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Find Joy in your heart from the simple things...... it might take off some edge off you pain.
Posted: 6/5/2009 11:50:25 AM | Hello Unique,
Really sorry about you and your situation.
I have been feeling that everyday, for the last 2 years. I have had my heart and life ripped out of me, because my ex was sucked into a bondage site, and hey presto is now into BDSM with a very depraved man! We have a lovely 13 year old daughter, who now lives in 2 separate lives. Every day i feel it a great effort to get up and move on. I know how you feel. I am currently living in our matrimonial home, and next Thursday, we are going to court to settle our lovely home. All very sick and twisted, mixed up with lovely beautiful memories as we were married for 13 years. Like you, just lost and wandering around on this huge ocean of life. Every woman i see on here i do not find attractive, and any one i do find, does not repond. Everyone, it appears is uncannilly "the wrong one" Possibly it boils down to one thing- ME! Perhaps i am not ready to "move on", as my ex wife wants me to do. Its remarkable that i have been on POF for almost 2 years, still trying to come to terms with our terrible mess, whilst my ex actively searched for him and "got him" in a fraction of the time. Something is terrribly wrong somewhere, and it seems that i am feeling all the pain, deep down, whilst she enjoys being whipped, on our mattress that she took whilst i was at work, together with much of our furniture!
LIFE for us, like many other people going through divorce has to get better, i'm just waiting like you, for when it does. I dont think we will notice it, it will come to us in TIME. God bless you, like me, have faith that we will get through this very bad phase in our lives. Small steps, some foreward, a few back, but very slowly inching foreward. Remember, we do not have as much control over our lives as we think we do, that simply is true through experience. Take care. You have friends thinking about you and love you dear through your heartache. You may even find them more supportive than your immediate family. | | | |
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