| a poem for someone Posted: 3/28/2009 3:38:09 AM | ok i know im not know around here...and i posted a few other poems under another I.D....smokepanther...this is a bit of lighter poetry from me...for those who think ALL goths are just dark and gloomy
.............this was written for someone who wishes to remain obscure............
just so you all know...if any of you care...this poem was written for one of my stripper friends...im reading it to her tommarrow...i dont care to hear any negative comments...i know these girls quite well and i know more about them than any "show me your tits" guy ever will...these girls are quite special and more than perfect...and they trust and respect me for not being a "typical" guy so...whatever...here it is
i held an angel last friday night a vision of beauty and sweet delight her touch on my cheek so soft and warm as i held her close safe there in my arms she smiled at me and i saw in her eyes something so perfect i wanted to cry i held her tighter and wished it could be that this perfect creature belonged to me ill never forget how she made me feel like she cared about me and made it seem real i feel so alone now i cant see her face or smell her perfume in this cold empty place i cant wait to see her again soon someday but until then ill wait here my heart cold and grey no one ive held before has felt so good and right now everyday i think of her and i dream of her everynight i know shes just a fantasy of what dreams will never be but i love her still and always will for what she means to me
see? ....goths do have a lighter side if only one would stop long enough to get to know us... i hope some of you enjoyed this | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/28/2009 5:09:27 PM | ...i read this poem to my friend today...she got a bit misty eyed, hugged me, kissed my cheek and said it was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for her...i told her she had saved me when i was feeling down and that i do, and will always love her
....its all true...im so happy for her when i see her on stage and all the $ bills sitting on the tip rail...i know her and i are just friends...but if ever a time comes when she finds herself alone. i would make her mine in a heartbeat and set her free to be whatever she wanted to be ...i would never bind this angels wings, not even to keep her close to me
i have found perfection...it really isnt that hard to find when you understand that "perfection" dosent have to mean "without flaw"...but rather "with flaws that i accept and understand"
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/30/2009 1:11:45 AM | | well geez...i guess i really dont belong here...not one simple comment ...fine... nevermind...ill keep my poetry to myself from now on | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/30/2009 2:17:50 AM | Gothguy...i just read your poem..it's actually the first time i've seen it..sometimes they get lost in the spam of the other poems...it's a beautiful write..doesn't matter who you wrote it to..it truly is lovely. Please keep sharing and i promise i will do my best to watch for your name.
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/31/2009 1:37:42 PM | | thank you shadwgrrl...its the same in a lot of poetry forums and i usualy avoid them for the fact that i know my writings are not to everyones taste...but i get really annoyed when 80 or so people read and no one has a damn thing to say to someone who is in effect sharing a bit of thier soul...i mean hell dont kiss up to someone if one dosent like thier poetry...but people should atleast thank eachother for sharing...as you did | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/31/2009 1:59:04 PM | | Yea when i first came to this forum no one said anything to me either...so don't let it discourage you..please keep writing :) | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/31/2009 4:15:30 PM | | it was awesome and wow wished someone felt that way about me it was truely awesome poem thumbs up | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 3/31/2009 9:44:53 PM | G'Day gothguy, I read your poem, thought it could have been better if you had spent a bit more time to rhyme. As to being disappointed ... I didn't see any kudos from you to me with (in my opinion) gothic effort last year under 'poems from downunder - sunnyside up' ...
Some people write stuff they call poems that don't rhyme; if you out do them, they mostly don't like it and rather than 'step up to the plate' nad have acrack at it, ignore you, it's just their way of capitulating (giving in / up) ... | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:10:45 AM | ...grrrr...well POF ate my first reply so i'll see if i can re create it...
i would...kiss you that is... if you were but closer to me "kissme"...lol ...you seem to be quite lovely...not that this is all that matters...but people fool themselves thinking "looks" dont matter at all...... B.S.!!! ...i'll admit i have a certain attraction for strippers...but its not because they take off thier clothes...its more because they aren't afraid of thier sexuality...i have seen the bullshit these girls have to put up with to earn a living...it makes me ashamed to call myself a man at times...i have offered free rides home to the girls because i know that sometimes they only make $20 in a night and i'll buy them dinner too ...often for this i get free "lap" dances... i really wouldent care one way or another but i admire the fact that some "strippers" arent ALL about the bucks...i guess what im getting at is...im sure someone in your area will pull his head out of his ass and realize your a lovely girl who deserves a great guy and he will step up to be the guy you want and perhaps need...i hope he does so soon...no real woman should have to wait to be "resqued" from the bland, boring world of manlyness ...for myself ?...i am playing a song right now...the smiths..."how soon is now"...and this line ...is what i hear most clearly..."when you say it's gonna happen now, when exactly do you mean, ...see i've already waited too long, and all my hope is gone"...hang in there kissme youy seem worth all one could offer...
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:18:00 AM | | hhmmm...shadowgrrl...im not discouraged...but perhaps guarded...i know my poetry is rather dark...i have posted a few under the nick ":smokepanther"...under the threds poems about death...and poems about scars..."broken little girl"...is mine...and one im very attached to...and it seems to envelope the kind of "girl" i usualy meet...not that this has happened to me......yet!...but i see it as possiablity..."gods i hope not"...i have ALOT of dark...gloomy... rather sad poems...send me a message and ill share if you wish | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:23:19 AM | | i did rhyme...but perhaps more than that... i bared my soul...sometimes rhymes cant convey the feelings of a soul torn into scattered pieces and left to rot and be shredded by the passage of time and emotion...in this instance i ask the readers to understand that ...perhaps...what they are reading...isnt a "poem"...in the true sence of the word...but perhaps a glimpse into anothers soul...in any event...i thank you for posting any comment...it reassures me that someone...is reading | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:29:07 AM | | apparently you've not read my thread..please by all means post em here or put them in my thread..i look forward to reading them..and have you read lucidbreath's ?? his are kinda dark too lol bring em on goth guy! | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 5:13:16 AM | | ...i hit up your thread...i left three poems on your thread...feel free to let me know what you know you feel | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 5:32:35 AM | | i think i have exceded my post limit???!!! im not sure | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 5:44:30 AM | | NO..i post like a million times a day LOL try again :) | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 5:53:59 AM | ok
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nightmare
alone again the screaming whispers of what might have been assult my ears but in the dark i only hear the sounds of my falling tears wanting needing longing so cold and lost the tattered remains of my soul searches for a dream a faded memory a simple sensation of holding another close the feeling of being accepted for what i am the knowledge that i am needed for who i am the dream that someone finaly feels for me what i have wanted for so long my heart hangs cold and still by a few worn threads the remains of hope wanting only to see a sweet angels face looking at me from within my arms with a beautiful loving smile instead all i see is the ravening corpse of black solitude reaching for me with fangs dripping crimson despair at night i feel those fangs decend apon me ripping at my soul tearing away a lil more of what hope remains everynight i lie helpless and unloved at the mercy of what ever nightmare may come to feast on me so often now i think about just how end would feel i wonder if i have the strength to end the pain i wonder if anyone would really care if i wasnt here tomarrow or if they would even know im gone i know the things it would take for this damage to repair a gentle touch a sweet embrace a loving kiss apon my face so often i have dreamt off this of finding sweet loves grace but now i know the dream is lost never to be replaced so empty now torn from inside i wander through this place all that i can call my own are the tears apon my face so many people toss aside the things that i hold dear i wish that they could live my life to feel the things i feel we use eachother as we will we choose not not to see the scars we inflict on those we love and were taught its just the way it has always been taught that love only brings pain and sacrafice no gain so once again i wish that i could make the people see try to love and understand try to be what were supposed to be and maybe then ill find my dream in someone i have seen or maybe my darkness will consume me at last and end all of my pain
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"how many times"
how many times can i die inside from sweetly razored words how many times can i fall this way and my screams still go unheard how many reasons can give to you to explain my need for your love how many times will you sacrafice me to lift yourself above why is it my love that you cant see these scars you inflict apon my skin why is it my love that you dont see how much you hurt me within why is it my love that i keep coming back to surrender myself to your sin why is it my love that i dont seem care when you hurt me again and again theres only one reason that i do what i do theres only one reason and its i love you theres only one reason that wont be denied theres only one answer i keep locked inside i love you sweet girl though you dont understand i love you sweet girl my hearts in your hands i love you sweet girl so hurt me again i love you sweet girl as im dying within theres only one thing that i hope you'll see theres only one thing that i wished i could be as i lay here dying my heart torn in two as i lay here dying my thoughts only of you i love you sweet girl so pure and so true i only wish that you had loved me the way that i loved you
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"broken little girl"
tattered shreads of just one soul remain to watch the light fading into blackness now your life within my sight a perfect tear and one last kiss your soul to set alight the wounds you set apon your flesh still haunt me everynight
a distant look my eyes beheld an angel scarred and torn yet prideful in her state of disgrace aloof and and all alone i loved you then and always will your scars and wounds within and even now i love you still drenched in your crimson sin
your heart you kept away from me your love locked deep inside safe from all the ones who hurt you with thier lies and foolish pride and still i wanted nothing more than time spent with you my love forever soon well have my love i say through my tears from above
the days and nights and thoughts we shared together were bittersweet and brief i tried to prove my love for you with gentle words to heal your pain and grief and always when i spoke of my love for you you would turn away and say "i cant return the gift you give" "my love would bring you pain"
then last night i heard you whisper as i lay here half asleep "i love you baby, i understand now why you loved so deep my prince you brought me out of darkness my love i know you'll keep so now i must complete my life i must away to sleep"
waking in our bed alone a beam light i seek coming from the bathroom light just above the sink a moments stride and once inside i crumble to my knees and everything i though i was has taken flight from me you lie before me still and pale your sable hair aswirl a crimsom pool beneath you spreads my broken little girl a scream of grief and trembling hands i lift you from the floor your eyes flicker as you whisper " i'll love you forevermore "
stillness claims you in my arms i'm sinking as you bleed a simple note in your right hand compells me to read
"you my love are my own life and perfect in your heart i couldent bear to taint your soul and so we must apart to hurt you now would kill me love and that i cant endure forgive me love my perfect love so perfect and so pure"
i bend to kiss your cooling lips i'm cold and dead inside but only for a little while i'll soon be at your side a moment then i pause to think i promised to love you i promised forever a promise i swore to keep my love i want to be with you and one day love. i will. but until then i'll live with my grief and my pain and love you, my broken little girl
ok heres a few of what i have stashed...hope you enjoy and understand them...and i hope you enjoy reading | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 6:20:10 AM | Gothguy..these are very touching, heartfelt and beautifully twisted..i love them..i really hope that you continue submitting them..i think that there are several here that will like them..give em time..they will come around...  | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 6:52:17 AM | | awww......::blush::...most of my current stuff is along the same ...uhh...vein?...i'll drop a few more here | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 6:56:18 AM | .........."a bitter cold"..........
a bitter coldness on my skin the bitter coldness seeps within chilling bone and flesh and skin no warmth of life so death begins
a bitter coldness spreads inside the bitter cold of life denied no love no hope no strength no pride is left to me now that i've died
a bitter coldness binds my heart the bitter coldness sets me apart from pagan virtue from christian lust what does it matter when you're dust
a bitter coldness is all thats left the bitter cold leaves life bereft just like the corpse you left behind with wounds of love and selfish pride
a bitter man stands here alone the bitter man mere flesh and bone a gaping hole chest torn apart the gift i gave my soul and heart
you did this, i bleed inside you did this, i cannot love you did this, you made me die you did this, i cannot care you did this, im not alive you did this, i dont know why you did this, behind your smile you did this, knowing all the while you did this, your love was poison
you did this, you cold hearted selfish little **** you did this, i should have seen you did this, i didnt notice you did this, i hate you you did this, i hate myself more you did this, i still love you i love you, god help me, i do
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turning stones in barren fields looking for heaven or a lost respite calling out names only the wind will hear stumbling blind beyond the light in stark desire a lonesome need like an autum tree from a lone lost seed surrounded by the dark and solitary night my soul cries tears of blood but no one see's a bitter coldness radiates from the mass of humanity that passes all around my soul the silence hides my broken voice or is it ignored by ignorance or choice the crowded streets are just a game the poisoned souls use to pass the time the thoughtless animated puppets i see jerked by strings through broken dreams they dont understand what its like to be me or perhaps they just dont care to see if ever i could make them see the life they use so carelessly is more than a simple gift from above its not about how much you make or the fancy car you drive its not about the parties or the workday push and shove its about the magik of caring its about love the feeling in a tender touch the things we miss so much the things we do for just because its all this and more than any one could tell its what i need to climb from this hell alone at night i feel the pain i cry alone again and again and i wish with all my heart to be with someone set apart from this place of broken dreams to be wrapped within a loving embrace and to whisper the things my soul would say if only one would hear if only one would stay im waiting and longing that maybe someday one might stop and listen to what i want say and that maybe they will love me for the person that i will be and not judge me for it i hope someday to see all the things i missed so long standing next to me looking at me with love in thier eyes
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as melting daylight leaves my sight, the world turns pale and grey, then giving way to blackest night, the darkness i embrace
within the velvet arms of the night, no one can see my face, no one can see my broken dreams, to many too replace
and all the wounds ive ever had, on soul or heart or skin, are all thats left of who i was, im dying from within
the darkness hides the tears i cry, though no one is here to see, no one cares that in the dark, i wait alone and bleed
so many wounds so deep and raw that time could never heal and no one close who gives a **** about anything i feel
so every night, when darknes falls and wraps me in its arms, alone again im safe within, from those who wish me harm
theres no one here to lie to me, like so many others did, no one here to break my heart, and let me bleed within
the wounds i carry on my soul will never fade away, unless perhaps theres someone still, that i might meet someday
someone who is still so sweet not scarred and torn by life someone who will love me as i am and hold me everynight
theres a chance id like to hope this angel still exists.i just hope she finds me soon ive lost the will to live
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:08:54 PM | LOL you are very punny
Very nice works also..i enjoy them very much..thank you for sharing them with me.  | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 4:12:43 PM | | kind of annoyed cus i had written a poem here last night for you along the same lines..and i sent it then got booted..i thought it had went through..but obviously it didn't :( i will have to rework it after dinner. | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/1/2009 6:32:27 PM | The shadows are beckoning They permeate my sanctity And wash away my sanity
I'm lost in a moment of reverie An interlude of nirvana It overwhelms my existence
The blackened angel hovers She whispers my name Gesturing me to deviate
But i elude her mindful gaze My essence merely staggers I cease my retrospection
I elude her claws at my back My legs growing weaker I nearly collapse in exhaustion
My fight seems trivial My mind growing dimmer The shadows are closer now
The mist encompasses my legs I struggle to prevail against it But seemingly do i crumble
The cessation of my lifeblood deafens As my last breath do i finally gasp My essence is absent; it was all in vain | |
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| a poem for someone Posted: 4/2/2009 1:13:50 PM | | very nice...im glad im not alone in my dark thoughts and feelings...im not always down...but having been alone now for around 5 years...the happy stuff really isnt readily available...loved that poem...thanks for gracing my thread with it | |
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