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Domestic Violence
Posted: 5/9/2008 12:51:45 PM | Ohhhh my! Llynass, your words reached me. I have seriously just been through a similar experience but to a lesser degree. I have a fabulous job, great kids, and have been a strong intelligent person all my life...BUT I am way too tolerant. I guess I have a tendency to tell myself that "everything will be ok" even when it won't.
My story: I met this man about 2 1/2 years ago. He was attentive and sweet and swept me off my feet. We fell in love. He is bipolar, but it was really never a problem. He had times he needed space, etc, but who doesn't? About 6 months into it he started calling me terrible names when we argued. Names I have never heard just thrown around. It was mind boggling to me. I told him I wouldn't live like that. He would beg for forgiveness. I eventually caved and we would continue on. He truly did not repeat for another year. Lately however he has lost it. He gave up drinking because he flips out with his meds/alcohol combined. I don't accept that as an excuse, but I guess allowing him in my life again kind of does. He ran out of meds a week ago, and flipped out last evening. I told him it was time to leave my house. I told him to pack. He ended up "trying to move me by my neck"...my description is he strangled me. I actually felt myself passing out. Oh...but of course he says I am being dramatic or that I was asking for it because I was blocking the door...etc. I am appalled. What I am so fearful of is that I will not follow through with making him leave. The police won't help..I've tried before. I am in a rural area and they do the dumbest things...so I need to take care of myself. I prefer not to just put him out on the curb without him having a place to stay, but it is not my job to worry about that. He called me screaming, then he called me apologetically. I took neither call. I wish I could turn off my voicemail.
This man has hurt me so badly, and I must be a freak because I still love him so much that I want to turn the clock back and convince him not to do this to us. Ugh. I find this sooo embarrassing. I don't know where to turn or who to talk to or how to get him to leave. What I do not want to happen is for it to be 6 months from now and he is still here. I am sooo happy when he is not with me. I feel like I am going crazy. | | | |
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