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 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 26
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughtsPage 2 of 15    (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15)
On My Way Out

Got them Cocaine blues
Got so many friends I can't figure out
Whether I need to pick up the door or answer the phone.....
And everybody's my bestest but we haven't
shared a REAL feeling since we've eaten
...yeah, it's been a minute....
I'm waiting to see what's up
The world: conquered.
Hair - CHECK
Nails - CHECK
Fame - CHECK
Money,Money,Money - CHECK, CHECK,CHECK

Soul - ............................oh,s h i t ................



03/13/2000




Darker Dayz


Since when did my confidence
get replaced by
this pain in my side?
A pain accompanied by anxiety
And sweaty palms that I can't hide
Alone hurts soo much anymore
Others are overwhelming,
so, one-by-one, I've shut the doors.
Pains that run to the ends of my fingertips at times...
The only way to ease them is in these words and in these rhymes.
But, even when all is said and done
And I've put my pen and pad back on the shelf..
I still wonder,
when and why did I become so uncomfortable with myself?


07/15/2000
 prr2freya
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 27
Dillusional girl tricks are for rabbits
Posted: 3/26/2008 11:06:39 AM
Hugs.. I can very much relate to some of this...
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 28
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/26/2008 11:45:48 AM
These have never been shared....so one, more....just cause I can I guess....and thanks for the huggs prr2freya....thank GOD life is much different now, but wouldn't take back a thing....In losing...I found...

Party's Over

Death came a knockin' today
Gonna be a while before I speak
Dammit Mr. Grim
I can't pencil you in
"In just a moment I'll reach my peak."
[So, death himself
pinned me then and there]
with an Ice cold stare
I found myself
while....fighting....for.....air.....

...but, I still didn't.....
...And I need to.....
....and my dear, sweet mother.......will NEVER be the same...
....pleeaase don't take me today....just once more, let me speak her name...

So, my "friends" suddenly have things to do
Don't forget to sweep my pockets....oh, wait, check the shoe
So, how DO my eyes look staring up, empty,
from the kitchen floor?
I've given you highs...and now my life...but, you still come back for more...
How does the look of "help me" feel
When feeling is THAT far away, and nothing is real?
I knew long ago that we were not the same
I'd give the whole world a line if it'd make them happy
But...you.....you loved the fame...
Or, what about you, Mr. Jones....yes, you may have more....
But get me my money tomorrow....or I have a friend who will be at your door..
So, follow me around..all, if you will
Throw in some greed and trifling tendencies...and that will seal the deal...
So that when you need, I can open doors....
But, no matter what I do
I AM NOT like you

I would never leave one to die...
THAT is why God made me cry....

For the first time in forever...


...So I'd get the hell outta this joint...
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 29
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/26/2008 6:46:22 PM
Left out like an old pair of shoes
That house down the road with nobody in it
The Creek that doesn't run anymore
just alittle sand...pebblestones
Dewdrops that melt as the first sun shines
lapped up like necter from every flower
Trembeling kittens in search of some food
children with doubt living in their soul
Raging clouds carrying darkness and thunder
skies velvet painting, just right after
All of these things hold such beauty and love
brought from within
not living without!
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 30
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/26/2008 7:35:10 PM
Life is one big mess, repetition every day
Screw the mentality that made you this way
You bruise me time and time again
With your words
Does it make you feel better inside to have all this hatred?
Dont mold me how you want me
Accept me for who i am
Someone who is never good enough
Never good enough for life
Stop the blood flowing through your veins
The whispers in your head
Only wish i were dead
Deadwh*re forever more
Deny what you crave, its ok pretend i am like the rest
In your heart you know i fit you the best
Angers you
Defies everything you think
Everything you have come to feel
Misery and woe is what feels comfortable
Some day you will open your eyes
Realize
This is why i cry alone
Instead of making love with you

My vagina is like my heart, no current use for it but i keep it around just in case
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 31
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/26/2008 7:54:10 PM
Imperfections
C/r/a/c/k\e/d|
Shell of a person
F/r/a/c/t/u\r/e/d|
Beneath my surface
L/i/f/e/l\e/s/s|
Another disposable
C/l/i\c/h/é
Drowning in my own
I/m/p/e/r/f/e/c/t/i\o/n/s |
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 32
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/27/2008 11:51:29 AM
I have no idea where i was going with this its all just things i am feeling, emotions, its just me

I wish i could turn to stone
So i could give you that sledge hammer
Pull it up over your head and bring it down
Smash me, destroy me
Make it quicker than this i ask of you

Raggedy Ann Doll emotions
Push me, pull me
Use me, abuse me
Does it give you tingles inside?
Riddle me this, riddle me that

In the end i will always be your friend
Your friend to the end
I will hold your hand when you need to walk into the light
While
You walk behind me stabbing me further in the back
 eyestothesky
Joined: 1/12/2008
Msg: 33
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/27/2008 12:15:22 PM
I've been in the Light, and
I prefer the Night. Start a fire and
make love til the morning, tomorrows lies,
yesterdays game,
wash it off me, . . . and stay
Right now, I don't want to wake to see
the light of the day,
I want to spend the nights here
forget
and smile,
no yesterday, heard nothing of whats to come
no motivations except you,
no hammers, no confessions, no knives
the machine builds to fast, eyes closed may
keep it from coming this way,
lest tomorrows destruction may start again
staring into the fire, your skin feels so warm
you've got a beautiful smile, and
the way your hair falls over your shoulders
sleep in,
avoiding the light as long as we can
 eyestothesky
Joined: 1/12/2008
Msg: 34
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/28/2008 10:52:26 AM
picture frames all blown out
a river of tears quietly shed

cautiously walking floors
milestones of shattered glass
and hope left behind

mirrors and blood deeper through
glass shards rub away my skin
looking up at heart's on walls'

approach the sleeping beauty again
movements behind walls, of distorted glass
see my breath rise in this chill

follow the trail of blood let befor me
hands upon walls, feeling for doors
princess's beauty worth the pain

lost track of time , but the trails still clear
light ahead, candlefire in mirrors reflection
shatter the glass, or continue on

more glass ?
while princess sleeps
better to walk

whats this table, table, pitcher and a bowl
bathwater, . . . sick
but haven't drank in days

how far are we, may spend a lifetime in this maze
but ya know, I Love this journey and pain,
beautiful lady some where in this place
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 35
Raw and emotionally exposed...
Posted: 3/29/2008 11:43:08 AM
Nice poems Eyes...

how far are we, may spend a lifetime in this maze
but ya know, I Love this journey and pain,
beautiful lady some where in this place


Hope is what is needed in this dark bleeding space
Night comes souls bleed with little grace
Moon spins webs of intimate desire
Morning comes...little fire
remains...
Yet of human nature all drive over the limit
Hoping that life leaves a pleasure again
in it!
Venture the road of nameless few
Lead unto other places so new
Lift out your branches like trees in the sky
Hope that just someday...
a miracle flies!
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 36
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/29/2008 12:19:41 PM
Cazzie...glad you got it all together...lol Is that why you are here?

David Gray
A Clear Pair Of Eyes


Hear me god I’m on the level
Mapping silence seeing things
Crying laughing like the devil

And before the might
of all that’s seen
I’ll raise my head
and wake to dream
with a clean pair of eyes

Murdered gold and colours flashing
Time like blood like flowing hair
Faces merging airplanes crashing

And before the might
of all that’s true
I’ll raise my head
and dream anew
With a clean pair of eyes

Today I need no commentary
Today I do not need to speak
No explanation necessary

And before the might
of all that’s seen
I’ll raise my head
and dream again
With a clean pair of eyes

A clean pair of eyes
Don’t need no right or wrong
Don’t need no disguise
No sugar to fix my tongue
A clean pair of eyes

Liquid air and flags that ripple
A tambourine of smoking suns
Love that blinds us fear that cripples

And before the might
Of all that’s seen
I’ll raise my head
And wake to dream
And before the might
Of all that’s true
I’ll raise my head
And dream anew
And before the might
Of all unnamed
I’ll raise my head
and dream again
Dream again
Dream again
Dream again
Dream again


Sweet Dreams...


 eyestothesky
Joined: 1/12/2008
Msg: 37
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/30/2008 3:19:18 PM
Portraits

Stained Glass Portraits, made from the volumes of smashed glass, decorate the walls

Scent of flowers, fills the
the halls, vases overflowing
petals . . .
painted
black

Dragons roar howls
throughout empty caverns,
my dog stays
closer to my side

Screeches, and moans
from howling monkeys,
pierce my ears,

Get em dog

Hallway of pure
glass tinted blue, sunshine and blood bathe wooden floors,

Turn to the next
hall of the maze,
flowers . . .
scent so . . .
enticing,
that my veins begin to feel,

Stop for a rest,
find a drink,

and just

take in

that smell
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 38
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/30/2008 3:55:31 PM
Cazzie....if it was that simple we would have no need for spirituality or companionship.....and IF you had it all figured out to some grand extent, I believe you'd
1- know better than to laugh at anyone's misfortunes....
2- understand that we are ALL on different paths of enlightenment.....and at different points of our journey....
3-not be on a singles sight
and
4-not have to be made to look ignorant by someone who is a mere 27 years old....

..so just because you've got 20 yrs or more on some of us, (although I can't tell), remember what it was like at other points in your life....before you became so "wonderfully enlightened"....
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 39
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/30/2008 8:51:59 PM
At the end of my rope
Bruised, beaten and weakened
Tighten the noose
Hard to swallow
Cut off my air supply
Do yourself a favour
Rid of me

The "cards" were dealt
You were given your hand
I was given mine
You won, i lost
Like a sunken ship
With its sailors lost at sea

Falling into lifes blood and tears
I shall drown in my own pool
Spiraling down
Confusion sets in
Hi confusion i have been here before
Please wont you save me
Or least smother me in my own fears

Deja vu
Happy in misery
At the end of my rope
I
F
A
L
L
 BerserkPoet
Joined: 11/21/2006
Msg: 40
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Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/31/2008 2:46:10 AM
Several words we're spoken painful and untrue
I said I loved but I lied
In my life all I wanted was to keep you, some might've said
Your love left me broken just a toy for your sinful pleasures
All I wanted was to love someone like you
How could I look myself in the mirror
Such a radiant beauty but with a heart of a rusted calibur
The trigger still locks back as you impale a bullet through my already wounded heart
Did I do anything to deserve this
I just wanted one beautiful woman to see a descent guy
Now I'm left wondering through halls of madness in my own mind
Thanks alot you ungrateful prostitute you whored all the manhood outta me
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 41
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 3/31/2008 8:46:16 PM
All of my life my poetry books were my diary....I like this thread, it's got me diggin up some old stuff....realizin' how far I've come and how much time changes things....

I've reached a pool of depression
and I'm sinkin very low
I really need someone to talk to
and I have nowhere to go
I'm drowning in my pool of sadness
and beginning to fade away
I often wonder, If I die,
What anyone would say..
Everyone thinks I'm not depressed
That I'm as happy as can be..
That I'm a normal child in a normal family
But, my true feelings no one will see
Even If I did feel sorry for myself
I believe I'd deserve it just a bit
Because for someone who's been so nice and sweet to everyone
My life's been total shit.


(6th grade)
 intenzity
Joined: 3/4/2008
Msg: 42
Raw and emotionally exposed, welcome to my world.
Posted: 3/31/2008 9:20:19 PM
on message 21........... easter bunny warning!


This is wonderfully creative piece. Simple, to the point and laced with irony so thick that I can't even look at an egg the same way. Easter came and went this year for me. No bunny, no funny, no honey............. I think JC must have been pissed that we moved the date of his resurrection up...

 TNT_DYNO
Joined: 1/1/2007
Msg: 43
Raw and emotionally exposed, welcome to my world.
Posted: 3/31/2008 10:56:31 PM
'Black Knight'

Beaten not, but unwelcome at knight table
Rounded girth from laboured 'neath able
Black clothed worn by that of choice
Shouting injustice to unheard voice.

Black Knight cared upon black mare
Challenged face to face death's eyeless stare
Will this Black Knight with last breath ever fight!
Pretense shallow to 'silently go to that good night'!

'Noble' of rule thought taken labour love and strife?
Lay down now defeated to take mine own cherished life?
Sons of bitshes elected by minority false authority enshrine
Evil greed from that baztard spawned from swamp sublime.

Sons o' bitshes attempt to pass laws to suit thine will
Swine trough to gorge at in cesspool ignorant swill
Black Knight stands proud against all that false of lie
Baztards! Fight me or succede! At own hand never die!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Enjoy this thread.
TBK.
 eyestothesky
Joined: 1/12/2008
Msg: 44
Raw and emotionally exposed, welcome to my world.
Posted: 4/1/2008 10:27:59 AM
Yeah, JC's probably gettin tired of the whole cycle. Crucifixion, resurrection, some of that crap really stings.
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 45
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 4:33:17 PM
Dear Diary,

Another day has come and gone. Today was a very wet rainy day, gave me chance to spend time down by the river. Wondering where my life was going and where it has been. Time wasted, nothing gained. Watching the piece of paper float on by much like my life. Reflections, rejections, interactions. All the same, all mundane. I enjoy time down by the river gives me chance to think. Today i came to a mind boggling realization..........

If it walks like a duck, if it quacks like a duck, then of course its a f*cking chicken

Thats all!
Sincerely never bitter..heh
Kim
 TNT_DYNO
Joined: 1/1/2007
Msg: 46
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 5:59:10 PM
'Planted'

Planted grain in garden seed
Cared for and to water heed
Harvested grain and ground flour
Bread baking aroma at labour's hour.

Enticing scent of labour bread bake
Government 'Tax Rooster' notice take
Fees to plant an' harvest grain unpaid
Fines for lawlessness will not be stayed.

Tax Rooster crowed with authority
Laboured sucked life blood from he!
Reflected that mattered of weary head
Some gov't cck scker takes all the bread.
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 47
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 6:46:36 PM
post #52....bahahaha.....damn ducks....don't know whether to make a duck stew, befriend the duck, or let it wander around aimlessly on it's own.........

Cazzie: as for the apology....accepted...but know that these poems are in and of their own....not a complete representation of who we are.....just pieces of the big puzzle.....(that is what poetry is all about really...expression)

Visualdistortion - love your writes....sorry for using your thread to communicate with someone else.....this will not be a habit...and I'm not trying to have a looming presence on your thread...
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 48
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 7:21:45 PM
^^^Ah hell no you didnt. You better make a presence in here. This just isnt my thread its everyones and feel to post or talk as much as you want to. Thanks to everyone that has posted in here

I think all poetry has a place whether its happy, sad, about love, about hate, being silly, being serious. Poetry is about expression and feelings, one should never put a limit on those.

Ducks are sneaky, why else would Donald Duck run around aimlessly in no pants?
 *mandrake*
Joined: 9/19/2006
Msg: 49
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 7:23:13 PM
Tormented eyes,
seeing the distortion
wrapped in wrath,
staring daggers
on disfigured illusions,
caustic soul tortured
with vile venom,
penning the demise
of ancient scripts,
as toxic juices flow
from the twisted
visions,
praying for a merciful
death,
Alas!
All is silent!
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 50
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/1/2008 8:03:04 PM
lol...thanks....and come to think of it.....Daffy didn't wear any either......(we shoulda seen it comin'!)
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