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sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 133 (view)

Staying Single On Purpose Posted: 7/22/2011 3:55:18 PM
I have chosen to stay single on purpose/quit looking and although have I said that in the past, I am doubly resolved recently to stay single again. Yesterday or the day before I looked up the definition of the word "Jaded" as I was not sure if I actually knew what it meant. "Jaded is the end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences, disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person where they get to the point where they just sort of burn out and they accept disillusionment." Yup.. that is where I am at. Done! The Reasons: Man #1. Good family, good job, non-smoker/drinker. Married at 19. He was 23. After 5 yrs of marriage he got into drugs through a newer friend of his and then he held a knife to my throat one night when he was insisting to have kids with me and I was not ready at that time to have any with him, especially with him becoming unstable. Knew him 5 yrs before getting married. Left the next morning. Man #2. Got with someone I was completely mad about in high school after he divorced his first wife. Had known him since I was 5 yrs old. I was in 28 yrs old by this time. Good family, his parents/siblings not divorced, excellent job with beyond great money. Non-smoker/drinker. Decided to live with this one for 4 yrs before getting married. He got very abusive after we got married. I left 4 yrs later. I stayed because of his children. He then stalked me for 9 years after I left and part of the reason I moved to Canada. Man #3. Common law with a man younger than me. Non-smoker/drinker.He hid his bi-polar/manic depression from me until I had moved countries and he then tried to commit suicide five times. I was too exhausted from working 3 jobs to support us to do anything but the general functions of life and HIS family finally told me to get rid of him. I did. Man #4. Blind date by a friend of mine with her cousin that I was tricked into, but we clicked. I knew his family for years before I knew about him. He had a wonderful family with no divorces in it at all. After time I moved in with him, after a year he was no longer affectionate. I asked him if he wanted to break up.. he said it was not me.. it was him.. give him time. I did give him time (4 more years) until he was laid off for a very long time, ran me out of my money, started drinking $900 a month in beer and rum, his kids were raised and he cheated on me and broke my bed with her. I tossed him out of my house. (Did about 22 first dates with POF guys between #4 & #5 after my co-workers badgered me into joining POF-- a couple were 2nd dates to0 -- nothing panned out). Man #5. (POF) I did not know this one long. I was now 40. But we clicked and we were opposites, but it seemed to work well. My theory of knowing a guy for a long time before hooking up had not been working anyway. Non-smoker/drinker. He wanted children and said we better hurry up as I was getting old. Lost twins.. got preg again, lost one of twins and then he decided he did not want to be a father or significant other anymore and literally tossed me out into the Canadian snow to live in a vehicle for several weeks when I was 12 weeks pregnant and have my child on my own . Not convinced this one was not gay either. Man #6. (POF - but not through a search, just accidently met). Was my friend for 2 years and he was everything on my shopping list in a man, other than he was shorter than the 'criteria' on my list, was bald and had a large beer gut. Physical features which I would not normally be attracted to. I looked all past that as he was everything else I wanted and it is personality/brains that does it for me anyway. I felt he was one of the rare few who understood me. Non-smoker/drinker.We tried a relationship, I fell madly for him and then he said although I was his best friend, he was not attracted to me. I felt unwanted and undesireable. After 27 years of that chaos, I now feel I am much better off staying on my own and focus solely on raising my young child. I have never needed a man in my life to make me happy. I am complete on my own, I own my own 4 bed/2 bath house and vehicle free and clear. Nothing owed anywhere but monthly utility bills. I did it all on my own without spousal or child support, which I never took. It is just nice sometimes to have those masculine arms around you when it feels like a man means it. But without after awhile, I just put all those types of feelings into hibernation and I don't miss it so much. Someone else on this thread said that they would only consider being together with someone to have a child. In my case, I am very happy there is no one in my life helping raise her or giving me child support. I love being a single mom. Recently I came to the conclusion that none of the men in my past loved me for me, but loved the things I do for fun, hobbies, my lifestyle and my brain. I have put my all into each relationship (although I was held back a bit on #6) and get injured in return. I would have to have Masochism to keep putting myself through all that and I am sure it takes a toll on my health as well from stress. So far I have been pretty unscathed from grey hairs from it. When I am single, I actually get to do more of the things I enjoy doing, even though in the majority of my relationships they said they were totally into the things I was into, such as camping. Only one ever went with me in all those years. Only one went hiking. None went dog sledding with me although that was my 'thing' for 7 years. Although we both had horses, only one went horseback riding with me twice in 5 years, although our horses lived together and hundreds of miles of trails were just out the door. I had asked and packed a picnic lunch multiple times. No go... I have asked my male and female friends what I had done wrong, they said that I just had the worst luck in men. They honestly would let me know if they knew. My mom hauled me to a shrink to ask why I had such poor luck in men, and the shrink told her that there is alot of yucky men out there, that I was one of the most put together people she had met (made me feel better anyway, as I was sorta getting a complex by #4). I used to be cute, the 'perfect' natural 36-26-36 without having to work at it and turned the boys heads. Now I tend not to wear makeup, wear my hair in a ponytail and wear clothes that I am comfortable in as I do not want to attract anyone .... I think life is too short for B.S. and I am making sure I go out there and live my life as to how I want. And have fun doing it. I found I can do that without a man in my life much better. So no.. I do not miss dating at all. I will never say never, but I really do not see anyone in my life again as a significant other. So when some of these folks on here on this thread say that they think they want to be.. or are permanently single. I don't doubt that alot of them will be content being that way, as I know I am. The only reason my POF profile is not deceased is that I couldn't figure out how to kill it the other day. I then realized after 4 years or so I do enjoy coming to the forums, so decided to just keep it hidden and not do any searches for men. It is not a bad medium at POF to try to find someone, it just did not work for me. Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Who's Right? Posted: 6/9/2010 12:12:47 PM
Nope... you have to go back through the courts.. and ONLY if the divorce decree also states no sleepovers for her as well as for you. DO NOT refuse visitation or you are in contempt. Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 99 (view)

What are some signs of a potential stalker? Posted: 6/9/2010 11:55:07 AM
The truly dangerous ones never let you see that side until its way too late. They have to suck you in and get you where they want you first. So you have two choices; live in your box or get out. Reality is harsh. I totally agree... just try to look for warning signals, or something that you question or something that makes you feel nervous. Use your 6th sense. If there is something not feeling right, it probably isn't. Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 53 (view)

A Man's Truest Worth Posted: 6/9/2010 11:43:48 AM
...blink and why do you have low enough self-esteem not to find someone else and waste your time on this one? Run.. run far away and don't let him know where you live and get your phone number unlisted. Ever hear about 'it takes money to make money"? He is spending his 'last dollar' on you and trying to get you to marry him so he can continue to be a bum on your couch while you work and support him. There are enough good men out there, that you do not need to continue with this train wreck. Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Slightly suprised and confused. Posted: 11/25/2009 6:15:53 PM
My question is.. If she lived THAT close why WOULD you hire a taxi to drive her home, or you stay on your doorstep long enough to make sure she got in her door alright if you could see her place from yours. I don't know what kind of area you guys live in, but crime does happen anywhere anymore. A.) Maybe she was trying to get a few more minutes worth of time out of you B.) Maybe she had jitters walking home at the last second? Or had been secretly hoping you would have offered and when you didn't offer, SHE HINTED C.) Maybe she determined somewhere there while you were conversing you might be dating material during the conversation with you and had not seen you in the light of anything more than a co-worker until that point (but you might have blown it in her eyes, by declining) D.) Maybe it was her blood alcohol levels talking E.) Maybe you will never know now, unless there comes a point down the road you can both talk about the incident.... Yes, people make mistakes or are oblivious to an opportunity, maybe you were tired and the alcohol didn't help matters. Keep your eyes (and ears) open if the opportunity like that happens again if it is someone you might be interested in ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 28 (view)

I'm too old to have a baby Posted: 11/25/2009 5:38:02 PM
If YOU would like a child, you are not too old. There is higher risk, but don't let that stop you. My doctor told me, "sure, you have a 1-in-42 chance of a child with problems, but you have 41 chances to have a normal healthy child." I took her advice and have a lovely little daughter who is 22 days old today, and I am 43. I had no problems getting pregnant and no medical intervention to get that way. If this is something you want, go for it, I have no partner and doing it alone and I would not change that fact. It is also interesting how many men are messaging me and are thrilled I have a baby. I thought it would scare them off, coupled with the fact that I am currently not looking... it didn't. Just get checked out to make sure you are healthy, get all your prenatal and SIPS tests and enjoy. I didn't even have morning sickness!! Good luck in finding your dreams, as dreams are attainable ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Help with getting your foot in the door Posted: 11/24/2009 12:12:44 PM
You said, " that is when you believe a woman is too attractive for a person like you" *** Ahhh.. do not judge a book by its cover in any way my dear.. Just because the cover may be pretty, doesn't mean the interior is. Just because the cover is not THAT appealing, doesn't mean there is not the best thing inside. I am talking about them as well as you... Why do you think THEY are too attractive for 'a person like you'? Are you saying you are not attractive in the inside as well as the outside? You need to think again. You are.. just for some reason you think you are not. Find out who you are.. behind that wall and get to love yourself. You are special.. you have alot of interests which are well.. interesting and fun to do. As soon as you find the real you, then I am sure you will come out of your shell. ~Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Inexperianced dater seeks advice on keeping a lady interested. Posted: 11/24/2009 12:01:55 PM
There are two wise bits of advice on here thus far, "Be Yourself" and "Be Confident"... Also, follow what you have put into your profile.. "go bowling, miniture golf, enjoying the outdoors, etc. I would like to invite her go with me on an outing with the Wasatch Mountain Club. They do all sorts of things: hiking, snowshoeing, mountain biking.." If those are things you enjoy doing, either she does too which is something you have in common, OR, it may be something she may enjoy doing if you take her to go do them (especially if she has never been exposed to those things before). At this time of the year, if she likes to be outside, perhaps she would enjoy learning how to snowshoe or backcountry skiing. I know I had a blast the first time I went snowshoeing, (even if I managed to be on my bum, face and other awkward positions as I fell over, stepping on my own snowshoes etc. ) and was laughing alot of the time. The trick is probably to make it something new, enjoyable and not the same-ole-same-ole thing all the time. It not even need to be something expensive.. there are alots of fun free events in the local paper quite often. How about volunteering somewhere? Packing Food Baskets for the holidays for Christmas Cheer or something? ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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How do you people stand to live in Portland or any big city? Posted: 11/24/2009 10:37:12 AM
younowho said: "Of Course Oregonian's can't drive ( rain/snow) they all moved here 4 yrs ago from L.A".... *** I KNEW us TRUE Oregonians should have required 3 letters of recommendation, a secret handshake and various other safeguards to keep the Californian's out of our beloved state wink. For awhile there I was hoping that Concertina wire would be put up... After having been up in the frozen Great White North for many years with a 2-wheel drive truck, I do know how to drive in inclimate weather these days. Black ice though? I will be staying at home with my feet up on the coffee table with a mug of hot cocoa in my hands. ~ Sox -- who is a 5th generation Oregonian

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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How do you people stand to live in Portland or any big city? Posted: 11/23/2009 2:30:57 PM
Be thankful that not everyone wants to live in the country and does wants to stay in Portland (or whatever metropolatin of their choice). I was living in Canada in the bush for the last 9 years and recently moved back to Oregon. I am used to 'rush hour' being about 7 vehicles, my closest neighbor over a mile away... I was traumatized by the traffic I encountered on the I-205 bridge over the Columbia as I drove down in moving back to the States, when it took 2 hours to get 21 miles. I was seriously thinking ... "And why on Earth am I moving back down here?!" My newest nemesis is freight trains. I cannot be anywhere where I can hear them at night or I cannot sleep! I am used to owls and coyotes.. two beings that many people are afraid of and can't sleep for them. I grew up in Wilsonville when there was only 1,200 people, I can hardly navigate around there now. The 'big city' does offer perks, such as Portland Saturday Market, Powells and such, but for me myself, I do not know if I could handle living in such a tight space for a span of more than a handful of days. Then again, many people cannot understand how I could live in the bush alone in my cabin on my 40 acre farm, especially in the deep of winter, heated only by a woodstove. Isn't it wonderful how there is so many diversified people in the world to make up all walks of life? ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 43 (view)

How Much Should I Disclose? Posted: 11/23/2009 12:18:38 PM
Tell her to pass him a note under the school desk and check YES [ ] or NO [ ]! I would tell Dirk that she is askin about him. Maybe he doesn't even like her!!! Maybe he says "Sure tell her what she wants to know".. or if Dirk looks favorable, tell her that she ought to talk to Dirk. Is she totally shy or is does she just not have the self esteeem to handle being turned down? ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Here's my situation Posted: 11/23/2009 12:12:48 PM
Sweetie.. cut your losses and count yourself thankful. Follow what your BRAIN is telling you. And know you are better than what he wants to use you for. He is being wishy-washy and self serving. Since you have kids, you probably have to communicate with him every now and again, but that is all it needs to be, ABOUT THE KIDS. If I were you, I would write him off for anything else. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Complicated Girl Question Posted: 11/20/2009 3:47:01 AM
>Her time is mostly spent working and with her kid. *** I do not know how to text at all and my mom had to show me how to use a cell phone awhile back ago, as frankly, those 'contraptions' just did not work where I had been living up north, so it was pointless for me to own one. So maybe I do not know what I am talking about here, but.... But is it possible she is working or doing something with her child and cannot answer at the time. Or perhaps she doesn't wear her cell phone and keeps it in her purse (or gasp turned off)? Does it cost her extra to text or she has limited texts she can send? ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Dating a Single Mother - Advice Posted: 11/19/2009 4:57:49 PM
1... Check out your legal obligations. In many areas, Canada, for example, there are laws that may require a man who gets involved with a single mom to be on the hook for support for her children, even if he is NOT the biological father ^^^ *** I have only seen this happen in Canada (and rare at that), when the guy has been living in the same household as the mother with the children for 6 months or more, not merely dating her. I did not see how old the child was, only that the woman is 28. But the younger the child, and if this relationship works out, I see the relationship probably going smoother between the man and the child versus him coming into the relationship when the child is older. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 34 (view)

Daddy Issues! Posted: 9/25/2009 8:03:52 AM
I don't want to get into the rest of it, but may have an answer to the main question you presented. A couple weekends ago I attended an event in which a gay couple (men) had adopted 2 children. I asked the men if it was confusing to the kids (6 and 4 I think their ages were) in having 2 fathers and how did who know who was wanting whom when someone yelled "Daddy". The guys told me that one was called "Pappa" and the other was called "Daddy" and it worked just fine for them from what I observed all weekend. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 39 (view)

What's the reward for Chivalry? Posted: 9/5/2009 11:20:22 PM
Honor and chivalry start with basic, courteous everyday manners. I am in a reinactment group where chivalry is alive and well, and part of the reason I have participated with this group for 14-some years. We all should help with the gift of courtesy and I feel it is not just the men who should be the ones required to practice chivalry, but women as well. And even children are not too young to start learning it. What adzactly is honor and chivalry? When it is usually discussed, it seems to always be in connection with some act of a gentleman toward a lady "in distress", but it is much more than that. One act of chivalry is of generosity in giving of one’s time, kindness or even a helpful hand, without the expectation of anything in return. Even a small act of generosity by one individual can be the catalyst for change in all who witness the action. Doing something for a fellow person, whether or not they seem in need, can quite often be reciprocated by that person to another and so on. Another aspect of chivalry is honor, which is an attitude, a definition of one’s character. It is a code of behavior which is ethical and above question. It is what we teach our children/others about the differences between right and wrong. Honor embodies the ideal that we should treat our lessers as equals, our equals as superiors, and our superiors with great reverence. Honor is the ideal that acts of chivalry and courtesy spring from. Honor knows no boundaries. An honorable/chivalrous person treats other people and their ideas with dignity and respect, regardless of whether they have earned our respect or not. An chivalrous person gives others the benefit of doubt, and does not brand them with a title that they don’t deserve. If people have earned our respect, we should tell them so, with no words minced. If people lose our respect, we should try to influence them by setting the better example, rather than treating the offending behavior with similar offense. In the code of chivalry, “faith” means trust and integrity, and a 'knight in shining armor' is always faithful to his or her promises, no matter how big or small they may be. A person who is chivilrous must have the courage of the heart necessary to undertake tasks which are difficult, tedious or unglamorous, and to graciously accept the sacrifices involved. Words and attitudes can be painful weapons in the modern world, which is why a person who is chivalrous exercises mercy in his or her dealings with others, creating a sense of peace and community, rather than engendering hostility and antagonism. In the code of chivalry it conveys the importance of upholding one’s convictions at all times, especially when no one else is watching. So IS there a reward for practing chilvary? Yes, but it is not instantanous and not in the way most people would probably think. Perhaps it is the reward in knowing you were the best person you could be. ~ Sox (who borrowed heavily from definitions from the group she belongs to)

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 95 (view)

Dating a pregnant woman? Posted: 8/30/2009 11:56:38 PM
It saddens me that so many people here jump to the narrow-minded conclusion if a woman is single and is pregnant that she is a skanky ho, who jumps from bed to bed with multiple guys she picks up from the local bar or party every night of the week. Some people think it is a failed relationship on her part only. Some people think it takes two to fight and both statements are false. Sometimes no matter what effort she puts into the relationship, it will not work as the other half of the relationship does not want it to work. It does take two to make a relationship work, not merely one. Many times I am finding, it is the woman who goes 100% into the relationship with love and trust and gets betrayed for that same love and trust when she becomes pregnant. Not pregnant as she was irresponsible, not pregnant as she tricked the guy, not pregnant due to failed birth control. But pregnant as both parties of the relationship decided to have children. And then when it finally happens, the man decides to change his mind and he leaves or abuses her. Even IF they are married. Statistically in North American, 1 out of every 3 women are abused for the first time while they are pregnant. The statistics are close to the same in Australia, quoted to me from a friend who helps run a crisis line there. Even though it is scary, kudos to the woman who is in that vulnerable pregnancy state and yet has the guts to leave the one who is her abuser. It is better to be pregnant and single, than to be bringing a child into a relationship where there very well may be more abuse (and probably will be) for both her and any children produced. Should the pregnant woman date is a common topic here. It depends. Where is she at mentally? Is she over the ex? Is he still harassing her, in that he doesn't want her, but won't leave her alone either? If she is "bruised" mentally and it affects her in a negative way, that's baggage. If she's "bruised", and has healed, and it affects her in a positive way, it's growth. If she has grown mentally from the failed relationship, there ought to be no reason why she cannot date. She needs to be careful though. As mentioned in various threads, there are alot of guys who have preggo chick fettishes out there. Does she just need to get out and do something with someone. There are alot of very alone single pregnant women who have been uprooted from their homes, not near family, no friends to have an support system, or pride may also prevent her from seeking help or support from her family. But does she really need to stay hidden away and not have a time to get away from everything which is probably weighing on her 24/7? Does she not deserve time to have some fun for herself? Some companionship? Just because she is dating someone.. it need not be sexual. I believe there are gentlemen out there still. The new would-be suitor also needs to excercise caution mentally and with his heart. He easily could get hurt. But that is a chance one takes with most relationships I think. But then again, he may find the woman of his dreams while other men overlook her due to her condition. But he also has to realize it is a package deal and a possible ready made family if things progress that far. He ought to also step back and evaluate himself for a moment or two... WHY does he want to date her? Is he into her.. or her condition? Will he find her as intriguing after she has had the child as he found her while she was pregnant? The original poster of this thread had the child nearly 3 years ago. We do not know the whole story, nor what happened after she posted. Perhaps she was indeed loving enough of her child to give it up for adoption as she felt that someone deserving would take better care and give it more attention than she could being spread so thin. At 20 with "work and school and work".. as well as taking care of another child, perhaps without any family support to help her out, caring for another child would be overwhelming for her and out of the best interests of the baby, maybe it was her best choice to give it up to adoption. Perhaps she found a way to keep the child. Maybe she dropped out of school. Maybe she got child support income from her ex so she could drop one job. There are always options, but sometimes the best option does not always come along into reality or at the right time. I am guessing she went back to school or continued school and had to pick up one or both jobs after she left her ex to support herself and her toddler. To me she was making the responsible choice of bettering herself and thinking longterm, instead of living off welfare or staying in a poor relationship. Sometimes the woman does not want to ask for child support as then it is a clear and final cut-off from the ex, especially when it was an abusive relationship. Then there are no ties left. If there is no child support, then she may be protecting her children from a physically abusive father as well by preventing visitation. If he injured her, who is to say he would not injure the children? There is an old saying: "You can't really understand another person's experience until you've walked a mile in their shoes." ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 30 (view)

How to cope with missing partner? Posted: 8/26/2009 7:19:14 PM
In my past, when he is the one who had to go overseas for a pipeline job and he was going to be gone for months: Instead of emails, send handwritten letters. It is a nice outlet for me to actually write on paper, it takes longer to write and it is nice for the other person to have things tangible in their hands that you wrote with yours. - Send cards every now and again. - Send silly little gifts. - Write in a book like a journal and give it to him later. - Those are things you can so when you are REALLY missing him. however.. DO YOUR OWN THING TOO!!! He is not a security blanket is he? -Do whatever it is that you are leaving to go do and do it with the best effort you can. -Find a hobby, a local sport, join the local pool. -Walk dogs at the local shelter, they will love it!!! -Learn the history of the place you will be at. All the times I had to go to jobsites, I made it a rule for myself to learn the local history. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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So is he gay??? Posted: 8/24/2009 10:39:47 AM
I don't think he was gay by merely the things you told us about. I know a straight guy who does cater to his straight roomate, as he pays less on rent, food etc., so cleaning the house and cooking is part of his 'rent' fee for living there. Signs that he might be gay came from friends of mine who are gay and have been in a longterm 30+ year relationship with each other. #1- He may not know he is gay. My friends told me that depending on where he lives demographically, they may even marry, have children and be in denial about it for years as it is even MORE not 'socially acceptable' in their area or family-wise. #2 - Is he overly homo-phobic? Many guys my gay friends told me, said that even though these guys are gay (or in denial) they bash gays or make constant comments about them or often mimic the stereotypical gay tendancies in front of their friends. Counterproductive perhaps, but might also be a sign that he's trying to compensate for gay tendencies. #3 - That he typically will have few girlfriends in the past, doesn't date alot and has many feminine traits. Also probably did not have sex with anyone of either gender until a 'late date' (which was not related to religious views etc). #4 - Alot of people suspect he is gay. #5 - Won't kiss his girlfriend (if he has one) and does not care for her to touch him anywhere (especially sexually) or snuggle on the couch. Sex is not often (weeks or months between events) and over before it barely begins when it does happen. Likes it from behind more than other positions. #6 - Is very particular about his clothes. #7- His house may not look like a typical bachelor pad/man cave. #8 - Guy photos on his computer. No female porn/pics. He doesn't look at girls bums when they walk by, but does seem to look at guys more when out in public. #9 - May have issues with public restrooms and may not use a urinal. May also wait until he gets back home to 'go'. #10 - He's mega-secretive about his free time. He's hiding something from you, which can't be good. I could be wrong, but this is what my friends told me. Since I don't know much about that lifestyle, they are the ones I have to go by, as I figure they would know more about it than I. Unless you saw/see alot more 'signs' than you described, I am with the other people who relied and he was just not into you and probably not gay. If I was you, I would keep him as a friend if that is what works for you guys and start looking in the pond for more fish. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Favorites and last five posts no longer show on your profile Posted: 8/22/2009 10:03:47 PM
You can still find the forum posts by the person you wish to see what she/he wrote by going to the FORUMS and then putting their nick into the search box and then scrolling to USER NAME. It is an added step or two, but still doable. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

Msg: 70 (view)

Men with hair on their chest, or NO? Posted: 8/20/2009 9:13:44 AM
I guess I am just practical. I am a snuggler akin to velcro and like to lay my head on my significant others chest. I like fur on a guy's chest, as then my ear doesn't suction to him, which can be rather disconcerning when I decide to move :o) ~Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Hilarioiusly bad communication blunders/misunderstandings Posted: 8/19/2009 6:14:27 AM
I was 17-ish.. my boyfriend (with whom I had never done anything but kiss him), myself and my MOTHER were walking through my parent' yard. His feet got into my walking zone, he tripped me and I almost fell over. I think pretty fast and sometimes I come up with a couple ways to say a sentance within a millisecond and sometimes it comes out rather garbled . In this instance the two sentances in my brain were: 1. "What are you trying to do, knock me over?" 2. "What are you trying to do, trip me up?" and unfortunately for me, it vocally came out as: "What are you trying to do, knock me up?" I was mortified as I was very shy in those days, wished the ground would swallow me up as both my guy and my mother stopped and stared at me wondering if I had really just said what they had heard. ~ Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Its night like tonight that I really hate being single Posted: 8/13/2009 2:22:54 PM
I am so happy you had a good time... thanks for reporting back!!! Yeah.. we all get down time to time.. it happens.. and then we get back on with our lives. ~Sox

sockknitter

Joined: 2/26/2008

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Its night like tonight that I really hate being single Posted: 8/12/2009 2:12:48 AM
At least you have the chance to see them! I have been watching the annual Perseid meteor shower every year for 20 years... and usually alone.. But this year I have light pollution AND it is pouring down rain.. and I will therefore be missing them. So go out, quit feeling like a 3rd wheel, grab a blanket or sleeping bag to lay on, maybe even fill a thermos full of hot cocoa and go enjoy the show Mother Nature puts on. For next year (or sooner for the next celestial event happening), check into any local star gazer parties and join up with them.. never know.. you might meet someone there. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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Sex with the lights off? Posted: 8/11/2009 7:12:54 PM
How about some candles or leave the hallway light on? Start low light and then after time, make the room a little brighter and brighter? Give her some comfort zone and getting used to it? ~ Sox

sockknitter

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Can long distance relationships work? Posted: 8/10/2009 4:44:24 PM
Yes a LDR CAN work if both people in the relationship are willing to make it work. Even within 'normal local' relationships, many disintergrate as most people do not realize it takes work and communication for a relationship to last. You have to have trust, good communication, and be creative to keep either type of relationship going. In a LDR you both have to make the time, the little extra effort and take that extra step. If not, that is when it will fall apart. For some people, they consider a 50 mile span between the two of you a LDR and for where I have been living for the last many years, 50 miles doesn't even take you to the next town (or even grocery shopping for that matter). I cannot fathom thinking that my heart's desire and companion for life would neatly fit within mere miles of where I lived. If he did, I would have thought I would have found him a long time ago. I have been in LDR before and I know many people who have as well and they made it work (I was not so fortunate that time, but it did last for years). I know many more people who were in 'local relationships' which didn't work than LDR's which didn't work. Currently my best friend in Canada has a girlfriend in the UK. One of my friends who was in Oregon, met and married a man from Scotland and that marriage has lasted 15 years. A net friend met his wife from B.C. Canada and he is from New Orleans. Their marriage has lasted at least 10 years now and they moved to Oregon, each giving up where they were from in order to be together. Someone will eventually have to move at some time in the relationship, as you will want to be together more than has been happening. Sometimes it is more workable for one person to move than the other, due to job, family etc, but sometimes both could move to a new location for the both of them so it is a fresh start for both or in the case of a blended family, what works for everyone. No quality relationship is ever easy. All of them are work in their own way IF you want to make it continue between the two of you. But if the person of your dreams is found, no matter where, will distance really be a dealbreaker for you? ~ Sox

sockknitter

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Waiting so many days to call Posted: 8/9/2009 3:13:59 PM
Ummm... if it all went well in your eyes.. why can't you ask her/him when to call? Is "So, when can I call you? Can we see each other again?" so difficult to ask? Maybe I just tend to be direct as I don't understand game playing and it boggles my brain. But I am guessing if you get a genuine smile and a shine to their eyes after you ask, it is a safe bet you can call the next day. If someone did not call me for several days to a week, I would think I was on the 'culled list', or if you did call me a week later, it was as you had no other prospects for the weekend dating scene. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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How many dating sites are you on-what's your fave? Posted: 8/9/2009 2:07:52 PM
This is the only one I am on or have even seen, and more than likely my first and last site of this type. Someone a couple of years ago at work said I needed to go on POF and a co-worker agreed. They were both on it. I phooey'd that suggestion for months until I couldn't sleep one night and then ended up here to see what they were talking about. More curiosity than seriousness. Went out on 22 dates/first meets or so.. but just come here for the forums now. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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Do women cook anymore?? Posted: 8/9/2009 1:52:12 PM
When I have someone to cook for, I cook excellent meals, homemade bread made fresh daily, homemade cheeses.. Nothing out of a box and I refuse to own a microwave. Many of the ingredients are homegrown and handpicked. When it is wintertime, I make sure there is always a pot of homemade soup or other things on the woodstove at all times. When I live alone I hate cooking for myself and don't eat normal meals. Sometimes I cook a large 1 pot meal or large batch of soup and will have that for a couple days, or I 'graze' on salads, fruit, nuts and other things, especially when it is hot out and do not have much of an appetite. It does drive me crazy when women BRAG they can't cook and recently moving back to the States I have met many who don't cook. I raise an eyebrow at men who can't either, as I feel they ought to be able do do basic meals. Maybe I am a bit of a traditionalist when women say they can't boil water, as statistically they will probably have kids one day and need to feed them nutritious foods, not McDonald's takeout three times a day (and I am specifically thinking of a couple someones I knew who did that to her kids 3x a day for months). Ideally if I had a significant other, we would often cook in the kitchen together AND do the cleanup afterwards together, as I also tend to hold a full time job, run a farm, as well as do volunteer work outside the home. My father and mother build their kitchen so many of us could cook in there all at the same time and it was quality fun time as well as learning how to cook. Many women did not learn to cook from their mothers as they are the generation (or second generation) that their mother's went to work outside the home, so they are the generation who did not grow up learning to clean homes properly, cook meals or can foods. I am mostly self taught myself, but my dad loved to cook and was a bit of a gourmet chef, so I learned from him. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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can someone help me with my soon to be hubby Posted: 8/9/2009 1:25:46 PM
I would do as some others recommend. Call off the wedding and give him his ring back if he gave you one. Even though at 18, you probably feel grown up, but you DO have alot of living and world to see (even though you may not believe it yet).. and there are many quality people who will cross your path. IF it was meant for you two to be together, breaking up with him may also give him a wakeup call. I was married at 19 and I too was dragging my feet, but not knowing how to get out of it and went through with it in order not to disappoint so many people as they were so happy with the union to be.. just myself would have been disappointed, but I did not want to 'fail everyone else'. From what you are typing, he sounds like he does not want to marry for whatever reason/s and is not mature enough to talk to you about it or break up with you outright, so he is doing it the 'childish and irresponsible way' to force you to break up with him so he might not look like the 'bad guy'. Or it is also quite possible he does not realize WHY he is doing it, just acting out like a young small boy might. Being irresponsible is not a great way to start a partnership with anyone and that is what a marriage is.. a partnership. As someone else mentioned, it is low cost TO get married and extreme cost to get OUT of the marriage, monetarily being only one aspect of it. Any problems you see in your relationship now will only compound ten-fold after you are married. And you will resent it and him making problems worse and new problems will surely surface. If you are pregnant as others suggested you might be, you can do it on your own and there are other options if you feel you can't. Sure it is tougher in ways without a partner to raise a child, but honestly, if he is not mature enough, you do not need two 'children' to raise when one should be on his own feet and helping out. THAT would be tougher than being on your own with the baby. And to the nay-sayers about forums... it is true some people come here just for the forums. That is the only reason I returned. Due to dekes in my life, I chose to not actively looking for anyone to date and I say so on my profile. It is also true there are other groups out there to gab in, but the other groups I belong to are based on homesteading, solar power, gardening, dog sledding etc groups and I sorta like to see the mentality of people's reactions here to different questions and occasionally put my 2-cents worth in. Humans and how they think (or sometimes DON'T think), are interesting to me and an insight to the human psychology. ~Sox

sockknitter

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Why don't men and women -- by and large -- like male-pattern baldness? Posted: 7/28/2009 7:48:41 PM
I know alot of gals who love bald headed men, almost an obsession with them, so I think your 0% is not quite right. I have an ex who was the 'Friar Tuck' sorta bald and I have alot of guy friends who shave their heads routinely. One friend in particular has a head of hair like a sheep has wool and he says he gets too hot, so off the hair comes. When it starts to grow out, his wife asks him to shave it as she does not care for the stubble. I have never gone out with a guy who was completely bald, but not for the shallowness of not wanting to go out with a bald man, it is just the situation has never presented itself. To me, rejecting a person due to hair or no hair on his noggin is as superficial as rejecting someone as a potential partner (or date) due to their eye colour or if they wear glasses VS contacts or if they have a beard or clean shaven. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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The Four favourite questions guys love to ask.... Posted: 7/28/2009 2:59:34 PM
I am glad I have seemed to corresponded with a higher quality of men here than other women have seemed to. Not once have I ever been asked any of those questions. So thank you to those gentlemen I have talked to here in the last couple of years!!! ~Sox

sockknitter

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Why are women not interested in sailing? Posted: 7/28/2009 2:48:46 PM
I always would have like to try to sail.. small craft at first perhaps, but beggers can't be choosers I suppose. Lack of opportunity for me I guess. I am just very interested in the schematics of how it all works with wind etc. and have been since I was very little. I lived in the middle of the mountains in upper Canada until recently and there is not many sailboats there. Once I even thought about building a windrail. The same could be said about one of my hobbies. Dog sledding. It is difficult to find anyone of either gender to brave the winter elements for a day run, let alone a 3 day trip winter camping, so it all depends on the hobby, the personality of those usually involved and the opportunity and the someone to try it with. It may not be so much of the person not having a trust issue with the skipper, but with Mother Nature. Many people are not outdoorsy and many are afraid of open water. ~ Sox

sockknitter

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Confused Posted: 6/30/2009 12:16:11 AM
One thing no one has mentioned is... What about the chance of you going out on the road with him part or full time and being his 'support crew' while he is on the road? It is hidieously tiring being on the road all the time working. You say you love him very much.. how far are you willing to take your love for him? I have known many people over my lifetime whose whole families were on the road while dad worked place to place (building roads or pipelines in Canada actually) for years. Others worked out-of-town for months and the girlfriends or their wives (including myself) went with their men part or all of the time. You do not mention what he does, but laundry still needs to be done, one gets tired of eating out all the time and a 'home cooked' meal is valued immensely. So is the company. It does get lonely being away from home all the time. Technically you have a long distance relationship even though it is a little different of one. LDRs CAN work.. it just takes more effort and creativity. And a willingness to do whatever one has to do to make the relationship work. I agree with the others that this would be POOR timing for him to quit his job before he has another one. Even if he found a new job locally to you, he would be 'low man on the totem pole' and if the economy gets worse or the business fails.. or has to let workers go, he may be one of the first to get the axe. How long has he worked at his current job and is it more of a secure thing VS a new unknown job? If the relationship has lasted 10 months under trying circumstances.. keep at it if he is worth it. It will all work out in the wash eventually. ~Sox

sockknitter

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Deodorant, perfume and cologne: Do we really need 'em? Posted: 6/13/2009 11:49:22 AM
My father was adamant from the time we kids started to wear deodorant that we never use antiperspirant, for the same reasons another posted stated above. I used conventional brands for years and then around 15 years ago went to an organic brand. The longer I used it, the more I found I could skip days and not have to use it. The conventional brand was a definate daily thing. But your body adjusts to the 'alternative' brands. Last year or the year before, I was bringing in winter firewood with a guy friend and I asked him why he did not smell like an Ox after working all day, as I was pretty sure I was on the verge of it and I was gonna be upset if I did and he didn't L. His reply sold me on Natural Mineral Salts and I have been using that brand he recommended for a year or so, and again, the more time goes by that I use it, the more I don't have to use it, as weird as that sounds. It also LASTS in a container forever. Even if you use it every day, that $7 container lasts about a year. Since I am senstive to perfumes (especially synthetic ones), this is a perfect choice for me and is even recommended by various cancer treatment centers and recovering alcoholics. If you are a earth friendly person.. there is also less waste, less packaging and some of the mineral salts come without a plastic container (just don't drop it!!!) altogether. In response to the actual question, I think some people do need it.. some people don't. Some people can use alternative brands and some can't. Every now and again it is nice to toss on a little perfume, but do be aware some people are sensitive to it.. at least go light on the perfume or cologne. ~Sox

sockknitter

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ladies?......camping....fun weekend or why the %$#@ am i here? Posted: 4/29/2009 5:59:02 PM
L You think you have a difficult time finding someone to go camping & fishing with you in the summer months? Try convincing someone it is really a great time and alot of fun to go winter camping and running dog sleds out into the wilderness for 3 days and go ice fishing ...hehe... I have been running dog sled teams for 7 years now and not yet had anyone to warm up my sleeping bag other than my hot water bottles. That is ok too.. I love going out there even if I am alone. It only gets down to -40C.. no big deal..... wink ~Sox

sockknitter

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Would you move to another are or country because you loved someone from there Posted: 4/29/2009 4:50:19 PM
I did and I do not have any regrets over the move. I moved from the USA to Canada and have lived there 7 years. Although the marriage did not work out after a couple of years, Canada became my home. The marriage may have dissolved regardless of were we had lived. Location had nothing to do with it. I only got to go home to visit my family maybe once a year due to work, but I went out of my way to keep in contact with them. I know they were unhappy about me being so far away and although they have greater funds than me and travel all over the world, my mother only came to see me once after 5 years. My brother never. I am not sure why they think it is less far for me to come down than for them to come up L. It took me 6 months to make my first friend there, but I knew when I actually belonged to the community when at the local town celebration, someone from each and every float waves to me and called me by name. I am more part of the commnuity there and more active in many things in Canada than I was down in the States and I was pretty active in the States with many organizations as well. I am considering moving back 'home' to the States at this point in my life to be close to my family, but I will be leaving what I consider my TRUE home (my 40 acre farm which I will never be able to have in the State I would be moving to sue to cost), my friends, my lifestyle and my activities behind and starting all over again in the States. I am weighing the pro's and con's very closely at this moment in my life. My heart loves Canada, but in many ways it makes sense to come back to Oregon. I am torn as I only have a few months to decide until next Spring. I deem it not a good idea to move in the middle of winter where I am in the mountains. IF I ever found someone to have a relationship with again, if I felt he was worth it, I would travel where ever I needed to be to be with him. If it worked with him moving to me, me to him or somewhere in the middle, that would be fine too. Sometimes it is more practical to not have one person move for one reason or another. As someone noted for themselves in an earlier post, I would prefer an English speaking country, as even just moving across the border to Canada, there was alot of differences. Unless I actually learned the language of where I was moving to. There are alot of pluses to move to a different country even if it is for yourself as a single person. It is eye opening and if you are open to it, it gives you a whole new perspective about the world as well as yourself and I believe you grow in yourself for the better. My opinion is.. don't let location decide 100% for you if you have found the love of your life. ~Sox

sockknitter

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Msg: 39 (view)

Are there any love things that you really yearn for? Posted: 4/13/2008 9:27:01 PM
I have not yet seen that movie, but both movies which have been mentioned in this thread sound worthwhile to check out. What do I yearn for? Besides the obvious things like kissing... his arms quietly wrapping around me from behind and a kiss placed on the top of my head while I am cooking breakfast at the stove. My hair being played with as we snuggle on the couch watching a movie or reading. Going for a walk hand-in-hand. I saw a elderly couple the other day walking down the road as I drove past to (or from) my work, and I was rather envious, as you just knew they had been doing that for the last 50 years. You could tell they had something special. They made me smile. Does it make me sad that I have not had these things in years? Not really, as then... when it does happen one day, I will apprieciate it all the more. All things in their time. -- Sox

sockknitter

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What are they called? Posted: 4/6/2008 9:15:08 PM
They are called bean thread or rice noodles. I use them in alot of different ways, and they come in all sizes. I will take the large ones and 'puff them up' in hot oil, drain on paper towels or newspapers and then sprinkle a little cinnamon and sugar on them for a different snack. --Sox

sockknitter

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Honey recipes Posted: 4/6/2008 8:18:15 PM
I agree with the mead. I am a mead maker and former owner of 4 hives of Italian bees. It can go up to about 6 pounds of honey for a one gallon jug of mead. I have 4 gallons on the go right now (2 of traditional sack, a chocolate and a nice metheglin). I will start another 15 or so gallons this summer. DO be aware meads can restart themselves and you will have essentially a bomb in a bottle. Don't let that scare you off mead, but make sure it has quit working COMPLETELY before you bottle and cork it!!! Another reference I use is "Cooking with Honey", by Hazel Berto ISBN#/Library of Congress # 72-185094. Also quit using white sugar and learn to cook with honey.. usually you need to use less liquid due to the content of the honey. Also Rodales and Stocking Up cookbooks also use alot of honey in their recipes. -- Sox

sockknitter

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do I cheat after almost 20 years? Posted: 4/4/2008 10:32:24 PM
I vote for having an affair.... WITH your husband. Maybe things are too predictable and boring? Wake him up... That said.. people do drift apart.. but I would advise NOT to have an affair.. it may seem like a quick fix maybe.. but you may be opening Pandora's Box and regret it for the rest of your life... Divorce is better than having an affair. - Sox

sockknitter

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grubs Posted: 4/1/2008 5:26:19 PM
and that is permitted by the FDA. Yep and they hide it under the names of Carmine and Carminic Acid. Many people are allergic to this dye. --Sox

sockknitter

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grubs Posted: 4/1/2008 4:48:45 PM
But has anybody ever really eaten a bug? And what did it taste like? Actually everyone eats bugs far more often than they are aware they are. I always forget and momentarily freak out when I read that my pink Grapefruit juice has Cochineal in it. Cochineal is primarily used as a food colouring and for cosmetics and comes from BUGS. Cochineal insects are soft-bodied, flat, oval-shaped scale insects which reside on a certain type of cactus. Cochineal can be found in meat, sausages, processed poultry products (meat products cannot be coloured in the United States unless they are labeled as such), surimi, marinades, alcoholic drinks, bakery products and toppings, cookies, desserts, icings, pie fillings, jams, preserves, gelatin desserts, juice beverages, varieties of cheddar cheese and other dairy products, sauces and sweets. Bonne appetite !! -Sox

sockknitter

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CHEESE!!!! Posted: 4/1/2008 4:02:59 PM
Sox, do you think that cheese recipe might work with goats milk? I can't have cows milk but quite fancy making the feta version! Yes it will. I mainly use goats milk and that is how I started to make cheeses. I now have a cow as well. Goat milk cheeses usually require a bit higher of a temperature. --Sox

sockknitter

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CHEESE!!!! Posted: 4/1/2008 2:24:39 PM
Okay, alright. Since you asked so "nicely" I'll tell you. Hello to a fellow cheesemaker LanSir!! --Sox

sockknitter

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CHEESE!!!! Posted: 4/1/2008 2:22:15 PM
I am probably the oddity here.. as I am spoiled because I make my own cheeses. If you have not had homemade cheese you are missing out. Homemade Favorites: 1. Queso Blanco 2. Ricotta (which is not like that nasty stuff at the store) 3. Cheddar (which is a white Cheddar) 4. Mozzarella (nothing better for homemade pizza) 5. Gouda (which sometimes I smoke in a smoker) Storebought Favorites: 1. Brie (with organic pears) 2. Havarti (for my bagels) 3. Colby (to couple with red pepper jelly and crackers) 4. Feta (when I am not making the homemade ricotta which is like Feta in a way) 5. Edam Ones I want to try, either homemade or storebought: 1. Neufchatel 2. Camembert 3. Swiss Cream 4. Herbed Coulommiers 5. Saint Maure If you think you cannot make cheese at home.. I bet you can in the next 15 minutes with things you probably have in your home right now. Pour a half gallon of real milk into a pot, bring it to about 100F (really nice bath water temperature) if you want a softer cheese like cream cheese, or heat to just short of boiling if you want a cheese more like Feta. When it is the correct temperature for what kind of cheese you would like, slowly pour in about 1/4- 1/2 cup of vinegar and gently stir. It will seperate into curd and whey. Line a wet (CLEAN) t-shirt into a strainer and set over a deep bowl. Pour the curd/whey into the lined strainer and let it sit for 10 minutes. All the whey will go into the bowl. You can save that for breakmaking later. Spoon all the curd into a bowl and add in dillweed, chopped garlic and a touch of sea salt. Mix well and chill. It will make about a pound of cheese. I use this cheese for ravioli filler, on top of pizza, on noodles, on top of spaghetti or on sandwiches. You can play with using different herbs and spices. If you chose to make the more Feta-like kind with the higher heat, you may want to add more sea salt to get the taste right for Feta. This cheese is one of my staples I used to make almost every day. WARNING! You will probably branch out and start making other types of cheeses when you find out how good the homemade ones are. This is the easiest recipe for beginners to work with. --Sox

sockknitter

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Best Steak For Women (Secret) Posted: 4/1/2008 1:43:35 PM
Prepare the cut by adding a touch of meat tenderizer. This will make it more tender for her. But don’t add too much because it’s salty. Watch the meat tenderizer. Many brands have MSG (Monosodium glutamate) in them and many people get headaches and other problems from it. You can also tenderize the cut of meat with a nice red wine. --Sox

sockknitter

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Baking your own bread and deserts. Better than store bought? Posted: 4/1/2008 8:31:31 AM
Homemade for sure! Storebought tastes like recycled sawdust most of the time. I think I have only bought 4 loaves from the local bakery in the past 6 years, the rest is made at home. Oh and NO margarine. Real butter only! Like someone else said, I also use a breadmaker to mix and knead, but I let it rise and bake it in a cast iron pan. So it is only about 10-15 minutes hands on time after work. I have my 'staple' of white wheat which you can change about so easily to other types (or cinnamon buns, pizza dough, calazone etc), but I commonly bake about 5 different varieties. Potato & onion bread is on the menu tonight. Desserts.. I refuse to buy any, as if I do not want to invest the time into making it, I do not really need to have any. --Sox

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Msg: 49 (view)

All alone on Easter Posted: 3/23/2008 9:49:33 AM
hugs saintBYgrace --SockKnitter

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Msg: 48 (view)

All alone on Easter Posted: 3/23/2008 9:47:06 AM
I am all alone on Easter just now.. (and most holidays)... in a country I was not raised in and where my family is not. I immigated here 7 years ago, used to be married, no longer am. So I have no family here and all my friends are away. My father also died from cancer 10 years ago thereabout.. and on the wee hours of Easter morning. He was born on a holiday and died on a holiday. I am currently at work, as I work every Sunday, there is no one here but the resident Japanese Fighting Fish "Fred". "Fred" doesnt have much to say, but he is rather shy. Although it would be nice to have the holiday (or any other day) being with someone, it is Ok. I do not mind. I know that when that special guy comes along into my life, THAT is the time he is supposed to be there. And hopefully I will remember what it was like to be alone, so not ever take him for granted. I would rather wait for the quality guy to be there VS just someone just to stave off the lonely moments. So I will be patient. So today I treated myself to some hot cocoa with whipping cream and sprinkles from the local coffee shoppe, listening to Alexi Murdoch and enjoying my workday. After work today, I may take my dog and enjoy some peace and quiet and go snowshoeing before all the snow is gone. So even if you can't be with someone today, go out and do something JUST for you. -- SockKnitter

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