for those things we have!
I am blessed with many wonderful friends,
family that loves like there is no end!
A Son whom I thank God above for each day!
A little angel...my Hobodog that takes all my hurts away!
I thank God for having a home in which to call mine.
It may not be a mansion, but home ...just the same!
I thank God for my job...as neverending as it is,
it saves me at times when I think my life is in bad shape!
I am Thankful for men and women overseas;
all of them standing up for my country ..each day!
Those that cannot be with their families tomorrow!
I feel blessed that a prayer shall be sent on their way.
I am thankful for all of the things I do know;
Especially for love that with each day;
you all show!
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Posted: 11/22/2007 4:36:57 PM | I remember how she looked the first time I saw her... in that red dress and high heels as she walked into the crocery store where I worked.
I remember how we went to the laundromat to wash her socks and shoes after we walked 2 miles on a mud road when the '56 merc went in a ditch on our first date.
I remember the moonlight on her face the first time I kissed her at the lake.
I remember the flushed look on her face when we first made love.
I remember how happy she looked when the preacher said "I now pronounce....."
I remember the proud look on her face as she turned to me when the doctor said "its a boy".
I remember the sound of her voice telling me for the 35,000th time "dinner's ready".
I remember how she smiled as we looked into each other's eyes and I told her I'll love her forever... when we both knew she was leaving this life.
I remember how she looked as she took her last breath and said "I can't breathe".
I remember...... .... ... .. . . | |
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Posted: 11/22/2007 6:41:08 PM | bigksbear.....this poem was so very heartfelt. The love that it held was very , very real.
Thank you for sharing such a wonderful intimate memory! | |
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Posted: 11/22/2007 6:49:27 PM | from black tide rises
awash with memories of distant times
I sit in recall
of days of sadness washed hard with pain
I drift back to the beaches of my childhood
cold sands at my feet
where the north sea meets the ocean
standing
watching what would be one of my fondest memories
the waves with all their nowlage washing hard toward me
the smell of salten air as it touched my senses
gulls fighting hard for elevation
trying in desperation the glide out of the comming storm
thier cries cutting through the sounding winds
black skies awash with whisps of angry white
stinging rain
tearing at my frozen skin
I miss you cold water
grey lady always calling
calling me forever home | |
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Posted: 11/23/2007 10:42:58 AM |  Shadow.......love the imagery in this one! Could see you there , as a small child on the shores of home my friend!
Moments of time fall away so quickly.
Lives get lost within all the urgency;
often we forget the most precious of all.
What lives within our souls evermore.
The memory is a precious gift.
Brings us back to what we lived.
Enourmous value in those minutes of peace!
May all our hearts revisit each one of these.
Treasures of old , relived with gratitude. | |
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