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Posted: 5/15/2008 9:17:25 AM | | Thanks 123 ... this is Adam's place ... I just come to visit & give encouragement ... it's always nice to read other peoples words ... what they are going through ... what they are feeling, thinking ... I find the most important thing is to get it out from inside & put it to paper ... Hg | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 9:32:02 AM | I could not agree more HG.
I too believe it is not in one's best interest to hold in feelings,
best to put them to paper ...
allow them to rest a while,
look at them while they are lieing there exposed.
How powerful are they, really?
If you write them in pencil you can erase them ... poof! They're gone!
If they were written in pen? Well, some times it's a lot of fun tearing up paper ya know? Releases pent up stress!
Lucky
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Posted: 5/15/2008 10:24:22 AM | | Anyone feel like they havent actually let their true selves come over in conversation, in getting to know people? | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:28:17 PM | GLIMPSE
HERE I STAND . . . MOUNTAIN TOP
. . . ARMS OUTSRETCHED
HERE I’LL PAINT A PICTURE
FOR ALL SOULS MARRED
WE LOOK AND GROW
WE TOUCH AND KNOW
WE GATHER THOUGH TIME
AS TIME HAS SHOWN
OUR HISTORY . . . CONFLICT BREEDS
MY HANDS ARE REACHING . . . . !
HERE I’LL PAINT A PICTURE
FOR ALL THOSE DAYS
CUZ I’M COLOUR-BLIND TO YOUR SKIN
RELIGION - A ONE MAN VISION?
NARROW MINDED SUPERSTITION?
IGNORAMUS 103 EQUALS AGGRESSION.
AND THEY SAY
WE LOOK AND GROW
WE TOUCH AND KNOW
WE GATHER THROUGH TIME
AS TIME HAS SHOWN
I DON’T LIKE WHAT I SEE IN HISTORY
I DON’T LIKE THE FEELING IN THE STREET
I DON’T LIKE BEING PART OF THE WHITE GHOST
THE NATIVE AMERICANS KNEW WOULD COME
I DON’T LIKE WHAT I SEE IN THE DEVELOPING WORLD
I DON’T LIKE WHAT I SEE IN ME
I DON’T LIKE WHAT I AM WITNESS TO
WHEN I TURN ON THE RADIO, WATCH THE T.V.
ADAM FRETTER - 19/10/95© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:40:52 PM | CHERISHED LOVE
I WATCHED GROWING CLOUDS BUILDING HEAVY
DRIVING POURED THE RAIN
WATCHED IT ALL FROM MY WINDOW PANE
I WATCHED IT WASH EVERYTHING, NOW EVERYTHING’S AWAY …
‘SINCE WHAT WAS IN THE PAST DIDN’T LAST,’
PEOPLE SAY … ‘WHAT’S THE POINT IN CARRYING IT ON …’
‘IF IT DOESN’T MAKE YOU STRONG?’
I FOUND THE TREASURE IN PERSEVERENCE!
I WATCHED THE CLOUDS DISPERSE … DEPART
I WATCHED THE SUN GROW LOW
MADE EVERYTHING GLOW … IT BROUGHT A SMILE
HAVE YOU SEEN MY SMILE? … HOW WOULD YOU KNOW?
CUZ NOTHING IS THE SAME SINCE
NOTHING IS PARTICULAR
NOTHING IS TRIVIAL
EVERYTHING’S JUST SPECTACULAR!
NOTHING’S BEEN THE SAME SINCE…
NOTHING IS PECULIAR
NOTHING WILL BRING IT BACK?
MY CHERISHED LOVE … IRREGULAR.
ADAM FRETTER - 05/05/96© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:44:42 PM | LIFT
THE MANY FACES THE EYES SEE
THE MANY THINGS THAT TURN THEM BLIND
THE MANY EMOTIONS THEY SHOW
THE MANY THINGS THEY’LL FIND
IT’S NOT UNLIKE CLIMBING A MOUNTAIN
WITH NO HARNESS OR ROPE TO HOLD
YOU’RE BOUND TO SLIP, MIGHT EVEN FALL
IT’S THE BREAKING AND RE-MAKING - THE RE-SHAPING OF US ALL
SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY
SOME DAY SOON YOU’LL HAVE TO TRY
THE WIND IT CALLS OUT YOUR NAME SO
LIFT THOSE FADING EYES AGAIN.
ADAM FRETTER - 10/05/95© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:46:04 PM | STALEMATE
HE’D CLOSED HIS EYES … TOUCHED HER SKIN …
… WASN’T HOW HE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE …
… NEEDS SOMETHING NEW HERE AGAIN …
… AND SO THE QUESTIONS BRINGS ON THE DISTANCE …
STALEMATE … CHANCE IS THERE …
STALE MATE … WISH LAID BARE …
SHE’D CLOSED HER EYES … FELT THE FIRE WITHIN …
… WASN’T HOW SHE THOUGHT IT COULD BE …
… BOTH NEED SOMETHING DIFFERENT TO BEGIN …
… AND SO SHE QUESTIONS … HE WON’T LET HER IN …
… SO SHE LEAVES … NO ONE WINS …
SO HE QUESTIONS … SHE DAREN’T LET HIM IN
SO HE LEAVES HER … NO ONE WINS
… AND SO WE QUESTION … WHO DO WE LET IN? …
… AND SO WE ‘MOVE ON’ … WEAR IT UNDER THE SKIN …
HEY STALEMATE … THE CHANCE WAS THERE
HEY MY STALE-MATE … YOUR CHANCE LAID BARE
… THE ONE TIME I OPENED TO YOU …
WE’LL WALK THIS CIRCLE AGAIN …
I’LL WALK THIS CIRCLE AGAIN …?
ADAM FRETTER - 04/10/93© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:48:36 PM | OSCAR
(for the 'Gutter Kids' of a South American town
who have been killed when they 'surface' and have
even had corrupt police handing out death warrants.
One guy who tried to make a stand was a man called Oscar....)
PUNISHMENT GIVEN … THOUGH HE HAD DONE NO WRONG
TRIES TO MAKE AN HONEST LIVING AND … GETS SET UPON
HE CAN’T CALL LOCAL SERVICE CUZ THEY’RE ALL IN THE GAME
IN RIO THEIR HEADS ROLL …
OUT IN THE OPEN THE DAY LAY HAND IN HAND
MARCH IN MEMORY! WHO CARES? WHO DARES?
CURSE OF MAN
LAST BREATH TAKEN FOR BEING different (deferent?)
SOCIETY MAY WELL BE TO BLAME - IS THIS WHAT THEY TEACH?
PROPAGANDA! HAVE TO LOOK AT YOUR ETHICS
CUZ THE LITTLE BOY WONDERS WHY HE CAN’T GO OUT AND PLAY
AND SO HIS SISTER WONDERS CUZ ITS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL DAY
AND THEIR MOTHER WISHES LIFE DIDN’T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY
HER THOUGHTS ARE WITH THEIR FATHER …
“IS DADDY COMING HOME TODAY?”
CURSE OF ‘ . . . . . man . . . . . . ’
“WHERE ARE YOU LEADING US?”
“WHERE ARE YOU TAKING US?”
“WHY ARE YOU F***ING WITH US?!”
ADAM FRETTER - 03/02/94© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:51:06 PM | IN REMINISCENCE
WISH I COULD WHILE AWAY AND WANDER … BECAUSE
THIS ALMOST ISN’T MINE ANY MORE
WISH THERE WAS TIME ENOUGH TO RECONSIDER MY LINE
MY LINE - MY TIME - THE PATH I’VE CARVED
THE ‘ROLE’ I HAVE RESURRECTED AS MINE
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING
BUT STILL YOU’LL GO ON YOUR WAY
AND YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I WAS FEELING
BUT STILL YOU’LL HAVE YOUR SAY
WISH I COULD WHILE AWAY AND WONDER … BECAUSE
SOON WHAT I HAVE MAY NOT BE MINE
YET THERE’S STILL TIME TO RECONSIDER MY LINE
MY LINE - MY TIME - THE PATH I’VE CARVED
THE ‘ROLE’ I HAVE RESURRECTED AS MINE
YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING
BUT STILL YOU’LL GO ON YOUR WAY
AND YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS FEELING
SO WHAT IS THERE LEFT FOR ME TO SAY … ?
… APART FROM GOD GAVE ME THE CHANCE
TO ERADICATE THE THOUGHTS THAT BROUGHT ALONG
THE FEELINGS THAT I’LL LEAVE UNTOLD?
YOU’LL SHOW ME HOW YOU WANT TO SEE ME AND
YOU’LL SEE ME HOW YOU WANT TO SHOW ME
THESE FEELINGS WRONG MAY SOON BE WASHED AWAY
THESE THOUGHTS MIGHT NOT BE HERE TONIGHT
THESE THOUGHTS WILL SOON BE SWAMPED BY UNTOLD OTHERS
AND ALONG WITH THESE FEELINGS BE TAKEN INTO FLIGHT.
ADAM FRETTER - 27/04/94© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:52:09 PM | AWAY
SO YOU THINK YOU’VE FOUND IT … I THINK YOU’VE LOST IT
BITTERNESS HAS BEEN EXPOSED IN A TORTURED MIND IN A FRIEND SO CLOSE
CASE ISN’T CLOSED … THE COLOURS AREN’T TRUE
IS IT ALWAYS TOO MUCH TO TURN TO SOMETHING NEW?
YOU’RE SO FAR AWAY …
YOU SAID YOU THOUGHT IF IT … I THINK YOU IGNORED IT
SO YOU CLOSE THE DOOR ON FRIENDS YOU HAVE AS DEMONS COME OUT TO PLAY
BUT WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD TAKEN UP
HAS ALREADY PASSED AWAY…
YOU’RE SO FAR … AWAY …
YOU SAY YOU’RE TRYING FOR IT … SOME SAY YOU’RE DYING FOR IT
THE ‘PROMISED LAND’ COULD BE IN YOUR HAND BUT IT NEVER CAME EASY FOR YOU
SO YOU’VE DECIDED TO CLEAVE, TOO?
I REMEMBER YOU WERE FOUND REACHING…
YOU’RE SO … FAR … AWAY …
HOPE TO SEE YOU SOME DAY …
R.I.P. Jon Riddoch
ADAM FRETTER - 11/05/94© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:54:38 PM | LIFT #2
THE MANY FACES THE EYES SEE
THE MANY THINGS THAT TURN THEM BLIND
THE MANY EMOTIONS THEY SHOW
THE MANY THINGS THEY’LL FIND
PASSION HAS BEEN KNOWN TO BE VIOLENT
THE CRUEL DISEASE CAN RULE THE HEART
THERE WILL BE COUNTLESS DISTRACTIONS
THAT YOU WILL ENCOUNTER FROM THE START
IT’S NOT UNLIKE CLIMBING A MOUNTAIN
WITH NO HARNESS OR ROPE TO HOLD
YOU’RE BOUND TO SLIP, YOU MIGHT EVEN FALL
IT’S THE BREAKING - RE-MAKING - THE RE-SHAPING OF US ALL
SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND FLY
SOME DAY SOON YOU’LL HAVE TO TRY
THE WIND IT CALLS OUT YOUR NAME SO
LIFT THOSE FADING EYES AGAIN
MANY FINGERS HAVE WRAPPED AROUND
CORNERS SURROUNDING TRUTHS DOOR
THERE ARE MANY HERE TO HOLD ON TO
LIKE SCATTERED FACES ON THE FLOOR
IN WHAT IS TO COME AS NEW
AND WHAT HAS PASSED AS OLD
WHAT HAS BEEN TOLD TO YOUNG AND OLD
MUST BE REMEMBERED AND BE RETOLD
SO IT’S NOT UNLIKE CLIMBING A MOUNTAIN
WITH NO HARNESS OR ROPE TO HOLD
YOU’RE BOUND TO SLIP, MIGHT EVEN FALL
IT’S THE BREAKING - RE-MAKING - THE RE-SHAPING OF US ALL
SO SPREAD THOSE WINGS AND FLY
FOR SOME DAY SOON YOU’LL HAVE TO TRY
THE WIND IT CALLS OUT YOUR NAME SO
LIFT THOSE FADING EYES AGAIN
ADAM FRETTER - 10/05/95© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:55:22 PM | TWO SLEEP
I TRY TO GET MY POINT ACROSS BUT YOU’VE LOWERED YOUR BLINDS
SPOKEN WORDS FALL ON DEAF EARS
WOULD ANY ONE BELIEVE WE’VE BEEN HERE MANY TIMES?!
BUT STILL, I GOT THE MESSAGE THOUGH (IT WASN’T EASY TO DO)
I HAD TO GO ROUND THE BACK AND THROUGH
IT TAKES TIME LIKE PLENTY DO
I TRY TO GET MY POINT ACROSS BUT WE’RE BUMPER CARS IN LOCK
SPOKEN WORDS SLEEPS ON VAGRANT EARS
DO YOU BELIEVE OUR TIME HAS TAKEN STOCK? (COULDN’T GIVE A…)
BUT I GOT THE MESSAGE THOUGH (IT WASN’T AN EASY THING TO DO)
I HAD TO GO ROUND THE BACK AND THROUGH
IT TAKES TIME LIKE ALL OTHERS DO
WHY DO YOU DO TO ME WHAT YOU DO?
I SEE WHAT YOU COULD BE
I’M SHALLOW TOO
I SEE WHAT I COULD BE
BUT I’M THREATENED BY YOU
I SEE WHAT YOU COULD BE
I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD THINK
WHY DO YOU DO TO ME WHAT YOU DO!?
YOU GOT SLEEP IN THOSE EYES
ADAM FRETTER - 06/09/95© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 12:58:22 PM | SAFE HOUSE
TAKE ME IN TO WHERE IT’S WARM
SHOW ME A PLACE FAR FROM THE STORM
THERE’S A FEELING HERE SO STRONG
I NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
BUT IF I’M HERE THEN I’M OKAY
THERE WON’T BE ANYTHING WRONG
IF THIS IS THE PLACE I TRULY BELONG
TAKE ME TO A PLACE CALLED HOME
SHOW ME THE PLACE WHERE I’LL NOT BE ALONE
ALMOST ALL THE CHOICES I HAVE MADE
THEIR DECISION IS TO STAY AWAY
BUT NOW HE’S HERE HE’LL BE OKAY
HE CAN READ HIS POETY AND SING HIS SONGS
IF THIS IS PLACE WHERE HE TRULY BELONGS
YOU CAME FROM NEAR AND YOU CAME FROM FAR
TO COME TO ME TO TAKE YOUR ARMS
TO GUIDE YOU SLOW BUT TO GUIDE YOU SURE
TO SHOW THE THINGS YOU’VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE
TAKE US TO A PLACE THAT’S WARM
SHOW US THE PLACE WHERE WE’LL BE OUR OWN
THERE’S A FEELING HERE SO STRONG
WE’VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
THIS FEELING IS CLEANSING THE SCREEN
AND SO THERE SHOULD BE NOTHING WRONG
SO LONG AS THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE WE TRULY BELONG
THEY CAME FROM NEAR AND THEY CAME FROM FAR
TO COME TO US AND TO TAKE OUR ARMS
TO GUIDE US SLOW AND TO GUIDE US SURE
TO SHOW US THE THINGS WE’VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE
ADAM FRETTER - 24/10/95© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:43:49 PM | PENNY
SHE’S CORNERED … ALL DIRECTIONS … WOULD SCREAM IF SHE COULD
SANCTUARY … SHE NEEDS IT … MOTHER DIDN’T GIVE WHAT SHE SHOULD
AND WHO’S TO SAY SHE WON’T STAY THE SAME?
SHE’S SEEN PLENTY PASS HER BY TO KNOW
WHAT IS THERE AND WHAT COULD BE SEEN
SHE’S BY HER OWN … NO ONE HAS TOLD HER THE TRUE MEANING OF HOME
SOMETHING … SHE SEES IT … NO ONE HAS RETURNED WHAT SHE HAS SHOWN
SO WHO’S TO SAY SHE’LL STAY THE SAME?
SHE’S SEEN PLENTY PASS HER BY TO KNOW
WHAT IS THERE AND WHAT CAN BE SEEN
EVERY OPTION HAS BEEN TAKEN … EVERY OPTION BUT ONE
SHE CARVED THE STONE THAT THEY TOOK AWAY
THEY SLOWED DOWN … BIT THE GROUND
THEY SLOWED DOWN … BIT THE GROUND
LIKE IT OR NOT … HER MEMORY IS HERE TO STAY
NOW SHE LAYS BROKEN … SHE’D BE PRESSED
NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO SEE LIFE AT ITS BEST
PENNY WAS HER NAME AND HER LIFE IS SPENT
NOW SHE’S LAID TO REST … SHE’S AMONG THE BLESSED
PENNY IS NO LONGER UP FOR RENT
THEY SAID THEY CALLED YOU PENNY CUZ A PENNY IS ALL YOU’RE WORTH
THEY SAID THEY’D SEE IF YOU’D GROW BY BURYING YOU IN THE EARTH
ADAM FRETTER - 30/01/96© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:44:49 PM | THE TENSE SON
(THE TENSION)
WINDOWS RATTLE … THEY SIGNAL THE COMING WAVE,
OVER YOUR HEAD CRASHING DEEP DOWN WITHIN,
SWELLING THE RHYTHM OF YOUR EVERY DAY LIFE,
FROM NOW ON NOTHING WILL BE THE SAME,
ALL THAT REMAINS IS THE CANDLE FLAME …
I WATCHED RISING SUNSHINE SWEEP BEAT UPON YOUR FACE,
AND I’M SHOWERED IN CONFUSION EACH TIME I’M PUT IN MY ‘PLACE‘,
ATTEMPT AT CONTEMPT-PLATING THE MASK INSIDE,
THERE IS NO MORE DREAMING OF THE DREAM THAT DIED,
ALL THAT REMAINS IS THE CANDLE FLAME …
I MAY RISE LATE IF I RISE AT ALL, BUT DON’T DOUBT IT,
INSIDE OUTSIDE KNEAD ME FLAT UPON THE PLAIN,
STRETCH ME TEAR ME TRY TO REPAIR ME WITHDRAWN,
GLASS SMILE HELD FOR SMALL WHILE WHICH HAS NEVER BEEN THE SAME,
AND ALL THAT REMAINS IS THE FLICKERING CANDLE FLAME …
ADAM FRETTER - 20/10/96© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:45:24 PM | RECYCLE
“WHEN YOU FEEL YOUR HANDS GETTING COLD,
“WHEN YOU DON’T HEAR WHAT YOU’RE BEING TOLD.”
WHEN YOU RELAX AND BREATHE IN THE AIR,
HOW MUCH DO YOU WAKE?
“WHEN THE TOWN CLOCK SLOWLY CHIMES FIVE,
“IT’S SUNDAY MORNING: TOWN ROADS ARE NOT ALIVE.”
NOTHING BUT PAPERS RACING ON EMPTY STREETS.
TELL ME: WHAT DO YOU DO?
“HAVE YOU HEARD OF THE PRISON WITH NO WALLS?
“FOR ME IT’S THE ONLY ONE THAT CALLS.”
GUESS IT MATTERS ON HOW MUCH YOU’VE LIVED.
DON’T YOU EVER GET OUTSIDE?!
“LIKE THE HANDS ON THE TOWN’S CLOCK FACE,
“THE WALLS SHADOW FINGERS KEEP IN THEIR PLACE.”
THE PAPER-MACHE FIGURE SITS MUTE SOAKED IN ITS OWN GRACE.
DON’T YOU EVER GET THE URGE!?
ADAM FRETTER - 08/01/97© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:46:14 PM | DOMESTIC(H)ATE
“I don‘t care what it is you‘re thinking,” HE SAID,
“You can‘t hope to resist me!”
ONE LESSON MORE IS NEEDED FOR HIM TO COMPLETELY DROWN ME
THE WATER HERE ISN’T LOW AND TEMPERATURES ARE RISING
ONE MORE HEARTLESS SHOW BEFORE I’M BACK BEING NOTHING SURPRISING
LOOK WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO ME
PROUD OF WHAT YOU’VE MADE ME BE?
I AM THE UGLY ONE
I AM BUT ANOTHER ONE
I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU HOPE TO BE ACHIEVING, SHE SAID
YOU CAN NEVER HOPE TO HAVE ME
AND FOR THE SAKE OF PLEASURE NO MATTER HOW CLOSE YOU’LL NEVER TAKE ME
HE SAID “I’ll give my love complete,
“Before she can go back to her crying.”
CUT ME WHERE YOU THOUGHT IT WOULDN’T SHOW
ADAM FRETTER - 21/02/97© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:46:55 PM | CHANGINGMAN
LIE ME DOWN ON MIRROR STRAIGHT … CUT THE ANGLES CLEAN
PAPER-MACHE MODEL OF THE INCURRED .. INSIDE IS HOW I’VE BEEN
TAKE ATTRIBUTES THAT SHAPE THAT PERSON .. MAKE SURE YOU’RE CAREFUL!
DON’T COME AND CUT MY SCREAM
TAKE A DARKENING STRANGER … THE TRIANGLE BERMUDA
STARTED TO MIRROR WHAT I HATE
FACE TO FACE WITH WHAT I HATE … HATED FOR SO LONG … BELIEVE
MY ALTER-EGO … HOW ARE YOU? … SMILE NOW YOU’VE MADE ME BLEED
TOOK A FLIGHT OFF-WORLD … SAW HIS DEMONS IN ME
WHAT IS TO BECOME OF ME?
TAKE A TARRED DARK AND NARROW … TAKE MY PRECIOUS MARROW
THIS IS WHERE IT’S TAKING ME, I CAN SEE … I CAN BLEED … ALL TOO EASILY
ACTION AND THEY’RE REACTION … TAKE YOUR PICK … LUCKY DRAW
THERE ARE PLENTY I KNOW COULD STICK … BUT I HAVEN’T BEEN THIS LOW BEFORE
REEL IN FROM THE QUAYSIDE … REEL IN FROM THE ROADSIDE
REAL HAS NEVER BEEN THIS REAL BEFORE…
TAKE A SHATTERED MIRROR … TAKE A BROKEN CRIPPLED HAND
THIS IS WHAT I THINK OF ME … SEE? I BLEED … NONE TOO EASY
AND YOU CAN JOIN … JOIN IN … JOIN, IF YOU WANT TO … JOIN
WASN’T STRONG ENOUGH TO KEEP IT OUT
FROM MYSELF, THE SHELF, TANGLED SHELL
YOU CAN JOIN, JOIN IN … HELP RIP IT APART … START.
ADAM FRETTER - 13/03/97© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:47:53 PM | DIS-(S)TANCE (DAINE)
I COULD BE OUT OF HERE … I COULD BE OUT THERE …
COULD BE SO IN SO MANY WAYS … YEH …
CHANGE FOR MYSELF HONEY, NOT FOR YOU …
THE THOUGHT IS NICE … BUT WHAT WE’D HAVE WOULDN’T BE TRUE …
STOPPED IN THOUGHT … MORE THAN ONCE! …
SOMETIMES STOPPED FOR FAR TOO LONG
STOPPED WHEN I DIDN’T NEED TO … WHEN I REALLY HAD TO …
STOPPED WHERE I THOUGHT I’D BELONG … SOMETIMES I WAS WRONG …
IF ONLY I ONLY KNEW … IF ONLY I WAS NEW …
COULD BE SO IN SO MANY WAYS … TRUE …
TO LEARN BY MISTAKE … TOO QUICK A SUCCESSION! …
NOW THAT I AM ALONE … I CAN ONLY SEE ME …
STOPPED IN THOUGHT … MORE THAN ONCE BEFORE …
SOMETIMES STOPPED IN MUDDIED TRACKS FOR FAR TOO LONG
STOPPED WHEN I DIDN’T NEED TO … WHEN I HAD NO CHOICE …
STOPPED WITH FALSE FRIENDS … ONLY TO GET MY VICE …
TURNS OUT THEY ALL HAD A PIECE OF ME
ADAM FRETTER - 13/03/97© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:48:26 PM | MY BEAUTIFUL DAY
IT COMES TO … ME
STRETCHES IN ALL … DIRECTIONS
ALL ENCOMPASS … SING!
IT’S NICE TO TAKE A BREATH
WITHOUT THE CONSTANT PAIN OF … DAGGERS
IT’S COME TO ME
IT’S FOUND ME FINALLY
HOPE IT’S HERE TO STAY
WANT TO SHARE IT WITH YOU
MY BEAUTIFUL DAY
HERE IT COMES … FINALLY
TAKES US TO A WARM … PLACE
A FAMILIAR BUT NEW … PACE
IT’S NICE TO LIVE A LITTLE
WITHOUT CONSTANT WORRY OR … AGGRESSION
IT’S COME TO US
FOUND US FINALLY
HOPE IT’S HERE TO STAY
WANT TO BREATHE IT IN WITH YOU
DURING THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY
ADAM FRETTER - 24/06/97© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:49:05 PM | LITTLE GENIE
I SWEAR I HAVE AN INSUFFICIENT GENE
IT’S A TRICKY LITTLE THING AS IT CAN’T BE SEEN
OH, EXCEPT FOR THE WAY IT CAN HINDER MY GOALS
AND DENY ME A BEARD AND COVER ME IN MOLES
IT’S THIS PEN … ‘THE INK IS COMING!’ … YEH, BUT WHEN!?
HAVE TO GO OVER MORE THAN ONCE WHAT I’VE DONE BEFORE
AND FILL IN GAPS I SHOULD HAVE AFORE
YEE GODS! WHAT A DUNCE.
SWEAR I HAD IT … MMM, AT LEAST ONCE ….
GOING TO SHINE BRIGHT FROM HEAD TO TOE - NOW RE-COLLECTING
MY LITTLE GENE WILL LEARN TO GROW - WELL IT’S ABOUT TIME, THEN
SHORT TERM MEMORY WILL RECALL MUCH FASTER
WANT TO BE A ‘MAN’ - TALL IN POSTURE - INFORMATION MY GREEN PASTURE
HAD A THOUGHT - A LITTLE ONE - A BIG ONE
BIG LOVE MY INSPIRATION, YEH, AND IT TURNS ME ON
NEW FIELDS, A BACKDOOR, AND I WANT MORE
COME UP FROM THE CEILING, NEW FEELING, WALK UP FROM THE SHORE
THOUGHT I HAD AN ERROR, A HICK
THE THOUGHT OF IT COULD MAKE ME VIOLENTY SICK
MAYBE IT’S THE PEOPLE WHO PASS ON JUDGEMENT
WHO SHOULD BE FEELING THIS, BUT YOU’RE RIGHT, THIS IS WRONG …
SWIMS IN THE BLOODSTREAM THE BEST IT CAN
IT’S IN EVERYONE … ITS ON MY HAND! …
MULTIPLIES … DIVIDES … COMMUNICATION IS THE AIM … TO GROW …
AND IN DOING SO ITS NEVER FELT SHAME
MAY BE NOTHING IN SOME EYES AS YOU CAN’T SEE ME
BUT IF I WAS PHALLIC YOU WOULD KNOW TO BLOW ME
ADAM FRETTER - 16/07/98© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:49:46 PM | TIME x G
OLD FAITHFUL, SO RARE TO ME … REALISE WHAT YOU DO?
YOU TEASE ME … AND IT AIN’T EASY …
WITH THE DEVIL AT YOUR DOOR …
HE MIGHT TAKE ME, YEH … LIKE HE DID BEFORE …
OH, TWILIGHT … MY HIGHLIGHT …
AND SHE’S INSIDE ME … SHE REMINDS ME OF YOU ONCE MORE
CHECKING MY DIRECTION … A CHERISHED DEDICATION
CAN SOMEONE REMIND ME: WHERE IS THE DOOR?
HEY FAMILIAR, WHY SUCH A STRANGER?
CAN’T I HAVE YOU AS MY VICE?
DON’T MEAN TO BE GREEDY… GUESS I’M JUST NEEDY
BUT A POSITIVE ONE WOULD BE NICE
OH PLEASE ME … JUST LIKE YOU DID BEFORE
MY ‘HIGH SIGHT’ … MY ‘TIME RIGHT’ …
CAN FEEL HER INSIDE BREATHE
NEVER FAILS TO REMIND MY SEETHE
JUST WHERE ITS AT AND JUST WHEN IT’S LEAVING
THEN SHE’S FADED … AND WHAT I SHOW
IS WHAT I WANT TO BE GOING …
ADAM FRETTER - 01/08/98© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:50:45 PM | uNTITLED 0205
I'm a stranger in my own land
Many people here are blind
Many people here are asleep
I try to remain full-on open
But their disease is getting to me
Lost my creativity!
Price of acceptance? I don’t want it.
No cash for an exit.
I'm a stranger in my own land
This complacency drives me round the bend
Love in me is sometimes fleeting
Awareness is sometimes closed (i awake only briefly before again becoming comatosed)
I'm a stranger in my own land
The disease of the mind is everywhere
People and their immediacies combined
With an elusive shadow in front and behind
I call on my guard to guide me
I call on the spirits to persevere
I call on my ego to please grow
I call on my self to wake
But I'm a stranger in my own land
And love in me is sometimes fleeting
The disease of the mind is everywhere
With an elusive shadow in front and behind
Adam Fretter - February 2005© | |
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Posted: 5/15/2008 1:51:36 PM | UnderSURfaceD
(1st draft)
… And I begin my slow journey,
Out of this hole I’m digging my way in out of.
I’ve started a collection.
Some are connected, like a web of tangled algebra,
Some of negative, solitary (salutary?) islands being pitted across the land.
How I want to turn the image round,
Make the pitted holes MOUNTAINS of intent,
Make the ashen, lifeless ground lush and green.
The rainbow is out of reach but,
There is treasure over there.
There is treasure over there.
Somewhere!
Still some there?
Here comes the tide,
Here comes my ride.
A great tidal wave.
You’d think it would wash all of this away!
It takes me to a strange place - there is no sun.
There is a land of no one.
One foot gets tripped by the other,
As I - myself - try to enpower.
But the bombs are dropping.
The minefields are exploding.
My mountains are upside down.
Pitted holes in the ground.
Pitted holes in the sky below my feet.
Jumped on a roller coaster ride.
A Malkovich ride.
Or take the tide…
Everything’s a blur.
This is just not right.
I am nothing but slow and stupid.
Is this to be my bane?
Now everything is upside down and inside out - again.
Twisted out of context and back to an affront.
I am a mole.
I am an ostrich.
It’s a cross-stitch.
I’m so busy digging holes it’s a pre-occupation.
My other tangent so it is,
As my world crumbles around me.
Not all these tunnels are of my making,
But all the same they weakened my structure.
Know it’s going to happen again question is when.
And yet I know I am going to be the last one to leave.
Adam Fretter - 2006© | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl)
Posted: 5/15/2008 1:52:43 PM | REMINISCING MODERN
(1st draft)
I see networks ablaze with transmission,
I see exchange through multimedia,
From human to human,
Millions of times a day.
But I also see the disparaging images of woe,
That make me feel twice about my circumstance,
But still that shiver runs through the spine,
Chilling me to the last.
So why am I letting go?
Is this how numb I’ve become?
I remember precious memories,
So tangible … then.
Maybe I’ve forgotten what I was waiting for,
I’ve been waiting since the beginning.
People chatting in the street,
In the local bar or on their mobile,
In the library not reading books,
But chatting to their friends via satellite and cable,
And you hear of the woman who died down the street,
Only to realise its someone from the box,
And a mist hangs over the town like fog behind their brow.
And you’re asking why am I letting go?
Hello Apathy. Can you try and not let it show?
Is this how numb I’ve become?
A transparent sheet for the artist?
Is this my finishing screen or something new?
Is there a mist in my mind, too?
Funny how the universe is expanding,
Yet our planet is shrinking (thanks B.A., A.A., Emirates, Easyjet, Ryanair).
Strange how we seem to be busy talking,
But whether on the net or over the table,
What is it we are saying, if anything!?
Are we still able?
I’ll buy a DVD, CD, HD and HDD (maybe a coffee).
So why am I letting go?
Is this how numb I’ve become?
I remember precious memories,
So tangible … when?!
Maybe I’ve forgotten what I was waiting for,
I know I’ve been waiting since the beginning.
So you know it’s all a bit surreal,
Is that not the observational at work?
The more we look through microscope the more we find,
The more we forget to what we have left behind to get back to,
Everything is being squashed, repackaged, rebadged, rejingled,
Everything is must-see and must-grab, can’t live without
Switch on the tv - its some charity show - you don’t see the irony,
In chucking them the money - gets caught in that tax debate,
You can see it all coming.
Watch out!
It’s too late!
Adam Fretter - January 2007© | |
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