|We've all had a first failed relationship ... not a station-wagon romance, but what we thought was the real thing at one time or another ... only to have it go sour. Despite what precipitated it or what followed, we survived. We're here, aren't we?|
We've just grown complacent and our lives/possessions are very much intertwined.Concern over "How am I going to make it?" is very real, as it should be. But it should not be the tie that binds. The financial issues you mentioned, coupled with "possessions ... intertwined" says to me that you're over-emphasizing the materialistic aspects and missing the greater ones of your personal happiness. This is where only IsabelK knows what's best for IsabelK, and is a decision YOU must make on your own.
Trust me, some of the blunt comments here may not be exactly what you wanted to hear, but they're certainly valid. You see, you never really figure out what makes you truly happy (fulfilled, content, etc.) until you've experienced what does NOT make you happy. I'm confident it's safe to say a lot of us here have taken financial/material knocks one helluva a lot harder than you're worried about facing. Again, we've survived ... more importantly, we're moving on.
My soul has left the building ... There is just no joy or passion ...In a "Hill Street Blues" episode, characters Frank and Joyce (perhaps Fay? -- whatever) were talking about their romance fading. A line (to the effect of), "The magic is just gone," was used. That perfectly summed-up the live-in relationship I was in at the time, and was the inspiration we both needed to end things amiably ... before we'd part as enemies. Dumb as this analogy sounds, I think it illustrates your situation (and the reality you must come to grips with) quite well.
You'll do just fine.