| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/15/2008 7:17:27 PM | Adam ... where have you been hiding all this time .... excellent pieces of work .... keep it coming cause you have touched every part of me sweetie including my heart ... this one you are about to read has to do with my son that I loss in March of 2000 (due to pneumonia - 27 yrs old at the time) ...
Your Body
Your body lays there .... Breathing .... But not your own .... Feeding .... But not with your hand .... Drinking .... But not with a cup .... With tubes .... Injected .... Down throat, in arms, in chest ....
Your body lays there .... Heat .... Trying to cool .... Water .... Pouring out .... From within .... As each day passes .... Rain falls ....
Your body lays there .... While angels gather .... Waiting .... As each injection .... Removed .... Slowly brought down .... The pain is felt .... As the blade enters .... My heart breaking .... In two ....
Your body lays there .... As the breathing is slowed down .... Breath harder to take in .... To let out .... Tears falling .... Pain felt deep .... From death's blade .... As last breath is taken .... Angels take your hand .... Leading you to Light ....
The sun shines through .... As window opens ....
You're free ....
For all to see. Hg | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 2:23:02 AM | This one I just made up tonight ... just something I was feeling ....
Why is it so hard for truth to be told Of what people want, feel, or like – no matter how old. Instead they say what they think you want to hear. Not wanting to face the things they fear.
Do you not know that if you’re honest and true, People will accept you for being you? You can’t be something that you are not No matter what others think, can you really be bought?
Cause money’s not everything one day you’ll learn, Though you need it to live you still spend what you earn. Do what you want whenever you can, As life still affects you no matter where you stand.
But remember to do it all out of love, As this is a rule sent from Above. For it is love that sets you free, Cause it helps you to be all you can be.
May 15/08 Hg  | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 4:49:31 AM | Thanks for sharing the poem 'You Body' with us, HG. I'm sorry, I do not know what else to say. I tend to upset people when I mean to do the opposite and so.... see? Again, thankyou HG.
I also liked the one you did the other day. Was that first draft? It's very good. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 5:11:45 AM | MIRROR(erred) IMAGE
I’VE SEEN YOU HANGING ON THE WIRE AND I’VE SEEN YOU ON T.V. I’VE SEEN YOU ALL OVER I WONDER IF YOU REMEMBER ME
BUT IF WE MET WHAT WOULD I TELL YOU? THAT I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR DEAD FLOWERS TO BLOOM? I’VE SEEN YOU GROWING ALL THESE YEARS WHAT WE HAD DIED ALL TOO SOON
YOU’VE SEEN ME LOW AND SEEN ME HIGHER SEEN ME JUMPING IN MY TREE MIGHT HAVE EVEN SEEN ME TRYING WHILE NEVER KNOWING WHAT IS TO BE
I’VE SEEN YOU HANGING TO GET HIGHER AND I’VE SEEN YOU UNDERGROUND I’VE SEEN YOU TRYING ALL OVER I’VE WONDERED WHEN I’D SEE YOU AGROUND
BUT IF WE MET WHAT WOULD I TELL YOU? THAT I’VE BEEN TICKING OFF THE HOURS? I’VE SEEN YOU GROWING ALL THESE YEARS SEEN YOU WRESTLE WITH YOUR FEARS
ADAM FRETTER - 03/04/96© | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 5:13:07 AM | | I tend to read "MIRROR(erred) IMAGE" like Witchita Line Man, but without the chorus, bridge part. Lol. : ) | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 5:16:21 AM | Don't ask me where I was when I wrote this. I'm not even sure what it is saying, if it's saying anything at all. DEFINATELY a work in progress, I think, is it's only salvation! Lol.
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Sexual surrogate came. Tasmanian sex, double penetration. It’s a ‘Happy Weekend’ for some.
David Hockney go - we’re with you - there? Leave none aside - maybe Xaviera Hollander for one. David, King of Jews outside the Holy Arc.
Some are a Hookers’ 78. An ovation for Fanni Tutti over the Government. Hermaphrodites in endorphins.
To have the courage April Ashley had. To push the boundaries forever further. Many are an Immanuel Kant in life.
Bald headed hermit inside a snatch batch. Follow you for my lazy day. My hey-day in retro-copulation.
Are you a friend of Dorothy? Some called you the orientation That dared not speak its name.
Dasypal, butterfly kisses. Could be mating snails in fast forward. Are you Gymnophobian?
Rub my hunch. Rub my hunch, lady. I have a humbi.
(I’m for a lot of things save ‘Prince Edward’ and the Agent Provocateur)
ADAM FRETTER - 15/05/96© | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 5:22:56 AM | Broad Strokes (Single-Serving) (1st draft)
Little pockets of culture all coloured like autumn leaves. Drops of cream in the coffee, miniature of the ‘bigger me’. Out goes a breath, in comes a gale, a pressing trend, Another worrying addition to our bell-shaped curve. I get the sense that everything is heading for the grinder. It’s a storm in a teacup. Is it more than just a mild hiccup!? Take a pill. Take the pill! Don’t pigeon-hole, don’t label it all: life is non-convenient. It’s not single-serving, it’s not three-for-two, it doesn’t care what happens to you.
You can take your so-called ‘organics’, three-for-two. Show me another trick. What are the markers for this month? This Year? This season? Hello Coca Cola . . . ? The so-called experts learn from their mistakes (they will some day…?) : / Pray! Pray! Hopping from their theories to illumination, the circle eats itself. Eating me. Eating you. Something different but just the same will come along to tell us how it’s going to be.
So I’m painting you in broad brush strokes, Don’t have time to mention you all. Troop the colour. Troop the colour. I try to ignore you to conserve my energy, But you’re pushing me for a fall. I don’t see a carpet, no rug, no fire. Windows of order inside the chaos. We’re on a windows ledge.
Can you hear the ticking bomb? Can you hear that ticking bomb? Can you tell where its coming from? Tell me where’s it coming from! Am I the ticking one? Am I a ticking bomb? Can you tell me how long? Can you tell me how long? Is it analogue, digital, cable or remote? Infra? Ultra!? . . . . . .
Forward the seconds, push the hand, change the time, the calendar, My goodness, aren’t the seasons getting late!? What a precession. What a procession. Time to learn that gravel gets caught under your shoes. Watch out for me as I’m an insect crawling this surface. Searching for the other 90% and all it entails. Tail of the comet classifies its size.
Adam Fretter - October 2007© | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 7:41:47 AM | Un-named 0107 (1st draft)
So what caused me to retreat into a ball, away from people and what could have made me whole? it ain't just one simple thing; it's many made into one, and there are many more written between the lines. The illiterate look at me, think they can read me, I’m living by their rules; more than one interpretation, I’m everywhere at once yet nowhere at all, so are they waiting for the ticking to stop?
Feels like everything is out of date the words I write are words I hate they don't come close to what I mean and the pictures I see make me feel obscene The presidents of war, the premiers of pain the righteous so they are, hosing blood down the drain pay for the war, refuse the needy people after all people are just like ants when you're looking out your temple The adverts on TV, the relation between you and me the churches holding sales selling their wares under veils, for life it is so cheap (is your major store keeping prices low?), listen for the beep, leave a message for the next generation, who, like us, are going to be ten steps away from the right direction
Go on holiday til something doesn't go their way leave the area quick for life has played a trick it was never in the brochure it didn't go to plan F**k those locals I’m going elsewhere for a tan and oh how we mourned and oh how we prayed no need to switch on the bed blanket as I’m getting laid The worlds worries washed away by radio one - hooray Sell! Sell! Sell! - sell, sell - bye!
Bombarded as we are from far and near, it's become (ing) the norm and we coddle ourselves as a nation I wish for the redemption - human consideration we never seem to learn, never seem to move at least not in a forward motion - is that against the rules!? am I paying for the worlds sins? I’d easily take it on … yeh, right! but do I really want society in? if only I could pick and choose.... but I don't get three for two - and I don't have the heart to take it all in bulk - F**k those people they're rocking the boat
G7 meets to discuss the poor - gluttony is first on the menu maybe I should become a ‘hero’ - a terrorist in their eyes if I took up arms and flew to them to make them realise that just yards down the street the world is at their feet cuz they're too starved to stand profit is the game - strength is to gain - water is the life these shanties ... offer none ... settle the debt? it's too big a one.
so what caused me to retreat into a ball, away from people and what could have made me whole? it ain't just one simple thing, it's many made into one, and there's more of them than I want to know the illiterate look at me, think they can read me, I’m living by their rules, more than one interpretation, I’m everywhere at once and yet nowhere at all When is the ticking going to stop?!
Adam Fretter January 2007© | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 8:56:18 AM | | Adam ... it's OK ... I 've learned to deal with life in many ways ... you upset people? -- you didn't upset me at all ... when you lose a child or someone you love, it takes time to work through it ... "Your Body" helped me to go back "there" to understand something that I was questioning ... Life still goes on sweetie ... now then ... anything I decide to post is "final" draft ....... Adam, do you know how good you really are? ... have you thought about having your work published? .... it's awesome .... you know what you're doing, you don't need anyone to tell you .... Hilda | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 9:41:19 AM | First of all.... Phew! Last thing I want to do is upset/offend people.
People say that I should do something with my stuff. I do listen, or try to. But I guess it is an ingrained thing. Or I don't take compliments very well! I was never pushed to excel and have never pushed myself to, either. Am not blaming anyone. The buck stops here. I know it is up to me. What I have put up is practically all the poems/odes/lyrics that I am happy with and therefore have. Is it possible to get that small amount published?!
I am currently writing stories, well, have done since I was 10. Presently I have 34 short stories and 4 novels on the go.
Any advice would be appreciated. I have looked on the net and sent stuff off to a few publishers who are interested in reading the rest of the stories, but I haven't finished any yet.
And I am still trying to push myself to write everyday. I see a picture, feel an emotion, a rhythm comes to my head . . . . and I write away. That is all I do! LOL
I am trying to push myself to write more, to get it finished. I used to go back on what I have written and redraft redraft redraft and not get any further with what I am writing, but I don't do that any more. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/16/2008 11:15:35 PM | Adam ... couldn't send this through due to your setting so here is what I found ... www.poetry.com/getpublished .... this should give you some info .... hope it helps ... Hg | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/17/2008 10:02:59 AM | | Adam ... you are welcome ... no trouble at all .... I see you passed it on to a fishette :=) ... very nice ... & thanks for fav :=) ... ttyl ... Hg | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/18/2008 8:04:14 AM | Been checking out LULU.COM which is for writers, painters, film makers etc. Am sure someone told me about it earlier. Was that you, HG?
Still finding my way about but it seems to be a pretty good site.
There is a need little thing on there which allows you to estimate how much it would cost to put your works into publishing. I played around with it. It estimated that if I went for A5 or Royal with thirty pages for the poetry and same number for publication it would cost £58. Not bad at all. But I haven't taken into account the copyrighting of each poem, lyric etc. You could put it all in a bundle but then it if you chose to put a single one into print in a magazine, say, it would not be included.
If you guy shaven't been there already, check it out! | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/20/2008 6:35:01 PM | | Hi Adam ... it wasn't me who gave you Lulu.com but thanks for the info .... let me know how you make out with the info I did give you ... Hg | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/27/2008 11:34:23 AM | Hi HG
Got the LULU thing through the wesite you gave me. Saw somethign to do with a competition and ... hey presto! | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/30/2008 6:51:04 AM | Hey Guys, I am trying to think of a proper title for the untitled poem I have that starts with the line 'He slowly coiled in his hand the power cable of the land.'
The closest I have got to a title is BOLGIA 9. This is nod towards Dante's Divine Comedy. It is taken from the 8th circle of hell.
Bolgia 9: A sword-wielding demon hacks at the sowers of discord. As they make their rounds the wounds heal, only to have the demon tear apart their bodies again.
But this is not the title I want to use, but more a step closer to the one I am looking for.
Can you guys suggest anything? A path that I can maybe trot down and find what I am looking for? Maybe even a name that I could maybe use?
Thanks for any help in advance. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/31/2008 9:17:08 AM | adamf73 wonderful thread my friend you have a great talent be grateful..........cause if your not grateful your something else your support from the others is wonderful your poems come from deep within you i can feel that.........thank you for sharing them with me | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/31/2008 11:31:02 AM | Thankyou, Grizzer.
I know I have a talent but I feel someonthing is still holding me back but I am working on it. And yes, I am thankful for the support I have been given. It rerally does mean a LOT. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/31/2008 12:53:10 PM | His Eyes
In his eyes lives a world of hunger In his eyes Lives a world of pain In his eyes Lives a world of sin In his eyes Lives a world condemned | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/31/2008 2:44:32 PM | But there's still hope although I hide my face, There is still hope in all this disgrace, There is still hope I can see, There is hope in you and me. But to act we have to now.
There's still hope although I hide in my place, There's still hope in every space, There is still hope in all I see, There is still hope for you and me. But we have to act NOW. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 5/31/2008 4:20:44 PM | Time of seasons Seasons of time
Moving to fast Moving to slow
Measure of time Bought for a price
For today only you can buy a slice
Savor the flavor taking your time
Makes your mouth water when there's no more around | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 6/3/2008 10:12:34 PM | . . . . . . and that feeling comes over me, one that can't be filled by the sea, there's a void in my heart as I watch the world tearing itself apart. Is the void an indication? I feel I was meant for something more But before I knew how to walk I was mentally kicked to the floor. Still paralysed by those memories, I can surely do more than just exist-STING But as I watch the TV and hear the radio The jaw starts to clench, Knots form in the throat, The tears stand on edge, The breathing gets more erratic, as I try to hold it in. Family and friends stare amazed surprised So I go rushing out the door All self aware embarrassed raw Have to prop myself against the wall Is empathy worth it all? I wish I could help you all with a single stroke. I feel for strangers but I dont see it as strange I feel for those who kick me in, I FEEL FOR THOSE WHO KICK ME IN!!!!!!! I want to tear from living every day But you people get in my way Oh God here it comes again And I cant keep it in People ask whats wrong but they dont understand so I refuse to take their hand I feel guilt and I feel sin I want God to let me in. I want to tear away from everyday living It's costing us more that the inflations we're witinessing Can you see an end? Can you see the worrying trend? And I get so frustrated - and so angry that I can feel my senses closing in These thoughts then become my world I'm the emulation - I start to rip myself apart I look back on all those years MY GOD WHY DIDN'T I GET UP AND START!? I'm now living a romantic fantasy I'm the hero that should have been Want to shield the world from itself But like me it refuses the hand . . . . . and that feeling comes over me, one that can't be filled by the sea, there's a void in my heart as I watch the world tearing itself apart.
No pre-writing. Straight from the heart. I will probably REALLY REALLY regret having typed this out when I next sign on. But I AM SO EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW! (Tightening of the jaw and tears to the fore once more) But this is all I can do is put it here cuz I'll get arrested if I shout it out in the street. And to be honest I dont have to look you guys in the eye. | |
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| Equilibrium (Arutam Wakanl) Posted: 6/4/2008 5:14:21 AM | Dear Lord,
Take me above the clouds this day a day's reprieve from being a slave open my eyes remind me to see this was supposed to be heaven for me
Don't know what happened or where I went wrong but the words in the message just don't fit the song the one that lies buried deep with in my heart that knows your beside me when I walk in the dark
if they attack it's because they can't see the part of you that lives inside of me your with them too, and this I can see above the clouds Lord, I need a reprieve | |
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