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Posted: 5/2/2008 6:38:50 PM | I want to have the world remember your name
I want you to be my rock that I lean on to make my happy
I want more than your beautiful face
I love your heart, your embodiement of a goddess that let a lowly man such as I in
Our secrets which no one else knows
Our lifetime they'll be no one else but you
You're in my dreams everynight and without you in them is a nightmare
Walk with me together forever my shining light from heaven
Lead the way as we journey through life I only depend on you alone | |
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Posted: 5/3/2008 4:06:51 AM | Help me I lost my mind
Stuck it somewhere I can't remember check behind
O that's my ass can't be there that'd hurt
Hey eyes off my butt I know it's nice but so what I'm just a flirt
Try to make me happy if you can but expect no results upon
That's why I play the madman and usually frown
Try to feed me antidepressants I just s.hit them out
No one can help me no matter how hard I pout
I try to be happy just for someone to stomp my shine
I'll tell you once again check behind | |
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Posted: 5/3/2008 4:22:24 AM | It don't matter if you're not a poet. Post something here I'm happy to get visitors. However if you just check it out and don't post I think ghosts are invading my house again. I'm a natural ghost hunta but too many brings back memories. Anyway something new....
Hidden
Scarred is my pride
My power is locked behind a door that no one even me knows
Sometimes I feel powerful but it's a bitter sweet illusion never lasting
Trying to find happieness in the beauty of a woman is that all I want, lust
Na maybe lust and genuine happieness, does it exist
Not so far in my mind
Friends tell me it'll happen I just gotta wait
I'm tired of waiting hoping for the right one to fall upon me
I feel like a kid in a candy store looking at beautiful women but it's only lust
I need my pride to overwhelm me to find the right one
Before I fade away to nothingness with nothing | |
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Posted: 5/22/2008 4:48:17 AM | Memories falling of who we once were
Are our true selves waiting in the clouds
All around I see hopes and dreams rise and fall like the winds on the desert
Whispering away broken wishes as each grain of sand becomes tossed into the unknown
I tried to help everyone and that is why no one can help me
Admist the struggle to find myself I must endure ashame of a man who doesn't know when the pages fill up as my mind draughtesly writes away from the pen
Where's my salvation to keep me whole
All around the winds change as fate pretends to tell me what and who I am
I let go of shallow emotions holding onto dear friends in an attempt to find out who I am
Where's the love of my life come into play
Broken hearts broken dreams there must be someone out there | |
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Posted: 5/28/2008 6:02:17 AM | With a note on my desk
I rush out barely getting dressed
Memories flooding my mind like sweet valentine's day
You came to me with a note just a word or two to say
Lovers move oceans while you're out there soaking up rays
Time goes by will you be the one to shelter me love me make me whole again someday
Sippin on the black coffee brings back memories when I was nothing and you were just a girl dreaming of your wedding day
Time goes on by years I could've swore I woulda felt love by now as I say
I love you with all my heart and would don't want the memories to pass
So just think who was the one to carry you on broken wings float on by till the last
Love comes swiftly love comes highly
Spreading on wings of the almighty
Come to think of it where were you then
When the grass is carried by the wind
I'll keep moving on and over till you shine down from above
Showing me kindly where is the love
I keep thinking wondering where the love is when all a shadow is dark and gray
Come to show me the love of one coming on this day
A note attached I read the words can't believe you actually find me charming
Baby I'm forever yours I say to your face without causing any alarming
So we sit chill by the fire talking and letting words come unfolds
Laughs and giggles are what I hear telling me I did something right as I offer you a blanket amidst the cold
Keep thinking of warm summer days but by you i'm so happy
Come to think back then couldn't see past my blindness when everything was crappy
Love comes swiftly love comes highly
Spreading on wings of the almighty
Come to think of it where were you then
When the grass is carried by the wind
I'll keep moving on and over till you shine down from above
Showing me kindly where is the love
So to think just one time I'd love to kiss your face bring you a smile upon your face
I'll be by your side for all the times I thought I was just a waste
Smile on me more let the wine become one with the music playing all around us
Shine a light from the skies above as we embark on our journey to the primus
Total happieness I see from your eyes making me a man
I glide up to be by you and take you in my hand
Lust was such a game never knew love could make me whole
You smile again and caress my face that's what's left of us to know
Love comes swiftly love comes highly
Spreading on wings of the almighty
Come to think of it where were you then
When the grass is carried by the wind
I'll keep moving on and over till you shine down from above
Showing me kindly where is the love
Love comes swiftly love comes highly
Spreading on wings of the almighty
Come to think of it where were you then
When the grass is carried by the wind
I'll keep moving on and over till you shine down from above
Showing me kindly where is the love | |
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Posted: 5/28/2008 6:51:23 AM | Memories of your Love
I was afraid to start over when you left
I always seem to find myself alone
When all I need is to find the pillar
Stand proud in the light and just be
Seek out the lasting embodiement of when we were
Lost sense I have no hints of life
Suddenly a calling whispering my name
I seek you out from within for guidance
It tells me you always and still care
But I lose this calling
WIll I have a feeling to remember
Seems not possible
I remember when we we're children
How we could be anything
We grow up to give up on these memories
Just as I had given up on myself
Losing you my true love in the process
Will I see you again
I will if I find myself
Cause that's where you are | |
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Posted: 5/28/2008 6:57:08 AM | Until we meet again
I'm sorry we never got to have that one last goodbye
Before you set off into the great sky
Those that pass just seem to go off without a wave
Leaving my eyes weeping looking upon what is your grave
The true wonder is when we will see eachother again
Will life exist when it's at it's end
A lost man i must carry on with only a memory of your face
Never again will i ever again get to see your winding grace
A thousand tears depart from my eyes
A thousand blessings I hope you send from your eternal skies
Sun shines down and falls on my face glowing through
We're both living in a world of light
And I would give the sun to you
You said smiling fading once more from the visions in my mind
It's like waking from a dream only you i cannot find
With that vision still at heart
I know we are always together even if we are apart | |
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Posted: 5/28/2008 2:16:37 PM | I've found myself here, read the writes upon this page to try to get a feel for you our host.
Shadow Play
Haunted by a past
shadows playing within a mind
grasping on without release
to something we no longer in reality find
Does this not keep us in darkness
trying to sustain something we cannot hold
are we living life I ask
or are we without warmth letting our soul grow cold
Can this be obtained in life
can we bring this feeling back
if an answer of positivity flows
then of your dream enforce attack
Yet if you are simply holding onto a dream
that your mind tells you again shall never be
than as much as it causes you pain
perhaps it is time to set this free
For life is for the living
making dreams come true have to possess some base
can we in life's cruel world
bring from this dream that shadowed face
Or are we hungering each day
for what once was yet no longer can be
this is what must be determined within a mind
is what you pine for really a dream you can truly see....
Hope I have not overstepped my bounds here, just trying to gain perspective into your writings, and this is what very clearly enters my mind. Wabbit  | |
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Posted: 5/29/2008 8:03:55 AM | Oh why can't I be what you need
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one tomorrow
where you hold me down, fold me in
deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
by you, visiosn of you then you're gone
The shock, bleeds the red from my face
when I hear someone's taken my place
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
I break in two over you, oh
I break in two over you, over you
I break in two
I would break in two for you
Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't
But you're right wabbit. I'm living in a dream that can never be. The greatest love story in my mind which will never be. | |
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Posted: 6/12/2008 3:08:26 AM | Skitz up the day and everytime you know
One shot from my nine will leave you dead on the flo
So jump the fuk up and represent
All the passions heart feeling of remorse leaves you content
When I murder it's like a feeling of ultimate joy
Feelings left for the gods left i'm just a soldier on deploy
Tech nine rat a tat tat goes the bullets leaving a cop in a trash sack
Bullets for your valentine wake up i'm a serial killer with a hatchet
Juggalo love showered from above feel the need to bleed
Just another ****en player getting burnt from my heat
Delomany seroquel strait to my mind a natural beast on a rampage
Feeling the need is like the ultimate revenge I hate you so much I want to rip out your guts
Hatchets, swinging down thugs waiting in line at a hot dog stand
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Posted: 6/23/2008 9:51:55 AM | Time to bump this
Look into my eyes
Take my hand
Pass it through me
Deaf to your ears
To blind to see i exist
Numb to your touch
Give that parasite a shake
That clings to your back
No needful attack
Feeding falsely on your sense of words
Feeling like dirt
Feeling like nothing | |
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Posted: 6/25/2008 5:37:29 PM | I would never walk away from you
You are the essence that carries me on day by day
I look in your eyes and see a world full of possibilities
Love you may think you're not cut out for and which may be true
I give my heart, my mind, and soul full of sorrow to be one with you
A venemous snake is harmless after you take out the fangs but the animal still breathes in for a chance to kill
I think you deserve to know the world thinks highly of you as you shake under your blankets afraid of never feeling love's fragrant kiss
An enity of souls and you're supposed to find just one that's trully meant for you
The waiting is over I just want to feel loved and in return I'll show you my world my scars, my fears of abandonment | |
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Posted: 7/29/2008 7:56:20 PM | Think of nothing
Let the words drift away
Silent pendrops pouring ink upon each layer of the page
Open your heart
Do you see your old self shyly tucked away in the corner
Is it ashamed of what you've become
Childhood innocence smears away like blood of the scars you've become
One scar from denial another from acceptance
To fit in this world you had to cast away your innocence to become who you are
Yet that child crys at night fearful of it's future
Time shifts through the hour glass as your life spirals out of control
You are still that child afraid of the future | |
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Posted: 9/16/2008 7:27:00 PM | Is it the thought of uncontrolable rage
That leaves you staring down the barrel of a pistol for reasons you can't explain
Do you remember all the people in your heart
Or do you piss them away as you fall apart
It's just a common quesion we put ourselves through
As the signs of destiny melt away from the anger you spew
Have you not been told you're loved
As you sink deeper into depression as if you're being shoved
Problem after problem fills your mind
And you sink deeper into phychosis till it fills your spine
I want out you scream but you quiver at the thought of leaving your loved ones behind
Turning against mortal coil as you slowly become food for the worms as you decline
Do you feel angry now that you've left the world in tears
You'd give it all back to drink with your homies and chug beer after beer
But you done f.ucked that up as you rott under the sheaving blankets of despair
Left alone and in the void not thinking anyone cared | |
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Posted: 9/22/2008 3:29:22 AM | As the shadows come out and reflect you
Do you look at one and see how much you've changed
A offspring of the gods as you absorb your knowledge of mankind
Do you reflect by the pond
Each water droplet echoing an eternity in your heart
Each step a splash against the river bank reminding you of peaceful times
The mountains call for you by each whisp of the wind
Begin life again
You take a deep breath and try to soak up the inner passion of the river's cold mist on your feet
To you it feels warm almost translucid as each step brings you closer to home
You know not what to make of your life so far but thus far you live and grow stronger | |
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Posted: 9/22/2008 3:52:15 AM | Warmth of heart
Your eyes spark a passion in me dormant
You kissed me I kissed back
But when you said stop my heart sank
I did as you asked even though my soul felt connected for once in my life
Withou you I can't breathe
While you portray the denialing princess
Casting away my love
I only wanted for us to be happy
Now I'm staring at your picture remembering our kiss
It only took one moment of the millions of epic momments of eternity to realize I love you | |
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Posted: 9/24/2008 2:57:33 AM | When all is accumulated freedom and span and spawn and we so trust the gods and gods and gods and fate is derivitive and inventive and we
Second guess
What is happening next in our juxtaposed blindness, I become without a sound what you are leaning on your shoulder listening to the clearness of your voice through your throat and find a glistening bird out of the egg of your adam's apple and there, I found you
And find you again
It is a parallel hoax
No trickery but genuine melting becoming one in the dunes of destiny,
My God created me
And shared me
With
You | |
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Posted: 9/24/2008 5:38:26 AM | I don't know what to do anymore
After I quit with medicine I became psycotic
I suffer from depression
Complete depression
Had it my whole life
I have had it so bad that uh...
I had anxiety
Been diagnosed with major depression
Lots of phobias, lots of fears
Anxiety, panic attacks
Manic depression before, I didn't think that
Depression could be so bad
Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everything around me closing in, it's starts to grow colder
It's like I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion
Shits real ****ed up, my brains filled with much confusion
Do you know what it is to sit a 3am
With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin'
Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills
Cause the ****in' rent's due and you can't pay bills
Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart
I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart
Ten mother****in' seconds just from ending this shit
Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit
Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin'
Sat a half an hour, just thinkin' of a better way
To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease
Put the barrel in my mouth, I wanna sleep for all eternity
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when I'm gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone
Somany reasons just to leave this ****in' planet
Pressure gets to me so much, god damn, I just can't stand it
People hatin', credit problems, **** be ****in' my friends
A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend
Nobody like me, I'm a loser, parents wish I was dead
I'm overweight, can't get a date, I'll turn my walls to red
Unlock the door, turn up the music, flip the T.V. screen
I'll leave a bloody ****in' mess off for my moms to clean
It's's to the point that I can't stand it, I can't even try to cope
And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope
It's too late to try and stop it, I have lost the ****in' war
I ain't gonna write no ****in' letter, leave my answers on the floor
I'm a do it I swear, don't even think I'm lyin'
Nobody gone remember me, nobody gone be cryin'
All alone in my death like I was in life
Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when I'm gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone
You won't miss me when I'm gone
(Flames risin', flames risin')
I know you did me so wrong
(Flames risin')
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
Flames risin', flames risin' | |
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Posted: 9/25/2008 10:41:07 PM | Shadows cast upon my weeping eyes of where you once was in my heart
Why'd god take you away from our laughing moments it rips me apart
I never got to say goodbye and see one last smile from your face
Look at how depressed I've become why'd he have to take you away
I drift asleep under the moon and there's no skies that we share the sun with
I often think back to us drinking tea by the shade you look so pretty in your dress
Now I'm all alone in the world fragrant hearts mingling when they find love
You were my everything gone in an instant ripped from my heart with a shove
I tried so hard to find a way past your warm face but I stare at your picture every night
I hope your at peace in the avernon just breaking in on twilight
But I must carry on on this misserable earth alone abandoned and soak up my tears with your handkerchief
I just wish the lord would take me and save me from my grief
I dream and you're right there in your heavly glow
Live life freely you say and dissapear before the morning begins to show
But I can't get a momments peace without the thought of your natural grace
Living without you is so much more than i'm prepared to face | |
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Posted: 10/20/2008 2:17:21 PM | Holy sinners at the plate of God's supper
Feasting on with the money you pay them to save your soul
Do they care while they sit on golden chairs that they say benifits their lord
Does this not make you synical as they partake their daily bread leaving you penniless
Drop on your knees do a dance for the gods as they hide behind a mask of rightousness
I'm not the reason
It's not my fault
It's not problem
I'm not your god
I'm not your martauer
By the way just so you know always this is how I feel | |
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Posted: 10/20/2008 6:18:55 PM | my hands trace the jagged edges of your heart
wrapping them in bandages spiderwebbed
pulling each sharded piece of your heart tight
with threaded grace
as i look inside at who we've become
embittered shaken saddened
i realize the pain daily reminding
hearing the click of lock swinging open | |
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Posted: 10/20/2008 8:42:47 PM | Sky elequent beauty it's aluster grinds me refines me gives me a purpose to why I live on earth
Baby I find your face just as beautiful as those skies
When we lose sight of simple pleasures we forget why we even breathe
Every decision we make reflects for a eternity in our children's choices
Leap for joy embrace life just as I have embraced you
When my heart bleeds from people's synical reviews
I think back to me in your arms
Now that I'm grown and I stand all alone
All the people that hurt me and the ones that were there
All the people that f.ucked me and made me aware
And in that truth you were there standing by me | |
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Posted: 11/18/2008 4:21:02 PM |
Sending chilling spineful wind
up and around your neck
like luminous moonlight strokes
feeling , never remote
no matter how far!
You are a star
Shining in the darkest night!
Peace be with you
as the light
that shines for you
day and night!
Casting shadow in your path
seek me when you feel atlast
no one shows you heart and soul
My friend you shine a light
it Glows!
:) jules | |
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Posted: 11/21/2008 9:45:03 PM | I appreciate that Jules :)!
Do you remember all the years so long ago
I sheltered you in my arms one kiss led to another and I just surrendered and let go
Now I can see the light on your face as your fingers grace my face
Leaving one momment with you and us on our own never a better taste
I can hear the birds chirping away as I carry you in my arms never hiding the loss of pain
You see me for me and that's the way I wanted it to be
I can hear you calling through the thick of night carrying me on the wings of your angelic mantle
I was so confused just me and you on our own
Carrying out the light till the sun swept tommorow
In the thick of passion I pored into you body on body spirit to spirit heart to heart
Thickening emotions running through my body I needed you I wanted to share my youth with you
And as the sun rose up we were one just the way it should be | |
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Posted: 11/22/2008 1:22:58 AM | All I ever without a doubt that I needed so bad
Reflecting I come to realise against all despise
I'm alone like the bottom of the core left spit on and let be
Take this pain away now
Let me let me
Take out shake it out now
Rage me rage me
Rape me like a fool
Toss me in the garbage and left to drool
I'll never be out there with anyone
Screaming phychosis comes to reflect inside my head
Left unholy open look at my heart it's bloods leaving bled
As I lay asleep count my sheep say my prayers
I'm just hopen one day to bump into you I say hi you move upon the stairs
Leaving me empty just a man bent without remorse
Swing up all the volume let nature take it's course
We're nothing but two horny mammals just like annimals
Throw the f.ucken shades I want to eat your vagina like a f.ucken cannibal
But if cannibals got the neden just so sweet upon the sheets
Throw the covers lick the sheets
Tear off my f.ucken underwear
And Leave me naked chained to the wall
Call up all your girlfriends and go cruise around the mall
And if you ever come back with the key
Hurry up b.itch I'm getting excited I might have to pee
And when I do it'll be all over the news
Little drummer boy down singing coombaya although in the blues
When you finally figure all this out
You'll know why I keep a silent heart beat when I shout
Anybody.... good lines? I'll try to work with it... | |
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