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Joined: 3/17/2009

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past reality Posted: 4/4/2009 9:43:10 AM
im drowning . i know my hearts desire but i know its a dream . i feel like i am under water and cant get a breath . there is allways a crushing force, allways on top of me allways looking over my shoulder needing to see what im doing , who im talking to. love is weird it has no boundrys, no borders it dosnt say love this one or be wary of that one. it just hits you in the chest and with out them you cant breath or think. when that happens , when you fall from were you are to were you end up, you have to wonder, you have to think. why me ? why them? you dont know any thing about them but you know its right . you want to reach out and pull them threw to you but you know that is a dream. you want to make them happy ,to make them smile and this time know that when they say "its ok" that its true . that they could be truly happy, truly ok. why dose this hurt ? why is it confusing?? why ? i dont know. i cant predict what they think of me or if im being sillly . i just know that i feel something i didnt know i would feel again. but i do know if i dont try if i dont fix it right now, my life will never be right again.

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past reality Posted: 4/4/2009 9:41:46 AM
im drowning . i know my hearts desire but i know its a dream . i feel like i am under water and cant get a breath . there is allways a crushing force, allways on top of me allways looking over my shoulder needing to see what im doing , who im talking to. love is weird it has no boundrys, no borders it dosnt say love this one or be wary of that one. it just hits you in the chest and with out them you cant breath or think. when that happens , when you fall from were you are to were you end up, you have to wonder, you have to think. why me ? why them? you dont know any thing about them but you know its right . you want to reach out and pull them threw to you but you know that is a dream. you want to make them happy ,to make them smile and this time know that when they say "its ok" that its true . that they could be truly happy, truly ok. why dose this hurt ? why is it confusing?? why ? i dont know. i cant predict what they think of me or if im being sillly . i just know that i feel something i didnt know i would feel again. but i do know if i dont try if i dont fix it right now, my life will never be right again.

Joined: 3/17/2009

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for my child Posted: 3/28/2009 8:57:57 PM
bramble patch i found a perfect rose today but i couldnt touch it, because it was in the middle of a bramble patch. it stood tall and strong and without fear of being cut, because it was in the middle of a bramble patch. i wanted , no needed to smell it, taste its beauty with all my sences but i could not because it was in the middle of a bramble patch. i stood there in aw of it taking it in from afar but knowing i could never truly experiance the radiance, the utter love it had to offer because it was in the middle of a bramble patch . i now understand just what beauty and love have to offer me, a sent a vision and a broken heart because my flower, my rose is in the middle of a bramble patch

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for my child Posted: 3/26/2009 6:20:34 AM
( i wrote this one last year for her ) I can't get you out of my mind I close my eyes for a moment and see your smile I find my mind wandering aimlessly through a field full of flowers and I cant understand there beauty But then you smile, and from every petal of every flower butterflies arises with there wings fluttering in a beautiful chaotic mass. But as I open my eyes and find your not there I imagine a vast desert were nothing lives but the wind and the sand I close my eyes once more and the sun sets. And with the coolness of the darkness the desert creatures stir from hiding to show the life and beauty truly there Like your smile

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for my child Posted: 3/26/2009 5:58:09 AM
You are a fallen angel Stripped of your halo and wings you wander the earth without man knowing who or what you are. But like any creature with the power of your beauty comes a devilish heart. For as you walk among us we are aw struck by your presents and Have no other choice but then to fall deeply in love. Yet still you walk Knowing that as you pass our lives have been changed forever

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Longing Posted: 3/26/2009 4:59:38 AM
i enjoyed your writing style it flows like sand of time into my soul. very nice poem river

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a little from my soul for the one i let get away Posted: 3/26/2009 4:52:25 AM
i opened my eyes last night and i heard you whisper form the darkness you whispered my name in such a way my heart was filled with instant joy my body filled with unbridled desire. as i closed my eyes again i was suddenly in a Forrest so beauteous it took my breath. but as i turned around to admire its beauty i saw something so wondrous that for me time stood still. when i met your gaze and i took in all your glory a single tear fell to the ground at my feet . in that one tear was all the sorrow and regret for lost time, the lost love. that one tear spoke volumes of the timeless walks we never had and the drives we never took. it spoke of all the talks we lost over the years and all the love that was suddenly gone from our worlds. then i once again close my eyes . and there in the solitude of my own mind there you were and i saw in your eyes that one single tear . and i knew i finally knew the loss you have felt also . then you smiled, whispered my name and you were gone leaving me with the gift of your love and i knew you were there.

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I was told I am a bad mother because I smoke marijuana. Posted: 3/25/2009 3:56:49 AM
oh and one more thing. the "kids dont need to be exposed at any age" coment. Approximately 15 percent of 10th and 12th graders have used amphetamines. In a study at San Francisco General Hospital, 25 percent of seizures were found to be caused by amphetamine use. An estimated 1.8 million (0.8 percent) of youth age twelve and older are current users of cocaine Teen arrestees often test positive for recent drug use. The National Institute of Justices Arrestee and Drug Monitoring System (ADAM) drug testing program found that 66 percent of underage male arrestees tested positive for marijuana Almost half of all high school seniors in America have experimented with illegal drugs and about three quarters have tried alcohol. The Breakdown Drug Use Prevalence by American High School Seniors – 2007 Marijuana – 41.8% have tried the drug, 31.7% have used it in the last year, 18.8% in the last month, and 5% uses it every day. Inhalants (Sniffing glue, gasoline etc.) – 10.5% have done it. 3.7% have done it within the last 12 months, and 1.2% within the last month. Hallucinogens – 8.4% have tried hallucinogens (LSD, Magic Mushrooms, Peyote), 5.4% have used within the last year, and 1.7% in the last month. Cocaine – 7.8% have used, 5.2% have used within the last year and 2% have used within the month. Heroin – 1.5% of high school seniors have tried heroin. Tranquilizers – 9.5% of high school seniors report having used tranquilizers to get high, 6.6% have used within the last year. Alcohol – 72.2% have used alcohol, 66.4% have used within the last year, 44.4% within the month and 3.1% use alcohol daily. Steroids – 2.2% of high school seniors have used steroids. Ecstasy – 6.5% have tried it, 4.5% have used within the last 12 months Meth – 3% have tried meth. Prescription Pain Pills – 15.4% of high school seniors reported having used prescription drugs (vicodin, oxycontin etc.) to get high during the last 12 months. Cough Medicine – 5.8% had used cough medicine to get high (DXM) (All data from NIDA) ok so if anything the " kids of today " have more knowlage more acces and better drugs than there parents. again i do not condone partaking in front MINOR CHILDREN but i just want to disect your whole statement and throw up.

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I was told I am a bad mother because I smoke marijuana. Posted: 3/25/2009 3:33:14 AM
OK this last post just fired me up. if you are ignorant why post? my mother had a saying when i was young and it fits. it is better to remain silent and appear ignorant than to open your mouth and remove all doubt. the reason pot is illegal is because it is non taxable in its present state . period. the u.s government has toyed with the idea for years of legalizing pot and selling it themselves and like cigarettes and alcohol taxing the hell out of it. they even went as far as having the Marlboro cigarette company create mock up packs for approval. it would be like any other substance illegal to drive wile under influence ect.. but pot is far from dangerous.it has no long term addictive affects and the short term are just that very very short term. it is like posted many times here medicinal if anything. also to the ("would be as legal as cigarettes and alcohol ") coment. WOW do you know how many die each year from smoking cigarettes? It accounts for more than 440,000 of the more than 2.4 million annual deaths. Cigarette smokers have a higher risk of developing several chronic disorders. These include fatty buildups in arteries, several types of cancer and chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (lung problems). Atherosclerosis (buildup of fatty substances in the arteries) is a chief contributor to the high number of deaths from smoking. Many studies detail the evidence that cigarette smoking is a major cause of coronary heart disease, which leads to heart attack. (taken directly from aha website) and alcohol ? Number of alcohol-induced deaths, excluding accidents and homicides: 21,634 Number of alcoholic liver disease deaths: 12,928 thats per year (adjusted) so just because its legal dose not make it safe ,period. and Finlay pot (from our own governments website) Nearly 100 million Americans admit to having used marijuana at least once in their lives, while some 25 million admit to having done so in the past year. With a death rate of (((( 35 out of 100 million ))))), it doesn't seem very dangerous. OK so get your facts strait i found all this info in about 3 minutes were is your info from? i agree smoking , drinking whatever in front of minor children should not take place however . it is an adult activity saved for adult time.

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