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leaking out around the patch... Posted: 11/26/2009 5:52:17 PM
what tales a moment tells in the glance over our shoulder seems more than just the tree we didn't see straining the obvious for a subtle trail grown colder spitting bark and teeth to memory's melody mammals never leave behind the dietrus of their changes we wear the bones of every where we've been growing selfish to selfless, arranged to rearranges we elevate a mistake by labeling it a sin guarantee a loss by swearing we can't win then bewail our depression when we wake to try again no wonder we can't get up

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Are vegans and PETA more moral and ethical than society? Posted: 8/26/2009 2:28:12 AM
No, and neither are people who disguise their own views by coming at a subject obliquely... whats moral about assault? does defending animals make you less of one? do you like your steak rare? humans are funny.. running around their planetary cage , flinging poo and forgetting to duck arguing over who has better hallucinations making it criminal to seek a few wearing funny wrappers and getting upset if anyone laughs in public we climb all over each other trying to prove superiority by making it to the top of the pile maybe you can feel better about what you put on your plate but lets not lose sight of the blindness of every fork and spoon in someone else's hand .. is this your big chance to leap ahead? keeping score isnt easy when we are all involved in different games its aggravating to strike out in soccer , score from a cop or fuel your being with the wrong protein... if all you know of morals and ethics can be found in your diet then controlling yourself should be as simple as shutting your own mouth or is the real thrill in controlling others?

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Older men, younger women, and death Posted: 8/19/2009 1:23:23 AM
Ten years ago, my father ( then 76, now 86) gave me some advice.. due to the late blooming, long lived nature of the males in our family, look for a woman 10-15 years younger than yourself.. (his wife is 16 years younger ) Dad is still working 6 days a week in his little business as well as taking care of an acre size yard and garden.. at 58, I work scheduled 16 hour shifts ..energy levels and longevity are parameters that have to be considered on an indiviual basis ( genetics and attention to overall health being the major factors) most women of my own age are simply not prepared to live at my pace. to say male death brings the inevitable end to a relationship between an older man and a younger woman denies a reality of life.. we are just learning what our real life span might be .. how those years can be spent depends in a large part on how we take care of ourselves along the way... while open hearts on 80 year olds are now common place , when i started in the lab in 1972 even fifty year olds were considered high risk.. Old isnt a fixed target...its a very individual state of being.... I wonder when the OP will begin to see himself in that light?

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Altrusim vs. Individualism Posted: 8/5/2009 10:24:56 PM
whatever nirvana man can imagine and strive for requires an understanding of our own nature..ignoring the salaries ( not just monetary) every position pays, leads to misunderstanding the real affects on the doer.. a policeman struggles with handling power in one on one confrontations, a politician seeks approval for exercising his own desire to rule...the struggle between inside out vs outside in control of both self and society is more than just a clash of belief systems and political parties.. its the external evidence of our desires to improve our situation while still feeling good about ourselves. I listen to every voice selling their own version of lets make a deal and know its necessary .. we are all competing for the same resources ..no system is ever going to resolve this "fairly"..all we can ask for is a playing field that is large enough to offer some space and level enough to give most a meaningful chance.. perfection isnt legislated , and Shangra La isnt an election away the struggle will be won or lost by and within each of us...

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Hypothetical dilemma for Vegans/PETA... Posted: 8/2/2009 6:38:47 PM
Isn't it great to have a choice.. to challenge yourself ..to take a stand and live with what it costs you..cows can't choose to graze or lions choose to eat kosher..we are such a fascinating mix of seekers and players with our food.. I guess whatever works to keep you going will always have a home somewhere.. even if its just in your fridge

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Is there a limit to what we can learn and understand ? Posted: 8/2/2009 6:30:09 PM
pushing at perceived walls requires expansions of perception to move.. the carrot stays at a distance but now we can see it better , smell it.. anticipate the moment time , effort and focus defines the limits for all we do.. as individuals and collectively as a species.. the balance between creation and destruction historically favors entropy eventually the juggler drops the ball

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Old and New Testament. The biggest scam ever. Posted: 7/30/2009 9:26:08 PM
not sure if that was intended to be an insult or a confession.. Since i have no idea what you have accomplished and mostly pleasant memories of ideas that became reality on more than one continent, I guess I'll just let whatever you meant, stand on its own

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Old and New Testament. The biggest scam ever. Posted: 7/30/2009 9:10:29 PM
Understanding to some small degree (a) being(s) capable of creating stars seems less of a fantasy than claiming to interpret whatever words the barely literate might have used to describe the messages received thru such an unequal interface..baud rate does matter.. I would like to pretend to know more than i do but every time Ive done so and then tried to actually invent or innovate , I have failed. It takes total focus without ego flavored, poorly disguised self stroking to achieve anything real. Why would winning an argument matter if no subsequent action was forthcoming We understand no more than we are capable of understanding..think for a moment that doesnt vary? Somehow in the muddled mess of everything we have ever written perhaps there is some truth.. maybe id rather find my own in places that inspire without inflaming I guess its more about where we are in the who we could be... damn baud rate..

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Altrusim vs. Individualism Posted: 7/29/2009 5:11:40 AM
The inner techniques we employ (as part of our grooming of a self esteem that is capable of continuing to grow) are only labeled when we see similar actions in others then suddenly examine a few of our own with the same detachment. Altruism is a description that has a positive push but without some reward ( be it only the reflected glory of climbing on the pedestal and celebrating the momentary deviating from our gene driven selfishness) it " ain't gonna happen" .. at some level the real laws of energy generation and consumption require at least a good feeling or else movement toward some yet unseen objective ( thats the kind that sometimes makes us shudder later) I will not argue against whatever makes it more pleasant to live close enough to occasionally see my neighbors and sometimes even converse.. but there are reasons why you have only a few really good friends.. understanding the roots of that and consciously selecting behaviours that sustain a mutually pleasant shared reality still is to your own benefit..pretending it isn't forms a part of the personal sleight of hand we all employ( see - self esteem- building and grooming)

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Cathartic Expression of Authentic Self Posted: 7/28/2009 10:08:44 PM
no one lied about it being easy , not that i believed the hostility of hands held against a growing realization the why has disappeared stolen by the sadness born of belief dying in sympathetic spasms time of death lost in lingering looks toward the door I chased a feeling once

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/////\\\\\ 6 Lines or Less //////\\\\\\ Posted: 7/28/2009 9:36:40 PM
staring from within the wall of bone ,a bowl, only place i can live life poured, then stirred me in ideation built from nouns of nonsense vanishing as they begin you swear its never been your plan ,explaining virtue in your sin but the rules in your game always change til you win not too much to lose ,never less, always more than you give..

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Selling your soul? Posted: 7/7/2009 8:35:36 PM
As the years flee by my eyes, i have learned to appreciate those people that try to have a positive impact on others.. I can see in my own friends, family and acquaintances examples of the differences in the accumulation of selfless vs selfish deeds.. i am not a religious person so the usual definitions of an individual's soul tends to find little traction..but i do refer to the sum total of their being as a soul.. just me being me with that in mind ..selling a lifetime of trying to have a positive impact would seem to be difficult.. who would buy that attitude without living it?

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Is posting a reply in a forum thread even worth the effort? Posted: 7/7/2009 8:01:16 PM
Inspiration to act is the most significant catalyst .. If a thought tossed toward your eyes triggers both an additional connection and the energy needed to reply .. then please share..we will all benefit.. I 'll gladly accept humor, sarcasm, thinly disguised negativity of every flavor as well as the obviously preferable positive triggerring gift from the gods that exemplifies the offerings of so many posters anything that doesnt dull the senses and lower the IQ... Now make me proud to be a part of it

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Is Brutally Honest Honest or Just Brutal? Posted: 5/6/2009 12:27:17 PM
I realize that people are opening themselves to a degree when asking a question about anything that contains a degree of personal vulnerability. In dealing with strangers its easy to be kind and keep the required distance by sticking to preprogrammed rote answers if thats all you are inspired to do. Its a bit tougher when any previous history is involved..thats when judgement gains a voice.. whether or not that voice becomes audible depends on factors too varied to detail.. but the outcome , whether or not judgement does drive your response, says more about you than anything you actually say. Those close to us depend on fair and reasonable feedback.. if we choose to forget our responsibilites in a relationship and blurt out our first impression..or use the opportunity to retaliate for whatever stick is currently ruling our rectum..then we can always claim to be brutally honest..while nursing whatever black eye we have earned.. Tact is experience based self control.. the best policy for me has always been truth or silence...I have more trouble restraining laughter than I do composing platitudes..so i tend to focus on that.. as far as how you look in that dress.. as long as you look at me longingly when clothing isnt a concern..then you are worth the time to listen to what you are really asking and respond in a way that fulfills us both.

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why do men always have to look at other women!! Posted: 4/29/2009 7:24:53 PM
I can't speak for anyone but me.. I have predator vision as most humans do..anything that moves draws my attention..its saved my life several times.. once i have defined whatever approaches i look away but im not going to stare right in front of me just because some one's ego can't handle it if i look away, then back.. That being said scoping out just the women is rude and i understand the objection to that any sane person might have.. I will look at what is moving towards me and look away once I get the picture.

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What is Owed? Posted: 4/29/2009 3:49:40 AM
without a sense of history its easy to get lost in fairy tale stories involving a constantly mutating fantasy starring yourself.. a common carryover is a blurred sense of what is a right and what is an opportunity.. Medical care isnt a right..its a service that needs to be paid for..education isnt a right..a safe place to live isnt a right..food ,clean air , water...all of these things are part of a cooperative effort .. but none are rights..we have to earn them..all we can reasonably hope to sustain is an opportunity for any of us to gain what we need and are willing to work for. Improving your quality of life is the best reward for working harder and smarter. the surplus created by hard work is reasonably shared with those physically unable to competetively function but lets all be clear..in the broadest division of members of our species..there are those willing to work for what they get and those wanting a free ride... Thats why a good work ethic has to be both taught to our children and the example set by their parents.. nothing is free ..except starvation and a premature death.

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collecting thoughts Posted: 4/29/2009 2:59:21 AM
Living Unaware a conga line of taking ..snakes behind you singing to a tune .. those notes you hear salty hands to stroke the wounds of others healing hope denied to those that fear nothing fills the void of your departure like relief we feel to finally see you go the mirror shows your beauty on the surface your actions, the disease you are below

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I have never been called delusional for my philosophy or weltanschauung. You? Posted: 4/27/2009 7:32:24 PM
A belief system is the prop we use to hold down that corner of our world that the "luck of chance" ,good or bad, keeps breaking loose and letting in the cold wind of change. The chicken -egg nature of religion , the problem - current best solution nature of whatever degree of atheism you can generate and sustain, ends up driving way to many decisions outside of the philosophical realm.. then again our reasons for doing things are so often flavored with self interest and stubborn self justification that the question of "who might have been the original cook" is just more one way to blur current business. Whatever you need to stay capable of functioning has to have a mechanism for generating energy to continue to build and maintain your activity loops. Its easy to question why we are capable of gestaltic activities in groups and alone but much harder to incorporate that "chance corner "of our tent into a black and white, static vision of a larger reality.. Could we have been made the way we are or just experiencing mindless complexities while exploring by exercising the physical constructs of our many billion plus cell vehicle.. I can't say for you but for me.. I plan live in a way that looking forward and backward.. I can enjoy the ride...

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Rainbow Crowned Maelstrom Posted: 4/21/2009 4:42:27 AM
if only what we want mattered more would we grow into the chance to see it become real or with glazed eyes ,pretend do we choose what we want or get tapped on the shoulder by whatever needs us falling into a hole happens chasing a tail isnt as pathetic as knowing its attached still the circle becomes smaller the faster you run familiar trails hold little danger deeper ruts without surprise only when we stop to think do we stumble maybe thats the reason

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Stephan Hawkings Theory of Everything Posted: 4/21/2009 4:29:33 AM
overpopulation by any one species isnt a matter of choice..its a matter of opportunity instead of wringing hands over what species is no longer on top of whatever set of temporary ecological conditions..maybe the energy would be put to better use in helping to get us off this mudball .... if you see life as a pyramidical ,ever more complex attempt to spread, than stop whining and apply your mind toward growing outward... or just pretend that you have the blueprint for some Garden of Eden that involves you and those like you somehow being part of one big happy Lion King of a movie... good luck on that little fantasy

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What is most important to talk or think about? Posted: 4/18/2009 8:44:24 AM
whatever needs doing within your reach to do.... Change on any scale is proportional to the size of the object being moved. I know a good lever..are you the fulcrum? focus has to be developed to the degree needed to do..unfortunately it makes us all a bit crazy as we obsess enough to succeed... and all the one issue wonders... a symphony indeed

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Torture: A specious argument? Posted: 4/18/2009 2:10:52 AM
its all about context..a cop smashing his foot down on a suspects hand seeking information about your missing child is a lot more likely to seem reasonable than if its your hand under the boot... Objections to codifying interrogation techniques that include using pain to extract information seem reasonable... thats an extreme that should remain illegal ..at least from this distance.. if it was my responsibility to process individuals that might have foreknowledge of terrorist activities I could see losing sight of lines and limits only if i was unable to trust the data gained by normal techniques .. and i allowed the real visuals of post attack misery to overwhelm me.. Perhaps the entire process deforms those involved.. it isnt a job that would attract the non violent and perhaps the leap from mental to physical methods occurs from frustration ..regardless its easier to understand than defend.. unless its your kid

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collecting thoughts Posted: 4/16/2009 11:23:32 AM
chaos never knew the reason or cared that first dam against the flow is best born of feeling for someone other than yourself else eroded by the lack of sharing nothing lasts

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Rainbow Crowned Maelstrom Posted: 4/16/2009 11:19:10 AM
what we give of what we are opens doors in those we touch sometimes we continue, sometimes we flee do we understand what moves our feet? no more than we understand anything else share with whom you will but realize..its your choice, your risk, your heart

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Cathartic Expression of Authentic Self Posted: 4/15/2009 11:26:13 PM
does mastering fear mean more than admitting that you still lie about fearing what might lie in wait behind the hands of the clock you pretend to ignore moving in lockstep to every tick in a stumbling gait think of all the wine you didn't have to drink but did hoping for more of the laughter that happens more in conversation about the moment like sighting from a ship that sailed so long ago no one remembers the shore it doesn't have to hurt to be real but still we seek the scar knowing what we do to ourselves first is called control must be why sharp objects never make good toys for those lost in the languid lassitude of an aimless soul

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Cathartic Expression of Authentic Self Posted: 4/13/2009 7:39:42 PM
most of all i miss the ground- - down feeling that the reason for commiting has been lost we must have mattered long enough to want more..once training touch to feel it was right Being alone gives you no way out, no one to blame or leave any throne you take stands above the deeper quiet clearly you hear those voices well enough..you know who they are gods or demons wrestling in the night the ones you listened to once ,that cling to the crevices and speak born of elemental energy ..immortality matching yours deeper than you are now, but not as far down as you have been thats where you left them, blind to change - deaf to sight you make your own voices.. have you heard enough to listen?

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Cathartic Expression of Authentic Self Posted: 4/12/2009 5:50:11 PM
once the ego has been sent packing and the small signs of life squashed suddenly we face the one we cannot escape , what is most real is revealed thats when the face we show is unlined by uncertainty, past truth torment as pure and fine as spirit can be , muse without mystery.. just you or me fine work hummingbird

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map from memory Posted: 4/9/2009 4:57:32 AM
more than any moment minds can mutate into memories more than everything you know runs false and true. part-planned path paved in knowing, more to touch than hands can hold patterns practiced then broken, real can only be from what we do.

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the war you cannot win Posted: 4/8/2009 5:39:02 PM
does the dulling of the mind age brings seem cruel to anyone too young to have ever noticed the joke is less funny when you feel it clawing what moves us to move beyond hopelessness to find a peace of balance to sustain upon shaky legs and marbled arms the illusion that the end will never come history is more than the cries of the dead its the living that still have a chance words saved from dying still linger reminders to us all to matter at least once

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I don't care what you write...... Posted: 4/8/2009 5:25:44 PM
do we need to lose ourself before becoming who we are ego strangled into silence by willing hands like so many holes in unfamiliar ground which to choose, if they all end up here wondering again

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My Friend, Girlfriend was borne with a Mr. Winkler! Posted: 4/3/2009 2:54:48 AM
how much we conform to a statistical norm at birth is an accident we cannot control.Much like who fathered or mothered us.. all we can do is adjust to the roll of the dice.. While i might suspect this particular story has been presented to us in a different form than it actually occured ( how unusual), all of the usual issues are stimulated and the usual suspects go after their enemies with tooth , claw and flying prepositions.. the tragedy of having to overcome a defect is real.. how people handle the stigma of not being perfect does vary with the degree of societal negativity toward the particular problem.. before the pro and anti trusters ruin yet another thread.. is it possible to simply put yourself in the position of having to recover from such an extreme problem , one that was addressed before your own choices were asked for or considered and understand that your degree of personal responsibility for the entire situation might lead to a desire to never mention it?.. I hope whatever truth lies in this thread somehow ends in the person that has had no choice in having to live with this.. getting some understanding from everyone.

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Fed up ... Posted: 4/2/2009 3:20:57 AM
Am i the only one that reads some of these threads and wonders if the OP is consciously trying to manipulate by playing "opposites" ( you know ..I can't , I won't , I wouldn't , I shouldn't..but maybe Im fishing for someone interested in changing my mind) or perhaps the Op is being sincere and and thinks a "Kick Me" sign is too subtle. Either way, usually its a comment made by not commenting but i guess I am not immune to reaching thru the bars and sharing something..... now the only mystery is which side of the bars.. we are on

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Requesting for DNA testing of child! Prudent or Offensive? Grounds for Divorce? Posted: 4/1/2009 1:49:29 AM
I don't believe i am alone in at least once asking myself if I am the father of my children. That isnt insecurity, its the reality of seeing deception and deceit poisoning the atmosphere from the selfishness we all battle needing only one act to succeed in altering our lives. Men that do not respect the sanctity of marriage are even more suspicious when the child involved is their own, at least legally. Granted a woman's lack of wondering is the source of so much of the feelings that move so many to respond to this thread in such a self righteous manner. Those things i don't have to question about myself certainly inspire a more strident ,more confident, more determined response when someone does challenge... What happens when the science of reproduction advances to the point where a woman can have a fertilized ova implanted without her waking knowledge? Lets revisit this question again and see how these very same people..sing a different tune To claim that our reactions are not gender based in many instances is naive The question exists more for men because biologically it has only been valid for men, our question..our decision to choose to believe.. Ladies, you are playing on our side of the fence.. your demands for trust pale next to our lack of choice in having to..

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Self-Fulfilling Outcomes Posted: 3/29/2009 10:47:41 PM
So much of what is written here seems to share a similar inspiration with whatever causes people to poke a wild animal with a stick just to see what happens next. While it might be personally satisfying to build a discussion around your own situation , those responders that find only fault in every scenario will feast on your inadequacies real and imagined. Whether that qualifies as a mis-perceived aspect of your being is difficult to define within the two dimensional limitations of a forum .. Im still trying to grasp if your intention was to get people to read your profile or if you honestly were seeking a discussion..perhaps you succeeded in doing both.

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Sigh… my hero / what the hell was he thinking? Posted: 3/28/2009 10:39:34 PM
While i am glad that some have never experienced having to defend your person, those of us that grew up in places where conflict is endemic have to develop a workable system of behaviours that include both verbal and physical responses To me, dating someone means that a degree of responsibility exists for that person's well being. I react accordingly..physical threat eliciting a physical response Since I tend to respond to physical attack by losing every inhibition against doing permanent damage to others , i have to wait for a definitive action to occur ..that pattern keeps me out of court and with a clean arrest record. Though admittedly my hands are somewhat bent in places I take no pleasure in physical confrontations.. the residue from severe adrenal reaction does not bring enough endorphins to last thru the healing process. There are times when jump shifting responses is the only way to alter circumstances in your favor..especially when the numbers are against you. That isnt alpha male..thats self preservation built on experience.

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Hope of Her Love Posted: 3/27/2009 9:02:04 PM
alas my friend, there is no cure for hope the day brings with it a chance for more we spend time wasting choices til it seems safe to swear only one is left, Loki laughs as the dawn makes liars of us all why else would just asking ourself "why" fill our plate? the curse of curiousity science of sacrifice ,will of willingness painting bruises on our spirits masticating madness while we fall over

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cookie jar: Posted: 3/27/2009 8:57:33 PM
illumination more than light , nourishment over food to leap from act to justify, the path from shall to should understanding shows the blocks we stack , a way to build a dream to see the larger in the small , racing rivers from a stream back and forth a gaze will go expanding to a view but i never saw it all til i found you

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~ In 6 Lines or Less ~ Posted: 3/25/2009 10:44:19 PM
metaphors metastisize, inner eye is blinded mangling every memory before we are reminded dialog of desperation, whispered in our ear voices voting to retreat, faster toward the rear once began it never ends, since proud to pitiful is the lie that nothing will be as sweet as the silence past goodbye

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cookie jar: Posted: 3/24/2009 9:42:41 PM
forming a fate while crafting a life an accident to most bouncing from the barriers parasite without a host we need the sound of other's pain to know we aren't alone we cut ourselves to gain control still living lives that others own you get the chance to make your mark upon some wall somewhere waste it chasing fun and highs til nothing matters and no one cares

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Rainbow Crowned Maelstrom Posted: 3/24/2009 9:24:34 PM
it isnt paranoid to know that once you rise a little above become obvious to the usually oblivious suddenly you make that blip on radar watched by those allergic to growth that doesnt include dogma fungus on a mold , decay upon a corpse dead from the neck up and the waist down spinal twitches for spineless reasons they knock on your door

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Abstract Rhythms Posted: 3/24/2009 9:16:29 PM
offering nothing still means you have to notice just how little you were moved to give isn't the attention worth the knowing shrinking stakes til losing lets you live I could open one eye long enough to make it even money i have lied when i said i can't see how we could ever be more than just enough to say we tried memories shuffle truths til decks aren't deadly to the story of ourself that we believe less than all we can will only end in a race to see who is the first to leave

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free write with reason Posted: 3/24/2009 9:03:31 PM
God has never spoken to me , he knows i can read words on paper give you time to roll them around til you taste the meaning from out of our heads pop so many bizarre beauties ideation divine to suicidal , finding hats for heads we lost gestalt never survives reverse engineering maybe thats where we lost God when we looked back ..once too often a collision of particles .. too small to survive alone too fast to see

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Did use of psychadelic drugs spark long-term benefits to your mind, thinking and logic? Posted: 3/24/2009 1:43:41 AM
As previously noted , for those lacking in experience your input in this area cannot fail to be contaminated by the decision to abstain and continue to do so. I think knowing in advance that you have a negative attitude toward something as powerful as psychedelics makes it absolutely right that you refrain from ever swallowing or inhaling anything that has the power to bypass your consciousness. Good decision. i was a musician in the late 60's so I ate enough LSD to blow open every door and window in my head. I sampled and swallowed mushrooms , peyote buttons and many forms of mescaline.. synthetic combinations like MDA that predated Ecstasy and melted the pants off everyone lucky enough to benefit from a careful chemist.. I never had a bad trip..ever.. would i recommend it to anyone? Nope its illegal and dangerous due not to just the vagaries of the chemistry but to how the rules can ruin anyone that disregards them. Personally I faced every demon my upbringing left in my noggin and dismantled every dragon in my psyche.. I was left able to laugh at my own demise and feel comfortable with damn near anything without losing sight of honest self respect and an awareness of the rights and reality of others. I gained insight into every religion i had previously studied and brought back from my journeys tools to use that i still employ today. I write and read and listen and learn so yes i feel blessed to know what controlling my own random noise filters can do for my problem solving contributions and my own self awareness. Would i have been able to learn and successfully employ Zen awareness and Tantric physical control without psychedelics? Hard to say ..you can't unring a bell.. Certainly i believe i gained from the experiences .. but we may all come to the same crossroads and not have the same choice... who you are means everything to you

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What do you want to do? I don't know, what about you? Posted: 3/24/2009 12:37:40 AM
Reactions to the initial acceptance does involve the engagement of brain past the power of the pic.. do we demo our own inclinations, display a test of will or respond to an aversion for passive aggressive personnas ? Perhaps where we put the gates in our self-protective walls should depend on both our past experiences as well as our innate strengths and weaknesses in reading others.. Some like to challenge at the beginning then gradually reduce the level of difficulty, others open wide the first gate then make each successive level more demanding .. I see the word and countersign , hear the call of both scarred and scared.. some say its just a date, others a date to remember.. if there is any there , there.. does the surroundings and circumstances form anything more than part of a fondly retold story? Respect has to be the guide and the glue.... anything else is pretty ribbons around a knot we have yet to unravel

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\\\\\ 6 Lines or Less ////// Posted: 3/19/2009 9:30:40 PM
narrow band of visual, light against your eye the universe thru such a tiny hole fence against our face we try digesting meanings'marrow spins a soul questions drive us down where unknowns only lie to choose to span the gap or fill the hole

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Abstract Rhythms Posted: 3/19/2009 9:12:13 PM
something i felt before and what you wrote jarred loose a flashback Easy for an Apple active comes in pro or re , a choice that will decide how long it takes to realize its real learning to listen to what we see, while ridden or taking the ride the push of thought, the pull of how you feel as the box of being swells and shrinks, with only you inside trading strokes and scars in a demon's deal

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Anyone for some Sartre? Posted: 3/18/2009 6:55:55 AM
Scorpio ..this is just a general rant and not directed specifically toward you..I appreciate the time you take to share your well reasoned opinions.. the dry detail of the written word causes more irritation online than obvious intent. this seems to be doubly true regarding responses to our own offerings. While opening ourselves to meaning we are also vulnerable to attack. It doesn't help that every individual's ego is riding the shoulder and takes over the discussion at the first hint of conflict. This is something we all have to fight if we are to gain the degree of insight that the catalytic content should endenger. I realize that conflict triggers the adrenaline and causes all of us to become more engaged..but it also brings out the worst of our bad habits and leaves logic and good intentions to gasp for some space. sorry for the interruption..i was just sharing an internal caution i continue to repeat..

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Msg: 500 (view)

Rainbow Crowned Maelstrom Posted: 3/18/2009 12:14:12 AM
I can be happy with one thing..if i focus doesn't have to be rich in possibilities just worthy of the time insight comes thru open doors windows full of light paths become ladders over walls for a better look at tomorrow is anything more addicting than limiting safety seems to shout a promise worth almost anything trading fear never gets a bargain you give it away with your eyes losing the freedom to choose it all a track of smaller circles no wonder blinders sell best not to think about a new deal

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Msg: 2537 (view)

/////\\\\\ 6 Lines or Less //////\\\\\\ Posted: 3/18/2009 12:02:29 AM
if the element of inspiration isnt on the table , is there hope for more than motion does the reaching out end in a grasping hand , full of memories of what we made before sometimes so close to living on , now a rock on a chain Houdini couldn't evade twisting ,turning ,toes and fingers flaying away ,we drown another chance .. escaping just in time..to try again

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Msg: 97 (view)

Can a man truly love you if he wants to see you with another man? Posted: 3/16/2009 10:34:40 PM
Each of us has a journey we take and each of us travels in a different way. So much of what we gain from living has to do with building a set of activity patterns that bring the maximum in movement with the least residual negativity. Some of us lose the battle and waste our reason justifying past actions, others are paralysed by their mistakes and close down to new experiences. Life is never either or..its a loop of action and reaction that we either learn to climb or simply accept the sound of the wheel slapping our souls and sapping our will. If we understand that the maximum energy we can generate as a couple requires each person to reach for a greater personal understanding , then we also have to accept that everyone is at a different place on the course.. so expecting others to see what you see isn't reasonable. What looks right to you with your scars and triumphs looks insane to those ahead or behind you.. Would i want to watch someone i truely treasured share herself with someone else? No way..it would rip me apart..but what if all i knew and shared was aspects that made the idea seem attractive..what if circumstance had made my experience a different texture.. Do we recommend to others what feels wrong to us? or not defend what we have already done by seconding the motion?.. If all you need is what can be shared on a level that allows several people to be involved.. then what you gain from what you do will be similarly divided.. If thats enough..then you answer your own question

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