| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/17/2005 9:17:46 PM | Cats...I know I said it on another board somewhere but I really like your poems. especailly this one because you can feel your emotions coming from your heart more.
Hi Angel.....been quiet tonight. | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/17/2005 9:24:50 PM | | @kseej, Thx, it makes my day, I wanted to try to make it a song, but it never got that far. I probably couldnt anyway since i dont have any musical talent. I just wasnt blessed with that type of talent, but my wording is awesome. I just put my whole heart and soul into everything I do. Especially my poems. | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/17/2005 10:29:14 PM | @CAts....I would love to put music to it....it is a good verse...I cld send it to a freight station for you to pick up...no addresses need to exchange that way. I just send to a station near your town and you go pick it up within a week. It would take me a week or so though. If you can't tell I work in the freight business.
@Angel - all my days are great!! If not I make em great by days end  and you? | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/17/2005 10:50:55 PM | | I don't know where I would be without my guitar...favorite time to play is sunset...have a front wrap around porch with swing that faces the west...beautiful when your 5 miles out in the country on top of a hill...emmm emmm | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/17/2005 10:54:15 PM | | Moved to upstate ny recently from charlotte, nc and was trying to unpack clothes hastily thrown in suitcases from when I left my live in girlfriend of 6 years, Cried like a little girl with a skinned knee!!! | |
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Posted: 5/17/2005 11:10:12 PM | a whole lot cheaper than replacing my sanity
I haven't been the best judge of character in real life....so I've just been chill'n on my hill for a little over a year enjoying nature | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/18/2005 7:11:27 AM | I broke up with my first ex because of some painful words exchanged from him to me, that made me cry because the pain was so deep.
When I think about all the times I have been hurt,
By the ones I thought I loved,
I realize that they didn't appreciate me or my feelings,
And I don't need anyone like that in my life.
But before I could lose wither guy, the damage was done,
My heart was left shattered in millions of pieces,
I slowly picked up the pieces, wiping away the tears
Putting the pieces of my broken heart someplace where I know they are safe,
I haven't brought them out, In several months,
Because no one special has come into my life,
To help repair my broken heart,
So I live in a lonely and depressive world,
I do know that there is someone who will help repair my heart,
But I haven't found him yet,
And when I do, the pieces will come together one again,
And the pain will disappear
^^^ wrote that last night, i couldnt sleep | |
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Posted: 5/20/2005 12:28:17 PM | On May 13th, it was the 3rd anniversary of my son's birth and death. It was also the first year my significant other, who'd been there through all of it (not my baby's "father"), was not there to comfort me at all.
I was crying for a very long time. Couldnt see through my tears as I typed in my livejournal. A new friend offered to take me to my son's grave. It was the first time I'd been there since 2002. I was glad I remembered the directions and felt horrible I had not been sooner.
When we got to the cemetary, I sat infront of his gravestone. I wrote him a letter in my journal and cried and cried. After the tears subsided enough, I went around the whole baby area, straightening the other babies knick-nacks and stuffed animals, that had been blown over by the wind. I made all of the gravesites as beautiful as I could. I cried for the families of the other children. I cried for my son. I cried and cried. That release of grief was so powerful and allowed me to smile.
I went back to Zaque's grave, I left a picture of a tree I had created in colored pencil. I secured it to the ground with a silk flower. I wrote in my journal about the sapling tree he had been buried next to, and how it had 3 years of growth to it, and he didnt. I wrote about my love for him and requested, should he let me know he is watching, he also let me know he knew of the picture I left for him. I have faith he will communicate that to me, whether it is a dream or otherwise.
Today happens to be the 3rd anniversary of the day he was buried. My car died over two weeks ago, so should a vehicle become available to me today, I will go there again. I am no longer afraid of the grief I feel there.
This is one of the poems I wrote and then read 3 years ago, today.
RICHARD ZAQUERIE 5/14/02
You left me before I met you
I miss you before I could know you
You were with me but I couldnt see you
Then I saw you and you were gone
You were a part of me I couldnt touch
But I hold you sacred to my soul
You were so beautiful, innocent, and pure
So small and soft and full of peace
Your tiny body so cold and fragile
Your long thin fingers grasped mine so slightly
Your toes told me how tall you could be
And your precious little mouth never released a scream
My dearest baby boy, you mean so very much
I never knew I could love so deeply in one moment
Before I could see you or smell you or know you
I just wanted you to be safe and warm and happy
I wanted to give you all the encouragement possible
Your grandma pointed out, this is all the time you need
And I know she is right, but it saddens my heart
I love you so much, every baby cries for you
Every beautiful orchestra plays for you
All the flowers petals bloom for you
At night you dominate my sleepy thoughts
And I wake up, my tears wont cease
I think of everything I want to see you learn
I dream of the many things you couldve been
I look at you in every babe's face
And then I wonder if you are looking on me
You were gone before I could say hello
And that makes telling you good-bye so hard
I couldnt hold you next to my heart and say, I love you
I grasp desperately for meaning and closure
Please help me hold on to that sense of celestial peace
I feel myself thinking differently
Like I want to be a better person just because of you
I want to write songs and books and poems
I want to scream out my frustrations and sorrows and joys
I want to cry until I dehydrate
I want to hear your name echo in the trees
I am sure you know what is happening
And I see all the lives you touch
And I am grateful to be your mother
And youll be in our thoughts for all of time
I love you- we love you- forever.
This one was written by one of my best friends:
Energy of Two 05/02
Love, energy of two
The two forming one
A combination
Of yin and yang
A fusion of molecules and atoms
As this conception gave way
This small vessel housed
This pure energy
This innocent soul
As it came to be
Touched many lives
In such a minutely short while
This beautiful tragic birth
Brought tears and smiles
Yet it came here for a reason
As a catalyst of the season
This child came for the reason of love
His vessel is no more
But this child, this love, his energy
Lives forever more | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/20/2005 1:39:59 PM | @freedomishonesty..My heart is with you on your loss. My firstborn daughter only lived for four days. Nothing can describe the loss of a child. If you ever wonder, yes there is a playroom in heaven and all of our angels will play happily forever. Thoughts and prayers are with you. Beautiful poetry. A part of those you have lost has been carried over into your writing. They remain with you forever for memories never die.
HUGS,
Angel
@catsmeow...Chapters in life sometimes end but it only means new chapters are yet to be written. You seem like a beautiful young lady I am sure there are good things awaiting you in the future...
HUGS,
Angel | |
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Posted: 5/20/2005 4:35:19 PM | On a mental and spiritual level, I have handled this loss impeccably. I have been the counselor to my friends and family, even.
The emotions are another thing. I am also still healing physically. Both emotionally and physically, I am making strides to cope with the grief. I am a survivor of many traumas, and this one is one of the ones that is most difficult to deal with on a daily basis.
Time heals all wounds, if you simply know how to be aware of them, take care of them, and love yourself while you heal yourself. | |
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| What's the last sentimental thing that made you cry
Posted: 5/20/2005 6:56:32 PM | what makes me wanna cry is not having any more poetry to place in someone else's forums. I started my own and I'm waiting for the responses. lol, but all in all, i'll be checkin in on this forum. I wont forget bout u ksee, or angel.  | |
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