| | Drunken SadnessPage 1 of 2 (1, 2) | I have ****ed up big time.
i now know what love really is.
thought it isn't my fault.
i still miss him.
I have had a little sex since he left.
I have had my fun.
I seen what the world has to offer but i dont want it.
Though he hurt me, abused me, and lied.
I realize i love him.
I am currently drinking while writing this.
i am also crying.
Idk why i still love him.
guess i need to move on.
fuuck.
i just dont know what to do anymore.
i look at these scars and they remind me of him.
i love him.
his name is Adam.
i will never forget him.
i know he is probably with some girl right now.
he probably moved on.
idk but i love him.
we always fought and argued.
but i still miss his presence.
i miss his love. i miss him.
but i dont need the stress.
i need to move on.
i drink everyday that he is not with me.
fuuuck my life. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/23/2012 7:51:12 PM | Drinkng never solved anything... All it has managed to do was take the life of my neighbours and my uncle.
Don't settle for somewho who abuses you or treats you like shit. The pain of leaving him and finding someone else will benefit you in the long run. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/23/2012 8:50:15 PM | Drinking to escape your problems is a lot like climbing Mount Everest to escape the cold.
It hurts now. It won't hurt forever. If you have any close friends, let them help you. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/23/2012 8:57:51 PM | Drinking makes you do stupid things, like sending a text or calling a man who has abused you in the past.
Go to bed and don't contact him. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/24/2012 12:32:08 AM | | Holly crap, your profile pulls no punches,lol....I think you need to be single and find yourself...Maybe medication may help with the Bi-polar disorder, but drinking, smoking it up, and cutting, will not really bring the guy I think you want into your life... | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/24/2012 5:15:07 AM | | I know what u mean-how do u get over it? | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/25/2012 8:49:58 AM | | Well whatever you do, don't blame your results on your own behavior. Nice tat, coming with a warning label should be de rigueur for some gals. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/25/2012 8:59:41 AM | | ...Wow, I'm not trying to offend you here, but your profile is like tempting a guy to walk into a minefield. The honesty is nice though. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/26/2012 4:22:13 PM | | My advice. Drink twice as much. Emotional pain sucks. But a nasty hangover makes you forget all else | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/26/2012 6:18:34 PM | Ahhhhh OP! I get it. There's no need to feel bad about drunk-posting regardless of what any says. Done my share over the years here. I've always maintained that "Broken Hearts" is where we can post and still be treated with a bit of kindness. There's a post somewhere out there in which I ramble about the movie Forrest Gump. Yep, it was New Years Eve and I was no doubt "drinking"
Sometimes, we just need to get it on paper (so to speak.) My hangover the next day brought some clarity and a whole lot of  but it was out and I did feel better. I have to say, you seem pretty profound to me here, much like my Forrest Gump post. ("Sometimes, there just aren't enough rocks.") Drunk or not, it made sense to me.
On a serious note? You'll move on. Like others have said, drinking isn't the "answer" but sometimes it sure makes sense. And sometimes? A little self-pity works just fine, too. If you're anything like me (I wouldn't know that!) I live a life so "in control" that once in a while?  allows me to cry and to "feel" what comes naturally to others. It's not a character flaw, it's just that some of us are built different than others. If there were a crime scene that I had intimate knowledge of? I'd be the first that all of those brilliant minded police officers would say, "She did it!!!! She just showed NO emotion. She didn't react like she should have. She didn't even shed a tear." Ehh ~ screw them. Sometimes we're wired to react differently than others will ever understand. I think this is the:
My advice. Drink twice as much. Emotional pain sucks. But a nasty hangover makes you forget all else
best advice here. The hangover will make you wanna shoot yourself with an arrow  but sometimes? That's what we need to get real. You have to move on, ya know? You are breathing in and out all day long ~ so that? Means you're supposed to get through this and go forward. May not be easy, may take a long while. But it'll happen.  | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/27/2012 12:50:27 AM | | Why abuse yourself over someone abusive? Seriously, don't you think you could stay sober long enough to find your inner soul and that you are a good person who fell into a strained relationship? When the alcohol washes away the pain and memories will invade you once again. Find yourself again. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/27/2012 2:31:46 AM | | You're one hurting little girl aren't you. Sad. I'll be praying for you. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 6/27/2012 5:23:48 AM | Take it from a drinker and don't drink when you are too high or too low. I changed my whole outlook on life so that I can drink as much as possible. Which means, my mentality is to take life as it is. I keep everything in perspective. If I wake up in the morning, and I have a good full bottle around,life is good. If the bottle is empty????? I run to the liquor store.
Nuttin too it.
And yeah, I am somewhat serious here. Booze and extreme emotions don't work together.It's a fact Jack!!!! | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 7/1/2012 11:52:31 PM | Walts I have never anyone say that before...
that they actually changed their life so that they can drink as much as possible.
thats funny to say.
is that what you meant?
I changed and am changing my life and I dont want to drink because its not good for health and definately does not go along well with extreme emotions....agree with you on that one. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 7/3/2012 9:06:15 PM | | If they loved you they wouldnt hurt you, there go, they never loved you, but hurt and abused you, sooo WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU LOVE THEM? Stop being a victim and get pissed, first at yourself for allowing some asswipe to hurt you, then get a good shot of self esteem and get on with your life. NO MAN is worth hurting yourself over. I learned the hard way, dont waste most of your life on these trolls, one day you will realize he was dirt and want to kick your own ass for crying like a little ninny over this piece of human waste. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 7/8/2012 3:07:04 PM | | screw anybody on here who does not understand trying to drown your sorrows with alcohol. If you think its so horrible then why look at something with the title "drunken sadness"? I understand how you feel. i spent a whole year in a drunken stupor after my divorce. It hepled because i didnt want to feel the pain and the liquor made me numb. Do what you have to do to get over this guy and when you do....you will be better off. everyone grieves in their own way. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/29/2012 3:52:00 PM | | thank you all for your responses. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/29/2012 4:25:43 PM | | you're 21 and still angsty, you'll grow out of it | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/29/2012 4:39:45 PM | Ugh, I'm doing the same.
I know I shouldn't be drinking but it's the one coping skill
that seems to work right now. At least I can get some sleep.
I hope you feel better | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/30/2012 3:16:22 AM |
My advice. Drink twice as much. Emotional pain sucks. But a nasty hangover makes you forget all else
LOL!! Soooooo true! | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/30/2012 4:27:54 PM | Though he hurt me, abused me, and lied.
I realize i love him.
Why?
Wouldn't you rather have a guy who treats you nice? You have separation anxiety from this idiot who has no redeeming qualities. Love yourself & you will set your standards higher next time. You'll go for that nice guy who will treat you with kindness & respect.
We have all been thru this at one time or another. It hurts a lot in the beginning. Time heals all wounds. When you start thinking about him, say STOP & think of something else. I promise you in a month, you'll feel better. In a few months, you'll be dating someone new & you won't even be thinking about him. In a year he will be someone you used to know, & you won't ever think of him at all. Time will heal your broken heart. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 9/30/2012 5:35:01 PM | OP you desperately need help. You need to join AA and get into therapy. Feel free to join an online group that I am a member of http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/womansemotionalabusesupport/
You have a victims mentality. Love does not hurt. Love is not unkind. You do not love him, you are suffering from emotional distress. He has brainwashed you and taken away all of your self esteem.
Do not get involved with someone else until you work on yourself. You need to be careful with your drinking.
Take care of yourself and please get help before something terrible happens to you. Keep yourself safe. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 10/7/2012 4:37:51 PM | | I think you need to quit drinking and maybe work with underprivileged youth, maybe a Girls & Boys Club? This too shall pass, but keeping on drinking will only make it linger that much longer. Put the plug in the jug. It will get better. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 10/9/2012 6:01:16 PM | | So what? If you are heartbroken, get a little drunk, dont drive and dont make it a habit. Otherwise, what's the big deal? we've all been there, and broken hearts SUCK. Feel better sweetie. | |
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| Drunken Sadness
Posted: 10/11/2012 8:37:04 PM | | He sounds like a Douchebag. Go to the bar, shake your a$$, have guys fall for you, take your pick. Plus its better to drink at a club instead of at home crying... Only down side is the cost of drinks! | |
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