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Posted: 7/24/2008 8:45:26 PM | "Tinted glass hides the tethered beast"
throw a stone
and cut the cord
but be sure to ward with a fiddle
else the shattered shards
and the tainted claws
find the jugular of sanitys keeper
releasing the flow of midnights reaper
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Posted: 7/24/2008 8:48:29 PM | The clouds are deeply grey tonight, mourning a loss. Finite emotions trickling down the window of my soul create such a deep chasm with creeks turning into swelled floods of darkness, swirling chaos... In my mind's eye, the trees bending, bowing to the
force as winds change. Does the world keen with me?
Awakening, slowly coming back to the world after the deepest heart-wrenching crying session my soul has ever tasted, the after-taste something to be thankful for...that the lessons taught, recieved, and learned, although none too gracefully, are mine to carry.
Closing my eyes, a deep breath inhaled.Then another. If I continue on believing all the while...in heart & soul...faith will be stronger & will win the battle...
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Posted: 7/24/2008 9:32:29 PM | ahh juju...I felt you totally in that..beautiful!! Felt those ozarks too *smile...think I have my sis convinced we need to take my niece there *smile.
.that the lessons taught, recieved, and learned, although none too gracefully, are mine to carry.
Closing my eyes, a deep breath inhaled.Then another. If I continue on believing all the while...in heart & soul...faith will be stronger & will win the battle...
Step number two. | |
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Posted: 7/24/2008 10:25:40 PM | This Is A Tad Long.....Based On A True Story! I Took Some Words Out, And Added My Own!
Let me know what you think, i found it online.
I come to your grave everyday to talk to you...people tell me you can not hear me because you are gone i just tell them you might be gone in their eyes but not in mine because your still in my heart and you always will be.
I cry when i think of you but people ask me why i just tell them how i felt about you and that i still love you and that i miss you so much but people just tell me there is no point in still loving you.
Because your gone and you will never be coming back and i agree with them you are gone but you will never be forgotten and one day we will meet again i promise.....
I pray to god everynight asking him to keep you safe and i talk to him about meeting you again i wanted to kill myself just so i could see your face again in heaven.
Then i knew you wouldnt want me to do that i try to be happy but i can't when i know that i won't hear your voice for a long time i always thought i could live without you, but i really feel i can't.
I never thought you would have left me mom says you never left god just needed an another angel in heaven i asked god i could be his next angel so i can be with you but he never replies, i even ask god why did he have to take you and make me hurt so much.
I don't think anyone really knows how much it hurts to be missing you i hate it that you are not around anymore i wish so much that i could see you just one last time so i could say i love you and goodbye, no one understands me anymore no one understands just how much your death really effected me and how much i have bottled up inside of me over losing you the greatest dad an girl could ask for.
I never thought this would happend none of us did i wish i could be back in the momment with the good times we had with you but that is only a memory everything has changed and thinking about the momment you died in the hospital, still tears me up on the inside and cuts like an razor blade.
I know you are in heaven looking over us all and wishing you could be back with us and most of all be back in your grandson life and have back the momments when you and him would have so much fun, because we all know how much you loved him and how much he still loves you. | |
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Posted: 7/25/2008 9:15:41 PM | truffles to a snuffaguffalus
the fears in their eyes glow brighter with each bite.
consumption can be a nasty habit.
always worried that the time it takes them to stop and look
could stall the shape of their self-determined destinies.
They can almost see the circus
tied to the spinning wheel
but not the knives in their chests
as pan whistles them another tune.
The shadows that touch them
with reminders of the past and self
bounce back from their denials
while they drop like captured prey
from the claws of the truth
onto the hawthorns sharp spit
speared for histories amusement
as they turn the earth to shit.
lol somebody help me...... I am not sure where the heck that is going.
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Posted: 7/26/2008 10:30:50 AM | I'm gonna roll off of your Honey quote, darlin
lol, I'm sorry, I know you're only 27
but, that doesn't matter
I know to pull over if your bladder is full
how much are those totinos?
we're not headed towards vegas to hit the casino's
let's get hitched
you crazy bytch
I don't know that I'm the one
but, I do know that I'm having fun
and welcome to the commune
darlin
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Posted: 7/26/2008 4:46:18 PM | They can Almost see the circus
tied to the spinning wheel
Two parents of a child like us
tried to teach it how to deal
"Daddy please make it go faster
Momma I'm not to old to cry
This one I will love forever
If I can't have it I'll die"
Peek at that kid ten years later
in the seat of a new ford
running away to 'Vagas
parents sigh, "help Lord"
They heard "I don't know that I'm the one
but, I do know that I'm having fun"
In the middle of the mix
smooth as batter to me he comes
in his eyes are love and laughter does he think I am the one
Yes he is tall and handsome
But am I too old and wise
shall we go around together
shall we seek another prize
Settle down and raise a family
to the circus we will go
Will our children be any better
scary to reap what you sow | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 5:11:29 PM | If children could only learn what we already know
"scary to reap what you sow"
but we watch them stumble like our parents watched us
and we can only hope that it doesn't end with too much hurt
sad to say but its for their own good
let them learn on their own
it sinks in
better that way | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 8:15:53 PM | liking the writes i'm finding here....you buncha crazy folks that I call my friends....what is it they say? "Like attracts like"....and I like what I see...
and since "I don't care what I write"...i'm posting lyrics here...
the true story of what was ~ by: Ani Difranco
the light blue flickering rhythm
of the neighbor's big console t.v.
is basking on the ceiling
of another insomniatic spree
and outside sleep's open window
between the drops of rain
history is writing a recipe book
for every earthly pain
oh to clean up the clutter of echoes
coming in and out of focus
words spoken
like locusts
sing and sing
in my head
and thing is
they often seem
in my memory's long dream
to be superfluous to
the true story of what was
cuz
real is real regardless
of what you try to say
or say away
real is real relentless
while words distract and dismay
words that change their tune
though the story remains the same
words that fill me quickly
and then are slow to drain
dialogues that dither down reminiscent
of the way it likes to rain
every screen
a smoke screen
oh to dream
just for a moment
the picture
outside the frame
then in a flash
the light blue horizon
spanning a sudden black
is sucked into the vanishing point
and quiet rushes back
to search for the downbeat
in a tabla symphony
to search in the darkness
for someone who looks like me
(though i'm not really who i said i was
or who i thought i'd be)
just a collection of recollections
conversations consisting
of the kind of marks we make
when we're trying to get a pen to work again
a lifetime of them!
cough..cough..ahem
i say to me
now here listening
i say to the locusts
that sing and sing to me sitting
now here on the front porch swing of my eyes:
i hereby amend
whatever i've ever said
with this sigh | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 8:28:03 PM |
to search in the darkness
for someone who looks like me
love those lines Ash...very nice write!
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Posted: 7/27/2008 9:07:27 PM | Damn! I liked the whole thing! 
i hereby amend
whatever i've ever said
with this sigh
Brilliant Ash... | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 9:13:44 PM | | whoa...dang, ya'll...i'd love to take credit for that one...but actually it's an ani difranco song....(it's typed right above the write)....just a song I like the words to...and find them just as brilliant as you guys do....sorry....i'm sure it threw ya'll off 'cause i never usually post lyrics here...glad ya'll enjoyed the lyrics anyhow... | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 9:16:48 PM | I did see/read that
But it sounded so much like YOU that I thought you started out then warped into ramble mode 
It was ASH-like
Great read anyway
Thanks for posting it | |
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Posted: 7/27/2008 10:33:31 PM | Heres A Few, I Wrote And I Hope Yall Enjoy!
(Waiting On My Angel)
There is this guy who is so sweet and so passionate that he would, give anything just to be loved again so he closes his eye's and preys to god to please send him an angel of his very own. The next day the guy wake's up and there's an letter sitting on his table by his bed and it read's, dear son i heard you loud and clear last night and i wanted to let you know that you'r message got to me love you'r father.
The guy didn't think much of it an few day's later passed and the guy is walking down the road and see's this young beautiful girl, broken down in the middle of nowhere so he walk's over and helps her get to an safe place she look's up at him and ask's him how can i ever repay you sir. Then he saw this bright shinnging light and she tell's him sir don't worry about me repaying you back for helping me, because last night you'r message did come through loud and clear he look's into her eye's and see's his sould and his life inside her.
He ask's her if she would like to come back to his place for something to eat and maybe an cup of coffee or tea, she looks into his eye's and say's thank you i would like that very much so so they get into his car and drive back to his place and talk and she finnaly end's up telling him.
I'm the one you preyed for and asked for all you'r life so what i said before about you'r message came through loud and clear, was right because your verry own angel is standing infront of you before you'r verry own eye's.
Now This One Is A Little Long So Bear, With Me Please.
Alone in the darkness she cry's out for you she tosses and turns all thru the night she start's to reach out for you but realizes, you'r not there tonight so she close's her eye's and tear's began to flow down her face like an stream or water.
She hear's an sound late at night and she wonder's if the sound she hear's is you trying to come in and be close to her but she holds up her arm's but doesn't feel anything or anyone, so again she close's her eye's and try's to sleep but she can't get the thought of you off her mind.
She remember's what you told her in the start that this is only an one night stand don't get attached to me but she can't help but not to think that its just an one time thing because every moment she's spending with, you she's fallen more and more inlove with you.
Little does she know that you'r having problem's of you'r own as well the woman you go home to everynight and is married to doesn't feel the same way toward's you anymore yall sleep on differnt bed's, and is alway's having some sort of disagreement.
You finnaly get tired of being torn between two women you care deeply about and you draw the line and you tell the girl you'r having an affair with that you hate this and you can't seem to sleep at night because the guilt is tearing you apart whenever you'r lying next to you'r wife all you wan't to do is just reach out to her and put you'r arm across her body and tell her that you love her and how you never, meant to hurt her by having someone else on the side but at the same time yo don't wan't to hurt the woman you'r having the affair with and she look's into you'r eye's and tell's you i can't help it i have fallen inlove with you and i'm all twisted up inside also because i knew when this first took place that you was just looking for something on the side you wasn't wanting to take it this far and i'm sorry i agreed to be the other lady.
How can you expect me lay here on the bed we made love in more than 3 time's an night and not think about you or the first time you touched me and how wonderful it felt to be in you'r arm's you have to realize that you have two women here and only one heart you can give so before you go off to be with the woman you married you should really sit down and think about what has just happend and how you became wrapped up into this all, but before you go i must tell you something you'r not the only one with the deep dark secret burried deep inside of you'r soul you see i'm an married lady myselve but it's not the same as you'r i seen you around town with you'r wife and you look so inlove and the sparkle in yall's eye's is so bright.
You think you'r the only one who is going insane here but you'r not i can't sleep and i can't eat all i do is think and dream about the first night it all happend my husband was out of town on bussiness and you told you'r wife you had to go out on some buissness trip but you knew you was comming here and so did you'r wife but she never wanted to tell you because, she was hoping that you would be man enough to tell her what you have been doing behind her back but little did we both knew my husband and you'r wife has been having the same affair we had going on they just was like us they couldn't confess to it because they loved us both so verry much. Everytime when i would close my eye's and lay next to my husband all i could see was you'r face and you'r body laying next to me and it made the guilt even more harder because i truly do love my husband but i needed an little more than he could give me just like you needed the same that you'r wife couldn't provide for you so before, you go and start blaming you'rselve just remember everyone make's mistakes and everyone's forgivin but the one thing i never told you was about the last night of our affair i was 2month's pregnant and the baby is due any moment now so what am i suppose do and how am i going to tell our baby about the life i brought her up into.
You see i didn't know about the pregnancy until it was to late and you had already walked out of my life but i just had to tell you and that you'r going to be a father but when i think about it i wonder how's this baby going to feel about us and knowing the only reason she was born was because two people obessing for eachother's affection couldn't stop when it was time to stop, what is she going to think of us her father married to another lady and her mom in everyone's eye's is nothing but an cheap thrill an whore who would do anything for just one more night of passion again.
By:Heather
8-20-04
3:59AM
The Price Of Love | |
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Posted: 7/28/2008 10:03:48 AM | how you get your man
is how you lose your man
and love does not intentionally hurt
anyone
not "well maybe"
and "well sometimes..."
if you keep it real
you won't be confused by what you feel
and that's why I do
so that I can answer to
the things i have done
and I've never hurt one in the name of fun
or lust
I truly to "do unto others"
so i don't have to worry bout the "druthers"
always have
and always will
be careful of the actions you take
'cause you'll get your feel
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Posted: 7/28/2008 11:15:24 AM | I cant stand the daggers from the stares
it because all i do is stand here on the stairs
no one hears me as no one cares | |
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Posted: 7/28/2008 11:21:25 AM | the daggers from the stares
are multiplied by insecurity
as for the thought that no one cares
if one did
it's surely me
keeping checking off that list
of things left yet to achieve
and in the midst of the act of living
you find that which you wish to recieve | |
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Posted: 7/28/2008 4:25:36 PM | I stand before you all now
as I wait for judgement
knowing what sins I've committed and why.
I prstrate myself
"so that I can answer to
the things i have done"
There is no question in my mind
that it was the only choice I had
Do with me what you will
you would blame me for something else anyway
I'll be your scapegoat
I'll be the martyr
Just know that I'll be waiting
in Hell for you to arrive | |
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Posted: 7/28/2008 4:26:02 PM | you find that which you wish to recieve
in dancing through web devine
eyes watching shadows move
resting on the face that glows
through darkness
glowing
brighter than stars above
close in spirit
no distance too far | |
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Posted: 7/29/2008 10:42:03 AM | in the forest, critters are out
the deer forage beneath the leaves
as the sunrays trickle through the trees
the beginnings of blackberries show
the chanterelles push up from the loam
golden spots against the pine needles
there is a hush and the air is cool
‘eyes watching shadows move'
the quail flail, running after mom and dad
“wait for me!” they say in a sweet sounding warble
as the grey squirrels dash nimbly in front of me
life in the forest, air, scent, quiet
it hugs me in warm silence, delicious simplicity
the calm and still, even in restlessness feels peaceful | |
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Posted: 7/29/2008 3:30:19 PM | calm I agree
is found in the loud silence
sitting on the porch at night
never a light to be seen
except for the ones
caught by my Hunter man
talkin on the days past
somebodys always tellin
a story on back in the day
and how it used to be
finding bliss in the blackness
just folks talkin the way it used to be
every body hinged
on grandpaws one liners
of course the ladys were already in
on his second shot of gin
us young ones sitting with
a shit eatin grin
man I miss the ambiance
and the calm found in the
loud silence | |
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Posted: 7/29/2008 7:46:19 PM | "the shadows that touch them"
leave a stain
a little grey to remember them by
the shadows that welcome them
leave a key
to the yonder realms
the shadows that dissapear
leave a cold reminder
to run like hell. | |
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Posted: 7/29/2008 8:20:30 PM | "Waves of nostalgia crashed over me"
As I stood on my parent's front porch
the smell of BBQ was so good
made me want to cry
Mom came out of the kitchen
Smoothed my hair back kissed me
Placed a bottle in my hand
Take this out to your dad hon
He's been waiting for your return.
Dad looks up from the meat
takes the beer in his free hand
with it cools down his temple
takes a sip turns toward me
Y'know your mom was sad to see you go
That's their way of saying I love you
took me years to know | |
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