| I hate me forever more
Posted: 6/3/2004 4:04:15 AM | You know I never thought I would sign on to one of these but I did. The reason I hate me is I am in a hole I can not get out of. First I lost the only women I ever had love for, second my best friend of 18 years just screwd me, third his girl friend just put a harrassmit charge on me for somthing I didnt even do. Why is it that I am the nice guy that would'nt do any harm to another soul unless them to me first, I am always getting screwed my so called friends use me girls use me it is funny how girls say what they want in a guy well I am that but no girl want's me I dont think I am ugly I dont know I make a complete ass out of my self to try and impress people the two only girls I have gone out with were both ugly on the outside but more on the inside they used me in the end they chose a drug life over a good life with me does anybody know how it feels for a girl to choose drugs over you well I do I have lived a amazing life so far I have done more than almost anybody my age but no body whants to hear me my life seems worthless people look at me and look away I feel stupid and worthless I have heard the old saying dont cry for me but I wish I had someone to cry for me.
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Posted: 6/4/2004 11:26:01 AM | Hi Josh,
I am sorry 2 hear that.
Try 2 find some positives in ur life and not focus on ppl. that hurt u.
Things will work out 4 u. | |
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rjn40
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Joined: 2/15/2004
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Posted: 6/5/2004 12:12:55 AM | | the lose of the the woman you really love is hard, but dont hate yourself over it. I'm still struggling losing my wife about 2 years ago, time will heal it all I guess........ | |
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Posted: 6/5/2004 9:07:55 AM | Josh ,YOU ARE NOT UGLY!! I see you have had some down times but don"t hate yourself for that.Now I am ugly!Damn wonder the server still runs after my pic was posted!!!!As for the choices your friends made(drugs)That is their choice.Nothing you can do for that and NOT your fault!!!I know it is hard to understand why some people make the choices they do but again they made them,you didn"t.Look beyond what is happening now and go on! Your life is not over
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Posted: 6/10/2004 7:30:28 AM | | Your hate is just for this while...trust me...you will think different...take time...time is changing things....Grande bacio.... | |
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Posted: 6/11/2004 8:51:26 AM | Hate is a very strong word....dislike immensely....there is much negitivity in hate....
I try not to hate but maybe understand a little more..nobody is perfect and if we spent more time understanding instead if jumping to conclusions...maybe hate would disappear....I need to be enlightened and not so clouded by pre-judging situations..listen and learn is the lesson for the day | |
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Posted: 6/11/2004 8:53:17 AM | | P.S. That Melina is a hottie...ouch!!!! Must learn Italian ! ! ! Ti amo bella | |
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Posted: 6/12/2004 7:02:35 PM | | Hey what's up buddy you seem to be just like me without all the drama with people turning your back on you and i'm very sorry to hear about that.Well as for as the love thing that's horrible and i know how you feel but always remember there is tomarrow and you have no idea what's instored for you.I know you just lost that special girl in your life but just believe that us good guys in the end will get what we deserve and when that girl finds us, not us find her she'll be very happy and blessed with out love! stay strong bro and believe. peace :) | |
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Posted: 6/18/2004 9:44:48 AM | Somebody said: No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
Thats for you ragazzo!
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Zee
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Joined: 4/11/2004
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Posted: 6/29/2004 8:52:36 PM | I'll give you my advice. Just please remember I'm just a picture and an alias from who-knows-where, and I'm not your friend. My opinion only counts so far as you let it count. (Just please don't kill yourself, I do care about ppl, though.)
Let me make an analogy. Go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting; you'll see basically 2 kinds of ppl. Some go on a drinking binge for a while, things get bad, they start going to meetings. They'll be off-and-on members. The other kind will have 10 years of sobriety and still attend their meetings twice a week. They work the program and inspire others: they are the ones who hit rock bottom. They lose their friends, their career, their family, their mind and nearly their life.
My point is, life is meant to be lived, and if you KNOW how deep of a hole there is out there to dig yourself into, that knowledge can be helpful and powerful to you. So, go on with your misery, and don't be happy to be there. What you need is a change of personality, and you won't get there until you mercilessly beat yourself into it.
I used to be just like you; I have multiple large scars on my body where people would beat the crap out of me, just because I was a nice guy and would put up with it. People used me for rides and money, a place to stay, you-name-it, and my thanks was always spit- and slaps in the face. I couldn't (still can't) figure out how the nice guys get that. Finally I reached a snap point. I had to experience a 24/7 superanger, ready to rip someone's head off if they didn't say "hi" just right. This finally toned down to assertiveness. Psyche yourself up for going Agg, tell your mind that you're ready for a change to be a hard-@ss. Basically, if you're used to living on the flatlands of nice-guy land, and you want to climb to the top of Assertive Hill, you have to prepare to climb Nasty Mountain. Sorry for the long post. Peace. [ok, here, I'll give you man-hug ... ERR-mmmnntgh] | |
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Posted: 6/29/2004 9:35:25 PM | that was a great point.
He's another guy u started a forum and I never seen him again. | |
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| I hate me forever more
Posted: 4/21/2005 10:00:21 AM | big josh
yes we all have stories such as yours. the good thing is that you went to bed last night and woke up to the sun this morning:) i had my sister bring my first love home a couple weeks after we broke up and was going to have him over for supper. then in college i lived away from home and got a call to hit town and drive by my sisters place and sure enough the same sister had my ex fiancee over there over night!!!! i could write a book but so can we all. like i said we still breathe and the sun still shines and if we spend our life dreading the past what a crappy future we are giving ourselves and the possible prospects are going right by you.
so take care, you have a cute look about you and your eyes speak sincerity so go for life life doesnt go for you. | |
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Posted: 4/21/2005 10:02:39 AM | sweetlilalex
you are soo right, hopefully he see's your words and takes them into consideration. life has many roads he was just on the wrong road, well maybe on the right one and needed to experience what he did. everything happens for a reason.:)smile take care | |
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foggyb
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Joined: 4/13/2005
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Posted: 4/21/2005 8:43:13 PM | Okay, Alex and Josh. Cry in your beer then get over it. You're 19 and 18 respectively and believe me, you will probably be hurt again in the future. You have a long life ahead of you and there are plenty of really wonderful ladies who would kill (figure of speech I hope) to have either one of you as their own. There are plenty of fish out there as you well know because hey, you're here, and if you're patient and cautious you'll find them.
Tip, always be yourself and don't try to pretend to be someone you're not just to get the attention of the next first lady who catches your eye or heart. Have some really good conversations with potential ladies before you're heart is involved. Make sure it's really right and that you share enough common interests to be able to keep the conversation going years from now. Also make sure you each have seperate interests to bring back into the relationship and share with your significant other. After all, they will become your best friend.
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| I hate me forever more
Posted: 4/21/2005 11:31:28 PM | sometimes you have to put yourself first, clearly you don't value your own happiness that highly, certainly not over that of others; this is a problem i've had myself and i can tell you that what it really comes down to is learning how to say no, i'm not saying i'm there but i know the way, and now you do to.
waspleg
"The highest love is love of Self" -- CwG
ps definition of self expands with awareness | |
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b0unc3
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Joined: 2/13/2005
Msg: 19 | |
| I hate me forever more
Posted: 4/22/2005 7:27:05 AM | | Life truely is what you make it. If you allow yourself to fall into feeling sorry for yourself, believe me it will get worse. I am new but read my post to the girl who said she had self hate. Keep your chin up and make it better. | |
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jimi77
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Joined: 7/13/2004
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| I hate me forever more
Posted: 4/23/2005 7:11:49 PM | | life is like the seasons.. it's time for a change my friend.. i went through the same thing.. i made better friends that care about me.. | |
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