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mrobbnc2000

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Seeking Advise, Comments or Suggestions Warning! LONG READING Posted: 1/13/2007 6:31:22 PM
I could use some practical advice, or at least some useful ideas, words of warning,Further info to cover any bases that perhaps I haven't thought of yet, and most certainly I need some kind and compassionate words of encouragment. I spent hours writing this, much of it is just free flowing inner thoughts, but I figure if I am going to seek advice, go ahead and spill out everything thats going through my head. Be forwarned my friends, some of this is graphic, some humorous, some incredibly stupid, but hey, such is my life! Where to begin? As it is an unavoidable fact that this is going to be a very lengthy posting, if I am going to paint you a complete picture, so that you may fully comprehend how I came to be where I now find myself. God, I could say a million or more words just so that you could even begin to understand the events that lead to forming my whole current situation, but lets stick with the simple facts that are most relevant for now. I was married for 15 years, to somebody that I loved, even more than life itself, it seemed, and certainly more than I ever loved myself, which is not a good thing indeed, for that self-sacrificing and self destructive form of love has indeed led me into complete ruin. That of course, is my own fault, for I allowed myself to be hurt, by this unimaginable and inhumane creature, over, and over, and over, again. Without going into more lengthy juicy details than need be, as for one reason, I am not here writing this just to whine, and another reason is that some of those unspeakable details are too hurtful and disgraceful. So much so that I find myself, intentionally trying to find a way of forgetting them, and I try to convince myself that some of those events never really occured, just to keep my sense of self-worth, for my pride went missing long ago. Haha. Of course, I also supress the many foul memories just to keep from actively seeking her out, and butchering her worthless carcass with a dull spoon and my bare hands. Putting it so VERY mildly, I had been in a nightmarishly lengthy, 15 year agony of non-stop marital infidelity, and during that time I have been put through many forms of instability and as a result of being this constant victim of mental and emotional abuse at the hands of my former wife, as it has been made clear to me now that she quite simply never so much as cared about my very existance, and surely never did she love me, she loved my money, perhaps, but never ME, not even as a human being,let alone as a husband, and she did just about everything she could to seek out and to find somebody, ANYBODY, as it would seem, to leave me for, and finally, after 15 years, she found someone, who didn't kick her to the curb after getting a piece, as was her normal catch of the day, Only for her to come crawling home to me, for yes, I was always there with open arms...Time after Time. Yeah, yeah, I am a sucker in some respects. That beginning of the end, was nearly three years ago, in June of 2004. Now if my concern was over just my broken heart, well that wouldn't draw me to writing here, for I certainly don't need advice to move on from there, although maybe I am just being arrogent to not ask, after all, I am still alone now aren't I? Haha. Well, I may no longer have my own half million dollar business, and I may not be the sexiest guy around, but I certainly don't lack self confidence, and I am certain of who I am, and of what I have to offer, should I feel like offering myself to somebody at some point down the road. I must say that, in a certain way, I tend to carry my burdens with a form of pride. I, by my nature, would gladly sacrifice myself, once again, for somebody that I love. Of course, I am also not completely stupid, not anymore, at any rate, and I refuse to reach out and grab onto just anybody, although, sometimes it's very tough, as I just can't keep my sense of purpose, let alone any form of stability in my lifestyle, not while feeling the weight of the loneliness, pain, and misery, as I am now feeling, and have been unable to shake off even long enough to breath at times. It also seems that some universal and unseen power, has beset itself against me, at least for the past 10 years or so, anyways. My ex was always a huge demoralizing and destabilizing factor in my life, and she was since the day we met, until she the day she left, but even with her long gone, muiltitudes of unseen trival events, combine to plauge me with many numerous, insignifigant, and unending problems, which when they are occasional and alone, are not anything of real concern, but when combined into becoming much larger unavoidable problems, which I am forced to ignore, more often than I should, as I am in no condition to deal with the day to day issues, not while I am being crushed under the weight of more difficult situations which need to be faced. Stuck in this vicious cycle, is where I find myself, and it is where I will remain until I can bring myself to face my ex and take back what's rightfully mine. I am being pushed towards taking some form of action, while combatting feelings of rage and bitterness strong enough to have physical effects that are able to prevent me from getting myself out of my bed on more than a few days in recent weeks. I am most thankful that God has blessed me with certain, invaluable, talents, one of which is a sharp mind, when not dulled by dispassion, and it is One that is a virtual record database of current prices, desirability values, and past and potential future market trends, covering a wide number of different hobbies,ranging from vintage model trains, and other related hobbies, to knowing where to obtain free reef aquarium livestock locally to resell when a few grand is needed in a hurry. I also and knowledgable in many different kinds of collectibles, antiques, vintage automobiles, and related parts, and supplies, and for the past 10 years I have made a living, by simply buying and re-selling on Ebay. I used to own a full line aquarium oriented pet store, and I had at one point in my life, a half million dollars in store inventory and equipment,which I had built from the ground up, but Hurricane Floyd wiped it out in Sept of 1999, and also managed to bankrupt my entire family in the process. Everything I owned, all gone in one nightmare of a day, of course, it was the loss of the store, and the BMW I am sure, which sped along the eventual disappearance of my wife, as I am sure you can imagine. I am not going to go into every loss I have faced, nor every obstacle which has befallen my path here lately, but let me make note that as of now, I am living out of a suitcase, although I have a house full of belongings in deep storage, and I am currently staying with old friends, and occassionally, with what remains of my family, my mother and one brother, as the rest are dead. After my wife left, I abandoned our household belongings, as I couldn't bear the bad memories, and I then drifted around from place to place for a few months. I would open or reopen an old Ebay account, run it for a few weeks, and walk away from that once I got a grand or two, in my pocket, or until I would get towards feeling too depressed to work at it anymore. Of course, my buyers were always taken care of, although I admit I have screwed Ebay, on selling fees, on a few occasions. No, I don't feel guilty about it,either. Ebay deserves it, and if I could take them for a few million today, I would do so, without remorse, and again, without going into the details, as it would take me quite a while, I can say, that even the preacher at my former church, who knows all my past dealings with Ebay, even he agrees that Ebay deserves what I little I took from them, and they owe me that much, and a whole lot more, for all they have done to trouble me in the 10 years I have used them, Honestly, I have a very winnable legal case against them once again this year, if I had the emotional fortitude, to pick up the fight with them again, albiet, I am being forced into doing just that, as, at this very moment, they are still holding money of mine in a frozen Paypal account after Paypal place a freeze on over $4 grand this past year, an action which is quite common behavior for them, whenever you start making any real sums of money, in a short time frame, as I often do, I opened an account this past year, and it was opened for a single purpose, to raise some fast money for me to use to hire a lawyer, to handle the issue, that I am now here seeking some advice and perhaps some friendly support over, as thanks to Ebay/Paypal, with that timely account seizure, just days before I was to withdrawl those funds and start a civil action to resolve my lifes main problem, I was unable to get the paperwork started, within the deadline required to file the action in this juristiction, although, I realize that I haven't yet mentioned, what the action was for, but I am sure you have seen it coming already. For when my wife vanished on me,(which she has done twice in the past three years, as you are about to read) she took from me, the only source of joy this life has yet brought to me, and the real cause of why I ever allowed her to abuse me for so many years. Yeah, you guessed it, what most of us will do stupid things to protect, or to do what we think will be in the best interest of, our kids, and by the way, we have 7 of them. Six girls and one boy (the youngest, whom I have seen only once for just two days, since he was a few weeks old), thier ages are nearly 3 up to 15, and the inhuman ** stole them from me in a vile manner this last time, taking them under the guise of trying to get back with me on christmas eve of last year, and even now still refuses me any sort of access or contact, even by phone or emails. In fact, my oldest daughter used to email me, secretly on occasion, but when she asked me to send her some of her things, such as her eye glasses, and some money to pay for some copy machine fees for her poetry writings, which I also had on my hard drive, and had forwarded to her, one page at a time, and she had told me her mom said she would be grounded for a month if is she was caught talking to me whatsoever, and so I was told to send her stuff, and the money to the public library care of the librarian she had befriended, just so her mom wouldn't see it, and quite likely, so I wouldn't get thier new home address. and I assume that she was discovered, from the fact that I sent her eye glasses which I am sure didn't remain hidden for very long, for I havenn't heard back since, but for one email from her in the past 6 months, and it was an email, which made no sense to me whatsoever, as I haven't spoken to anybody down there at all in the 3 or 4 months prior,although I was in New Orleans, just a few days before i got the email, and although I made no direct contact with them, they knew I was there, for I had spoken with the usless police dept, and I am sure the police contacted them, after I left the area, as I will outline further later on, but I had also just sent her an email the day i was in New Orleans, that said "Missi, I was in New Orleans earlier today, and will be in Mississippi tonight, contact me if you get this in time I love you, Dad" the reply from her, which i got a few days later,she said to me "Listen, you sadistic ba-stard! All you talk of is killing people and bloodbaths, and I hate that kind of talk, nevermind asking who told me what, but I am not listening to you anymore, why dont you be honest with me and let me know the truth. That is the fact that you don't want us in your life and you don't love us, but you don't want mom to have us either, just to be spiteful to her because your an as$hole" I am certain it was Missi, who wrote it, as she always makes certain spelling errors and other mistakes on certain things, but i wonder what her mom told her to make her turn on me? I can't get her to reply to me at all anymore, and it's been months. I guess I need to fill you in on a little more to the story before I go any more out in left field, When the cheating whore left me, she told my brothers girlfriend, that she was just trying to get me to get off my lazy ass and out of my depression, and for me, to start to rebuild a real life for us again, and she was just "teaching me a lesson" however, 3 weeks after she left, which at the time she first left in 04, we were living in Eastern NC, and she fled, after draining the bank account, as well as ripping off around $1000 from my ebay customers, of the funds they had sent to ship my sold auctions, as well as by "borrowing" a grand, in my name from my stepdad, and taking our car when she fled down to New Orleans, to live with her drug addicted parents, of course I can't say much too much as I have done every drug known to man in my younger years, and still do, on rare occasions, more often now, as I sure you can sympathize with me as to why, but these disgraceful people, are complete and total crack addicts, and they are indeed VERY immoral, and disgusting in thier lifestyle choices, and with the example they are setting for, and thereby teaching, to my children, after all, my wife married me just to get away from them, or so she has told me, in the past. GO Figure. Back to the point, Three weeks after she left NC, I was talking to my third born daughter Madeline who was 8, and quietly she whispered to me, over the phone, Daddy, mommy just left the room so I gotta be quick, but Daddy...Uhh, I don't know how to say...Dad...Mom... is doing adultery on you...Mommy has a boyfriend, but I am not supposed to tell you, she said it's a secret, you aren't supposed to find out, please don't tell her I told you, she said I would be punished if I said anything to you". The next day when I called the whore, I told my wife that a "friend" of mine down there had called me, and told me what your up to...she quickly hung up the phone. Several days later my oldest daughter Melissa (13 at the time) called me secretly, and told me she is angry at her moms behavior, and that she, and my next two oldest daughters Alexia (9) and Madeline (8) wanted to come live with me, and a few days later apparently after Missi had made a scene about it to my wife, my wife got on the phone and told me, in quite an anger filled tone, to come get the "brats" as she called them. I told her that if I come down there, there will be severe violence, as I am very likely to kill them both on sight, as it would be my pleasure, and I reminded her that the threat is not going to be taken back, and is by no means hollow, not after all I have suffered, at her vile hands, for I have earned the right to do to them both, exactly as I please, and to me, thier lives are mine to end, at will, and I reminded her of what I had told her many times before, if your not in love with me, tell me to my face, leave me, and go and live alone, for a while at least,and figure out what the problems are in your life, share my kids with me, on my terms, and NEVER EVER again let me awake to an empty quiet house, and an empty bank account, while you publicly humilate me and live in a disgraceful manner, particularly in front of the kids, as she so often does, for I am, and always was, the faithful partner, and I am not seeking to do evil, as you seem hell bent to do, show me, for just once, that you did your best to try, show me you are actually human under all that filth and sin, and that you may actually deserve the life God gave you, by showing even a most basic form of human civility in your dealings with me, by simply showing a hint of mercy and help me maintain some of my former dignity, for she knows, above anybody else, that my love and my mercy are indeed greater, far greater, than my hate, bitterness and anger, but if you keep on cheating on me, if you continue in these dispicable acts, which forever are embarrassing and throughly humilating to me, and driving me to actually wish I were dead, beating me to the ground at every attempt I make to stand up again, as you have done to me, time, time, and time, again, Then you should be prepaired, for a violent and untimely grievious end, at my hands. I will get more into why I said that, and how I feel about having said it to her, after I tell the rest of this story. Well, I suggested to her concerning an arrangment to pick up my daughters, that she call my mother herself, and ask her to come down and get the kids, I told her she would be wise not to call me, nor to speak to me again, however, I would return the kids, and exchange them for a few of the others, in six months, or a year, but that she had best never even think to come near me, I have never once hit her, nor have I struck any other person, male or female, in over 25 years, (and I am 35 now, so I was like 10 when last I was in a fist fight) but if I saw her today, I would most certainly start throwing punches, and I wouldn't want to see what remains of her when I am through, therefor I avoid the possibility of contact by staying several states away, although I may have to make a single time only exception to the strike on sight rule long enough to do what I am planning now. Anyways, I think you would agree with how I feel, after hearing most of this, of course, if taken as truthful, at face value, and you knew it to not be in any way exaggerated nor inflammatory in any way either, which believe me, it's not, and in fact I haven't and won't mention the worst of her transgressions so if anything I am holding back a flood gate of prior evils i have endured. Well, anyways, she actually called my mom, who, in turn, drove the 17+ hours from New Bern NC, to New Orleans the next day,driving some 1300 miles one way, however when she arrived, my wife went into hiding! With the kids! (I later learned that her boyfriend didn't think it was "wise" to allow the kids to leave with me! I assume he was afraid he would lose her, if she realized the consequences of splitting up the kids, that's my guess, anyways)I suppose I should add, at this point, that her boyfriend is like 58 years old, (she is 30) and the prick has lived with HER parents! For the past 10 years or so, as he is a crack head, and he buys the household drugs, that him, and her parents, smoke in exchange for paying rent, So for the next year it was Him and my wife, my seven kids, my wifes parents, and my wifes 2 younger sisters, all living in a run down 3 bedroom dump of a house! Of course, after Hurricane Katrina, I heard that my wife got a 10 grand FEMA grant, by lying about her being the renter in the home, and they are not living there, anymore, and when I try to call to find out where they live, I am told to go FUK myself. Well, back to the story, So in the summer of 04, my mom came back to NC, empty handed as the trip was a waste of time and money, and my wife refused to speak to me about it. Well, Finally In June of 2005, My mom and my step dad were on vacation, and were near New Orleans, and they called me to ask if they should try to get the girls once again. Well I said go ahead, give it a shot and I called, and spoke to my wifes mom, who hung up on me twice, before I said something so frightening in a 3 AM phone call, which made her listen up and hear me out completely, for once, in order to get her attension I had to be quick, and since it was 3 AM, I said "You Bit$H! I am in you M-Fing Backyard with a can of gas and a lighter, Your all gonna Burn Tonight!".....Well it did the trick, so I told her, "I was lying, but what I am about to say is no lie, nor is it a joke, and failure to pay close attension will result in a most certain act of violence against you, to which she actually replied "alright, alright, A$$hole, I am listening to you this time" I then told her that my mom would be by to pick up the three oldest girls, and for her to tell my wife to have them ready. I informed her that I no longer cared what her whore daughter did with her life, but I do care for my kids, and I am in enough pain to no longer care if I even lived or died, but all I wanted was to be with my kids, and if my kids weren't ready to go tomorrow than I will get in my car, my old 1984 Acura Legend, the one with no insurance, which is critical for the mission I would certainly carry out, of course, and I would arrive at thier home sometime in between 8 AM and 3 PM on a weekday during the next two weeks, while the kids were in school, and her mom was sleeping, as usual, from being high all that morning, while getting the kids dessed for school, and she would only become aware, that I had arrived, from the instant I slammed my car into the house at 115 or 120 MPH, and the microseconds before death occured from massive blunt trauma from impact as I would be certain that I entered through her bedroom wall, where I knew she would be sleeping. Of course that would be after a quick layover, while I stopped by her husband, and my wifes boyfriends,as well, job site, You know, just long enough to pump a few bullets from my MAK-90 into thier heads", I then asked, very politely, which day would my wife be more likely to be at home, Thursday? or Friday? For I most certainly wanted to kill 2 birds with one stone,if that were possible, when I implanted my uninsured car into her trash dump of a home." Yeah, it's pretty messed up that I am forced to say such things, just to not be hung up on! Mind you, with God as my witness, I have many many times, in fact almost every time, tried first to be very polite and rational, Well, that threat worked as my mom called to say she had picked up the girls, apparently my former mother-in-law was made just a tad bit nervous by my apparent mental imbalance, is the word my daughter said she used to describe me. Gee, I wonder why that may be? Perhaps because all my trys at being polite and nice, seem to get me told to go and perform various perverse sexual acts upon myself, so I have learned that a little fear, and insanity, are the only thing that even gets messages passed along in that home. How messed up is that? Well as soon as my kids arrived back in NC, I went to work on Ebay once again, and I pocketed $7000 in 32 days, and moved into a nice 3 bedroom rented home, and I bought all new furniture, and I had to buy the kids all new stuff too, My mom actually stopped at JC Pennys on the day she picked them up and she bought them something to wear and she had to throw away everything they had on, as it was that terrible, they had bookbags, with thier stuff which were infested with hundreds of**oaches, and she dumped them too. In all fairness, New Orleans is always overrun with roaches, and everybody has them, but not like my wifes family. My kids also had lice, which they used to always get whenever we were visiting there. Yeah, it really is that awful, I tell you, I visited her parents in 1992 and I tossed a pepsi can under the couch, believe me, that's an OK thing to do in that home, and, well, the last time I was there, in 2003, my can was STILL THERE! OK, back to the story, Well, I enrolled the kids in school here in NC, and started a new life for myself, and although, I wasn't happy, persay, I was doing OK, and I was highly successful by both prior and current bear-ability standards, and, with my kids at my side, life was somewhat tolerable and stable, at least. On Dec 10th of 2005, My birthday as it were, my wife called me, but I wouldn't talk to her, so, finally, I let my oldest, Melissa, speak with her,and Melissa told me that her mom had said, she told me her mom said that she had broken off her relationship, and that she realized she had done something evil, and wrong, and she then begged Melissa, to beg me, to forgive her, and to let her come back home to me. I told Melissa that if I thought that was the honest truth, yes, I would forgive and forget, but I didn't believe that, even for a second, I told my daughter, that her mom is being a deceitful liar. Before you all slam me, for saying such things to my daughter, this was after hearing my daughter go on and on, about the lengthy words my wife used to convince her of her honesty. As my daughter said in reply, Well Dad, If it isn't the truth, she didn't lie to you this time, she lied to me! She then begged me saying Daddy Please! Take the chance, do it for us kids! So our sisters and brother can get out of that rat nest and live with us! I will share my room with them! Please Daddy, Go and get them!...Well, what could I say to that? I drove down to New Orleans, without a drivers license, as I am suspended until this summer, thanks to my wife, (she failed to pay a ticket I gave her the money for, and lied about it, TWICE in three years. i found out when given a ticket for driving while revoked, and got a year suspension) I brought her, and the rest of the kids back to NC on December 22nd, then I went, and bought Christmas Gifts for everybody, the church bought tons of gifts, and tried to invite my wife to come back to church, and my wife was greeted with open arms in this small town where everybody knew what she had done, yet they tried to make her feel welcome, I also remember that night my 4th born Michaela (5) who hadn't seen me in a year and a half and who wouldn't leave my side, clinging to me and saying every five minutes "Daddy please promise me we won't ever be apart again, Daddy please!...My wife came in the room and sat in my lap, and said, Michaela, I promise you that your daddy and I, are staying together and we won't be apart again baby, and then she turned and to my face she told me that she felt so terrible and empty inside, so much so that she wished she were dead, I assumed it was in reference to what she had done to us, and to the kids, and I said to her that It is forgotten and Forgiven. However, on Christmas Eve I was to discover, her words were a reference, not to what had already been done, but to what was about to occur that very next day, For she then "borrowed" my moms car, supposedly it was to get some last minute Christmas Gifts, for me and my mother, so she went with the kids, stopped by to see my stepdad, and "borrowed" a few hundred bucks, in my name, of course, and then she finally took off, once again, for New Orleans with all 7 kids, as planned. The car was found by the State Police on Dec 27th, abandoned alongside I-20, near Birmingham Alabama, after having been vandalized, and looted of my moms purse, and other valuables. The keys were left in the ignition, and we aren't sure if that's where she left it, or if it was taken for a joyride. That is typical behavior for that Godforsaken creature, She had previously done the same kind of thing to me, when we were told my father was dying, and had but a few days, to maybe a week left, and she stole our kids then, too! By the way, my father spoke with her on the last day he called, told her he wanted to tell his only grandkids, and her goodbye, and he told her he loved her, and she said "we're on our way,Dad" and while I was out picking up our car from being serviced, that afternoon, she and her new boyfriend (not the one she is with now, as this was back in 1995) ripped off my bank account, and paid a complete stranger, to drive them, and the kids to New Orleans, from Salina, Kansas, which is where we lived, at the time, apparently, they had been planning this for two weeks, but they wanted to wait until I got paid, to take even more money, but this family emergency forced them to go this route, I later learned the guy they paid took them to, Dallas, Tx and robbed them, and beat them both up, and threw them out of the car, they spent several days in a homeless shelter, before she was able to contact her Dad, to come get them, meanwhile, I chased after her, hoping to get the kids, at least, and bring them to NC to see my dad, but when I arrived at her parents, I was greeted by the Gretna Police like a virtual Swat Team had been called abount my arrival!, yeah, like 20 cops, with guns drawn, and sniper rifles arriving within 1 minute of pulling in the drive! Apparently. i later learned, my wife had told her parents that I had beat her up, and tried to strangle her the night before! (My wife always made up such lies, in order to "justify" to her parents, her bringing another guy home) Well, I was interrogated for like the next 40 hours, on the whereabouts of my wife, and kids, as they assumed that I had murdered her, of course, having over 50 guns in my car didn't help me too much, but I never leave my gun collection, at home when I am gone. Too many people knew I had it ya know? Well, when she finally called, they let me loose, and the stupid pigs prevented me from getting my kids, which is something I do regret, as next time I am in that situation, cop or no cop, if they try to prevent me from getting some of my kids, when no court order of custody is in force, I am going to assault them,of course, after I give proper notice that they have no authority to intervene in such a situation, and I will leave it for a jury to answer, as in that case, the price was too high, not that it would have mattered, for I arrived in NC, 4 1/2 hours after my father had passed away. She came crawling back around 5 months or so later...on her knees, swearing before God Almighty, that she will never again leave my side, and may God strike her dead, if ever she does....As I said to you earlier, in that I do indeed feel, and so believe, that after all she has done, I certainly have earned the divine right to behave towards her and do to her, whatever I feel appropriate. I do indeed believe that to be true with all my heart. Of course, before you allow the thought to cross your mind, to say I am wrong, or that I am "mental" for feeling as such, Remember, Is she not still alive and unharmed today? My bible gives me that divine right: Leviticus 20 "If a man commits adultery with another man's wife—with the wife of his neighbor—both the adulterer and the adulteress must be put to death" Proverbs 2:16-19 and Proverbs 6:34,35 "for jealousy doth arouse a husband's fury, and he will show no mercy when he takes his righteous day of revenge. He will not accept any offer of compensation; he will refuse any offering or bribe, however great the offered comphensation may be. He will seek his due justice instead" The fact I have done nothing to her as yet, is simply that my forgivness and compassion are often very present traits in my life, and I am able to speak with unwavering, and firm adamance concerning my belief on that matter, for I am one who has always, in virtually every instance in my life, and certainly in every instance of any importance, been the one who has left all judgement to the Lord, but I can see the distinct possibility that I could be pushed too far, on this one and that is why I so prominently make mention of it in this letter. I have just simply forgiven her, for far too much, and by far too often, and if any further insult is added to my injuries in my present state, well, I know that I have it within me, to seek out what is just and right, consequences be damned. I do fear, that should but a slight few wrong words be said in my presence, I am going to lose it. Honestly, I Really am, deep down, Very afraid, of what I am capable of doing, where she is concerned, and I do feel that it's vital for me to be completely straight, and unabashedly honest, with you on that point, since I am seeking your advice and suggestions,so that you may know exactly how strong, and near my ropes frayed ends, that I am now feeling, all over this mess I am in. I will tell you what is in the works right now, and this action that I, my brother, and his girlfriend, are now planning, and we most certainly are going to carry out, as I know, I must act definitively now, or I will certainly risk losing my sanity. I already suffer panic and anxiety attacks daily over just the thoughts on what I should do, and I can tell you, panic attacks are NO fun, I went through them once or twice before in my life, when my dad died, and when I lost everything to Floyd, but I got over them in a matter of weeks, back then, as I am usually a very strong, and an arrogently willful, person.If you have any advice, or inside knowledge, which might benefit, me I pray you will enlighten me. what I am planning is a trip to New Orleans, and I intend to snatch a few of my kids, possibly from the school, but first, I need to verify which school they are enrolled in. I am going to go to the school they were in here in NC last school year, and ask where the records were sent to. I have a pretty good idea which school they are in, and the principal at the school here is aware of what is going on and sympathetic to me, and I am hoping I can have her contact the school that I suspect they are currently enrolled in, as I think is still the same one the records went to, if I am right, and ask if they are still there, giving the excuse that they found a record for one of them which was out of the folder, and they want to know where to forward it to. I believe my wife has the school set to notify her, if I try to inquire, or make contact, as the principal at the school they might be in is an old friend of my wifes family. If anybody has any ideas on covert methods of verification, I would welcome them. I also am curious to know what I might encounter, legal wise, in grabbing them from school property. taking into concideration, in the planning is such questions as, What might the laws in Louisana be in reguards to that, and if thier are some tricky, stupid laws i need to evade, like removing a child from school grounds without properly checking them out, through the front office, or without being on the authorized sign-out sheet, or anything on that subject, I may have missed. We are trying to outline the possible outcomes of whatever our next move may be beforehand, and to make preparations to deal with those potential snags. This task, for me, anyways, is difficult enough, in just summoning the inner strength to fight back, and to overcome the very painful feelings, and embittered emotions I carry each day. I want to act, and I am driven by rage and determination, and I feel for anybody who even attempts to try and stop me. If the police get in my path, they are going to have to subdue me, or shoot me, as I will not meekly back down to empty threats, as a friend of mine and I went to try and see my kids just a few months ago, as by chance, we were in New Orleans, on a business trip he made while I was living in Houston, Texas. Unfortunaltly, school was not in session, and so we passed by her parents house, nobody was home, so we thought we would go to the police station, and just see what they might tell us. I actually had one of those lying pigs tell me earlier this summer over the phone that he would help me, He was with the Gretna La, Police Dept, and his name was Officer L. Alvarez, whom I called out to my wifes parents for a "child welfare check" on Sept 6th 2006, after I tried to call just to speak to my kids, as two of them have thier birthdays on that day, so I knew they would be there. and they hung up on me so I called the law, and the officer arrived and I called again as harrassment is policy with me after a hangup, I even go as far as to use my computer, by setting the modem to dialup her parents home number, instead of the ISPs number, and have it redial them every 30 seconds...for days on end, sometimes. Isn't unlimited long distance grand? Anyways the officer answered the phone, and I told him politely and calmly the entire story from the beginning. Apparently he had already been told I am a nut, and some other BS, as he told me. Mr Robb give me your number, and I will call you back in 15 mins with some info for you. Before he hung up, i heard him tell her mother "I want to know exactly where that mans children are, and don't you dare lie to me again, or I will haul your ass to jail"....Well he called me, and told me the address they were supposedly living at,1103 Newton St in Algiers La, However, my friend and I saw that no such address exists, and of course, as the cop said, it was out of his juristiction, and he didn't know where it was, but he too believed they were still lying so he told me to come down, and contact him, and he would personally escort me and see that I got a few of my kids, as his ex wife did the same to him, and he wasn't one to tolerate that kind of behavior. Well, I tried to call him numerous times since then, and he won't return my calls, I asked to see him while my buddy and I were in New Orleans, he hasn't even got the guts to show his face to speak to me, for I was hoping to at least get him to give me a written statement that he was lied to, and his written word could document that I am being ignored and deprived of my parental rights. I am well aware the police are only concerned with keeping the peace, for today and they don't really care about right and wrong, what moral fortitude do you honestly expect from somebody who has chosen to become willful slaves to our immoral laws, which are written by complete intellectual morons who write them in accordance to the will of the highest briber? Anyways, what the Gretna PD had to say was that I needed to get this problem into the courts, and do it the proper way, Ha! Right, well as I told them, after I get my kids back to NC for 6 months, and have legal juristiction, in my home state again, I will do so, but if I attempt to file in LA, I stand a nearly nill chance of winning, due to the laws in that state which are based on Napoleonic Code, and favor the mother in virtually every instance from what I am told, but even if those facts are wrong, she would have a field day, in seeking continuances being issued, while I drive 1300 miles for nothing, I don't think so. Well, anyways my buddy was willing to help me should we, by chance, find my kids, but the police scared the crap out of him, saying things like, if you grab them she could file a kidnapping report and you would be the focus of an Amber Alert, and wind up in jail for criminal charges of assiting in a felony kidnapping, and they just repeatedly warned him, with threats of arrest, if he were to help me. Of course, I challenged those pricks, by asking them to cite a single violation of the law, in a situation where there has been no court intervention, and no restraining orders, or other legal activity? Of course, they couldn't, and in the end, it didn't matter, as we couldn't locate them, and time was very limited to begin with. Thankfully, I know who to avoid speaking with next time, and thankfully, i will be with somebody who is as arrogent as I am. I do give you my thanks, if you have read this, particularly, with it being as lengthy as it has become, but I needed to let it out, and I await the advice, and input of other people who might be sympathetic to my plight. I have forseen the myriad of possible fated ramifications to the events that may occur in choosing how to best proceed, and as you can plainly see, it's a very complex situation that I find myself to be in, for if it were simple one, I would have already resolved it, and moved ahead with my life. For nearly 3 years now, I have lived my life at a virtual standstill,barely making through each miserable day, for I have been very afraid, terrified actually, just to face this horrendously, and seemingly insurmountable problem before me, as the very real possibilities of further injustice being done to me, either by my actions, or by my inaction, are utterly impossible to accuratly forsee, let alone hope to prepair myself for. Yet, at this moment, I realize that there is nothing left that I still possess, not one single, tangable, material, or for that matter, immaterial, thing that I still hold on dearly to, nothing at all to make me so much as care, whether I continue to exist, and see another day go by, for I am certainly not living, at the moment, and slowly I am killing myself with the stress and burden, which I am, by my very nature, am forced to carry, as I find it very difficult to let go of someone I love, even when they are so evil, but I know I am not the only one, Thankfully, with me I suffer more for the sake of my kids, and for thier hopes, and dreams, than for my own loss. Yet to allow myself to fall this far down, until there is truely nothing left of what used to be my life, has been the worst disaster I have had to face thus far. I am also greatful to see that even when there is nothing left, there is always the hope of a finding a brighter future, somewhere on the other side. Of course, you may admonish me on the power of hope, but it's one thing to stand here, where I am now, and try to catch a fleeting glimpse of it, and it's quite another thing to reach the other side and actually grasp it! May God Bless You Michael

mrobbnc2000

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SINGLE AFTER 20YEARS AND IM DEVASTATED Posted: 12/17/2006 12:22:13 AM
Hey my friend. My wife did the same thing to me two years ago...she also took the kids...and we have 7 of them....six girls and one boy....my son was the youngest and I wanted a bot more than anything.....she left when he was 3 months old....and I have seen him for one day since then....and she has cut off all contact.....the pain never leaves you....it only gets worse each day...or at least its that way for me....I loved my wife, even though she was the most horrible creature I have ever known in my life ....now I spend most days wishing for death...and coming here reading the forums...taking comfort in knowing others are with me and being that I live in seclusion and work online i have literally no contact outside of my house....what contact i have on PoF is about the only comfort I have. How do you move on? Honestly I havent figured that one out myself...if you figure it out inform me! If you need somebody to talk to you are welcome to email me....I share your pain my friend....and you dont have to lie to me about being OK with her gone....as i know exactly what you are feeling, but of course women are trained to run away at people who mention anything about your ex, so we guys are forced to keep our mouths shut most of the time...particularly on a dating site...LOL. I dont know if you are feeling the same things I am, but deep down I still love my ex, although I have come to realize I dont love who she is and likely never did, but instead I still love her for what she is. The mother of my kids. I love her body (although its no longer the eye candy it once was thanks to me..hehe) but I despise her soul more than anything God ever created. I would be guessing you are feeling somewhat similar. I guess until now I never imagined you could love somebody you truely hate, let alone could I have ever imagined just how it feels to have such emotions.....I would rather die a thousand deaths than go through the things I have already suffered again....but let a woman I feel is worthy of me come along....I have finally come to know I could love again, but it has taken almost 2 years....and unfortunaltly I doubt I will ever find such a woman as I know for a fact I have already scared 3 of them off by discussing my situation and my feelings...Thank God I am able to laugh about it and move on as it was thier loss and not mine. If you come here to seek a new relationship I can tell you from being here over a year myself, it is very difficult to find women who arent afraid of being hurt, and are so paranoid they will read way too deep into what you say, and vanish long before getting to know you. I only wish I could convey to you women that not all the "warning signs" you seek to raise flags in your mind are true of every man. No two people are alike, and just because sometimes some of us guys speak a bit much about our exes who have hurt us, that does not mean you are setting yourself up to get hurt...as if you befriended me it is true I would have to mention my ex and my situation, and perhaps you would feel I am still "too attached" to her emotionally, but I too am very afraid of being hurt, and I feel the need to tell you where I have been and so I may mention my ex too much...but hey, for my entire adult life she was the limit of my relationship experiance, and I cant help but talk about it. Not that I am deeply disturbed by the rejections and am here to whine about it. I am only wishing to convey some advice you may use when you speak with other guys that if you like us initially, dig a little deeper before you let that flag make you break away...for with SOME of us guys...when we are hurting as deeply as this man and myself, we are most capable of loving another on levels far greater than when we are more happy and secure....am I alone in being that way?

mrobbnc2000

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What does sweet cheeks mean? Posted: 12/8/2006 10:11:00 PM
Here is the urban definition of the term: Taken from http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Sweet+cheeks 1. Sweet cheeks usually a name given by gang-banging jail inmates to tiny inmates made into their Bit-ches Big John calls Little Joe-Joe the cross-dressing faggot "sweet cheeks". Joe-Joe is such a Bi-tch! 2. Sweet cheeks kirsty ware has sweet cheeks (the lower ones) god that girl kirsty has some sweet cheeks ;) a way of saying: 1) Cutie 2) Man 3) I'm attracted to you When Migert met Jerin, he said "nice to meet you sweet cheeks! That site is a great site to bookmark.....as you never know when you will need a definition of a word or phrase the kids make up today....

mrobbnc2000

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Your Partner has..... Posted: 12/8/2006 9:57:18 PM
Wrap yourself in a bow and ribbons. That is the best advice you could be offered....... Or I could be a smarta$$ and say give em an STD........ Tis the gift that keeps on giving.....and hopefully it isnt one they will return to sender....haha

mrobbnc2000

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Torn Apart Posted: 12/8/2006 8:41:06 PM
Follow Jesiebunnies advice my dear.....you arent alone....

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i know, you all told me so, and now i'm crushed Posted: 12/8/2006 4:59:29 PM
I would agree with Vixen here....... He should know how you feel.....It should be obvious....... Or he is blind............and/or doesnt care............. yeah it has been a while..........my life is the same ole same ole.......... I am going back to NC on the 12th......Gotta file to get my kids.............

mrobbnc2000

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i know, you all told me so, and now i'm crushed Posted: 12/8/2006 4:28:22 PM
Well my dear, If he wont answer the phone....that in itself is a message.....isnt it? You know my story.....so you know I can emphatize with being eaten alive.... As they say, You dont know what ya got till its gone....................

mrobbnc2000

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Alive and in pain Vs. bored but secure Posted: 12/8/2006 2:48:17 PM
I would choose B....everytime! Again this question, being hypothetical and translated literally as absolute fact, it is the only postive choice. For person A will:"eventually hurt you" yet person B will:"push to continuously improve their relationship with you" If the only difference is that person A is "exciting, passionate, person that makes you feel alive. Someone you connect with on so many levels and share a high degree of chemistry. Satisfying sex, mentally stimulating, and treats you right" and IF person B is "willing to push to continuously improve their relationship with you", and even if they suck at it, certainly they could somewhat bridge the Gap in the effort, and if that wasnt enough to satisfy you in the knowledge they tried thier best to become a happy medium,then you are far too demanding and deserve the coming heartache. For you are certain from the start that person A "will certainly hurt you in the end"..... B is the only sane choice.....or be lonely......No Thanks. I may rather be alone than with the wrong one.....but person B can certainly be the right one for me.........

mrobbnc2000

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Whats your town/city famous for? Posted: 12/7/2006 7:20:00 PM
Well my hometown is New Bern NC, Famouse for the birthplace of Pepsi-Cola, and for the birthplace of Gabriel Rains, the civil war general who was also the inventor of the Landmine..... of course we are also known for meth labs, cheap high grade coke, crack hoes, great tasteing herb.....and other wonders of the modern world....hehe

mrobbnc2000

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Be caerful who you meet ! Posted: 12/7/2006 6:18:22 PM
she called me and told me that she was pregnant Oh My God Dude.....Do you think that: A) That she actually is... B) That its yours? c) That you're going to be haunted by this? I just got out my bugle.....shall I play "Taps"???

mrobbnc2000

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Just lookin for some advise. Posted: 12/7/2006 4:16:09 PM
My son is quite sexy in his shirt thank you. Wow...you have a cute son......I am so relieved to finally know I am not the father...as he looks nothing like me........hehe...

mrobbnc2000

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Is it good to wish on your ex as much hurt as they put you thru Posted: 12/7/2006 3:59:30 PM
Well I suppose I am to be the voice of opposition to this posting. I say Yes, in some instances. Of course I can read between the lines of what you are asking too, your question is really one of the morality in wishing the harm on your Ex, not a question of whether you should actually go out and seek vengence yourself..... Of course I would add it would depend on what you have been through....as that makes a major difference.... My ex walked out the door for another man 2 1/2 years ago.... Now if that was the limit of the harm...a simple case of she dont love me anymore, and now loves another..... I would say NO....for even to feel that way is a waste of effort and time.....as it doesnt heal the pain from such an experiance.....as you will eventually come around to accept that the above stated cause was the truth....could you stay with one you no longer loved?....Would that be fair?..... In my case my ex took all 7 of our children....vanished into the night...refuses to allow me to have ANY contact with my kids...although my oldest daughter used to email me...her last email 3 months ago said she now believes I no longer care about them...and her mom says I am evil and she will punish my children if she finds out they talk to me....and the list of horrors being done to me and my kids is one that brings me to complete rage....as i have tried to make peace...and it has been thrown in my face....and I am not even telling you 1/100th of the things this creature has done....to me...and worse off to my kids......and it might be simliar in situations of abuse and severe mistreatment in your case..... So yes...sometimes feeling vengeful for a while is a healthy thing....and you should not be made to feel you are evil for feeling that way...........If your heart says you have done no wrong...and the situation is just..........always a case by case situation.......and only you know the facts....only you can really make that call......... As for me......I have looked deep within myself.....I know I am right and am not guilty of anything to deserve the injustice I am being put through.......and i wish her all the pain and suffering this world can bestow upon her................and I can face my God without guilt for feeling so unforgiving...........but alas..........only I know the depth of my pain......and only I know all the facts..........

mrobbnc2000

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He says he cant love Posted: 12/4/2006 6:55:10 PM
"I can't love" is Guyspeak for "I can't love YOU". Yeah...there is truth in that line...... and yes you are being set up to be dropped like yesterdays news.......... I would run away as fast as I could....and NOT look back.........

mrobbnc2000

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Favorites List????? Posted: 12/4/2006 6:51:52 PM
I guess they are hoping that if you see them there you will contact them .. ?? Yep...I am sure this is true many times over....sometimes its because they cant make contact due to messenging restrictions too.........

mrobbnc2000

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How Do I Move On From This? Posted: 12/4/2006 2:50:29 PM
Tiffany...sounds to me like you need to move out of the area....why stay when your going to be treated that way?

mrobbnc2000

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why me Posted: 12/4/2006 2:48:57 PM
YW.....if you need to vent or just talk to somebody...I sent you an email...write me anytime you like....I will always respond within 24 hours.........

mrobbnc2000

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why me Posted: 12/4/2006 2:09:38 PM
I am so sorry that has happened to you my dear.....and to answer your question...yes you can find what you seek.....just contact someone like myself.....LOL

mrobbnc2000

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What is clingy? Posted: 11/29/2006 3:06:40 PM
If you want to do something by yourself they think it means you don't like them anymore and they get all upset. They call you fifteen times a day just to ask "whatcha doin'" "whatcha up to" "where are ya" "how ya doin". They have to be reassured no less than seventy thousands times a day that you do indeed enjoy their company, you find them attractive, and you like them. They think the idea of alone time is for suckers and anyone in a relationship should want to be with thier partner 24/7/365. I could go on and on. These are the guys I attract. Kill me now. Good answer....I have been curious as to what clingy is myself. I have been told i project a bit of clinginess myself....but mine is based on want...not need...and I am certainly not that extreme thank god.....

mrobbnc2000

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Settle anyone? Posted: 11/29/2006 2:55:44 PM
Yep, I sure did....look where it got me? Abandoned and alone after 14+ years..... Would I do it again? Hell No!

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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christmas gift Posted: 11/29/2006 2:39:11 PM
just wrap yourself up in a bow.....you can give no better gift.....Hehe

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Help pls. cant figure out the right path Posted: 11/29/2006 2:35:18 PM
OP, surely one of them stands out more than the other in your mind? Yep...I am sure this is a fact....and I would be willing to bet its the guy out of the 16 year marriage....(a guess, of course) but he does seem to be the better choice....What you are feeling is natural...I disagree with those who posted you arent ready...no offense to you all, but I am not one who enjoys the single life....and i am not one who feels a child should be raised in a single parent household....not if it doesnt have to be....and not if it isn't a case of "settling for less than you deserve" No two human beings are the same...that is a fact, I for one have been alone two years...yet I was ready to commit to another LTR the week my ex walked out on me....my state of emotional readiness hasnt changed a bit...I am not one who understands the concept of "rebounding" for example...I know what it is...but I am not one to get involved with somebody i dont really want from my emotional weakness at the time...I am not trying to change the subject, but to illustrate that the psycology of each individual person follows no set pattern. Is the OP ready?...Only she knows that...but I would say yes indeed....but she is stuck caring for two decent men...and she is in fact going to take our words to heart....and choose one of them...and I dont blame her a bit! Good Luck OP!

mrobbnc2000

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Auction Sites Posted: 11/29/2006 2:12:08 PM
are you looking to buy or sell?......and if so what kind of items?

mrobbnc2000

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Thinking of a deceased lover/boy/girlfriend Posted: 11/29/2006 2:10:24 PM
I am truely sorry for all the grief you all have suffered from your losses.... As for me?.....I only wish my ex was deceased. hehe

mrobbnc2000

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Any tips on how to stop your ex coming into your thoughts! Posted: 11/27/2006 11:40:26 PM
Yeah....major sleeping pills.....I know how you are feeling...and I literally have to knock myself out each and every night....of course its my children I miss so badly, and they are why i cant get over my past relationship completely.... being alone is NOT good for me, although thats what everybody on here advises one to do after a break up, perhaps it works for them, but not for me, I need companionship and the love of another to completely get over it and move on, but I have no choice in the matter....and yeah the nights are impossible to bare......even after 2+ years...it just doesnt get easier....it grows harder...and I grow colder and more bitter every day....but what can you do?....I guess thats the eternal question.

mrobbnc2000

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dating men that are hunters Posted: 11/27/2006 11:18:41 PM
Just as long as he isnt out MILF hunting it should be ok.....hehe

mrobbnc2000

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taping phone calls in ontario. Legal? Posted: 11/27/2006 10:24:08 PM
Everything is Always legal If you dont get caught anyways....hehe

mrobbnc2000

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Best things to invest in. Posted: 11/27/2006 9:45:22 PM
If i told you my ideas for investing..... you would call me insane.... as it doesnt require money to make a good investment...... not for long term anyways..... How about saving garbage? Literally..... (now I want to hear people say I am insane....before I say anymore)

mrobbnc2000

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Ever find something of value for little or no money? Posted: 11/27/2006 9:27:07 PM
I make a living scouring estate sales and such and reselling on Ebay. My best score was found in the attic of an old home in New Bern NC, I scored a bag filled with candy wrappers and Kool Aid packages from the mid 1960s, (the Kool Aid packs bring $9-$13 each from that era...I had 57 of them) The candy bar wrappers went for crazy money, the best being a Nestleys Crunch from 1968...it went for $56 alone....but the real treasure was a 1966 National Periodicals Trademarked - Batman Candy Bag with 13 of the original 110 individual candies still inside it. I listed the bag first...my opening bid was $5....within hours the emails started to pile up...wanting more pics, literally dozens of people asking for closer pics...then the offers started coming in....$15....$35...$50...$150...$500...$1000...and finally I sold it outright for $1250 to a guy who actually sent me the money via paypal...up front...with a note saying here is my offer!....refund it if you wish not to accept it....well I couldnt refuse that offer....and I sent him the wrapper...asking Why on Gods earth were you and the others so insane over this bag....he told me to expect the answer in the mail....and a month later I recieved a copy of Batmans Collectors Magazine...with a full page artical on my find....appartently this bag was an unheard of product....Batman didnt become popular until 1967 when it was purchased by DC Comics...this candy was by National Periodicals who created batman in 1966...but no company records existed to show any such candy was ever made....and there was a note saying the president of the batman collectors club was the ultimate buyer of the bag, he paid the guy who I sold it to $10K for it....Of course I still had the 13 candies themselves...hehe...I listed them too....they went for $67 for one that was torn in half...up to $267 for the highest bid on the rest with the average being about $150-$175 each....all in all...not too bad.... I am now selling off the contents of a car repair shop that went out of business in 1999....I scored the parts section for $2500 as the owners of the building were happy just to empty it out to be rented.....I have been living off of that since 2001....and have sold $155,000.......thus far.....God I love my job....hehe

mrobbnc2000

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Dreams of your Ex???? Posted: 11/27/2006 6:28:31 PM
yes......and yes they are nightmares....and even after 2 years...they are still common....good topic BTW.....

mrobbnc2000

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Age??? Posted: 11/27/2006 1:23:10 PM
I must admit, that is weird. Funny how you would think most guys would want to show you off, (I am not advocating that kind of behaviour of course) but I find it odd he wanted to hide you like that. You deserve better....so much better..and you are beautiful...so you have nothing to worry about...break your contact....find somebody who appreciates you. Hell, why cant you live closer to me?....hehe.....

mrobbnc2000

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given up Posted: 11/26/2006 6:05:46 PM
I would say at least 50% of them aren't into a super-serious relationship at this point in their lives. More like 90%......

mrobbnc2000

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Dreadful things to hear... Posted: 11/25/2006 8:09:10 PM
When your in bed with your GF/BF...... Honey!.......I am home!

mrobbnc2000

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When and how did you first learn the truth about Santa? Posted: 11/25/2006 6:58:53 PM
What truth? I wanna know.....I wanna know why he didnt come last year.... My first time away from mommy and he didnt leave me any gifts.... Is he mad at me? COME ON....Dont hold out... WHAT TRUTH?

mrobbnc2000

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My Personals AD Posted: 11/25/2006 11:33:54 AM
No it wasnt the fridge box, I wanted one but it was out of my price range. I had to settle for washing machine boxes...LOL

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My Personals AD Posted: 11/25/2006 11:31:16 AM
Yeah, I should have used paragraphs, actually when I wrote this on microsoft word it was spaced out better, but when I copied and pasted it didnt turn out right. I should have used a spell checker too, but hey it was 5 AM, and I was tired....I got the idea from the many responces to a classified ad in the forums section on Book of Matches dating site, which I must admit was well done and had a number of postive replies. Here is a copy of the original and quite serious ad. I must admit, it is cute. Although I am a 4.0 college student for business management. I have a reputation of screwing up. I have done alot in my past that I am not proud of. I found close friends now, not enemies but a nucience of my time and morality. Due to my ambition and motivation, it seems that the only thing that I really want to do in life is work, study, and to be with someone special. Although, I am not looking for a bunch of friends to go partying with I was used to. I am looking for someone that can be my best friend and potiential lover. I seek am seeking something more than just a lover in a relationship. I am seeking a best friend. I define the two such as a lover with more of a physical relationship and a best friend as an emotional relationship. Both I believe are important in a relationship. Money is no issue for me, for I will get an education that will well suite my luxery needs. By providing full-attention and devotion to this potiential lover I believe means commitment and patients on both parties. I am looking for a special someone whom shares the same dreams and morals to provide a stable family and future. I want to aviod such things as devorce and other disapointments in a typical late centry relationship. My only question to you right now is do you share the same american dream of passion, patience, romance, and commitment. Thank You, Eric

mrobbnc2000

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My Personals AD Posted: 11/25/2006 2:28:21 AM
Hi Ladies!, I might be looking for you! Although I am a grammer school flunkie, I feel like I am highly sucessful for having made it through the third grade already in my life, as I figure at age 34 I have plenty of time to finish school, and once I do I should be able to get a high paying job picking up trash off the highway median strip for the county to support any prospective mate that might be lucky enough to land a great catch such as myself. I find myself in dire need of a committed partner now! I am behind in the bills and I must find a woman who will love and support me until such a time as I complete school, which at the average of failing each grade like 6 times before they just pass me anyways it shouldn't be too long to get my diploma. I am a loving and kind person who doesn't cheat, in fact I am unable to cheat as I dont bathe either and I tend to drive away people with the stench, so you dont have to be jealous of other women, which is a plus I hope. The impending troubles that are driving this relentless search for love include the fact that I am behind on the $3.56 per month morgage payments on my newly renovated 3 story cardboard townhome, located on beautiful Skid Rowe, (facing the beautifully spray painted dumpsters where we have our meals delivered daily - Free of charge - with a wonderful selection as thier are 3 resteraunts dumping nearby) I had to morgage the washing machine box townhome in order to purchase a roll of plastic to keep out the ever impending rain storms we have been having, but since my mom got sick and hasnt been able to get out of her box in two weeks to go sell herself for the house note, it is now up to me. I too know what I want, I want a lady to knock up as I am told we can get a fortune in welfare benefits for each baby we make! I want LOTS of kids for sure, and we can get a new box for each one! Any ladies feel up to the challenge and privilige? If so call my buddy John at the public library to get directions to my home. Dont bother to email me as i cant read or write yet, and I had to give some sexual favors to john to get his help in posting this emergency want ad on the internet! Have a Nice Day Michael

mrobbnc2000

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The creepiest date ever! Posted: 11/24/2006 9:50:06 PM
and really can't see how someone would think this poster is one. I think that his comment was a sarcastic responce to get us to look closely at the pic, Your welcome with the dictionary, I keep it in my favorites, as I have had to use it several times. Its a hell of a reference guide...LOL

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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why does love have to hurt so bad? Posted: 11/24/2006 9:39:36 PM
What a jerk....I am sorry to say most young men are that way, I can very much identify with what you are going through.....If you need a friend...email me....my door is always open....

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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The creepiest date ever! Posted: 11/24/2006 8:41:15 PM
If you want to know what porn bot is, heres a link to the urban dictionary. (great reference to keep up with todays slang terms) http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=porn+bot

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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The creepiest date ever! Posted: 11/24/2006 8:37:52 PM
OMG...I hadnt noticed the Ops pic in detail...LOL I see what you are meaning by porn bot....Thats funny as hell. I am not trying to insult you OP, I am sure your a sweetheart, but yeah...change the main pic.......Haha

mrobbnc2000

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is Black Friday a good time to meet somone Posted: 11/24/2006 4:55:52 PM
I met this beautiful asian woman with long black hair at Curcuit City. She was leaning over to get the last DVD recorder they had on sale, so I grabbed her hair and pulled her off it. You gotta be cruel on black friday. LOL....thats funny

mrobbnc2000

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The creepiest date ever! Posted: 11/24/2006 3:53:54 PM
I have heard of people doing this, and it doesnt surprise me, how is it different then somebody with a deer head mounted on the wall?.. At least this guys motivations are genuine love for his deceased pet. The guy with the deer head is gloating over a prized kill, so whats more "creepy", one who mounts a beloved pet, or one who mounts something he is proud of having killed? Give that some thought for a second before you judge this guy as a nut. It is a bit odd, but does that make him a potential danger to you?....I wouldnt be thinking that way, or am I wrong?

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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No more nice;(till no vultures) Posted: 11/24/2006 3:38:06 PM
Excellent thread. I for one couldnt live with the advice offered by the OP, although I feel he is correct. Perhaps thats why I live in isolation and have learned to be as happy as I can be alone. abstinent lady, I liked your profile, if you want some advice, I would suggest you change your restrictions to allow people from further away to contact you, just my advice as you shouldnt limit yourself so much....

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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Something I saw tonight... Posted: 11/23/2006 11:31:55 PM
I would agree children are the greatest thing in the world, I have 7 myself, they are my greatest joy, and my deepest sorrow too. My ex took them from me, and I havent seen them since last christmas eve, and although I know that "this too will pass" I must live for today, and little good is the knowledge that at some future point things will get better when your hurting today. As for the remark "there are still plenty of kind and decent people in the world" That maybe, but I dont know of many, perhapss thats why I live in seclusion these days. LOL

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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Something I saw tonight... Posted: 11/23/2006 9:48:32 PM
Yeah I hear ya, I lost my faith in humanity years ago. As your bible says...Its only going to get worse as the days go by...

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

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Am I wrong? Please answer... Posted: 11/23/2006 1:29:44 PM
my dear you are indeed a friend with benefits.....nothing more, he may care, but he doesnt love you......I am sorry for you, but a fact is a fact....

mrobbnc2000

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it never stops hurting Posted: 11/22/2006 11:15:50 PM
I know how it feels....my wife walked out after over 14 years together, stealing our kids and dening me any contact whatsoever, and even after nearly three years...the pain just stays....and the anger only grows...but life goes on...

mrobbnc2000

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helpless with a side of lonely.. Posted: 11/20/2006 6:22:02 PM
Hey, If it makes you feel any better, I would go out with you and not care what you have been through, and I am not alone. Take Heart....You're a female, that makes your odds better than mine! Haha. Michael

mrobbnc2000

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Smoking? Posted: 11/19/2006 6:26:16 PM
Yeah, In my opinion he is a non smoking Nazi.... Reminds me of a time I was out having dinner when this woman jumped down my throat over my smoking in public (yes i was in the smoking section) She was ranting about how she doesnt want my second hand smoke giving her cancer...and making a huge scene about it. (for attension I suppose) but I sat there watching her until she went for the saccarine sweetner for her tea.....hehe. I made it a point to humilate her about the risk of cancer associated with that product in a wave of verbal abuse I am sure she remembers to this day....That was 10 years ago too......LOL

mrobbnc2000

Joined: 5/25/2005

Msg: 2 (view)

The other women Posted: 11/19/2006 12:40:48 AM
Follow your feelings.....ALWAYS.....and you are the other woman sweety....

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