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 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 75
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughtsPage 3 of 15    (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15)
Two steps forward
Five steps back
It seems to be a theme
A theme on the highway of life
One lost soul
Solitary
Wont you play?
Bend it
Break it
Use it
Abuse it
Cinnamon hearts
Peppered soul
Piece by piece
A jigsaw puzzle
That was never
Finished
 JuJuBee
Joined: 1/24/2004
Msg: 76
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/14/2008 5:05:37 PM
The angels aren't gone
They stepped off to grieve
The loss of a heart
A brief reprieve
In closing of eyes
In standing still
By forcing my self
against my will
reaching for the stars
all the while standing still
wings brush my cheek
finally again i can breathe
suddenly slowly
back in sync
 transcend
Joined: 1/13/2007
Msg: 77
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Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/14/2008 7:10:32 PM
Your Actions Reveal How You Spell Pray/Prey


5 times every day your face to the floor
stroking beads, confessors truth,so far but never more
rules that bend to fit the will left lying in the ditch
sacrement of ceremony burning every witch
women used as bait and barter ,slaves to masters whim
a tortured face upon a cross , you know that can't be him
a chant of blessing fills the air from song a spirit sings
a cry of fear as stones descend , hate that ignorance brings
you must believe we do demand , respect means to obey
we own everyones' forever .....starting with today
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 78
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/14/2008 9:25:44 PM
written in observation of a teen (that i used to teach) who was just trying to find himself...

Amazingly
one steps from behind the shadows of ignorance and illusion
to discover brightness, sunshine, and happiness
but
Sadly
the hand of society strikes him
and
of course
the voice of evil kicks him back into the corner from which he came.
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 80
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/15/2008 7:38:24 PM
Enter my mind
There you shall find the truth
The truth of insanity
Cynical forever

Enter my mind
Total MENtal melt down
Eternal fall
Hypnotized, unlimited illusions

Enter my mind
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Which came first the chicken or the egg?
Parasite minds, lucid dreams

Enter my mind
No longer a virgin
No longer innocent
Its been f*cked for years

I welcome you to the confines of my mind
Nothing but a total mind f*ck

I think therefore i am, if i think not am i not? I think not.
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 83
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/21/2008 9:01:55 AM
Living in a world of melted plastic trees
Melancholy puts you at ease
Cold is your comfort
Such a salt and pepper humdrum
Illusions of a mind lost
Under a solitary moon
Taste the vanilla rain
Life that has gone astrew
Disregarded emotions
Increments of love
Such a blossoming fruit of labour
When you realize all the lies you said
Were true
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 84
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/22/2008 5:17:43 PM
MANipulate
Dominate
Crying salty tears
Raging inside
Screams of pain
Engulfing the heart
Breaking the spirit
We all know the power
To hurt or be hurt
Hollow eyes stare back at you
They dont say a word
Damage done
Cold
Dark
Hurt
Swallows you whole
Develop an ulcer
Lump in your throat
Dying inside
Sailing down the river
The river
The river of a million tears
 T.M.S.
Joined: 4/18/2008
Msg: 85
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/22/2008 8:06:37 PM
WOman fools me gentle
tells me candy coated lies
then prances deftly off to subjugate me

Whoa man where is she going?
with two pieces of heart in hand
cold
calculating
also dark

eyes stare back at me from the mirror
MANipulation is my mind today
DOMination is all I know
so solo flights is all I'll have
 BerserkPoet
Joined: 11/21/2006
Msg: 88
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Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/25/2008 2:48:40 AM
Render man it exists homey. Most of us are too blinded by lust of a image that we forget we can fall for anyone. You'll know if the one you're meant to be with is right when you comfort eachother. Not arguing although that does lead to some great make up sex anyway what was my point? O yes, when you're with a person and you can smile knowing you want no one in your life but that significant other that's love
 expat57
Joined: 2/20/2008
Msg: 92
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Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/25/2008 7:08:02 PM
Love does exist
Learning it
In it's various forms
Is life's purpose

Having a child
Teaches unconditional love
Relationships
Teach romantic love

The hardest to learn
Is loving the seemingly
Unlovable
There are
No throw-away people
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 94
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/25/2008 7:44:48 PM
The love of a child can not be weighed in gold
The love for a child exists as much as my beating heart
Children are not possessions
But gifts to ourselves
Unconditional love, the best kind
The smile on their faces, the innocence of their minds
To say no such love exists
Is a tragedy in itself
For the love of a child is like no other kinds

Now far as true love from a significant other, that is another story and i am sure i will put my two cents in soon
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 95
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/25/2008 7:54:51 PM
byron.......I could hardly compare my love for my son....to a fence! It is a complete and fullfilling love that one shall never find anywhere else! It begins from the moment they are conceived and carries on throughout our lifetime and even thereafter!
I can only say, maybe you don't have any children, or you have been with a parent that found you to be their "property" I may be wrong, I hope so my friend!
 ajk1969
Joined: 3/20/2008
Msg: 96
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/25/2008 8:24:11 PM
here i lie
a broken shell
bombed beyond belief
how many times before have the explosions occurred
countless
in ones mind

and yet i live
reborn at last
life within my grasp
a childs vision guides mine eyes as they open to the day
imagine
the hope within
imagine

let there be hope

note: the love of ones child is unconditional and pure...it is nothing else...it is most certainly not a fence
 T.M.S.
Joined: 4/18/2008
Msg: 98
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/26/2008 3:55:15 PM
.


(I wrote this about someone local, not intended toward this crowd.... thanks)


I told you I admired you
you laughed at my sincerity
I told you your words were special
you built a wall to keep me out

I told you I was a friend
through trick and win
you turned your back and walked away
leaving me as a solo writer

I told you it didn't matter
that my skin was thick and tough
the truth is your "special words"
have seared my side and left bruises

not the ones you speak on stage
but the cloudy ones you spill in vain
on roadsides, with accusatory judgement

I think I'm the one who was the fool
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 100
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/26/2008 7:43:21 PM
Something i wrote in the past and it seems fitting with the theme that seems to be of late in here, edited of course but most of its the same thoughts

Why is it that tiny words can mean so much? Whos idea was that to give them such power? Amazing how it takes a simple thing as four letters to turn a persons world upside down in mere minutes. Could change you for a lifetime. Destructive, but the most wonderful feeling in the world.

So why such a big fuss over a tiny little word? Why does it control all our emotions? Why do you we let it? No seriously what is all the fuss about? What is it though a person, a place, an event? Something we dream up with our imaginations? Maybe we just enjoy the sheer joy of pain, what a oxymoron. Notice there is the word moron in there. Is it an expensive pair of shoes you only wear in good weather so you wont ruin them? Or is it a mere cheap pair of flip flops that are only comfortable if you head off to the beach?

It is so diverse in itself. Intense, so fulfilling, so colourful, so black and white, gray, so empty at times or so crazy its beautiful. Even leaves a bittersweet taste in your mouth.

Sometimes its EVERYTHING but sometimes its NOTHING.

It seems to be an uncertain flavour in life. Sometimes we cant get enough of it, even when we had our fill, we still want another serving. Sometimes we feel so sick to our tummies from it. I want it. I need it. Tiny tastes of it, not too filling but enough to make me come back for more.Savour the moments, cherish each of them as they were new.

So mind boggling really. Like a fragile deck of cards. Like building a tower with them but one little sneeze and the whole thing could topple over. But no matter what you will get on that ladder and rebuild. You know sometimes the truth hurts, and reality bites.

Love is pain
and
Love is pleasure
 T.M.S.
Joined: 4/18/2008
Msg: 101
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/27/2008 12:46:32 AM
that was cool.... great write K

one of these days chick......

Dear Diary,

I put Nickey down for bed. It was one of those nights when he had a long afternoon nap. He was restless. He asked me for one more hug. I told him to lay down and I would be in, in a minute. I hugged him. I told him that I loved him and it was time for bed. I retreated to the back porch to finish my late night smoke ritual. No sooner had I lit the smoke when I heard, "dad".... I set down my smoke in the green glass ashtray. I went to his side and looked sternly at him. He reach up and said, "I just needed one more hug." I obliged. I forgot to tell him that I loved him when I tucked him back in. As I went to the sliding glass door to finish my cig... from his bed I heard, "I love you." He slept well that night. I slept well that night.

TMS
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 103
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/28/2008 4:57:16 PM
absolutely loved that last write eyes....bout the pillow(kinda).....Visual....very well said girl.....and T.M.S....loved that write as well....

Run and hide
behind hate
if it makes you feel better....
and when you straighten it all out
in your mind
and finally seee
why this very moment was here
I'll still be willing to love you
regardless of shoes
or burger king
or what anyone else says
because that's what I do
not because God told me to
not because it convinces me of other falsities
but because it actually IS productive (multiplying itself..producing fruit worth eating)
and it actually FEELS good
hateful ways and violence: counter productive
I never did get far peddling backwards on my bike
actually most often found myself in the exact same spot....
going nowhere...
sure am glad I figured that one out quickly
or else I'd still be sittin' in the woods on my dirtbike....
in my hometown.....
starved....
and alone...
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 104
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/28/2008 5:16:44 PM
Dear Diary,

I wish I could fix the world...yanno??.....Wish I could make folks see.....that sadness even serves a temporary purpose....but it's purpose IS NOT to consume us. I wish I could show them what I see when I look at each of them. I wish we weren't our own worst critics. I wish that we coulda just knew all the stuff we hafta learn....for that would be the only way to eliminate suffering and such. If we eliminated it otherwise it wouldn't fulfill the purpose that it needed to. For the suffering leads to enlightenment eventually...and to rob someone of their suffering or sadness would be robbing them of their eyes. I wish I could SHOW them how it works....I wish I could show them a childhood wrapped up in abuse.....surrounded by anger....and what such an environment produced in the immediate following....the miserable times.....the self inflicted pain....I wish I could show you a father that realized what he did upon losing everything...and then show you ten years later a changed man.....who was just lost, and had to suffer to find his way....just as I had to suffer so that I wouldn't grow into a hateful violent being too... THEN I wish I could show them the loving heart that was a product of it all.....and the tons and tons of folks that have appreciated the hands that would stroke their hair while they cried....the arms that would hold them regardless of what they did wrong, and regardless of why.....and the ears that would listen to everything they had to say.......and the hope in their eyes upon finding such a person to unconditionally love them....b/c I KNOW what it's like to be lost...I know what it's like to absolutely hate yourself and everything that you've done...the bed you made.....and lying in it sleepless....I know what it's like to pray for death....to hurt others because I hurt.....to hate others because I hated myself....to wanna kick somebody's ass 'cause I had mine kicked a few times a day.......I know that I wouldn't understand all of this had I not suffered.....and I know that the hope in others' eyes upon finding understanding and love is priceless....and makes the suffering worth it....because there's NOTHING else that can make my heart feel that way.....absolutely nothing else that can remind me of how great this life is....and how we cross each others paths for a reason....upon getting to the end of "myself"...i found me......what I was meant to be....

i hurt for those others,
ash

pride is a dangerous thing
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 105
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/28/2008 5:38:00 PM
Wonderful write Ash my girl! Every word was so heartfelt and true.
I so admire a young woman that has such insight into her past and heart, it is quite the
admirable trait my friend. I am sorry of the way it was handed to you...Yet you amaze me everyday with your kind heart and words. You are quite a wonderful young woman.I know you will be something great, although you are now, the world has a special thing for you! Never stop writing your feelings. You have a gift , my friend!
hugs mmmmmy
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 106
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/28/2008 7:33:13 PM
thankya doll....fealt like I was puttin' myself out there......those thoughts overflowed when I read the discussion that took place over the last few pages.....and the pain that started the discussion.....either way.....still kinda feel self-conscious for "exposing" myself so much...but my gut said write it....so i did...much luv 2 u lady!
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 108
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/29/2008 6:37:27 PM
Always enjoy your soulful writes Ash and once again eyes its always good to see your mind . Hey T such a cute diary thought. And nice to see you mmmmmy

Dear Diary,

I need something....something like this........

You fill the empty part of my bed with warmth.
Lay beside me, let me feel your dreams.
Watch you breathing into a comatose like state.
Watch you as you sleep.
Comfort me
Put my soul to rest
Each night
I know you are there,
When i fall asleep
When i awake.
You are there to make each day turn from
Wrong
To
Right
To make memories to last a lifetime
In my bed beside me
Where you belong

Nothing but a neurotic romantic
Kim
 mmmmmy
Joined: 2/11/2008
Msg: 109
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/29/2008 6:45:00 PM
I just reread this for the several timeth...LOL is dat a word?
Anyways , I found it just as inspirational and tender and painful ...again that I just had to say so! Ash my girl...U ROCK!


I know that I wouldn't understand all of this had I not suffered.....and I know that the hope in others' eyes upon finding understanding and love is priceless....and makes the suffering worth it....because there's NOTHING else that can make my heart feel that way.....absolutely nothing else that can remind me of how great this life is....and how we cross each others paths for a reason....upon getting to the end of "myself"...i found me......what I was meant to be....

i hurt for those others,
ash


may I quote you someday...mmmmmmmmmy Dear? lol
 ash.i.am
Joined: 2/16/2008
Msg: 110
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Posted: 4/29/2008 7:09:11 PM
dang.......thanks......I mean really.......warms my heart to hear that......and thanks for the vote of confidence.........can u tell I'm at a loss for words here?.....and a little shy about compliments......thankya babe.....for feelin' me.....
 transcend
Joined: 1/13/2007
Msg: 112
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Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/30/2008 1:41:23 AM
has it only been 150 years ago that doctors trained as barbers
only 100 years ago that women finally looked like they might have their voices heard?
(96 since they first voted nationally)
70 years since an evil rose and spread across the earth
killing tens of millions of every color and kind
63 since the mushroom shaped cloud seared its image onto our soul

history of how we are didn't start with one birth,
it won't end with one death
perspective is how we sort
perseverance, how we survive
persistance in the power of plowing ahead
thru whatever chaff we harvest along with the wheat
it isnt the end of times
or the end of thinking it is
somewhere in that soup of self indulgence
we taste our weakness
and choke on it
 Visualdistortion
Joined: 1/13/2008
Msg: 113
Raw and emotionally exposed....Dear Diary thoughts
Posted: 4/30/2008 5:59:47 AM
Unexpected
He wants something he cant quite comprehend
He craves me like no other
Feeling his hands on my hips
Kissing me on my lips
Such a hungry feeling
He cant get full
Thirsty for more
Loves the taste of my skin
Wants the ultimate sin
But he doesnt know where to begin
Tingles of the mind
Tingles of the heart
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