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 Author Thread: What The Hell???
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 46 (view)
 
What The Hell???
Posted: 11/16/2005 3:30:08 PM
Whatever, i've been quitting drinking recent;y. no more than twixe a week now and im still cuttin back. I am not an alcoholic anyhmore. Defintion of alcoholic is someone who needs alcohol to get thru normal life situations. Thats not me. i drink to release all the pain that my meds dont take care of. and to let loose and have fun with my friends. playing pool, going to see bands live. Everybody does this and if you think i have a problem b/c i fit in with everybody then someones wrong, the one without the majority. Drinking twice a week, and comparing that to cocaine every day is horrible. thats all im sayin. thanks everyone, you've really helped!!!! NO JOKE! good bye and have a nice life
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 43 (view)
 
What The Hell???
Posted: 11/9/2005 4:55:07 PM
Hey, Thanks alot simpleman4u. That song you told me to get is awsome, well the band is in general and I agree that it is a stupid thing to ask me about my cute ex-fiancee. Anyways, I have meds and am taking over 300mg of effexor a day. They dont do enough for me. I've had more than 15 different sleeping medications perscribed to me, i thought i mentioned that?? And also, I go to college for Engineering, when would I find time to dry out at a hospital. Of course I know alcohol is a drug, but if you want to take it that far... nicotine is also a drug? Are you a smoker, cause if you are then your in the same boat as me and my ex fiancee. How stupid does that sound. Comparing alcohol use to a cocaine addiction is just as pointless as comparing smoking to drinking. Thank you all VERY much for your kind and thoughtful words. They do help.
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 30 (view)
 
What The Hell???
Posted: 11/6/2005 8:42:14 PM
Oh my god!!!! First of all this girl was the only thing to mean anything to me. Now, She uses 3 to 5 grams of coke a day and has to go to the hospital every week because her body is shutting down. I use once or twice a year and I'm addicted??? If you know nothing about drug use and addictions than dont comment. Now, When she left me, my meds were cranked up insanely. They made me sick and turned me into an extreme insomniac. If I don't drink to fall asleep I won't sleep for weeks. After she left me I went almost 3 weeks with no more than 1.5 hours of sleep a night. I (the fuking OP) do not have drug problems, but a serious alcohol problem. I know I have to kick it but anyone who's been addicted to booze knows how hard it is. Especially when ur swamped with engineering classes and have little time to meet new people, get involved with a gym or any of that shiit. I would love to take salsa classes or to speed dating but like I said, no time. And that is also probably adding to the shiit spiral. And by the way, anyone who says straighten up and get over it just like that has never been hurt or doesnt understand what love is. Day by day is the only way i know, but I still wish none of this happened. And my ex is never going to hit rock bottom. Her parents have disowned her and she is perfectly willing to whore to get money for her addictions. Lots of you guys have alot of usefull things to say and I thank you!
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 117 (view)
 
Do You Men Read Our Whole Profiles?
Posted: 11/6/2005 12:58:31 AM
good point god damnit!!!
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 115 (view)
 
Do You Men Read Our Whole Profiles?
Posted: 11/6/2005 12:51:08 AM
hell ya!!! more power to this statement for sure!!!
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 114 (view)
 
Do You Men Read Our Whole Profiles?
Posted: 11/6/2005 12:50:08 AM
Oh Come on!!!! I'm a guy and i read all things on a profile, unless its long and then i just forget about the person. anyways... Please dont be so sexist!!! you cant clump all guys into being idiots or whatever, thats like saying all jewish people are selfish, money grabbing mongrels. Lets not be biggots here, i mean express your opinion but dont bias it to a point where your ripping on such a huge group of people. I'ld like to say grow up, but your old enough to be better than this judgemental bullshiit!!
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 13 (view)
 
What The Hell???
Posted: 11/6/2005 12:34:50 AM
Allright!! whoever asked me who the cute girl beside me in my profile is in an ***hole. who but i am nowhere near an addict. maybe once a month, which is why i kind of condoned her use at the begining. At that party I was flyin but I don't have a problem. I've done coke twice in the last year. I don't have to sell my shit for addictions. But the only way i can deal with my depression is by drinking all the time. I've turned into an alcoholic, without drinking i cant sleep AT ALL, I cry constantly and my self-esteem just keeps going lower and lower. These things are screwing me over for my engineering courses, which is why I posted this asking for others opinions. I was also diagnosed as a sufferer of bi-polarism and she said she couldnt handle that. i know that was just cause she needed a new sugar daddy after she maxed out my credit cards and used up my college loans. But the manic depression is getting to me, my friends and family have tried to check me into to clinics but I either leave or flip out on them for talking to me about that shit. I dont know what to do, and by that I mean i was happier than ive ever been when i was with her. I dont want another ****ing girl, for gods sake at college i dont even think about talking to girls i dont know cause i dont care. At least this experience has finally broguht me to know god again. I used to be extremely Agnostic, and also a Nihalist but now I NEED something to believe in a jesus has helped me more than anything else. I guess im just being selfish but I just wanna know WHY THE **** SHE HAD TO HAPPEN TO ME??!!
 steiner999
Joined: 5/29/2005
Msg: 1 (view)
 
What The Hell???
Posted: 11/3/2005 6:27:55 PM
Last year I lived with my fiance of 3 years while attending university. Within a couple months she was drinking everyday and pawning her stuff and bumming money off of me constantly for her coke habbit. Everytime I tried to tell her how I felt she blew up on me. Soon enough she left me completely and I talked to her about it and she said our relationship wasnt completely over, she just needed a break from my bullshiit. whatever that means, so I was devistated just from that. We all know what breaks in relationships mean. So I actually dropped out of my year of University and moved back hgome and actually had to be on medication for anxiety and depression. A week after I moved away she got a job at a bar and slept with 3 different guys including her 35 year old boss. By the way she's only 20. That meant to me that I was completely worthless to her and our 3 year engagement was worthless to her. It sure wasn't to me. But she calls me every once in a while to my dismay and she's now dating a 40 year old and is in and out of rehab. I've been completely left alone, my best friend, fiance, and only person I really hung out with for years has completely deserted me and I've been trying to get over it but all I do is think about her, and what I could have done to make things better. I blame everything on myself. I don't know why I'm writing this, I know these things happen to people everyday but she held such a big part of my heart that I don't want to go on anymore without it.
 
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