| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/23/2004 4:57:34 PM | | I think I am going completely insane! I have the overwhelming feeling that I am about to cry although I do not have anything to cry about or I do not think I do. Or maybe it is because it is getting close to the time that the only person that I cared for passed away. Maybe that is it but I do not know. | |
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Roaul
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Joined: 4/14/2004
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/23/2004 5:13:27 PM | sweet_child
no your not going insane there are times when a person will feel like crying but can not say why.you said it is coming near the time when you lost someone close,that could be a valid reason but it now more than ever you need friends to be with you i can only hope they are there for you.you also could just be feeling down sure we all get this as well tell your friends your upset tell them your not sure why they might jst help you find out what is upsetting you and will bring a smile to you again best thoughts | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/23/2004 5:16:49 PM | Roaul-
Yeah friends can help you through tuff times but the moment of when I lost the person just keeps playing over and over in my head. I don't know if I rather would not have been there to see him die but anyhow I don't think they could stop that moment playing in my head. I am not even sure if that is why I want to cry. I don't think I cried for three years now...so that is also why it is so odd. | |
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Roaul
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Joined: 4/14/2004
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lsmith
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Joined: 10/31/2004
Msg: 7 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 12:05:30 AM | ok.. I'm gonna geek out here for a minute..  It's very 'western' to think any march from the mean of happiness is a step in the wrong direction. This is why pharmaceuticals do so well here. Not feeling well? Ah.. prozac it is. A little sad?... Ah.. and here is some Paxil.
 It's garbage. Whatever happened to being.. oh, lets say. .. A HUMAN BEING.. where it is to cry for a reason.. and it is ok to cry for no reason at all. You have tearducts.. they are meant to be used. | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 12:00:54 PM | | Child...you know what is saddening you and it is normal.Cry...there is nothing wrong with it. There will be a time when it is easier for you to deal with and that is normal too. And not that it seems like much consulation at the moment....but at least you had the person to care about for some time. But like janis sung "cry, baby" | |
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lsmith
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Joined: 10/31/2004
Msg: 10 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 1:25:35 PM | | well.. then dont' sweat it. If you can't.. you can't .. if you can .. you can.. and if you want to ... you will. Don't think about it so much. If it happens it happens.. but you definately shouldn't judge yourself poorly for it. I think crying is an artform and can express everything from joy, to sadness, to extreme frustration. Shyt.. babies do it for at least 101 reasons beyond that even! I have had many friends pass. One in particular.. I felt weird.. cause .. like you.. I felt like crying.. and couldn't explain it.. his death anniversary was near.. so.. could've been. I never did cry then. Months later.. when I wasn't even thinking of it.. a song came on that reminded me of him.. and I burst into tears right there on the side of the road. Maybe you can't right now.. as was the case with me.. because it was almost what was 'supposed' to happen. There are many funerals I've been to (just call me Maude), where I could'nt shed a tear on that premise. ONly advice.. to reiterrate.. is don't sweat it.. if it's meant to happen it will.. and you needn't wonder why. | |
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Tayven
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Joined: 11/11/2004
Msg: 12 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 9:21:46 PM | Awww...Sweet,
I'm sorry to hear you feel that way. But to be honest, I'm just as lonely and haven't lost a loved one, at times I feel so empty while on these posts my eyes start to water. So I can only imagine how you feel right now. These posts drag you in, and there are some people here who actually care about others feelings and not just the attention they want. It's those people who keep you comming back to chat more.
Hang in there Sweetie, things always come around. An empty space is always filled, and that's never a bad thing. Can always let go without forgetting.
Tayven, | |
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kain78
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Joined: 10/8/2004
Msg: 13 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 11:42:37 PM | If I were you I'd see a shrink, Sweet child. If you dunno what's bothering you, they know. After all, they are doctors of the soul.
Good luck, and keep posting here. Never isolate urself!  | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/24/2004 11:57:12 PM | | Wow talk about someone whom needs help....How did your friend die? Have you ever talked about it to someone? Did you properly mourn? Or could it be that aunt flo is coming to visit we all get a bit hysterical come the dreaded curse lol. blah! | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/25/2004 1:49:24 AM | know how you feel sweet, ... my gpa died on saturday...he had cancer..we all knew it was coming, but....i just...thought i'd get to see him one more time....on thanksgiving....if only he could've ....held out one more week, maybe i'm selfish...
been sad all week, and...the kicker is being alone... on top of it....i'd give anything just to have someone who could give me a hug, and...comfort me...but.. don't have anyone........
def. know how you feel... | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/25/2004 9:46:09 AM | Tayven-
You said you have not lost anyone but feel just as lonely I do not really know why but maybe it is because you do not have someone in your life that you can really connect with. Maybe you do. I don’t know. But that was merely my guess. You can have so many people around you but yet feel completely alone because none of those people you can really talk to.
Kain78-
See a shrink? Nah I will have to pass. At times I have trouble telling people I know my feelings, I will not be able to tell a completed stranger that sits there nodding and saying: “Yes. I see and how do you feel about that?” Don’t get me wrong that is not all a psychiatrist does because it is a tuff career and not as easy as people make it seem. Taking a course about it kinda showed me that but yet still I do not think I could ever see a shrink. And also you talked about that if I don’t know how I feel they will. How? Unless they have experienced it, there is no way they could know. It is one thing knowing. It is another to imagine it all.
Dr.Dolittle-
My friend died by a gun shot. Have I ever talked to someone about it? Just one of my friends. Can not say it really helped. The image, the look on his face, the last thing he said, is still playing over and over in my head like a broken movie. Some people have said: “His dead. Get over it.” But it’s not as easy. It is different then just finding out someone close to you died by a phone call. It is another being there. Watching them die on your hands.
Lol…aunt flo…nah it is not. It is do not for a while and even if it is I do not believe I get emotional during the time. I just feel the same.
Shrek69-
You GPA died? You grade point average? You’re saying you know what it feels to loss someone by your GPA going down? | |
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kain78
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Joined: 10/8/2004
Msg: 17 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/26/2004 12:39:52 AM | Sweet child,
What I meant was that if u feel something hurting you, but u dunno what, then it's probably something in your subconcious. Which is precisely the major of these guys. It's their trade, like a mechanic knows the car by heart, a really good therapist should read your subconscious better than u, and he might really help. I had a friend whose girlfriend commited suicide in a horrible way, and the guy looked like he was going to follow her, but now after one year of therapy he's almost cured. So... I dunno, I strongly recommend that; besides, u have nothing to lose... especially if medical care is free in your part of the world; are u also in canada? | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/26/2004 12:53:33 AM | Do what I do when I feel down. Grab some drawing paper, color pencils, and head to the beach or mountains. When you get there, draw what you see that puts a smile on your face!
You don't have to be an Artist. Some lines will do.
Oh and while your out, go shopping! That seems to always help get your mind off things. And guess what? While your shopping, go meet people while you're there. Make new friends, and if you make a new friend, show them that creative masterpiece you drew of the sunset.
SMILE!
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lsmith
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Joined: 10/31/2004
Msg: 19 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/26/2004 1:20:36 AM | Shrek's GRANDPA died. He needs someone just like sweet child does. We should be conscious of peoples need for help, and not poke fun when it's something like the loss of a loved one. don't you agree? Shrek, and sweet child: I am VERY sorry for your losses. The only thing I can say to comfort you.. might make me sound like an a-hole.. but.. it's true.. and it helps. My Uncle Craig passed on from Aids back in the day. I was closer to him than any other adult, so naturally the pain was very prominent. I wrote him a letter days before he died,.. wridden with turmoil.. asking.. 'what am I gonna do when you go?.. I'll never get over it.. I'll never stop crying".. and he responded.. with some of the best advice to this day.. and I'll tell you -... since then I've survived several deaths in my friends and family circles.. and this adviced has helped SOOO much.. HE said to me.. " thank you for your honesty.. but I have to be blunt here (he was from nyc) - go ahead and cry.. grieve for me.. for a couple of days.. a week if it's bad.. anything beyond that.. and you're feeling sorry for yourself.. I know that hurts to hear.. but it's true.. - you won't be crying for me anymore.. you'll be crying for yourself and for how I'M not there anymore for YOU; and that my sweet love.. is very selfish.. so be strong.. and process my passing.. but try not to be selfish, when it is I who died". To this day.. I feel positive about his death.. and that somehow he is nearer in his passing then he ever was in life. He's my sounding board when I'm out on a date.. I cry to him if my heart gets hurt.. or if I want recognition for something splendid I pulled off.. etc etc etc. Give it some thought.. perhaps this advice can work for you too! | |
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lsmith
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Joined: 10/31/2004
Msg: 21 | |
| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/26/2004 10:23:51 AM | | Well.. if I had to guess.. that's what I would say. Wouldn't sweat feeling bad about it though... t'was innocent enough my dear! | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 11/26/2004 3:00:00 PM | Sweet Child -
First of all I am very sorry for your lose. Death is such a hard thing, I too have lost some
one to whom at one time I loved very dearly. That person made selfish choice and fault being all of their own. In the beginning there were times that I would feel myself becoming sad and
even times when I would ask why. As time goes bye you'll never forget but you will indeed heal. "We have no promise of tommorrow" so we must live each day to it's very fullness.
Always forgive and ask for forgiveness, never go to be angry, and always let the special people in your life know that you love them. Because once again i'll just say we only have today so live each to it's fulliest! Best Wishes! | |
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| I Feel Like Bursting Out In Tears
Posted: 5/19/2005 3:51:18 AM | You GPA died? You grade point average? You’re saying you know what it feels to loss someone by your GPA going down?
gpa = Grandpa... | |
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