| Poetry From Within
Posted: 10/11/2004 11:55:39 AM | I AM...
I AM ALL THAT I HAVE SEEN:
-your soul
-the mysterious lights behind your sparkling eyes
-your boyish grin
-hot water dripping down off your "God-like" perfect body pressed to mine
I AM ALL THAT I HAVE HEARD:
-"ANGEL" & endless songs
-"TonyHawk" soundtrack
-MegaMan jinglez
-your voice whispering shivers "I love you, Apryl Dawn"
-your haunting laugh; that gave me tinglez
I AM ALL THAT I HAVE FELT:
-your hair in my hands
-voluptuous lips
-that incredible "POWER"
-exploring/wandering fingertipz
I AM ALL THAT I HAVE TASTED:
-4:AM=hot coffee
-Lil'Debbie cakez
-your delectable kissez
-sweet nectar
-post-sex wake`N bakez
I AM ALL THAT I HAVE SMELT:
-inhaled your marvellous aura left lingering on my pillow
-your deoderant,shampoo,Preferred Stock,Brut,Nitro
-smog in the city of Sudbury, where I sat once upon a time with my soul*mate, Jason Gerald Eldon
-our sex
-the steam on your skin
I AM ALL THAT I REMEMBER:
-Every boyish grin
-Every kiss
-Every whisper
-All the sex
-Your warm breath on my neck
-Your intoxicating scent
*created from love
*Every moment spent | |
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| FROM A DISTANCE
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:05:05 PM | FROM A DISTANCE
everytime you were near, I always smiled inside
i sometimes shed bitter-sweet tears 4 U, my feelings I try & hide
everyday that you're away, my emotions soar & grow
i wanna let them fly free, happiness doesn't & cannot come from without, it comes from within, just thought you should know
i'm scared of rejections, i'm hiding from you
i attempt to refrain from displays of affection but my feelings are true
You don't even know that I'm in existence, because I love you from a distance. | |
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| 1st Love
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:05:58 PM | I thread the needle through my heart & hope that it will mend, for this story seemz like the beginning, for us, it's just the end.
It all began one fine Autumn's day, where you & I, we meet as we may. We knew it wasn't love at the start, I know it was rebound & lust, we both knew we needed each other, "FRIENDSHIP" built upon destiny & trust.
But over time we both did last, & through that time, my love grew fast. My feeligz 4 U were an open book, but sometimez I felt that U didn't look.
Time went by & so did life, you cut my heart with your white-hot knife.
Left me on a day I made my hair have curlz, twist & turn, my pain did swirl.
I tell U now, old lover & friend, I'll love you always, until my end.
For now it's over, but I pray someday, once again your love will come my way. | |
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| love is...
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:07:26 PM | Love is like a lump of gold
Hard 2 get & hard 2 hold
Of all the guyz I've ever met
You're the one I can't forget
I do believe that God above
Created U 4 me 2 love
He picked you from all the rest
Because He knew I'd love you the best
I had a heart that once was true
But now it's gone from me 2 U
So take good care of it as I have done
Now you have 2 & I have none
To show U just how much I care
I'll wait 4 U by the golden stairz
And if you're not there by Judgement Day
I'll know you've gone the other way
So I'll trade my silver wingz
& all my precious thingz
Then just 2 prove my love iz true
I'll go 2 Hell 2 B with U
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| EVERYTIME
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:09:04 PM | Notice me
Take my hand
Our bond has grown
Our love is strong
Everytime I try 2 fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need U baby
Everytime I C U in my dreamz,
I C your face, it'z haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make*believe that you are here
It'z tha only way I see clear
What have I done?
U seem 2 move uneasy
I may have made it rain, but please forgive me!
My weakness caused U pain, so this song's my sorry
At night I pray, that soon your face will fade away~~~
ABOUT someone I can not say...
Monday Aug-23-04 7:04 PM
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| *IN MY DREAMZ,LAST NITE, I WAS...*
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:10:48 PM | alone.Then I seen you standing there, watching over me, and all i could do was cry, tearz of happiness until I seen what i wish i hadn't seen, all the realness, all of the real people are really not real at all. All of the moments, I tried to go back & make them last...
In my dreamz last nite, I was watching, in slow motion, as you turned around to say, "My love, you take my breath away"
You moved closer, I was anticipating, never hesitating, my love. We were turning ice in2 fire. I called you, wishing you would say, you'll be the king of my castle and that you're unafraid.
All I know, is everything is not as it's so, the more I grow, the more I see, if you love something, let it go, set it free.About you, the more I learn, the more I love..Being "Jason Gerald Eldon Crawford" makes me love you the best. I have lived so many livez, my soul recognized yourz.I can't take what'z already mine, our very existence= interwoven/entwined, from tha beginning of time.The more I miss U, tha more I cry, as I said good-bye, 2 a way of life I had designed.With you, I was the best me I could ever be, I was all I'll ever be,happier than I ever thought I could be,just being in the same room, in your arms, was paradise 2 me
Guess it wasn't enuff, 2 take up some of my love,guys R so hard 2 trust...so afraid 2 luv..U seen all my lite, & U luv'd my dark but ur not here!~ | |
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| FEBRUARY/2003
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:11:30 PM | Sittin' down, chillin' now
Thinkin'`bout you
What U said 2 me
We figured out what we finally C as true
But I miss you soon as you walk out the door
The sweetest kiss from those lipz, J.* I NEED MORE
When I walk a mile 2 C your smile
You definitely know
But it's scary when I want 2 B wherever U will go, but I'm satisfied stayin' inside
Sometimez, I love 2 B alone
Especailly while there's a Full Moon hanging in tha sky & it'z starting 2 rain on this misty nite... | |
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| February/2003
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:12:16 PM | I think I'm falling in love (with Jay)
Yet I cannot seem to forget
what seems like yesterday
RICK WISE haunts me.
I close my eyez and it hurts
This aching, empty pain
but a "beautiful" young man has made me a promise
that he'll make me forget RICK ever existed
Only time will tell, i guess... | |
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| AS I LAY...
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:14:28 PM | It felt like springtime on that November morning, on that sidewalk, birdz were singin' your praise, I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright, I carry them with me today
Now as I lay me down to sleep, as I pray, that you will hold me dear, though I'm far away, I'll whisper your name into the sky and I will wake up happy...
I wonder why I feel so high though I am not above the sorrow, heavy-hearted `till you call my name and it felt like church bells, the wind blows over trees, and on a summer evening I'll run to meet you barefoot, barely breathing-
Every season has it's change and I will someday see you when the sun comes out again...
NOVEMBER 4:The day I "met" J**** G***** E**** C********( We really met twice before>Grade 1 & when we were 13 & 14,4 1 day Fate crossed our paths that Nov.4/02, thought tha 3rd x's a charm, NOW HE WON"T EVEN TALK 2 ME!!!~~~;(broke up on my 21st birthday, July 6,2003) | |
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| APRIL/2004
Posted: 10/11/2004 12:15:07 PM | And so it seems that we have met before and laughed before and loved before but who knows when or where
I cannot take what is already mine
I'm not second but first, you see
Our love's ruled by Destiny
It all began many lives ago
That is why you belong to me
We were born again to be together | |
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| APRIL/2004
Posted: 10/11/2004 1:46:43 PM | I LIKE! READ THIS
The Nights Dreams
I hear my dreams louder than my own throbbing heart.
My will yearns to flee into something more passing.
The great inner emptiness of hunger
It seams all it is; pain numbed, reacted by no one - it is nothing.
And the cold is but my only companion,
Savagely caressing my every fiber.
So long as you are nowhere
Im no longer longing to feel
Nowhere as you are so long
Im longing to feel no longer
My will yearns to flee into something more passing
Staiffaling my souls search.
I dream me without you
In the lonesome fleeting night
Im so lost without you
I chase after your preeminence
And the cold is but my only companion
My soul is lost without you
I dream me without you
So long as you are nowhere
As always you call and you say to me
“I dream me without you”
Nowhere as you are so long
As always you say and you call without speech...
And the continues nightmare is done,
Till next night, my love!
Stay
For reasons, yet unknown to me,
I want to push us to the brink.
For in my mind we are all ready to meat.
I can only pray you feel the some as I.
¡Mi adorada Coqueta!
For a chance to hold your hand one moment longer
I adore,
For a diminutive glimpse of that which no one else has seen
I adore,
Every moment of every day
I adore,
But could I be that you
Ignore,
The fact of ones esthetic condor.
I swear , so much I adore thee!
I can sense the a blaze in my heart.
A light so resilient that in its absence
My heaven is rendered dark.
I invite thee to my humble abode that is my heart
And thee I pray, stay!
Close to my tenderly loving arms
And thee I pray, stay!
Fear not Coqueta for it is only your displeasing
Flame!
Do not flee
I adore
Thee I pray, stay!
Merm Enchanted
Ah how every one stairs
in enchanting glairs.
Once sight has never failed rimes
fallowing enchanting kiss.
From afar at least al confirm
in enchanted merm!
Beauty strikes.
Such longing for adulation never content
ah what a sigh.
Pouted and pout still but alas I must go
in enchanted glair
for
enchanted kissed
for a mere
enchanted merm. | |
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| APRIL/2004
Posted: 10/11/2004 9:55:12 PM | | Wow.I loved them.I was hopin' sum1 would reply & NOT say im crazy>i feel that way tho:)My favorite was Nights Dream>I would melt if anyone wrote that way about me, i've never really dated a poetic type dude, like me...Thanks alot,eh?I'm glad somebody liked...I have a hard time sharing tho:blush:PEACE be thine,Apryl | |
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| J.G.E.C
Posted: 10/12/2004 7:55:14 PM | I was so f*ckin' stupid,
to think this love would be different,
as soon as I cut it off,
guys came outta tha wood work.
That's when I realized,
I can have anyone I want.
These guys, they like me!
Think I'm great, a real cool chick,
but I can't help thinking of the one that i miss...
Noone compares to J.C.
He's tha one I'm always dreaming of.
I hate this.
I feel awful.
I should be feelin' awesome.
When guys find out that i'm single & not with him,
they tell me he's a 'no-good-nuthin'
then give me a wink & a grin...
A sane girl would have butterflies inside & be overjoyed,
but all I feel is X-treme sadness at sumthing I have DESTROYED | |
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| J.G.E.C
Posted: 10/13/2004 6:11:45 PM | thank you!!!!!!
as for your last message don't feel that way eny more!!!! I know its not the simplist thing to do but it is the necessary thing to do!!!
Here is something from an idea boock I keep...
Monday (Oct. 11th 2004)
The days continuously run shorter and shorter. 12:43pm Sitting in the “plaza” walkway of Av. Alvaro Obregón intersecting with Cordoba St. It is an unusually brilliant, sunlit day and if it weren’t for the nagging tendency to be aware of my surroundings I could swear I am at the beach.
Beautiful women walking by in miniskirts business-attire instead of bathing suits. Wearing sunglasses and carting suitcases in lieu of their beach bags. With such a clear sky the car windows gleaming one after another in a symphonic pantomime, masterfully reinvent the high and low tied, a virtuoso recession and progression.
The police traffic conductor and his whistle take the place of tropical birds accompanying the loud trucks intoning the oceans song.
It’s the most comfortable I’ve been in ages.
And it feels as if it were a vacation, forbidden long since… Similar to when you catch yourself day dreaming about a girl that’s sitting write next to you in the work place, classroom, bank teller line, or in the car lane next to you at a red-light “d*mn, I was in reveres to get a better look, latter forgot and rear-ended the car behind me!!”
If you’ve a mind for details, the effect is lost! I imagine you’re saying “ The oceans salty taste is missing from the air!” Oh, but… close your eyes… There is a wistful thickness all about you. The suns heat makes you float from where you lie on Earth. It’s light breeze caresses every possible surface connected to your physical being. A slue of playful kids and their buoyant chatter awaken the youth deep inside.
Feel it! The sensation… a peculiar one. That of a loved one, holding your hand. Your fathers strong and careful grasp, your child’s awaiting its life guidance, or the hand of that your old puppy love in your childhood, your first true love and/or your wife’s connected, there with you –floating in life. There, see, the ocean! Full of a nature you will never know but will always be apart of, you fill inside the same substance that will be waded through halfway around the world. The same as the one you’re in now.
You live where you can, mostly taking it for granted; forgetting when in any moment you’ve about had your fill of all you can take, the beach is at your reach!
Speaking of forbidden vacations, I have appointments to keep! 1:22pm | |
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| J.G.E.C
Posted: 10/16/2004 5:52:06 PM | | u r a magician, spinning magic with your words, the "ocean" really hit home for me, as did the first love, please don't ever stop writing...i love it,2 much | |
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| J.G.E.C
Posted: 10/19/2004 4:00:11 PM | Here is a poem I qite injoyed:
(doun't look at the end or it will be no good)
Somtimes............
Sometimes you ar alone and no one, not even your memoreis can stand by..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Sometimes when you cry no one is there to see and comfort you.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
And sometimes when you want to talk no one is ther to listen
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SOMETIMES YOU ARE SO SAD AND NO ONE KNOWS..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
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| J.G.E.C
Posted: 10/19/2004 4:05:48 PM | | not a such a GREAT work but I think its true + some times its good for people not to be so... serio! But I would like to read some more of your stuff! Hopefuly you can SHARE some more! | |
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