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Posted: 6/23/2008 4:38:38 PM | ^^^that was really good Visual, like your *raw* approach^^^
Tamed.
Come then sweet succubus in dripping form and unspent thirst
rape my flesh and leave me ashudder
show me the thunder of your rage
the murder of your lingering gaze
teach me to die
teach me to live in glory of your hate
mark me with your sorrow
stain my soul with your tar flecked lips
drench me in your lust
f*ck me
show me the dripping black of your screams
bare your teeth and let all the anger be of life
hate me beyond all others
and I will be alive by your rage
I will show you a madness let slip
as I bring the wall shattering to your back
show me the red of your passion
the cold steel of your barbed wire mouth
I don't need you
I hate you
bitch.
f*cking whore
I love you
My succubus lover.
..T.. | |
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Posted: 6/23/2008 4:56:53 PM | He said...
...She said
I have to go...
...Why?
I'm not happy...
...I can make you happy
No you can't...
...Why not?
I'm broken...
...I can fix you
I'm not worth it...
...You're worth it to me
I have to go...
...You're breaking my heart
I know, and I'm sorry...
...Please stay
I'm only half here anyway...
...You're here with me, in my heart
You should let me go...
...I can't | |
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Posted: 6/23/2008 5:42:22 PM | She,asked why I walked in sorrow, A brief chuckle
She,
after the morn noon arose
was named Sophia,or Sonia,something relevant to the s syllable
In answer to the prodding,I answered
"I saw them cast the limestone facades in to the kilns,Feeding father Christianity"
She sipped caffeine as I longed in the lost remembrance of burning wafers
To the door of the ronnin,
I acclaimed prose,
tripping on the flowers that dripped off garden vines
there were war kings on the hearth
Lonely concubines underneath
Lighting a slag, I baptized Bourbon in Resurrection
in comes a little to soon, a dogs day rendition of the blues
Another stony boy with a harmonica
She told me she would smile from the gates
"why"
I disclaimed the reputable offers
We were earth and slumber
Nothing more
nothing less | |
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Posted: 6/23/2008 5:53:03 PM | The day has come
A roosters crow resigns his fate
The toll is tallied
Daybreak's.......mud encrusted boots
Wet stone,blade
I wonder the far side of the farm
Music to my ears
The timbre of steel to wood
Flesh folds
Heads roll at my overall shrouded figure
Over and over
Blood
Down
floating in a cycle that never ends
In this spinning downward edged precision
I am Zeus
unappeased
There are pillars to be built for me
Cartilage for the pigs to grind jaws on
They march post to post
forever vigilant
........................
My son Ricky fell to Peta's' persuasion
Now a Beret covered liberation hails from the haystack crows nest
I am the cyanide touching moisture
I know
My teeth have outlived Babylons battle with the sand
The tally was written by someone besides me
So crow,crow all your sorrows away
The dinner bell brings new,ah,refreshed
I am Louis the 8th
reborn | |
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Posted: 6/23/2008 6:43:38 PM | Have really been enjoying your writes^^^^^^^^^
Thats hands in the pocket type true poetry, that just cannot be learned.
I like them all, but this line...
My teeth have outlived Babylons battle with the sand
....got me, amazing visual and word play...
Hope to see alot more.
Hats off.
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Posted: 6/23/2008 8:30:48 PM | You guys rock 
Skin crawl.....shuffle
Dont touch me
Because you never really meant it
Dont think about me
Because you never really wanted it
Dont f*cking touch me because i cant stand to be f*cking touched
Lift the burden from your life
Its so easy
Let me go
It wasnt written in the cards
The cards i am dealt
Always the joker
Always the old maid
F*ck your kings and queens
And
Screw your aces high
Throw your royal flush down the toilet
And
Burn down your full house
My game was never poker anyways
More of a
Russian roulette of the heart kind of gal | |
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Posted: 6/24/2008 4:07:53 PM | A picture and earl grey tea
I can not help but think she is beautiful,like you could never understand,covered beds and passion
there are not enough doors
for me to open or for me to close
i think of something of an enigma
but dream of simplicity | |
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Posted: 6/25/2008 12:42:36 PM | The following program is a paid advertisement.....Its called Infomercial love
Dont you want to be like everyone else and experience the amazing feeling of love?
Heart for sale
Grab it while you can
Such a steal
At a very low price
Dont you want a bleeding heart
One that pumps and breathes as much as you
I know you do, i know you can feel it
Tingling of the soul
Pop rocks of the heart
...For only $9.99 plus applicable taxes, (Canadian funds) this product could be yours! If you call within minutes we will also include a free years worth of kleenex! Such a great deal if you act fast! Limited quantities so order now. Call 1-800-Crockofsh*t and an operator will be pleased to serve you.
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Just as infomercials are a bunch of bull, so is love so dont full yourself with fantasies. Infomercials are never reality and love is just the same | |
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Posted: 6/25/2008 9:02:57 PM | Black waters of sin
The angel sits on a rock
Contemplates the meaning
Wishing for a river of blood
Heart to heart
Let it flow
An angel stripped of its wings
Because people refused to let her fly
Greediness
Taking pieces of her as souvenirs
As she blows you a kiss goodbye
She plunges into the
Black waters of sin | |
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| Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 6/25/2008 9:24:43 PM | Colour leaches slowly from my skin
Joy drains aching from my heart
As memories linger,waver, fade
They attempt to pull apart
The prison on my reality
Walls seeping with responsibility
Cold, dull, black, stark
A memory pops...a freed balloon drifting in the dark
Uproarious laughter, shy timid grin
Coarse sand gritty, wet toes
Sun on my body warm. Sin
Real LIFE. Bills to pay, problems pending
Day by day existing
Shoulders sag, knees bending.
Memories of stolen kisses,
holding hands under spying stars
Bright,warm, clear
Drowning in moonlight
Ecstasy creeps so near.
I need, give me ,can you?
Demands rain daily down on broken spirit
Shoulders straighten, backbone stiff
Clouded mind. Try to clear it
Pop..more memories come
Dancing, grind, sway , slow
Friends,family new to my heart
I cannot let them go
Life was made for living
Laughter,warmth,love. It should
Contain,overflow,surround us
Melt the numbness from our soul | |
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| Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 6/26/2008 6:42:03 AM | Perfection
Today I wondered along the shore
The wind blew loud and furiously
I watched as waves crashed with a roar
And a seagull spied me curiously
Then looking down towards my feet
I found a stone rounded to perfection
So smoothly refined and sleekly neat
And it came to me upon reflection
That this perfection of cold stone grey
Was made so by the onslaught of sea
Tossed, battered and chipped away
Till it’s edges were worn and scar free
And so much like life now I can see
Beaten and blown this way and that
But will perfection ever come to me
Will my life ever be smooth and pat
Will the rough edges ever wear down?
So that only peace will exist for I
Love and joy and without a frown
Will my life be perfect… before I die
But the past sh*t clings clawing
Eating away at any smoothness
Like an algae rotting and destroying
A leach infested abscess | |
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Posted: 6/27/2008 9:34:15 AM | Lovin the writes. Especially the last paragraph Serendipity
Chaotic
Promises are empty
Such uncertainty
No one safe
Nothing sacred
Doesnt anyone believe in something strong enough anymore?
Circumstances stand in the way
Losing the will to fight
Spiraling them down into nothingness
Is this what we have become?
Weak, defenseless and lazy
Void
The tears will never fill
The tears will never stop
Behind a wall in a fortress of darkness
Feeling empty
Pain, insanity
Chaining yourself to the decaying of eternity
Destroying all that comes through your path in cold flames
Insecurities and fear
Grabs a hold and doesnt let go
Tears have caused many floods
Broke the dam
Confusion
Delusion
Illusions
A fire consumes your brain
Your heart that once beats sits rotting away
Eyes are wired shut
Ears are deaf to those who show care
Everything gets tossed in the wind
In a chaotic mess | |
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| Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 6/27/2008 11:11:35 AM |
Lovin the writes. Especially the last paragraph Serendipity
Thank you Visual. funnily enough I was sad when I wrote the first 5 paragraphs and added the last when I was angry, perhaps I should write more in this frame of mind
Circumstances stand in the way
Losing the will to fight
Spiraling them down into nothingness
Insecurities and fear
Grabs a hold and doesnt let go
Tears have caused many floods
Broke the dam
Confusion
Delusion
Illusions
A fire consumes your brain
Having to take my ex through the courts on 4 different counts I can sometimes well associate with your words. My only consolation is that I won the first battle, almost certain to win the second and now I have a good man beside me to help me win the war. | |
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Posted: 6/27/2008 1:07:20 PM | Time to go, Ive had enough.
I can't take the pain you put me through.
Even though, you think it's not heavy stuff.
You drove me insane, you turned the screw.
You made this mess, but i'm paying the price.
You screwed me very well.
My best guess you screwed me twice.
As you can see, now I'm going to hell.
While i put this barrel in my mouth,
I only think of you.
you left me sterile, and ill of health.
I'll never again feel blue.
'cause when I'm dead, no more pain,
no more fun, no more you.
But like the rain, dried up by the sun.
I'll soon be forgotten too. | |
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| Raw and emotionally exposed....
Posted: 6/27/2008 1:41:28 PM | I hate you, you make me sick.
don't you have anything better to do,
than be a prick.
Tell me what's your bother,
why do you always have shit to say.
was it your father, did he make you this way.
You know, I feel sad. 'Cause you don't realize.
some day, someone will get real mad
and cut you down to your proper size.
When you're down there, you will see
No one will care, not even me.
There's only one way one solution.
To stop your everyday verbal pollution.
It's not cutting out your tounge,
although that would be fun.
You aught to be hung,
You're still someones son.
So the only way
I can clear my head.
Is to stay away,
and wish you were dead. | |
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Posted: 6/28/2008 10:35:01 PM | | i come back time and again, visual. you truly have the intensities and passions of the poet. and this comment goes beyond what you refer to as the physical distortion. i thank you for sharing such pieces of yourself. | |
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Posted: 6/29/2008 12:03:27 AM | Wow~~Thats a lot of insightful self-discovery!! I'm sure that..by itself has taken a lot of work~~to get this far~~Just remember that~~Be gentle with yourself~Think and reflect on things...like "You've come a long way, baby." -Not meant as a flirt~
But really~take it easy on yourself~Heaven knows the world doesn't~~We're very battered and beaten up in this world...whether we want to admit it,or not~
And actually, you're a lot better off~~If WE admit it! ~Pretending, or being strong~Does us no good..in the end ... So, kudos to you for being real!!
If you ever get the desire to have your life be different~~Than seek Jesus~
~Most beaitiful Entity you'll ever come to know~He'll never turn His back on you~When He's not around~It's because we've chosen to walk away~~Jesus loves You/Me /Us ~Dearly~And He is ~P~A~S~S~I~O~N~A~T~E~ about His concern for our lives~~If we only....Accept Him into our heart as Lord & Saviour~Asking forgiveness of our mistakes~~And be willing~ daily to submit our life choices~over to His care~with honest prayer~(in order for our lifes to be truly changed...
~~ it must be done~~According to..... HIS WILL FOR OUR LIVES: Not our own~~ Trusting that He (after we have repeatedly tried our own way time and time again) ~~Knows what is the very best anecdote for our lives~when we read the Bible~We can learn... How our Creator ~~Sees perspectives~~On a totally different level~So, that ~~Faith is not a Logical way of thinking~~It doesn't make human sense... And I have to say that sometimes when we are so BURNT by Life~(been there)~We may be closer to His way of thinking than we imagine~~Bible says ~He is not far from any of us...Read John 3:16~powerful stuff~~That God could Love us individually and specifically~~Each and every one of Us ~No matter Our sin~Sent His Son to go through all that pain and humiliation~I don't think I have ever met a human being~~even the ones ~~that have been so dear ~~that could ever do such an unmistakable act of kindness~~I mean~~Like I Love and Cherish my children~
~ no matter what they can do or say to me( and I've survived~~~One teenager..Thus far..
~I told my youngest one tonight~~That the sun rose and set on her...She said what...I explained that there was nothing she could ever do..so that there would even be the possibility...that I would stop loving her, or her brother and sisters... But even with all that LOVE I have for them that is sooo precious...as each of us have... for our own children.... It could never mount up to be enough where I would have the strength, courage, resilliency, and so on ...to do something..like ..die on a cross for them...Even though I might want to really bad...and If I was given the choice..okay what If I was given an ultimatem......I then could NOT CONQUER DEATH ITSELF TO SUBSTANTIATE my Love...for them...as endearing as it may be... human...weakness lacks much....
~~ So, It is awesome that we have somebody on our sides that is sooo powerful~~
...And what a waste ..If we never let him in...... How sad for us....
~ Jesus died and conquered death for sinners ..me/you..all of us.... Just so we could have Eternal Life...Some.....sweet day..
Not an easy task~But a worthy one~Aren't we worth it.~~Jesus, the Son of God thinks so!.I don't mean monetary worth, or having the most successful carreer worth..the best house..car...jewlry...whatever....But all these things will fade away..Solomon, in the Bible was one of the richest men in recorded history and yet..his writings reflect his lack of fulfilment...
~~But, talking from experience; It is the most freeing kind of life~you'll ever have the pleasure of knowing~~Romans1:16 For I am not ashamed of the Gospel.for it is the POWER OF GOD FOR SALVATION to EVERYONE WHO BELIEVES, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. ~
When the Bible uses the analogy~~the Jew and the Greek~It's' just referring to ....
being all inclusive... so, It's what you believe.And what we do with it...
~~I'm sure there are so many people out there that would benefit from...someone like you...someone that can truly... relate to their pain.....
~We are exactly where we are for a purpose...Sending you God's tender..loving mercies..but do you want it....
~He also gave us the freedom to choose HIm,or turn and walk away.... | |
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Posted: 6/29/2008 12:05:17 AM | Wow~~Thats a lot of insightful self-discovery!! I'm sure that..by itself has taken a lot of work~~to get this far~~Just remember that~~Be gentle with yourself~Think and reflect on things...like "You've come a long way, baby." -Not meant as a flirt~
But really~take it easy on yourself~Heaven knows the world doesn't~~We're very battered and beaten up in this world...whether we want to admit it,or not~
And actually, you're a lot better off~~If WE admit it! ~Pretending, or being strong~Does us no good..in the end ... So, kudos to you for being real!!
If you ever get the desire to have your life be different~~Than seek Jesus~
~Most beaitiful Entity you'll ever come to know~He'll never turn His back on you~When He's not around~It's because we've chosen to walk away~~Jesus loves You/Me /Us ~Dearly~And He is ~P~A~S~S~I~O~N~A~T~E~ about His concern for our lives~~If we only....Accept Him into our heart as Lord & Saviour~Asking forgiveness of our mistakes~~And be willing~ daily to submit our life choices~over to His care~with honest prayer~(in order for our lifes to be truly changed...
~~ it must be done~~According to..... HIS WILL FOR OUR LIVES: Not our own~~ Trusting that He (after we have repeatedly tried our own way time and time again) ~~Knows what is the very best anecdote for our lives~when we read the Bible~We can learn... How our Creator ~~Sees perspectives~~On a totally different level~So, that ~~Faith is not a Logical way of thinking~~It doesn't make human sense... And I have to say that sometimes when we are so BURNT by Life~(been there)~We may be closer to His way of thinking than we imagine~~Bible says ~He is not far from any of us...Read John 3:16~powerful stuff~~That God could Love us individually and specifically~~Each and every one of Us ~No matter Our sin~Sent His Son to go through all that pain and humiliation~I don't think I have ever met a human being~~even the ones ~~that have been so dear ~~that could ever do such an unmistakable act of kindness~~I mean~~Like I Love and Cherish my children~
~ no matter what they can do or say to me( and I've survived~~~One teenager..Thus far..
~I told my youngest one tonight~~That the sun rose and set on her...She said what...I explained that there was nothing she could ever do..so that there would even be the possibility...that I would stop loving her, or her brother and sisters... But even with all that LOVE I have for them that is sooo precious...as each of us have... for our own children.... It could never mount up to be enough where I would have the strength, courage, resilliency, and so on ...to do something..like ..die on a cross for them...Even though I might want to really bad...and If I was given the choice..okay what If I was given an ultimatem......I then could NOT CONQUER DEATH ITSELF TO SUBSTANTIATE my Love...for them...as endearing as it may be... human...weakness lacks much....
~~ So, It is awesome that we have somebody on our sides that is sooo powerful~~
...And what a waste ..If we never let him in...... How sad for us....
~ Jesus died and conquered death for sinners ..me/you..all of us.... Just so we could have Eternal Life...Some.....sweet day..
Not an easy task~But a worthy one~Aren't we worth it.~~Jesus, the Son of God thinks so!.I don't mean monetary worth, or having the most successful carreer worth..the best house..car...jewlry...whatever....But all these things will fade away..Solomon, in the Bible was one of the richest men in recorded history and yet..his writings reflect his lack of fulfilment...
~~But, talking from experience; It is the most freeing kind of life~you'll ever have the pleasure of knowing~~Romans1:16 For I am not ashamed of the Gospel.for it is the POWER OF GOD FOR SALVATION to EVERYONE WHO BELIEVES, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. ~
When the Bible uses the analogy~~the Jew and the Greek~It's' just referring to ....
being all inclusive... so, It's what you believe.And what we do with it...
~~I'm sure there are so many people out there that would benefit from...someone like you...someone that can truly... relate to their pain.....
~We are exactly where we are for a purpose...Sending you God's tender..loving mercies..but do you want it....
~He also gave us the freedom to choose HIm,or turn and walk away.... | |
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Posted: 6/30/2008 6:10:59 PM | I blame every bit of it on walt disney and way to many drug connections at a young age. Ira's,stocks and bounds just don't do it for me
I prefer good green buds,smiles and hugs. | |
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Posted: 6/30/2008 6:32:36 PM | Snatched from a conversation with a good friend:
You speak to me of love in all it's splendor
You talk as if love will conquer all
as if love is strong enough to make it all better
Love doesn't make you want to clean the kitchen
or do the laundry
Love doesn't pay the bills
Love is what you come back to
after all of the rest of life
is done kicking your ass
If two people can come home to each other
after getting their ass handed to them through a blender all day
and still get along, then that's love | |
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Posted: 6/30/2008 7:12:06 PM | pre-medicated Anxiety
do you ever step
outside yourself
only to run into yourself
trip
flip
pull your own mind's hands
from your neck
so you can stop thinkin' long enough
just to check
yourself
you ever take a pill
so you can simply chill?
what if I told you I cried
today
because something in me has died
okay
tomorrow
will be a new day
but I have to put a part of me
away
just to say what I have
and the words can't even begin to cover it
but the pills do
and when I can handle me, one day,
I'll introduce her to you
yeah.....i'm a crazy bytch
and I got an itch
so far deep down
i get lost wandering around
searching for the spot
that needs to be scratched
so...........pardon me..........................darlin
...............if i'm just a bit detached | |
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Posted: 7/1/2008 4:11:08 PM | Beautiful strangeness
Following life through a maze
Getting lost along the way
Damn crows ate my bread crumbs!
Beautiful strangeness
That makes your heard spin
That makes your heart skip a beat
Jumping rope was never my thing!
Beautiful strangeness
Takes pictures of emptiness
Cocoons transforms them into beautiful butterflies
Damn...it hit my windshield!
Beautiful strangeness
Drink till you get a buzz
Drink till you cant walk
Ring a round the rosie!
The kind of strangeness that echoes
The kind that takes my breath from within
The kind that leaves me...
...with a cheshire grin | |
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Posted: 7/2/2008 9:02:18 AM | Definitely Raw this one!! Thank You Visual!!
Flung ino the venomous pain
emotionally drain'd
My child's innocence take'n away
Hell upon my soul and mind
heavy to the heart
uncontrolled sobbing
nothing able to console
changing life as we all knew it
whats a mother to do?!!
expose'd truth, now known
disgusted
insanely furious
Urging upon death with my own hands
leaving me to question God's plan
Searching for how to give her back the innocence!! | |
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Posted: 7/2/2008 11:02:16 AM | Wow such a powerful write, no words could explain how it makes me feel. No words could express the sorrow. So i hope a hug will do 
I wish i could breathe you into me
Intimate breaths shared
Between two souls
Every exhale carrying the essence of your being
Heat of your blood pumping
Such a treasure inside your veins
Breathing is my extension to my thoughts
Wont you read my mind?
Eratic and irrational
When i breathe you in
I want to lose myself
I want us to mold the world as if it was ours
Where no one
Where no one else matters as we breathe each other in | |
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