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Posted: 8/8/2004 9:46:36 AM | Well sence I have recieved about 41 emails on my saying I guess i should explain " Cant never Could, Wont never Will !. This saying was given to me by some one very special that I will always remember for all time, The first time I herd this is when I was 7 and my real brother and sister were both raped by there dad ( not mine, still looking for the person to blame me on hehe ) and I was telling this person I cant help but feel hate for this action and he said Cant never could, Wont never will. So I learned to forgive. At 9 my real mother died and again this person came in to talk to me. I was babbling something to the effect I cant remember what she looked like, He said dont remember her face, remember what she has done for you, and I said i cant, again Cant never could, wont never will, and I still remember her. I was taken in by my god parents ( one that was a total mental case with anger problems ) and I just knew I couldnt live with this person, Cant never could, Wont never Will, so i learned humility and what pride would get you, so I learned to live with him. At age 16 I moved out on my own and was tring to finish school while still playing 5 sports in high school, when I had not eaten in 3 days and was still waiting on a job I replayed those words, Cant never could, Wont never will, and I found ways to survive and do the things I loved in life more than anything. When I turned 17 I graduated high school and got my scholarship to a fine collage to play football, I was thrown out a 2 story window ( thank god for cars parked down there, specially the guy with the moving van, thank you ) So i decided I was living to close to this mentaly challenged person and left collage before 8 games had been played 8( , and didnt know what to do or where to go, Cant never Could, Wont never Will, so I joined the U.S. army to be all I could be ( year right ) this is where I fell for the x wife. We married had a beautiful daughter and were on our way. Funny how life throws these curve balls, On Oct 12th I was no longer being where the army wanted me, I was pinned down by 15 ton of tank track by my legs, and instead of lifting them off, then nut heads pulled me out, Well sad to say i went though almost a year of hell then, They put me out with a medical discharge and I was moving on with my life, Then one day I couldnt walk, couldnt stand anything, just constant pain. Lost my job, wife was prego with my second baby girl and I was at a lost. Cant never Could, Wont never will, I went fought for help from the VA and got it, I sat in bed for almost 2 years being told I would never walk again and they couldnt figure out why, Well I refused to listen to there crap so in a fit of anger I kicked the wall out of our home, Some where in that time spann I passed out and when i woke I walked right out of that house. The only thing the doctors could say was I put them back in joint, well why didnt you, your the doctor. They missed it on xrays, ohh joy. Well Now i can walk, but the pain is almost unbearable and When I think I could not take it any longer those sweet words rang true, cant never could, wont never will. I finaly got on the right meds, after 6 years gezze, and me and wife split due to her bipolar disorder, when I thought i couldnt make it, ( come on you know the words by now ) Here I am, about to get a collage degree, have both my children, have the best friends in the world, and above all else I have peace in my heart. So anytime you are feeling just down and the world seems to have ya just repeat,
Cant never could, Wont never Will.
Means to me
cant ever give up
could always do it myself
Wont ever forget
will always remember the dearest friend I will always have with me
This is for you John Franzzee I hope you know what a powerful figure you where for me, even when your faith falter, these words never did.
Gado
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Posted: 8/8/2004 2:54:08 PM | | that's quite a story, gado. I'm touched. And if you knew anything about me you'd probably understand. Just look for the blog thread in the off topic section, and read what i wrote about my life..if you want...you may have to dig a bit..i think it's 2 or 3 pages deep by now.. | |
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Posted: 8/8/2004 3:14:39 PM | Thank you for sharing Gado......It is wonderful inspiration.
I also find when I am at my lowest I get a blessing too. | |
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Posted: 8/8/2004 3:23:52 PM | That is just something for you all that are having problems, no matter what you can get thought it, just have to find some insperation somewhere, mine was from a basketball coach that had faith in me, dang he was good lol , who would have known.
Gado
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Posted: 8/10/2004 7:16:36 AM | | Gado, I finally got to read that 'book'..it's sure worth the waiting...Gado, I am so touched..to me this is a story and a journey of someone with a very brave heart..... | |
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Posted: 8/11/2004 12:19:32 PM | Thanks all, for the last couple of years I have been writing my book, that is based off my life but am still waiting for the good ending to come. Hope it gives some hope to some one down the line.
Gado
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Posted: 4/16/2006 7:01:01 PM | WOW!!!! I have heard that saying too, given to me also, remains stuck forever in my heart, it gave me strength to move away from the situation I was in. Your story is a book and a real inspiration, thanks for sharing | |
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