At least I don't have to hear them making fun of me any longer. I just give up, I am in severe depression, because my reputation is tanked. You could do things right 99.9% of the time, but mess up once and you become worthless.
Man, get yourself some professional help as soon as you can
You got deep seated interpersonal issues you need to get a firm handle on, that require an expert's counseling;
not by a bunch of strangers on an internet dating site.