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BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 11/23/2009 4:59:14 AM
Just a quick note, for those who want to know~ some of the pain (and therefore distress) is in at least partial reprieve. I shall take what I can get! Make hay while the sun shines. Try not to expect, yet let myself hope this may mean some sunnier days to come. That's it you see, perhaps the key. No matter how hard I try, I've never been able to give up hope, not completely, no matter how rational it seems. So the compromise seems to be what wisdom has been spoken all along: engagement without attachment giving without expectation (trying to) live as if I've never been hurt before. Just thought you'd like to know.

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/22/2009 9:20:05 PM
like glass shining embers rekindle worn out hearts what is left if passion withers? fragrance

BearWoman2

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reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 11/21/2009 9:33:41 PM
Rosie~ keep chin up or take time out; raindrops are refreshing even the ones that tremble from your lips to splash on silent pages.

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/21/2009 9:31:03 PM
rock me fast to sleep gentle song, steady heartbeat cherished love so free

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/21/2009 9:20:34 PM
false time were you mine then? I think not--you sought milk and then forgot to feed the cow pity

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/20/2009 9:25:23 PM
so I can reach you lifting conch shell to my ear listen for beauty thanks, all, for all the great words

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/20/2009 9:22:25 PM
blood feast twilight's long past-- tender red, pierced, gushing; echoing through silent chambers thub dub

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/15/2009 11:51:09 AM
unite poets on page from "Fool's" wisdom to sage sharing in playful expression good day! Hi, We! Sent you a message. How are you?

BearWoman2

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Stripping Posted: 11/15/2009 11:36:19 AM
Rosie~ Lol! You silly billy! Yes, of course, you know it's so as I am not one wont to sew deception. A living truth, an inner birth, freedom in perception. Your spirit was there with me to share, following inner direction. And yes, it was a gas! A friend took a few pics afterwards, I'll have to rustle them up for you. :-)

BearWoman2

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Stripping Posted: 11/15/2009 11:26:05 AM
Speed Racer~ Thanks! And yes, I wrote it. It was a fantasy of mine from when I was in my 20's to do a sexual strip tease--of the "you can look but cannot touch" variety, to dance sensually with the intent to arouse (something I previously saved for in private with my lovers)--as opposed to sensual dance for my own enjoyment. That poem is autobiographical of the night, a few months back, when I did it. Now I can say "been there, done that." :-) Ever heard of a Bucket List? Well, it's the time in my life when I'm willing to risk trying things I'd like to try. One definition of insanity I've heard is, "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." Well, I know what doing what I've done in the past has gotten me. Now, in order to have different experiences, I am trying different things. I am enjoying the process of discovery. As far as being nude in front of people? I maintain a clothing-optional household and feel comfortable in nudist environments. If you have practiced nudism, then you know it has nothing to do with sexuality per se and there is social ettiquette about sexual expression in such environments. Stripping is about S E X ! :P Being naked is different from being nude. Nude is simply unclothed. Naked is what I often am, here on the POF poetry threads, in my other writings, and elsewhere in my life. That is: exposed and vulnerable. Exposing the inner parts of myself to view. And yes, when I danced that night, nude* and sensual and sexual, I was also naked to the view of my audience. Perhaps that's why I got more tips than any other dancer that night. For them it was a job; for me, it was an authentic expression of my Self. * except that in the jurisdiction in which I danced, I was not allowed to uncover my crotch. Oh, well!

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 5:32:37 PM
the night calls me also enfolding velvet dreams wrapped in warm embrace, manly spice delight Pleasure to meet you as well. I also must sign off for now. Look forward to playing again sometime! M. Bear

BearWoman2

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First Line, Last Line (Part Deux) Posted: 11/14/2009 5:20:33 PM
Sail them, horde them (they may be worth gold one day). Each trinket taken from my conquests finger bones all lined up in a row on the mantel Now and then I nibble on the edges just a little bit--to see if any meat is left but all that's left is gristle. Ah! Such satisfaction as I had when youths were mine aplenty. I had no need to borrow; I had quite a horde. Now I horde my meager bones, few now they might be. The old ones have all gone brittle, shards sitting by the window sill, watching for their opening when they can escape to freedom. Back they'll go, to kin forgotten shiver up under soft seat cushions just to be near those who once loved them.

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 5:13:57 PM
flew out the window words like autumn leaves a-swirl scatter from my lips

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 5:11:48 PM
table arguments, please have a pot luck instead make up a human burritto and sleep well piano... I have... am a musician of many flavors (though I haven't "cooked" for awhile, lol!)

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 4:57:18 PM
shrug it off, another sigh torn from weary lungs. Am I left here bleeding dry? I know that traditionally this is a non-rhyming form. But it's just for play here!

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 4:50:08 PM
ah... so beautiful and profound... :-) upright black against white bars and rules on paper whole steps and half join together music

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 4:38:26 PM
lost self perception kalaidescope pieces lay scattered in the dust

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 4:18:30 PM
when found: bedragled rake confused, fornlorn, lonely wringing out muddy shoes. Will he reform?

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 4:13:35 PM
waiting for god's bus finger tapping tattered purse transfer ticket, please?

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 3:59:00 PM
sailboat stitches fashions in silk-quilted waves torn from journals of lovers' partings sinking

BearWoman2

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First Line, Last Line (Part Deux) Posted: 11/14/2009 3:54:29 PM
^^ LMAO! by dawn incineration is complete. each batch of cookies burning to a crisp. I know I used to know how to do this! What happened to the oven, gone to bits it has, with crusts of bread and crusts of pies all gone, in smoke, up to the skies while charcoal forms are left behind, not easy eating! Get behind me, Satan! Take away your cursed stove and let me have back the tools that used to work, which yielded such golden crusted births that folks from all around would call, just to see what's on the sill and hang around exchanging news while birds around our feet were hopping catching up their golden fill!

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 3:41:07 PM
Thanks! :D I know what you mean about playing reducing appreciation time. Your last one is quite beautiful! the sun, fragrant partner-- come to me while dancing joyously stretch your limbs, baring my soul

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 3:26:28 PM
rather than complain, abstain! from broken words low on joy's ranking pole

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 3:24:11 PM
hello, minstrel :) snowfall on moonlit dales silent creeping flowers blooming on frost-lit panes of glass wonder

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 3:08:01 PM
dime... let's play! splashing colors dashing across the pages wet dripping brilliant edies into silence

BearWoman2

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First Line, Last Line (Part Deux) Posted: 11/14/2009 3:04:41 PM
He shall follow its beat to see how to fare, down, down, into the dappled air from whence come dreams of fairies aire the musical thistle down come riding past the dragon's wing where maidens fair are heard to sing and twinkling motes dance lazily on wafting breezes made quite gently by tips of dragons' tails slightly swishing while limbs in dragon dreams are twitching.

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 11/14/2009 3:01:16 PM
sing me into golden boughs of autumn's harvest coating earth in quilted colors comfort

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/14/2009 2:59:07 PM
may I have this dance? hand to hand and heart to heart will you take the chance?

BearWoman2

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wings Posted: 11/14/2009 2:56:31 PM
Letting down the load I'd shouldered that had become a burden on my back. Wondering why he doesn't come to see me, wondering what is was I lacked? Speaking frankly to clear the air, reaffirming we both care. He says he'll do things differently. Will that really come to be? Don't know what the future holds, just know that I had to be bold. Had to say what was in my heart, ask why we've grown so far apart. Only so many things I had to try, over and over till my well was dry. Tools all taken from my kit didn't seem to help, well, maybe a bit. Though not much hope I hold for change, I'm willing to have my thoughts rearranged. I'm open to being surprised. But now I've laid that burden down, and though depression dwells here for today, I've freedom gained as new wings form-- this tells me I'm on my true Way.

BearWoman2

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Red Light....erotica...comments? Posted: 11/10/2009 3:12:03 PM
Thank you for your delicious and beautiful words. You sure do have a way with them, bad boy. What a delicious ending to this sequence. I'm glad you were inspired to write on it again. Sometimes some people need the rough stuff to get past their infernal internal barriers and release what is deeply buried inside. Sometimes that is love. (I don't mean to personalize or project; I'm just reflecting.)

BearWoman2

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Old Souls......only Posted: 11/10/2009 3:00:03 PM
Trulio~ For you, baby? Sure thing. Come and get it!

BearWoman2

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Old Souls......only Posted: 11/9/2009 4:24:49 PM
Dang! There's some hot stuff going on on this thread. Phew! I wish I had the language skills to respond in kind to that post #6486; but I'll just have to be a receiver, this time. R~ thanks for all your great wordage. You sure know how to talk. ;)

BearWoman2

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Fantasy Lover Posted: 11/8/2009 6:55:50 PM
Electronic Lover © BearWoman2 He reached through the screen and touched me. Reached through and laid his… words upon me. Inflamed my mind with desire for his touch, for the way he touches me through the aether. His hands upon my breasts, hot breath on my flesh. A hot, hard thing sliding right up to … just… there! He knows how to touch me to please me, hungers for my orgasm to build his own excitement until he can finally release, milky white ribbons streaming through the space that used to separate us. Now joined, breaths and bodies mingled, our juices, once separate, are now comingled beyond parting. Back to our lives we each go, my electronic lover and me, safely locking away the keys to our lustful bower until the time comes once again when we must meet outside of time, for a bit of R&R that truly refreshes.

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 11/8/2009 6:38:38 PM
Electronic Lover © BearWoman2 He reached through the screen and touched me. Reached through and laid his… words upon me. Inflamed my mind with desire for his touch, for the way he touches me through the aether. His hands upon my breasts, hot breath on my flesh. A hot, hard thing sliding right up to … just… there! He knows how to touch me to please me, hungers for my orgasm to build his own excitement until he can finally release, milky white ribbons streaming through the space that used to separate us. Now joined, breaths and bodies mingled, our juices, once separate, are now comingled beyond parting. Back to our lives we each go, my electronic lover and me, safely locking away the keys to our lustful bower until the time comes once again when we must meet outside of time, for a bit of R&R that truly refreshes.

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 11/8/2009 4:35:55 AM
see her colors shine scintillating sonic bows dappling divine Hi sunshine, We!

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 11/8/2009 4:30:01 AM
i fall down on my knees and do what i please wondering... 'what's love got to do with it!' Lol! Indeed! It could be nothing, it could be everything. Or anything in between. Thanks for your thought, Rosie. It's only one website, and no, it's not up yet. But I have a date for next week, so maybe HE will be! tehee!

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 11/6/2009 5:11:34 PM
Just sitting here, feeling the pain wishing I had a c*ck to suck on to distract me from the outside that's stuck on the inside Free me from the present bring me into a more immediate present Don't care if you don't understand You, the burgeoning masses There are the few who know the more, the depth inside my meaning. Bodies and spirits ain't exclusive things. I've practiced asceticism. I've practiced fasting and endurance. I'm practicing compassion, lovingkindness. You gotta go through those steps, I think, before you can really use sensuality to access the divine. Oh, not really. Some can do it the first go-round. But I still don't know if I care what you, you public beast, think of me and my desires. Touch me, relieve my distress. I get tired of doing it alone.

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 11/6/2009 5:04:52 PM
I keep coming back here to read this... no longer will i let he (whomever he be) distract me from being :) Nice.

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 10/31/2009 2:35:27 PM
RE: Post 984 yes, yes, yes, please come away. please come and play in your own way we'll romp and we'll roam and run away from home we'll nip at some heels let air out of wheels (tires) steal pies off the sills and drink from the stills pull laundry off of lines have a grand old time

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Pull Up A Chair....... Posted: 10/27/2009 7:13:11 AM
Stretching on the sofa there was a sleeping big brown bear. She snored so loud she shook the house, which drove away each and every louse. And to the landlord took their cause: "We have to trim those mighty claws! 'Cause once we wake her, first thing she'll do is slash what's in front of her, claw right through! So please, oh please, dear Druidic man, say you'll help us, tell us you can find a way to stop those snores!" He thought and thought, and then thought some more. Perhaps they could just pry open the door and then stick through some very long stick and through the Bear's thick pelt could prick; or perhaps a good poke would do the trick, with a thick iron rod if she broke the stick. "Whatever else it takes, we must do it, or all the good china will be shaken to bits!"

BearWoman2

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tea leaves and prophecies Posted: 10/27/2009 6:53:50 AM
Oh where, oh where is our Jaunty Jain hoping he'll come and share words again though "The Samsara Surfer" leavens my heart. I'd like to think it was some son of a b i t c h and not my own choice that grabbed me by the throat and threw me then into the boat raped me once, twice, and again just, he said, "because I can!" It's not my body that he took but my soul, my heart, my faith he shook The aftershocks then spun me round. I found myself upon the ground. I knew at once he'd thrown me out. I got up, then floundered about but found a trail or two that led away from the beach. I sped! That began this current journey where branching pathways often confound me. Sometimes I find I double back thinking a "do over" is what I need, thinking I lack some essential thing, or something I've lost, or perhaps a thing I'd never thought to have. Is any of it bad? I wonder about those who say, "It's all good." Is this what they mean?

BearWoman2

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I can be Posted: 10/27/2009 6:42:33 AM
Grrroaning over a broken computer what if they were made of pewter? Then you could shape them by yourself not have to pay the computer Gods to fix or hand you over one that's new one they say's "just right for you" which, once it's home, you find again the tool's not gonna be your friend 'cause you're a round peg and it's a square hole and "user friendly" just means it's polite when it tells you you're not doing it right! Have a happy day (assuming you can read your thread. well, heck! I hope you have a happy day whether you get this message or not.)

BearWoman2

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reflection of past year into the future... Posted: 10/27/2009 6:37:41 AM
happy to say hello happy, happy, happy! I'm gonna get a website! I'm gonna have some fun at night! I'm gonna have some fun in day! I'm gonna have some fun, my own way! Dreaming of the words that swim around my mind and spill out into spreading pools of ultramarine, lapping up ideas like the cream of kitten whiskers, shimmering with droplets. I don't care if I make much sense, 'cause I retain my innocence! Gonna get get get some happiness. And everybody else can come along.

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 10/20/2009 4:37:25 AM
Woo hoo, Rosie! Way to kick bootie! grins lipo~ Thank you for your story. For everyone: I'm still feeling very shy and overwhelmed. It's hard for me to take in a lot of stimulation from the outside. So I will duck in and out as I am able. Here's a new one I came up with: "Ghandilions" copyright 2009 BearWoman2 Deeply rooted, I cannot be destroyed. Kill my body, and my kindred remain. You can never remove us all, though you only see an obstacle to be overcome. I come to heal the rifts you’ve made, the scars [d]ragged across human hearts: ruptures transformed into nourishment. I am the golden-headed wine that warms in winter’s dark; the bold, bright color of summer’s tinkling laughter; the draught of rejuvenation that purges long-held toxins. Why do some, then, see me only as a weed? I hold the space where human hearts wish to dwell, the green-deep nourishment that penetrates your cells. You cannot do it alone. Did you forget? You need the memory of me, you need my persistence— the bright reflection of my face lighting up your eyes. You cannot do it alone. But then, neither can I. Your sweet song breath upon my soft cloud head wishes my children onward. You must take me in for me to fulfill my function. I am not complete until we two become as one. After all, my roar is a quiet one heard only by ears who ------------------------> S T O P. long enough to listen.

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind Posted: 10/18/2009 1:01:13 AM
Thank you, sinlov. :-) I'm having fun playing with some words again. :-)

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 10/18/2009 12:59:57 AM
Should it glow like that? Making you hot, intended not to make you flame!

BearWoman2

Joined: 9/8/2008

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 10/18/2009 12:57:02 AM
simply finding again generations' new breath when I finally give birth to her: daughter

BearWoman2

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Haiku Connection - This is It ! Posted: 10/17/2009 4:25:37 AM
from troubled mournings turn away; let new growth rise: Tomorrow's morning

BearWoman2

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Cinquain on the Membrane Posted: 10/17/2009 4:23:04 AM
too soon twilight is done orange, gold, and crimson dust horizons like gypsy veils lustrous

BearWoman2

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Meanderings in My Mind -- (Foot)steps on The Path Posted: 10/17/2009 4:15:25 AM
Dear We~ Thank you for sharing your experiences and theirs. They are blessed to have you there. As I am to have you here. Once upon a time, a small child was skipping down a path. Abruptly, the child stopped and began picking up small pebbles from the ground. These were dropped eagerly in pockets. Soon, the child's pace slowed. Upon the ground sat the child, gazing gloriously at each new treasure discovered. Soon, a parent arrived. "What are you doing sitting there upon the dirt? You'll get your clothes dirty." "I'm okay," said the child. "Yes, I suppose you are," said the parent, briskly brushing leaf litter and twigs off the child's clothing. "Hmmm, not too bad. Don't think any stains will set." And then to the child: "Come along now, we've got to be going. Don't want to be late." "No, no, we don't want to be late," echoed the child, hand in pocket caressing the hidden treasure. ~~ooOoo~~ As usual, the dog ran ahead, around, behind, around, and ahead again. The human friend laughed gaily at such antics. The dog barked in delighted response. Now and then the dog would pick up a stick or a stone and bring it to the human, who would then obligingly toss it in some semi-anticipated direction, as often as the dog wished. Sometimes one or the other would stop at some spot of interest along the way--a bush, a flower, the scent markings of other animals. Times when the walks were longer, there would be extended stops at sun-baked rocks by the stream, or under the branches of a sheltering tree. When one of the pair tired, it would be time to head back home. Sometimes the human started before home before they tired, knowing they'd be glad to get home when they did. Then a snuggle down on a soft bed and a warm cup of tea would spread the warmth deeper into their physical bodies. ~~ooOoo~~ what kind of traveler are you? (feel free to tell us a story)

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