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Poetry Collection
Posted: 8/20/2005 3:16:00 AM | | It could have been beatiful, We could have something noone could take away We could have had something noone else would be able to touch it was you whom I gave my heart, it was you I intrusted with my soul so blind is love, so easily you would betray me as you've done Now my heart broke and my soul crused, I lay awake as hour 88 ticks away on the clock, In my times of need you were never there, never had I let you fall never had I let you hurt so 5 years I tried, just for you to walk away so easy, Now I ask my self how?, how could someone take something such as love something so blind with so much trust placed, how you abuse love as you did so coldly, time and time again and time again i was hurt for loveing you, my feeling never changed, yet you still turn your back on me, now i think back realizeing how beatiful this could have been, what we may of had, how would one be so willing to toss it away so, why were you never there for me, why did you brake this heart that still beats in my chest, why did you take this soul of mine so for granted, my life I gave and dedicated to you, only giveing you the best of me, why did you miss guide me so, my love was real, the pain was even realer, but your eyes must of been blind not to see what was awaiting you that has no price, that could have been so beatiful, couldve been so special, hour 89 is comein around, lonelyness well set in, longing for the touch I once felt, the love we'd shared in out most intimint times, all my pain don't keep me from missing the great things about you, pain makes me realize what really was, now I know my life will go on without you.. my heart and soul was once yours now never again, never again will I be hurt by you, never again will I feel alone in my times of need, never will your cold words pirce my heart, your lies will never fall upon my chest so heavy as to crush the very breth from me, I thought you loved me, I thought our worlds were one, now what was once beatiful is now a blood coverd, scard heart laying in a corner, a soul that nolonger has its glow, leaveing a human that has gone numb. cause you gave others your love while my heart was bound to yours, cause you let others guide you to a world without me, but only the replacement of... now you've gone the pain you caused remains, 5 yrs of efforts lost, in just moments of another decisions............. I haven't writen poems in years I hope you enjoy an insite on a pain of a 5 year merrige that was destroyed by one selfishness and thoughtlessness, my wife, I met her when I was 17, we got merried at 18 she cheated on me 2 time with someone who said they were my bestfriend i knew this for 4 yrs at the time my parents had kicked me out of there home for sneakin her in cause she was liveing with and ex fiance who would abuse her and neg her for sex tell she gave in, so I took her in and told him he ever hurt her again me and him would have problems, she lied alot about cheating, she lied alot about just dumb things, but always said she would stop, now at 22 almost 23 she had cheated again, I stayed with her after she finally told me about it, tryin to make it work, but she ran back to the guy she just cheated on me with, now I am in arizona me and her moved out here she said to get away from it all but didn't tell me the truth tell after we were here for about 2 mnths, now here I am I know noone out here and she has gone. I am actualy dealin with it quite well reliezein life is easier without all the worry, all the lieing, all the secretes, and all the decitulness she would bring into my life.. I just an't used to bein alone, the nights are long, sleep is sort to none.. but things are gettin better... thanks for reading, let me know what you think, be honest, you won't hurt my feeling just help me improve.. | | | |
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