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Posted: 11/11/2004 4:26:52 AM | Hi, guys.
I am feeling so bored right now. I am bored everywhere I go.
I've been doing okay at school. I am a second-year student at a small college
in Boston. There have been girls interested in me but there's always
something wrong with them. Same with the boys I am interested in.
Stacy- Gorgeous african-american girl. First time I saw her, I wanted to
take her to bed....lol. Unfortunately, she has a violent boyfriend.
Has violent tendencies herself. Has issues. Sees stuff the rest of us
cannot. I kind of liked her but decided to stay away from her. Too
much crap to deal with.
Christine - Nice Asian girl. Gave me her number. Asked me out. I dont feel
attracted to her. At all. No passion equals I do nothing.
Samantha - Tall black beauty. Pseudo-intellectual modern feminist and
foreign student. Boring as hell once you get past her looks. I think I'll pass.
Richie- Tall, dark and handsome black Christian. Church-boy. Nice kid. Nice body.
Unfortunately, he seems to be as straight as they come. I cannot risk him finding out that I am bi-sexual even though I really like him and suspect he might be "curious".
I still have the specter of Lauren in my mind. Lauren is a cute little tomboy
whom I met last year. She was totally cool. A hot chick who liked sports.
Also, she was real cool. Nice, too. A man's dream. Unfortunately, she had a man. At the time that I met her, I was seeing somebody. She didnt come bac
to school this year. She went to another campus site. I still think of her.
She had a good head on her shoulders and was very interesting, as far
as females go. I was attracted to her, too. Oh, well. Now, she's gone.
It seems that I am always on some adventure or another. Trying to get women or even men. Lately, the human race has disgusted me and I've slowed down.
I basically do a lot of activism now. I've noticed that MEN dont get treated right by the justice system. In divorce courts, men lose because the
law favors only women. In family court, same thing. The law is against men even when it is the woman who is at fault. That kind of Gender-Bias is wrong, in my opinion. We all know of "battered women". Did you also know
that a lot of females beat on their husbands and boyfriends ? These "battered
men" receive no help from social services or the system. They are on their own. There are no shelters for them. That's not fair. I've joined a group that is trying to help these people. I am proud of our work.
Back to my romantic issues.
I have a problem with trust and often, I trust women a lot less than I trust
men. Dont ask. It's not out of hate. It's just that I am more apt to trust someone whom I can understand and who can understand me. That's it.
That being said, a lot of my relationships with women are short-lived.
With some men, they tend to last longer, the friendships anyway.
I've known my best friend Karl for years.
We were in high school together. He's a cool guy. He knows that I am bisexual but doesnt care. He's a real good friend. I tell him EVERYTHING.
I trust him more than anyone else and he has never let me down. He's always
been there for me when I needed it. Providing advice or offering support. Although I dont often see him with girls, he claims to be straight and I believe him. Yet, sometimes, I kind of wish he was bi or gay. I could be with him then...lol ! No, I would never make a move on him. He's a good friend and I respect that.
Still, I think that somewhere deep inside, we all kind of want someone who is like our best friend. Most of us dont get it. I know I won't. I've had so
many relationships and affairs. I've been with married men, married women, single men, single women. I've been with blacks, whites and Asians.
I've been with Latins. I've had sex every way that it can be had. Sometimes, I am wicked popular with the females on campus. Sometimes, I like to keep to myself.
Yet, at the end of the day, I always feel alone. I call Karl and he
makes me feel...happy. Sometimes, I think that I might be in love with him or something. Heck, I've even had our signs matched, once. I am Aquarius. He is an Aries. The women I like are usually Scorpio or Gemini. With the men, it's usually Aries or Pisces. People think that bisexual men are real promiscuous.
That's not always true. They are looking for what everyone wants, I think : " A love of their own."
These days, I could almost call myself celibate. Dedicated to school and my church and my activism. That's it. Oh, I'm devoted to Karl too.....just my luck. I'm just trying to live life a day at a time. That's all that anyone can do.
What do you think ? | |
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Posted: 11/11/2004 8:37:22 AM | | Hello... you are a confused boy...most "bi-sexual" men are not straight ,they are just trying to fit in.. be accepted. Please don't make some woman suffer because you can't make up your mind (although if you are honest you know what your heart wants) you are young and seem to be playing games ..dangerous games.. if you have sex with men you run the risk of Aids which you could easily pass on to an unsuspecting woman. Get off the fence ..pick a side ..get on with your life and most importantly be honest with people !!! | |
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Posted: 11/24/2004 6:36:35 AM | | DUDE you are scary !!! | |
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Posted: 11/24/2004 8:19:08 AM | blackmanx,
Remember now...you asked for it, so you're gonna get it...I personally think you have a LOT(huge understatement) of emotional issues you need to deal with, before you even think of another relationship!
So how bout getting some help with the issues, first, then take some time, and finally, once your head is on straight, you might just find someone...
One thing that really stands out for me, is the fact that you're having sex with everyone,(or so you say), and I wonder about health issues...you definitely worry me...not only could YOU yourself be HIV positive, but what about your partners?? Since you didn't imply using a "safety net" so to speak, this is a HUGE issue for me.
GOD knows this ol' world has enough sickness in it already, without someone making it worse, you know? So do yourself (and others) a huge favor,and get some help...before something gets much worse, or you(or a partner)find out some news you don't wanna hear...
Please take care, and remember....unless YOU actually believe in yourself, no one else will, either. I don't think that's what you want, is it?
It sounds as though you're into some really good causes....and yes, it's an unfortunate fact, but some women DO abuse their partners-whether it's physically, emotionally, or whatever...keep up the good work on that ok? And in the meantime....DON'T become a vic yourself, by doing what you say u do (or did).
Good luck!
Gentlespirit | |
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Posted: 11/25/2004 7:46:36 AM | | DUDE once again, you are scary, leave out the animals | |
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Posted: 7/15/2009 11:33:59 AM | Just resurrecting another ancient zombie thread... Hee hee...
What's interesting about this one is given what OP wrote, and given that he's 24 now, he was around 19 when he wrote it... and his profile is still active. | |
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Posted: 7/15/2009 2:52:34 PM | Zekestone you are the culprit to blame for these ancient threads. I have to admit there have been some funny reads, and a lot of missing profiles that might have been fun to checkout. I wondered why until I noticed some of them dated ack to 2004.
As for the OP in this doozy wow, fun little 5 minute read, but wow, wonder if he will jump back in and catch us up with his quest.
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Posted: 7/16/2009 1:12:10 PM | ^^^ Yup... Mea Culpa... But I'm not the only one.
But I do think it's funny to resurrect an ancient thread and have people give advice about an issue that happened 5 years ago.
I would have gone back further, but it seems POF/the POF forums were set up in 2004.
I think doing this will get more interesting as time goes on.
Think about it... 20 years from now, resurrect a thread about Sarah Palin or something like that.
But yeah... OP's post is a duesie... I was curious what people would have to say about it today since there are more people on this site now. | |
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