| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:21:20 AM | ok. let's start over.
let those that need to come - voice sorrow feel safe here. let those who want to celebrate survival - find friends here.
i promise. no anger here. ever. ever. ever. ever.
i want to heal. i try to heal. i am going to be better person. i promise. i try. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:24:26 AM | my fat friend
makes excuses for my weakness
enters all my hiding places
showing them all to the world
drowns all my disappointments
touches all my fears.
gorges on all my failures,
feeding on the worthlessness
i feel, the power i gave her
she lives in my mirror | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:27:01 AM | Blind moments are often
the scaffold of life
shock is often silent
you need to be attentive
you need to see the
entire structure
there are only a few
essential hours of life
you are trained to be silent.
shout | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:28:59 AM | those eyes that could have
smiled at me oh so kind
now avert their so hurt gaze
there is a lightyear of emptiness
between I'm sorry
and your forgiveness. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:33:13 AM | this is our house.
you live here
so do i
how did i
become invisible
to your eye?
to your heart?
This is not our love
not the you and i
i wanted. i longed for
the chasm in our
bed spans more
than the pillows
is wider than our
bedroom
has taken over
our entire life
I dont even have
to wish that
you would just
leave
because you
already have | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:33:38 AM | Trust broken
As a crystal ball breaks into a million pieces when it is dropped
So does my belief in you, in us, in our fragile friendship
One formed out of a past of shattered promises
No longer do our hearts beat as one
No longer do I look into your eyes and see peace
You ask of me to enter with you into a truce
Yet stripping away that which wasn’t yours to take
How can you ask me to be your friend
There was a purpose why I fled
You tore down walls then hurled those bricks at me
With angry words and one thousand apologies that finally fell on deaf ears
goodbye
I wrote this last year...somehow it seems to fit here | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:34:46 AM | she carefully circles
'round her cloistered pain
so close cropped
comfortable
kept from becoming
too sloppy
too apparent;
this stunned indifference
now merely quotidian
prostitution with a monster | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:38:12 AM | i thought the day had lain down forever
the satisfied sky closed up shop
leaving me with myself
why is there this parallel world
i am drifting in and out of?
what draws me back to
this rasorial chicken feed
i call me
but me, myself?
everything is unknown
but I.
I come back to me.
for I am the ground
the dust to dust
my worth is breath
and i am the
random shore
the pulse of
all possible tomorrows. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:41:32 AM | there was a major ice storm
inside my house last night
with significant sleet
causing a massive power outage.
I walked in the darkness
of madness
could not escape the anger
though i tried.
yes. i tried.
i thought a treaty
arose under a moon beset sky
but alliances of lunacy
leave little light
I dont know what is worse
the cold of you
or the heat of you | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:41:46 AM | - AN APPOLOGY TO THE MIRROR -
I do not know the one in the mirror
Although I chose to speak in haste
I think it sad that I was drawn in
Still what I said was in poor taste
I do not appologize for my spirit
For I would never abandoned a friend
But I appologize to the mirror
Reflections of weakness I should not send
So for my words of painful prodding
I owe that image an appology
But I still stand fast for all of my friends
I will not relinquish my integrity
So I am quite sorry for goading your weight
It was reprehensible and wasn't right
Of course this does not excuse the attacks
Of friends that you tried so hard to bite
- Erik - I think in my annoyance I pushed a bit. I appologize for that. This does not excuse the actions of you and your friends, but as you stated, you wish to stop and start over without conflict and I want this too. The senseless childish conflicts on this site sometimes distract us from sharing our beauty and tallent rather than our ugliness. So for my part I'm sorry that I treated you that way in poetic verse. I will let this stand as my truce on the matter and bid you a good day. Kudos to you for taking the high road. It's always better to play nice.  | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:43:41 AM | Remembering Kristin
A heart too young for sorrow
knew sorrow all too well
a body too frail for pain
knew pain all too well
a soul too brave and noble
knew courage oh so well
a heart once so happy with me
now laughs with angels above
a smile too precious for tomorrow
now lives in yesterday
her longest journey is over
each day to her i pray | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:45:45 AM | heavy heavy day
ceaseless minutes
await me now
and under this
clouded day
raindrops surround
me like gauze
and with communion
of pen and pulp
my soul prays
to be escorted to peace
gentle with promise. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:47:37 AM | I enter these pages with no passport
it's only in words that i have a home
everywhere else,
the outside
the real world
are provinces
desolate
barren and cold
I avoid this face in the mirror
I cannot clap for the actress
on stage
I am content to live life in the margins
blank spaces that cushion the hurt and the pain. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:50:12 AM | VICTORY
Battle the blaming wind
that brought violent clouds
clinging to you
carrying you to deepest sorrow
RAVE REVOLT REFUSE
and frame your face
in this light
lingering
struggle to see
the serene sun
simply standing there
beyond this shadow. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:52:34 AM | I will not sleep tonight
darkness always so soothing
and benevolent might
betray my trust
with crowds of stars
and the moon I usually
honor as a valued guest.
tonight i wish only
to embrace the dark
dance in her dangerous arms
devoid of
sense
and space
and hurt. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 7:57:39 AM | Written for Liberty Plaza, but also appropriate here
They say it's time to laugh again
they say it's good to do
it's fine ok and normal
it's time to say adieu
to sorrow, loss and aching
to tempest tears that flowed
all this should fade in memories
that in our hearts we've stowed
I wonder when the laughter
silly giggles will arise?
I wonder when a smile
won't be a thin disguise?
No I dont want to laugh just now
It simply isnt time
Perhaps it will take winter
to erase this brutal crime
Perhaps in snowfall gentle
I'll find the peace I seek
Perhaps when all is pure and white
these tears will leave my cheek
Perhaps when Liberty Plaza
lies 'neath a cleansing white
perhaps it will be only then
this horror will take flight
No.
I dont want to laugh yet
It's just not time for me
Right now my heart lies twisted
'neath the rubble and debris.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ALL THE HURT AND PAIN END HERE. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 8:00:37 AM | | anonymous versifier. thank you for coming to my new home. i appreciate so much. i thank you for being here. i do not feel so alone now. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 8:05:48 AM | How often we forget,
to seek the gentleness
and comfort within,
not our words,
but those written long before,
let the prayer of
St. Francis of Assisi
not be forgotten. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 8:06:09 AM | oh erik.
I am so sorry you thought i had aimed anything at your friend. i never wrote that poem about her. i knew not who was tormenting me. i never attacked her. I am sorry there is so much misunderstanding - anger there. but that is over. now gone.
you have come here- have blessed this new house with peace. honor. dignity. friendship????
thank you for a noble heart. so nice to finally meet you | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 8:09:39 AM | oh mr. mandrake. YES. lapsed catholic I...but know these words well.
yes. let us bless this new house with those words:
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. | |
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| Sing your sorrow. Celebrate your survival
Posted: 10/25/2007 8:18:56 AM | I am sorry as well. I hate getting drawn into anything negative. I tried to e-mail you with an in depth letter but your filters blocked me for age and location. At any rate, I read the thread page and followed what looks like an attack between yourself and Iberserker toward her. Hence the counter attack.
On my part I stooped too low. I am good at reading folks. Good at picking up on weaknesses. I appologize for the weight attack. I was extremely unkind of me and I am not the kind of person to enjoy such things or generally to mess with folks. I just want the people attacking my friend to back down. The annon e-mails stem from sources other than me. I am not like that either. I have a good idea who is responsible, but the MOD's will get to the bottom of the site hacking and attacks.
You have my word that I am not going to engage in any more negatives toward you and alsoi my appologies. I hope to put the ugliness behind us. Peace and friendship here on my part as well.
" Only by communication can the truth unfold. If a man speaks a lie and a thousand people are convinced that it it so, tis still a lie, even if all hold it to be true." - Skjoldungs Saga.
"Peace comes from understanding, understanding comes from learning, learning comes from sharing, and sharing comes from the heart." - Richard of Gjellerhorn.
- Erik -  | |
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