| Confessions of A Cheating Wife...................Part 1
Posted: 5/18/2007 12:54:57 PM | I have a secret that i can no longer keep
the kind that you hide in your mind, but it haunts you in your sleep
I have a man and I have a guy
It is what most would call living a lie
I love him but I'm in love with you
Sounds crazy but ther is a difference between the two
The love I have for him is not the same
Purely for the moment like a childs interest in a game
When I lay down at night I am with you
But in the same token he is there with me too
Hes there for my body and not my mind
In his bed is where we spent most of our time
If thats all then it should have been easy to leave, I know
But I couldnt seem to pick up my feet and go
He had a hold on me and I wasnt sure why
Even still I tell you because I cant keep living this lie
I dont have an answer for why it happen this way
How I should have left but instead choose to stay
So why did I finally decide to tell you this way
Because my cheating heart couldnt lie this lie for another day
Driving myself insane with this feeling of shame and guilt
As I watch in silence the crumbling of this foundation we built
So much my Fault I cant even part my lips to lie
It probably would come out a lot worse if I tried
It was eating away at my soul and tearing at my heart
Without you knowing I was ripping yours apart
I dont expect you to forgive me or things to remain
Lord and devil knows Im the only one to blame
I not only cheated you I cheated myself
Trying to be selfish by having a stand by on the shelve
So what seemed alright at the time has blown up in my face
Now stuck between a rock and a hard place
What seemed so right was very very wrong
People like me are what give inspiration to song
But now youre going and so is he
I watch my life disappear like waves in the sea
He has forgotten about me and cant even remember my name
All you can see on my face now-a-days is shame
Youll probably forget me too and I dont blame you at all
After all I did on my face I deserve to fall
Couldnt tell you any of this to your face
I reek of shame and disgrace
By the time you read this I will be out of your life
No longer can I wear the title of your wife
My wicked ways have scared me deep
Like living a nightmare and Im not even asleep
All of this went down and I have nothing to show
Not even sure where from here I should go
I am sorry, but I know thats not enough
Trying to smooth out edges that I made so very rough
If you never forgive me Ill understand
I didnt desvere to have you as my man
Im going to end this with what sounds best
Summing up what to make of all this mess
I tried to be the player but got played in the game
When love doesnt love you back , its a shame
Im sorry | |
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| Confessions of A Cheating Wife...................Part 1
Posted: 5/22/2007 6:32:49 PM | Srry for being a ghost but I had to change my screen name becuase it didn't make any snce anyway I wrote this poem just in case anyone wanted to put a face with the words. I didn't write it for myself but just from countless conversations that I have had with women. Trying to put the situation in words i could understand.
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| Confessions of A Cheating Wife...................Part 1
Posted: 9/6/2007 1:29:29 PM | | so you were cheating or not? i just found out my wife cheated on me a year ago and i'd like some insight as to how a woman thinks a man should deal with this. the sorrowful ending to your poem only servers to anger me how can you be sorry for anyone but yourself ?? your actions (if you were cheating) serve only your needs one man for companionship another for physical satisfaction why is the man you are emotionally attatched to left to the side ?? and how can you possibly see this as fiar or even try to get some emotional support for you pain?? all you accomplished was hurting these men and ruining your life as you knew it doesn't that seem obvious?? | |
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| A Student
Posted: 9/6/2007 7:59:46 PM | 'Missing'
What?
Missing
Sensual kissing?
What?
Excitement
Bored days spent?
What?
Security in a box
Pretense love in 'locks'?
What?
Missing security
Sacrificed to unloved be?
What?
Missing...missing..
Passionate kissing?
What?
Appreciation
For efforts done?
What.
Sharing soul
Exquisite joy goal!
What.
Guilt felt
Heart wound welt?
What!
Missing what entitled to
Directed at One, not two! | |
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