If you came on this forum to get some sort of help, sadly, you came to the wrong place! Every time I come on these ridiculous forums, which is very rare unless I'm really bored, I see the same people (POF addicts/pseudo-psychiatrists) putting the poster down and shitting all over them because they must have absolutely nothing better to do and feel that putting someone else down they don't know makes them feel a little better ( obviously, they have self-esteem issues...) and it's VERY easy to do. It's difficult to put yourself out there and pour out your feelings-looking for help/answers... Rather than give worthwhile, constructive criticisms and maybe showing a little empathy these shitbags take pot-shots at the poster and pretend they are flawless and know-it-all when they know jack-shit! These people are here, hiding behind there computers, only to help themselves (mend their fragile egos).
Yes, this is all true. If what you want instead, is someone to advise you who is knowledgeable, verified as trained to do so, and who will give you positive feedback only, then that is available on the open market as well, at prices ranging from $150 to $10000 and hour and higher.
We may be a collection of clowns, but we are FREE clowns.