| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 9:53:12 AM | Dear *****,
I hate you for what you have done to me. I have lost all my trust in others and even trust in myself. You cause me pain even after you are gone and for that you will remain unforgiven.
I hate you for the tears that have fallen and the tears that are falling now. I hate you for causing great saddness. You have made me feel worthless and unworthy of anything. You have managaed to kill my spirit.
I hate you because you never loved me back and gave me false hope that you could. I hate you for asking me to be your wife and conning me into believing that you would honor the vows taken before God and His alter.
I hate you for making me feel hate towards another human being. I hate you for smiling at me like nothing has changed. I hate you for choosing money over love.
Don't ever ask me if I'm ok and don't ever ask me how I feel. You don't deserve to know.
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***** | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 10:10:23 AM | My heros have been and always will be those who stand up for what they believe in no matter the issue or the price they pay for standing up for something. It takes a certain person to bare the brunt of scrutiny of others.
My mom is one of these people. I may not always believe in what she is fighting for, but she sure has stamina and courage to do what she does
Sound familiar? I thought this was pretty cool, and I hope time will help heal your damaged soul and help the hatred subside. I dealt with the same kind of hate for quite some time.
I'll have good thoughts for you..
Be well......
JMO | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 10:52:04 AM | Dearest little one, you've said what I wish I'd been able to say. You've put it into words with such grace and meaning, you bring me to my knees ! I'm crying right now from readiing your 'letter to the ex'. I wanted to say it, I sure felt it, but I was in so much pain and misery that I barely felt human. And now, all these many nights,748 to be exact, have passed and and I still can't say it, but you've said it for me. Thank you
Lady Mara | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 11:43:14 AM | Thanks so much for your posts.
It helps me to write and even though I have a blog, I like to share certain things with kindred spirits.
Take the time to write a letter to those who you love, like, hate, lust for. It helps get those feelings out in the open, even if you don't send the letter.
Post your letter here if it helps. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 11:49:05 AM | Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated.”
?Coretta Scott King | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 12:00:35 PM | | Sorry to hear how bad you are hurting man. Do you mind me asking what happened? | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 12:08:05 PM | | hate hate hate that sums up a life of broken dreams and sorrow. I feel hate also for the broken promise of till death do us part. I am alive my hate is alive and I guess it is an emotion that has supreme strength. 12 years is not forever. We are both still alive I feel saddened but wiser for the future. I do know what hate feels like and I wish I didn't. This is a good post to let off the steam for you can't let it eat you alive. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 12:14:29 PM | After reading what you wrote, I had to go searching to find this but I think it might make you feel better, I have been through what you were and it helped me.
"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."
I hope it helps,  | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 12:15:48 PM | The hate doesn't eat me up. I am just angry today. Feeling lonely and all that fun crap.
If I don't get it out of me it does eat at me. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 12:52:06 PM | Dear babe....
This thing’s been falling apart for quite a while. Yes ... it took two to get it here. It takes two to fix it. I tried.... God, how many ways I tried. I just can’t keep the dream alive alone. You refused counselling and we tried without it. Nothing’s changed. Now ... I have to look out for me. I promised I’ll love you forever ... and I will. For your own sake, and for the sake of your kids, please do something about your issues. Maybe we can meet in a happy future. Really, all we have are todays.
Steve | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 2:35:40 PM | | donut21222: Wow! Thank you for posting that quote. Words of wisdom at just the right time. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 3:20:14 PM | Dear SweetGreenEyes,
Many people have been where you are. Many women have felt as you do now, even I. I too like to write to express my feelings. Here is a poem that I wrote when I was upset.
Wish I could love the person that you are,
Wish I could see the person that I thought was you.
Wish I could be happy,
Wish I was content,
but see I am not,
happy nor content.
Nearly everyday I shed tears,
Nearly everyday I loose my smile.
Nearly everyday I find you sleeping,
Nearly everyday you have no energy.
Nearly everyday you make me feel inadequate,
Nearly everyday you take me for granted.
I travelled for love,
I travelled for happiness.
I travelled to find my friend and lover,
I thought I had found him,
I thought it was you,
but now it seems my heart steared me wrong,
With you I don't really belong.
Everyday my head tells me to go,
Everyday my heart says no.
My heart wants me to remain,
to see how things go,
but my mind says just go you don't need the pain,
be gone, deal with the pain and try to carry on,
live again.
See there is a constant battle within myself,
I have to resolve,
to decide and to act,
In order to be me, myself,
and free.
SweetGreenEyes life goes on and tomorrow is another day and life is what you make it ~Is the glass half empty or half full? It is up to us all individually to determine whether we deserve happiness or not. Find happiness within yourself and smile. As we all know there is plenty of fish in the sea  All the best with your writing, I use writing to discover my feelings and like you my writing comes from my heart. You could say that we are passionate in this way, which is a good thing, I think. Hope everything works out for you and just for the record I am still following my heart for now, still battling with my choices. Best Wishes Liza  | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 3:26:22 PM | | I share your feelings the hatred is no longer there, just the anger, the lonely feeling of loneliness. It eats away at my broken heart. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 3:52:36 PM | Exceed, the anger is the hatered you have for this person. It is one thing to feel pain and hurt over the loss but if you look at it whose loss is it really??
When I got dumped a few months ago ( I told this story in "Funniest being dumped stories) a guy thought it was not funny at all. This is what the jerk did. After 7 months I pushed him to sh-t or get off the pot. He kept telling me he loved me and to be patient and things would get better, they did not. So he emails me and said "don't bother sending me anymore lunches I'm dumping you, your friend always _____________. I used to send him lunch everyday. Like I was a fool and before the break up he had me so upset I started drinking as soon as I got up.
Feel the pain and then let it go. When you heal you will be able to move on and find someone who appreciates you, respects you and loves you. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 4:09:31 PM | You can be angry without hatred. Anger is a powerful emotion, and it usually is present because of another emotion (or a few emotions). Anger doesn't exist on its own. However, anger does not equal hatred.
Oceans: I am sorry he broke up with you in such a crude fashion. Class is as class does.
But you are right, feel the pain and then let it go. Your love and energy is better spent with someone who will appreciate it.
It's too bad it takes so long to get there.
*sigh* | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 6:03:49 PM | It is normal to feel hate and anger. They are human emotions. I just had a strong bout of them today and they are subsiding a little. It helps to talk about things and I thank all of you that have sent messages to me.
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 7:28:26 PM | As I posted on another blog...
I just got out of a crappy relationship..Was seeing a guy for a year, then one day he calls and tells me he has a GF, and it wasn't me. Okay, I understood, I could see it going there, and I wish him the best of luck in that relationship. We stayed friends. Then a month after he broke up with her he came crawling back and professed his love for me. Within a month things got strange again. Didn't want to hang out, didn't want to talk, infact, I was just bugging him. Then on Dec 23rd he broke up with me. But on the terms that we made better friends then we did partners. Okay, I kind of agreed with that, even though I gave him my entire heart and would do anything for him, including giving my life for him. Now, a month later, we talk, I irritate him, and he throws in my face that he has found someone else, and better yet, they are getting married. He claims that he only met her on Dec 27th, but I don't believe that. I deep down inside feel that he has known her for awhile. Like the other chick. So yes, I blew up at him, cause I felt I had the right. I am a friend, and he couldn't even tell me civially, instead he tells me through txt message while at work.
The worst part of it all, we work for seperate companies, but see each other at the hosp. all the time when we transport in. So it just makes it that much harder.
Yes, I want to say that I HATE him. But hate is such a strong word. I feel cheated, betrayed, and I am angry. But I know I must move on in life. I have someone else that I am very interested in. My only fear is that I am going to jump into things with this new guy to try and cover up things with the old guy. And I can't do that to the new guy, cause he is great, and we have been talking for 2 yrs and have been great friends.
I am a believer that the key to a good relationship is a solid friendship, so maybe this is will be the one.
My problem however is getting past all the feelings for the old one. It hurts, I will not deny. I want to apologize for blowing up at him. But at the sametime don't feel the need to since he treats me like scum on the ground. Damn how I hate the mixed emotions. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 10:01:32 PM | sweetgreeneyes,
Thank you.
I read your letter and change the him's to her's... and i feel better.
i'll take your letter as my own, light it afire and watch as it slowly burns away...
Aloha... | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 10:20:02 PM | O MY STARS!!!!!why are there so many people out there that cant accept that another person just doesnt think that they are as great as they thought they were???For goodness sake get over it and move on.it just makes you wind up looking like a sap when you cant accept that!dont be a crazy stalker just let the other person go and move on like they want to do.By letting them think that they are continuing to make you miserable even though they let you go is simply letting them hurt you more. | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/5/2006 10:25:40 PM | SweetGreenEyes that was really nice!!, Im actually gonna give ya one right back because I luv poetry, n U just made me think of one i wrote a ways back so take it with u.
So it's really over
You're really gone.
I've dreaded this day
For much to long.
As you walk across the stage,
I'll smile with an inner sigh.
But only because I know,
You won't want to see me cry.
All the memories of me and you,
All those days we spent together.
All the love we shared,
Will live in my heart forever.
So as you walk out that door,
Walk out for the final time.
Don't ever forget me,
The friend you left behind.
And now I face my first year alone,
With us so far apart.
But make me one last promise,
Always keep me in your heart.
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/6/2006 1:18:24 PM | Dear ex
although things didn't work out for us i am sure there is someone out there for you as i am sure there is someone out there for me,we shared some good times and some bad times...i do have a small piece of advice for you,leave your past in the past don't dwell on it don't bring it into your next relatiuonship cause honney that just isn't healthy,and hard to compete when someone is consentanly talking about exs ,i feel sorry for you, and hope you can get yourself some counceling to deal with your issues....
all the best
Gayle | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/6/2006 1:27:12 PM | This is also under another Blog .....written and never expressed to my ex/kids mother
A little long winded......but pretty deep
How long is it expected for me to endure all this stress?
And watch you turn my kid’s life to an absolute mess?
With you being his mother, logic would make it seem
That we are supposed to be on the same team
That won’t happen soon because you seem to despise
All things that are positive for him, I can see it in your eyes
Do you feel that it’s good to pass the generational curse?
And that if he develops to succeed it will make you feel worse?
But you won’t even entertain the thought of that
You still on some shit like a tit for a tat
I can’t count the times that you boast you’re in college
End it doesn’t mean shit when it’s not applicable knowledge
I wish you would take a time out and get counseling yourself
The deepest issues lay hidden, while you’re in search of wealth
Let’s say you do find it and it’s not what you thought
You know you’re judged by what you do and not what you bought
This kid needs his dad, you know...like the one you didn’t have
There are so many things deep rooted, I really don’t know the half
The last thing I’m going to mention, may seem to be cruel intention
But it’s not in fact, because the evidence lacked
My first son was suffocated by you and I know it
But with all of the pain, there was no way to actually show it
So hanging over your head is the fact that you killed
The responsibility is on you, forever instilled
I was willing to forgive and can never forget though
That his breathing was cut off by just one pillow
Had to have been, there were seven on the Bed
2 blankets and one drunk mother, inches form his head
No matter what the books say, or even what was reported
You have killed 3 kids in my eyes, including ones aborted
And the pain from knowing that has you bitter for real
Magnified by no welfare and footing the bill for your meal
When I saw Hayden the other day, I saw how you’re shaping her
She is proof to verify the words on this paper
Kades issues are on thing, and so is Anthony dying from “sids”
But nothing is comparable to what you are doing to those kids
But in the end you will see, probably cuz he will tell you
That you are fukkin up his life, and he's building a shell too
Something to cover up feelings and run from the reality
Being a statistic is what he’s facing but there is one technicality
And that is that he has a father willing to fight
And drop anyone in opposition, on first fukkin site
But nobody cares about what I do with my son
Not even you and the games have just begun
Taking him to school every other week
How is he to learn to write, and properly speak?
He walks in to class feeling he shouldn’t be there
The kids just whisper about him, point and stare
I cried for him as I left him at school today
Because last week it was no structure, just all play
So damn right I too, wouldn’t want to go back
Because what I'm missing now won’t fit in that backpack
Your selfishness and pain is unrightfully being put on him
Buying that fukked up t-shirt, implying his futures grim
Forcing your daughter to raise a man
Of course she is gonna do the best she can
Just like your mom did, and you did with her
Is it right, should it happen? I’d have to concur
Ill say it again that your not a bad parent
Your love for them as you know it is quite apparent
That does not mean shit when it comes to guidance
You can’t teach what you don’t know being raised in violence
Not just don’t know, do want to accept it
Push it aside and totally neglect it
A father is a must for a man to be raised
Time and time again you state your not even phased
And that raising him can be done, totally by you
That all he needs to hear is love you lou lou
But your going to be saying that to him through some bars
Im 2 blame if I bounce, couldn’t say responsibilities’ ours
It seriously has made me contemplate taking you out
I’m spiritual and that side of me disables that route
Something needs to be done so he can get the guidance he needs
For he has a soul that was formed by mine, like all of my seeds
All that bullshit between you and my mother
Like you being hateful and not wanting him to love her?
I’m not even saying that moms is not in the wrong
Both of you are killing it; it’s gone on too long
It’s not the same though as what you go through with yours
The battles between you two is more like wars
This writing isn’t to judge and make you look shitty
It’s to show you I know things and still have no pity
Victim of circumstance or product of environment
Gives no right to stay in school up until retirement
It’s the most selfish display I have ever seen in life
To think that I one day wanted you to be the wife
I’m glad that thought passed before it was too late
God gave me the wake up call that you were not my mate
I could honestly write until I am blue in the face
But unfortunately it will not speed up my case
Speaking of case you better bring out your best
I refuse to lose and go out like the rest
The arrangement of fifty fifty has proved to be not enough
And when I get sole, it’s going to be extremely tough
Not to cry and plead your case yet once again
To no avail, you’ll be graduated in what, another ten?
Whenever it is, I will have already made my point
And then we can go back to this arrangement of joint | |
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| A letter to the ex
Posted: 2/6/2006 1:45:50 PM | | You guys need to stop falling in love then you wouldn't be on some broken hearts bulletin board on a web site designed for dating. Toughin up. The guy sounds like he was a jerk don't cry for him. | |
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