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himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1650 (view)

supressed desires Posted: 11/26/2009 6:47:38 PM
being surrounded by many committed to none forces waiver standing tall against one another then falling into a collapse like the juice died the last flicker of a chainsaw before the cord goes bad... bubbles surround my nose caked in white sorrow forgotten times of tender caresses was it any more a sin? do I know better now... contests in the middle of the trailer park the picnic table knew more than just our names carved scattering about wonder where they are now should I always forget forgive and love again??? It's such an interesting world does one have time for men?

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 216 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/26/2009 8:22:45 AM
thank you all for your words Strange tear comes to my eye as I watch my ancestors dancing with the conquistadors and the family of the ones who killed their babies built on the backs of slaves because I embrace their children somehow I feel pure You look at stuff going on and listen to the caroling that I generally can't stand somehow The Beach Boys Christmas makes sense at this moment it's okay to be corny to spoil your children with presents to hold them a little harder and feel what really matters that's what the songs do and this day when I watch the Macy's parade like I have since I was young at least my mom did I never wanted it on and as I watch mine stop for a moment stare at the dancers then walk away no doubt wishing I would change the channel but he's a good kid just like I was still am sometimes when I have to be natural... I'm glad it's this way and unafraid to say that despite everything I feel as if a new awakening is at hand right in the air the stagnation of the past cannot linger long new ideas, new hair new lip with a thousand holes tattoos up and down the spine and they want this pain to escape from the pain of reality... I understand it's in the Greater Plan. I'll cast aside these worrisome blues sing a song we can all dance to. Happy Thanksgiving Everyone.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 109 (view)

Why do women scratch your back and bite your lip during sex? Posted: 11/25/2009 8:06:32 PM
Because we're fixing to cum... duh

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3471 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 7:44:46 PM
searching for their prey little do they know: hunting is only for dogs

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 214 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/25/2009 6:18:25 PM
I only ask for guidance when I'm scared the next step may be too great of a fall... I question not my heart as I swoon over misguided angels that make me feel at home and I wonder when the train will cease its whistling and blowing stop the tracks from moving stop the corn from growing seek not a heart of laughter and ease but search for the fire that brings you to your knees in prayer everyday wondering if I could ever say enough to make the world go away leave the dogs alone let the children play I've prayed every step of the way Had good luck kisses grace the envelope feeling inside that the more that I choke the more I will breathe strange sensation comes over me and at last I'm free drifting asleep with hair in my mouth and smiles on my hips are you envious of the relaxed state I've come to know and love to hate? why should I suffer no more to tell you the truth I'm dreadfully bored and trying to find that niche homeless wandering cast spells like a witch dream my reality before me just keep promising myself inside that I am really real the realities of yesterday's sorrow is not exactly how I feel for I am just tired but I know that someday I shall graduate and be tired forever more yet satisfied when I walk through the door that indeed my presence somehow made a difference and silenced the madness you call it sadness I'm not crying don't fret over me just close your eyes and go to sleep I will kiss you in my dreams.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 213 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/25/2009 5:42:00 PM
Faith stirs me from within and I've never felt quite the same since that day I drifted too far beyond my calling If my ears are shut I cannot be offended by the echoes of yesterday's mistake and if it's wrong for me to act that way I cannot apologize for I do not have the time right now... and I will fall away from the lies tears of joy will fill my eyes unresolved issues can be forever buried in the pile of papers and forgotten poems gracing my feet and framing my mind as I stare at this screen wishing he were mine...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3431 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 5:28:09 PM
I prefer g-strings when I have someone special grannies otherwise ------------------- and skating on ice frigid tendencies leave me unable to swoon

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3412 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 11:50:36 AM
catching something hot forgetting to fake interest shut up and kiss me

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 211 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/25/2009 10:55:04 AM
I wasn't peeking my eyes were wide but clouded with memories I kept inside Now my angel has arrived no longer sad will I be the moment I hear him holler "MOMMY!!!!!!"

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3403 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 8:47:10 AM
gushing from within a secretive escapade the hickies tell all

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3401 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 8:39:59 AM
not for faint hearted the sinful memories stay in my mind: I'm wet

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3398 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 8:32:52 AM
leaving world behind focus on tangible things chocolate melts me

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3396 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/25/2009 8:14:13 AM
sinking my teeth in salty flesh teases my tongue abysmal pleasure

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 209 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/25/2009 8:06:56 AM
Like I am afraid to just write no edit button I was interrupted... ------------------------------------------- The metallic clank of yesterday's chains slide into my fantasy I remember the spell It fit me well we walked through streets of blue undercover agents trying to make it through I galloped past the highest mountain jumped the ravine broke an ankle but I did not cry I wonder why? If pictures can show the need for my history to repeat itself I wish the camera would take a ****ing picture already the flash will blind my eyes readjustment comes quick Born again lying beyond the trip of madness as I whirl into this sea of sadness is it an ache I'm willing to fake just to see the light?? Why not sleep well tonight figure out the difference between wrong and right crusade through this empty world of materialistic anarchy fading into the depths of a raging sea and a small island floats through my mind his hair is black and his eyes are deep into my soul he always sees he has to hurt me in order to feel power but I know in my heart I'm a delicate flower no peace will come to his silly little world no peace will come to this silly little girl... ------------------------------------------------------------ Happy Thanksgiving.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 208 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/24/2009 4:25:21 PM
Never in my life have I felt so complete as if this is indeed the path God has laid out for me And maybe it is a good thing that true love has passed me by No need for distraction Must keep a clear mind The world was brighter today even though my heart was clouded Fighting towards a goal I never knew I'd reach Seeing myself sitting there feeling the ease tufts of cotton floating in the wind red dirt roads the feel of an old friend jack rabbits running out road runner's fury a horny toad squashed and being eaten by red fire ants and that ease is my home I felt home today.

himynameisSArah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 207 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/22/2009 8:10:42 PM
Creaking up the steps the ladder is slick moss covered rocks make me lose my grip what is this I see a gleaming angel before me beckoning me be silent God gave me two ears for a reason.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 2 (view)

The Closet Posted: 11/20/2009 11:50:23 AM
Amen, sister... got out of the same type of situation for the same reason. Your poem is beautiful. Be strong. It's better to be alone than be beat on. Sarah

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 205 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/20/2009 9:04:36 AM
Something struck a chord last night I suppose I just wasn't thinking right surrounding myself with boiling coffee then refusing to accept the scalding anatomy Watching from the outside my own actions Wondering if the invasion is worth the satisfaction of not sleeping alone

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 203 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/19/2009 1:12:44 PM
Suitors crack me up they bring coffee alcohol, and pot attempting to swoon me with whatever they've got and I think it's funny as hell because they see me surrounded by papers dishes in the sink liquor bottle next to the tabasco my hair in every direction but down... and they sit speaking assuming I suppose that I really want their company more enter like ants in line people must think I'm some kind of whore. and I wonder oh yes I wonder if the one I want will ever trail through my door...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 202 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/19/2009 10:17:29 AM
They should have worshiped us For we hold the key to the continuance of mankind And I always find it strange to hear people say that they don't like kids I mean, we all wore diapers at some point I guess most of us did And we all had snotty noses And Fifteen Million questions No answer was complete for there is always "Why?" And I know some kids are bad these days but I think we need to relax a bit stop trying to turn them into tools to continue capitalism and create curios minds willing to find the balance... Venus is not only the first star She will be the last.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 200 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/18/2009 11:56:57 AM
While we're on religion let me not forget I'm skipping religious class today... too bad I can't go shopping but I will go tomorrow... I wonder if I might recall the feeling I got when I was small and how I enjoyed singing along as the preacher guided us in a song and I wonder why I've strayed from that path and maybe if maybe just at last I've forgotten how to pray with tears in my eyes for they aren't supposed to flow I shouldn't be sad I should be grateful but I'm not in ways I'll never be I am saddened by all I see and when they tell me it's okay to play God with human life to implant and carry on the Catholic Church denying birth control keep the masses hungry they can't fight us if they're starving but I don't know why I'm praying when I should be thanking I do I am blessed beyond my own wildest imagination but I want more I am greedy for knowledge I want to know it all accept everything ignore the babies and their crying... In Florida a blessed little baby was sold by her momma to a man that raped her I think she was only four years old and I don't understand how a woman could give a man her flesh and blood and I really think we have dehumanized life in such a way that women are naked and stripping in bars being exploited selling it the oldest profession other than religion? If it weren't illegal and underhanded I don't think people would be so jaded and I hope they kill that woman that sold her little girl some **** in KY beat another 4 year old to death 10 years for manslaughter we cannot keep allowing these things to happen with no restitution for the innocent victims and I do not want to be afraid for my child anymore so I think there must be a way to satisfy both floors of the building as the sky falls away from me and tears flow because this world has just gone too far and I'm afraid for my way that it will be lost in a sea of sin and uncertainty people in the world they are the ones that take this from me I do not let it get me down I'm not afraid when out and about I try to play it smart and keep my cool but I can't save the babies being sold for crack raped and beaten to death then driven over state lines I wonder how much he paid.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 199 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/18/2009 11:29:02 AM
if that man sleeps easy it's because he's in denial I'm not some stupid girl I'm not an innocent child... perhaps just a little too wild and I understand that I'll wear many hats but one of sobriety never looked that good on me... And, quite frankly I've quit apologizing for my actions I've learned to pay for them accept responsibility and move the **** on.... but this one ache I can't get rid of never even hardly talked to we are so very different, except for one thing... and it's not what you're thinking it's just a feeling that I get when I know in my heart that things are right the way they should be but it wasn't that way last time and maybe he's not the only one for me, but he's still the only one that I want.

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 197 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/18/2009 6:48:56 AM
Sorry that I smoke like a freight train Do not comprehend a world of pain I'd rather swallow and absorb the oil of forgotten portraits scattered on my walls will a Magic Eraser remove? calloused and futile memories I can't quite remember because I was too drunk but I always knew something happened I like the violation gives me an excuse to drink more... I always wonder if I will ever conquer this thing inside me this raging beast that does not know a limit indeed I relate to Nixon with my big ass head and low self esteem and it even showed him blacking out back behind the scenes I don't want that though I'd rather let the beauty flow and use my low level of self-esteem to bring the humility out of me and a trusting nature that will never waiver for God tells me in my stomach when I'm in danger and it rumbles like an old fashioned alarm clock a distinct buuuurrrrring I will drop everything and run like hell I know the feeling well So I don't understand why I love you my friend? did I numb myself to the brink of denial the very first night I saw your smile... but I know I only had about three quarters of a beer surely that wasn't enough to completely disregard all of my fears such an overwhelming passion indeed, I jumped right on in had me from hello is that what they say? I don't understand why I'm not afraid when clearly you are such a danger and I don't know why I ever started trusting a crazy, dark-eyed stranger And there may be other boys that think this is for them but the one it's written for is the one who'll never read it...............................

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1250 (view)

~lost in thought or flight of fancy~ Posted: 11/17/2009 2:18:40 PM
Can't even remember why I felt the need to write so often something stirs me that I wonder deep inside if sensitive beings will ever have a place In this violent tumble of hustle and waste ----------- Short term memory loss in small increments can erase and entire day... ------------------------------- so now I'm stuck on the song again as if it will ever produce I've written a few always in denial of the truest calling I've never known... -------------------------------------------- The moment is gone frustration ended small little blurbs as the glory descended upon my life If I remember it right it was something about Jesus not being a socialist and something about him having dark skin and eyes like the very ones that haunt me in the night or it could have been about distracted people and how we are always searching for something more I discovered today that I like abrupt changes no need to creep up on just smile and get them done... so I'm smiling at you inside me when I laugh

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3029 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/16/2009 9:43:02 PM
where is my frog prince? And does he possess my heart or only my mind...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 3024 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/16/2009 7:42:55 PM
I can't see a thing need to write a damn paper stopping to say hi :):):):)

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 194 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/16/2009 3:20:54 PM
Vertically stagnant Horizontally challenged Creeping over the valley like thick fog the days are almost past and maybe once at last I can focus on something other than my lack there of affection... --------------------------------------------- thank the floor ease the madness wood ingrained with years of dirt swept under the rug nails stick up snags where too heavy a burden was lifted and held by me and no one at all

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 192 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/16/2009 5:37:56 AM
I love your responses and messages to me. Thank you for being a friend. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When you experience things in the darkness of mankind when a woman tells you black skin is the devil's marking and the thick lips are outlined in this scripture they are the enemy the mark of the beast what is a nine year old supposed to think? Hell, I knew they were full of shit even way back then but I couldn't help but be impressed at the kids who could flip through that Bible and find the passage first I still have no clear recollection of the order Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John Thank God for prayers Or I'd forgot them And sometimes I break into Colloquialisms ignoring the fact that indeed I judge another person by the words that come out of their mouth the fire in their soul when I look into eyes not glazed over with hate like his were the last time the only time I wasn't in love... And I see my favorite little black baby her skin is soft and her hair is too it looks different from far away but they love to have it fooled with just as my light skinned babes and I really don't understand how someone could have been so low to call a precious gift from God a product of the devil... but, I guess I must forgive them too that's what My Main Man would do But America cannot Indeed in response to that woman who spat out lies those words that made me want to cry and then I listen to Reverend Wright and realize we are all stupid stupid to bother stupid to try for there will always be some ****er not letting us get by with loving and being as we should.................................................................... this is the division this is where it starts middle class neighborhoods right in the heart of a cement world where gang colors flow with blood at night you can't see the darkies but she preaches about them every day actually, she's dead Was it God that called her away? Who's side is right If no one hears the truth If they never feel the light then what am I supposed to do? I guess I'll switch over to the Catholic religion for you can pay off after they're gone the past sins of your loved ones and I will get rich buy everyone forgiveness... it doesn't work that way then you want to say that I'm foolish for believing there is torture now unseen in places we don't know about they stare at us the evil the warm the cool the dead are alive... and I pray. So, can I forgive myself today?

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 190 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/15/2009 8:09:58 AM
My coffee is percolating I make some of the best around The pot is old My momma bought it for me at Goodwill One thing I actually take care of sort of take care of okay it stays dirty for weeks but I always use baking soda to remove the stains And it's white, how dumb to make a coffee pot white made back in the day when we were mostly house wives who scrubbed everything clean as snow no time for anything else just watch the babies grow there still isn't time for anything but raising kids I refuse to plop mine in front of a video game there's no shame on those who did but I'm scared that if he does not experience tangible life he may become stunted I never played them much okay, that's a lie but I really never could afford the fancy ones they went on by so, I was stuck with the Genesis that I'd gotten 4 years back everyone else had a playstation that shit was too real gave me a headache when I tried to play so I stuck with my Sega still have it today somewhere at my mom's in a box with a thousand other memories I don't need and will soon forget So... this white coffee pot was someone's memory they stashed it in a box or under the counter finally gave it up one day mom paid close to 15 dollars for it Goodwill prices: that's high but the ceramic glazed metallic canister and glass top so you can see how strong the coffee is before you turn it off It's almost ready now someone's memory on sale fifteen bucks my mom gave it to me I will keep it for all eternity bury me with the pot that gives the best damn coffee in town all this fancy shit they've got can't hold a crown to the flavor released from ceramic and heat glass ornamented goodies a blue corning ware emblem back when made in America meant it was quality... can't tell the difference now all looks the same to me so, occasionally I use a little electric one but it just hasn't got shit on my Corning Ware Deluxe Pot with See through glass ornament right on top

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 2342 (view)

The Fireside Posted: 11/14/2009 6:17:08 PM
them there humans are purty smart who would've thunk to take a picture of the cycle of life for bored people to fill their lonely nights...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 2921 (view)

Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 6:14:34 PM
faith brings me closer to the realization that faithless lives exist

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 188 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/14/2009 5:46:29 PM
You tell me to spend my tax dollars on abortion and in the same breath tell me it is wrong to kill a man via lethal injection to stand them in a line and get rid of every damn one of them. Because the life and misuse there of the woman got only 11 months for beating to death her adopted daughter I guess if it's not blood they don't consider it slaughter and I recall a time when I was small and didn't understand what my momma meant when she cried over the news seemed like a silly thing to do but now the words ring clear in my heart a constant fear that if we continue to prosecute and release the sickest of people back on the streets that one day the lines will be so blurred this doublespeak and misdirection... anoint my heart with purity then show me scenes of others dying and little babes crying tell me it's okay to dispose of life this way They sit back and laugh let the little people sort it out... great is good

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 106 (view)

Dating cliches Posted: 11/14/2009 5:12:08 PM
I love judgmental *holes that assume because moms have children we should some how turn off our party switch... And dumbasses that assume drinking/smoking is some evil thing... while they shovel in fast food 24/7. And people that think this profile is really going to reveal a **ing thing about who that person truly is...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 12 (view)

Good things about Bad Dates ... Posted: 11/14/2009 5:07:13 PM
First dates are a good excuse to get really prettied up... bad first dates make you appreciate the good guys... if I find one out there, always hopeful...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 6513 (view)

Old Souls......only Posted: 11/13/2009 10:14:23 PM
I suppose I should've been upset at the broken pieces on the floor although to some they were merely ceramic to me they held the door to the place I would go when no one else could understand the places I can go when no one else should hold my hand and I wonder why I am so afraid to sweep away the chars of yesterday and then I remember how symbolic it all felt that wasn't my baby in the casket that wasn't the burden I had felt And I know the breaking of clutter on my mantle to some seems like nothing but to me it feels suicidal like I'm killing a part of me that I held in my arms she was safe why did I ever let her go so I wonder sometimes if these silly old rhymes could ever replace the joy in the face of the first soul that came from me the first time I loved more than he and trembling fingers caressed a curl no longer breathing and yet I feel the tug from my insides every month and year the silent confidence that indeed she shall appear to me be free caress my kiss I've missed since the day' He took her away and I sit in silence assuming that my own violence has brought to me this curse you see for you never love until you love your own and you never regret the seed you've sown until it goes dreadfully wrong and you're left all alone trying to decipher a lover of fire who burnt your core into a meaningless whore searching to be complete from the rage that you see I will deny it no need to cry for it it does not exist just as she is dead and the time continues to something of a green hue earth water dirt love the same being in every one of us...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1242 (view)

~lost in thought or flight of fancy~ Posted: 11/13/2009 11:50:51 AM
I shouldn't be ashamed of the thoughts that flow through my mind indeed a few professors aren't much above me in time and I've always been an oddball so this quaint need really shouldn't bother me perhaps just lessons of old restricted boundaries you cannot cross teach you to act in a particular manner but time passes and people graduate really don't think I'd ever hate to grab a beer and perhaps finally understand whatever it was they were saying when I was lost in thoughts of sin...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 185 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/11/2009 4:00:51 PM
Entry for November 11, 2009 I got ahold of this feeling It's coming oer me you call me an addict but it's not reality I seek I'd rather forget the problems tuck them away use them as fuel to conquer someday the very demons swirling through my mind knowing I've got a test feeling deep inside that if I don't get something inside I will explode so this cigarette puffs smoke rings in the light it stinks you crave the smell on my neck my hands are dirty like money and greed the finest smell I've ever known that didn't bloom... And I will wallow and confuse remorse cannot follow this solitude for I need to release the pool balls didn't cut it why do I sit in this house expecting love to fall from the sky for when out in public, indeed I am too shy too shy to talk too shy to sing when it comes to shaking my ass that's an entirely different thing perhaps confidence in my body an unusually erect manner clenched jaw it's nothing personal my mind races constantly people think I write these things long thought out processes but hell, I type over 70 words per minute count them up, you can see I have very little in it But the relief I feel although nothing like the one I need from pecking and pounding these thoughts that I seek somehow fill the lonely house yet drain the stress from my mind if I write out every stupid idea then they will no longer clutter my mind I look back on it all and half of the time can't even remember why I wrote such a rhyme but indeed I do and then share them with you how silly...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 184 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/11/2009 3:48:32 PM
Heaven or Hell is a selfish man's fear Heaven or Hell ain't what it's about my dear and the moment you forgive whatever sin against you you think He did is the moment you will be relieved of course I know nothing of this pleasure indeed salvation is a far off treasure I just want some sex... :):():):):):):"):):):)P:I_)):):OKK)O:P_):):):)

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1020 (view)

reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 11/10/2009 5:42:28 AM
It is not my inside I am comparing to it's the outward ego that makes me come unglued and I wonder why I wonder when it's painfully clear that I'm in a slumber blind to everything else that I should be focused on getting stuck knee deep in water and stumbling over the rocks drowned in love obsession required to move yet what in the **** is a girl supposed to do?

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 182 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/9/2009 2:13:56 PM
The Being you speak of is not limited to spaces that float through the minds of people like me and you and before you criticize make sure you understand the healing powers felt within the gentle hands Of a Spirit that flows through everything I see a Spirit that in troubled times always sees fit to comfort me or at least provide me with the tools to melt away the pull of sin and pain Someone wasting away the gifts He has offered If He need be a man... Because I've lost my father it's easy for me to refer to him in that manner But He knows no gender or race and there's no special rule to gaining his manna Love is the Being and it flows through all if you are scared of it it's because your mind is too small to give to others with no personal gain to love unconditionally no matter what they try to say turn my cheek fail to see this fire I burnt was not a lesson learned but merely life and love of The Being

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1016 (view)

reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 11/8/2009 8:06:50 AM
I'm not so set in my pity that I cannot see I'm not really feeling sorry for myself I just want to be with him all the time he stays in my mind and I can't forget the taste of his kiss and it's nothing special on a physical level and yet I crave it all the time silly girls stuck in rhyme unable to see past go find a love that will last I just want him

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 180 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/8/2009 7:58:43 AM
I believe in Unicorns mythical creatures that guide me with a horn there are many in this world they've always been attracted to foolish-minded girls I follow them they lead me astray I run to them they push me away Unicorns have no need for another half to make them complete they just want the satisfaction of knowing that through their misdirection they fooled me into thinking the righteous path lay beneath their feet the golden pathway that make my heart skip a beat I follow them and I follow their horns Then hell hath no fury like a woman scorned and I am enslaved to the desire the ever-burning fire wishing I hadn't been born to chase these silly horns indeed God should've made me a unicorn...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 1014 (view)

reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 11/7/2009 10:14:35 PM
the barn owl is false comfort noise cannot distract from the aching feeling creeping up into my throat indeed, I'm in "the city" and there are no owls I have a refrigerator humming a faint song fleeting from a flat, blinking screen with no soul to feel this need I've created that could never be real So, I envy Rosie so set in her decision with the birds to keep her company it's easy to forget about him but when all you hear is the passing of cars the only elation is found at the bar and everyone in the world is not anything like you are it is frustrating beyond belief to consider the pain of putting to ease the feeling in my stomach that I know should not exist the feeling in my heart that makes me crave one more sweet kiss.............................. man, I'm such a sap mas tequila

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 63 (view)

Patsy Cline- Imagine That Posted: 11/7/2009 8:22:15 PM
Imagine me still lovin' you After all you've put me thru Well, I can't help it, I just do Imagine that, and that's not the half Imagine this, if you can I've stood more, more than I should stand But I'd still take you back again Imagine that, ain't that a laugh Can you believe I'd swallow my pride Well, yes, yes, I guess you can 'Cause you know you've always had my foolish heart Right in the palm of your hand So, for what it's worth to you It just don't matter what you might do 'Cause I'm still waitin' and lovin' you Imagine that, ain't that a laugh

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 132 (view)

roses are red.. Posted: 11/6/2009 10:33:39 PM
roses are red rather be dead then to have to succumb to this feeling of numb it's over we're done sure as hell hope you had some fun cuz you didn't get me off you think I wanna come back for more sweetheart if you're gonna do it go ahead, release this whore I will tromp on home too scared to assist me with my mission you nearly made me jerk and twist but then I relaxed got scared to release I looked at you straight in your eyes but you refused to see me instead, you thought you'd done something big but you hadn't hate to break it to ya I really don't mean to whig out on an ***hole only interested in getting his rocks off and leaving me to wallow in the sin alas, I will dream of the brown eyes biting into my neck the swirling mass of ecstasy leaving me a wreck causing me to think of things I shouldn't causing me to drive places I normally wouldn't I'm coming baby but not in your arms I'm coming baby now what little bit of harm would it do for you to love me like you want to admission is half of recovery admit your passions and swoon over me................................

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 127 (view)

roses are red.. Posted: 11/6/2009 4:54:00 PM
poems are great except when by fate you've no inspiration for it only lies with him and he's too far away for me to see every day even once a week is impossible so I weep and write shitty poems

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 125 (view)

roses are red.. Posted: 11/6/2009 4:15:53 PM
roses are red I love red but roses are not my favorite flower bluebonnets are they are blue but they grow eleven hundred miles away, in Texas...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 179 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/6/2009 9:31:27 AM
the flask indeed tends to warp things into beautiful images circling around thee wake up the next morning everything's a little fuzzy but your heart is aching and my back is sore must have had a good time but to me it's a bore rather find a flask of love not tainted with drinks of yesterday he likes to have me sober so that I can recall everything and when I remember his might or my shallow desperation I get excited craving his affection damn the long distance crush it's hell on my tires

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 177 (view)

Enslaved to the System Posted: 11/6/2009 6:04:02 AM
Let me nurse your wounds I don't want you to die you're bleeding badly now and it makes me cry I want to comfort your reality Don't want to be a sidestep I want to fall into the night Without your face in it Either take what you own Or leave me alone I've no time for these games Why do you make me feel this way? I'll fly away someday and you will see me wonder what it'd be like again to be inside these walls that knock on all doors walls that resemble a whore when you have me but always a lady when I'm free...

himynameisSarah

Joined: 5/27/2009

Msg: 314 (view)

The Moon Posted: 11/4/2009 9:45:34 AM
the shadow of the moon draped across his eyes I felt calm in the embrace of eyes shining no visible cue the snow saw everything

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